I calmed down and stopped 'laughing' when I actually realized what I had just done.

OMO what in the hell made me say that? I would never be as insensitive as to say something like that. Especially on live radio.

I looked over at the maknae. He was hugging his bear really tight, like a little kid. It was one of the cutest and saddest things I have ever seen.

"Awwwwwe, I know all of you at home can't see this but I am probably witnessing the cutest thing in the world right now." Shindong started again after his own little fit of giggles, his face was still a bit red. "Today it seems that shinee's new accessory is a stuffed teddy, which the maknae is hugging closely. What's with the teddy?"

I looked back at Tae as he looked up sharply.

"I... Er... I found it when I was tidying up... my grandmother gave it to me when I was born and she said as long as I keep it  with me no harm will come to me but i guess it doesn't work like that anymore!" He gave a little bubbly smile like the old days. It was nice to see it again. Even if it was forced.

"Well that is just cute, you must be close to your grandmother then?"

Taemin looked down. "I was close to her... sh- she's dead now!" A tear trickled down his face and fell onto his bear.

I was shocked. He had never told us this before and now he was saying it on radio with around thousands of people listening. This must of been tough for him. Minho