Your Prov.~

I made my desision. I can't go back now....

"I....I chose..." i got inturuped

"I'LL QUIT THE HOLLYWOOD WORLD FOR YOU!" Gikwang screamed.

I couldn't say anything anymore.

I guess Junhyung got mad and stood up.

"yah! let her finish!" junhyung.

"YOU WERE GONNA CHOSE JUNHYUNG HUH? AFTER WHAT WE'VE BEEN THROUGH?!  YOU ONLY HAD 3 DATES WITH HIM!..HOW COULD YOU DO THIS?!" with that Gikwang started crying.

This is the first time Gikwang cried so badly for me.

"Gikwang...don't cry..." I said not looking at him

it hurts me to see him like that.

"just finish what you were going to say." junhyung said

"I...i chose..." i said

they looked at me and gikwang stoped crying to hear me.

"i...i....I DONT KNOW ANYMORE!" I said screaming and locking myself in the bedroom.

For that night, he slept on the couch and Junhyung left tothe beast  dorm.

I woke up the next morning seeing him laying on the couch and had one tear right next to the eye.

I wiped it gently.

He woke up.

"yah! what were you doing?!" he said sitting straight up

"nothing! there was a little tear by your eye." i said surprised 

he wiped his face and went to the bathroom.

i fell to the floor. 

I wanted to cry but instead one tear just came out.

'what have i done? I ruined my marriage with him...'

With that i got up , changed and  headed out the door without knowing where am i suppose to go.

I desided to go to Shin Il Woo's house.

My old friend.

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"Omo, it that you? _____?" Shin II Woo said. (nick name woonie)

"yeah it is...it's been a long time hasn't it." i said bowing.

we sat on the couch and tea was in front of us.

I told her the situation.

"are you nuts?! " she said staring at me

"I'm not nuts! It's just that i can't descided right now." i said looking down

"of course Gikwang! You were supposed to marry him in the first place." 

"I know...but Junhyung tells me everything that Gikwang has never told me in my life."

"maybe because he was really going to stop being a star and start having a family."

"Your right, but Junhyung takes me places where it's just us"

"But think of it like Gikwang is going to spend all his time with you when he retires."

"Well if it comes like this, then why don't you just wait awhile?"

"what do you mean?"

"Why don't you see how they act. Then you can chose. I think you were just being pressured. Have some time to think." 

"your right. "

"i'm always right. now go home relax and think. call me when you need it."

"thank you woonie! Your the best!"

I have her a hug and ran home.

Gikwang wasn't there.

I was fine with it.

Made hot coco and watched Tv all day.

Checked my Facebook.

and fell asleep.

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sorry lame chapter but WINTER BREAK IS HERE! i'LL BE POSTING MORE BUT I'M WORKING ON A MOVIE WITH MY FRIENDS THIS BREAK SO NOT AS MUCH AS I THOUGHT. BUT I WILL PROMISCE!! ALRIGHT GTG AND STAY        

BEAUTIFUL<3