So I refused to text Sungbin for some time. And he also did not call or text. Luckily I was slightly busy now that Yenny already started album promotions and I was busy promoting for her as well.

I also kept myself busy on editing Hatfelt's documentary. Yes, I was really into my self-proclaimed film directing career. It was something I grew interested in while taking acting classes.

Yet, amidst all this hard work, I still could not fight away the occasional heartbreaking feeling. It was even worse when my girls asked me about how Sungbin and I were getting on. I had to pretend that we were just going slow and getting on well. I also did not want my girls to feel bad and stopped hanging out with the boys because of what happened to me and Sungbin.

 "I'm heading to the IAB studio to share some of my photo works with Jun. You wanna come along, Yub?" Sunmi suggested one evening.

I shook my head.

"Are things ok with you and your Bin?"

I had to give it to Sunmi always coming out with these random nicknames. I was tempted to exclaimed HE DOESN'T LIKE ME SO YEAH, NOTHING'S GOING ON BETWEEN US!

"I need to finished this documentary, Mi. You go ahead." I told Sunmi while my heart ached at the thought of missing Sungbin.

"There's no hurry for this documentary to finish. Just take a break and hang out a little. Yenny may be joining us later after her schedule as well." Sunmi encouraged.

I shook my head. "I'm tired. Not today, ok."

Sunmi gave up and left.

 That night I kept myself away from Instagram as well and I just kept on editing and editing the video. And I even headed to bed early. I left my phone on silent mode and tried to sleep....but sleep just would not come. Instead a tear came rolling down. I wiped it away quickly. Why couldn't I just date a nice architect from my dad's firm? Like that guy whom my parents invited for dinner once. Why did I prefer to get myself into a sad mess like this now? Was it because it was a first time that a guy I liked actually rejected me? Was that why I want him even more? You are so dumb, Kim Yubin.

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"The boys missed you. Asked why you didn't turn up last night." Sunmi reported the next morning.

I was checking my phone and found a text from Sungbin asking if I was ok.

"Yeah.. right. Whatever." I mumbled as I headed to the fridge to grab some milk.

"Hey Yub. Are things fine with you and Sungbin? He was rather quiet last night when we brought up about you." Yenny revealed. "I mean, if you guys are really uncomfortable about us teasing and coupling you guys up, you need to say so."

"Yeah. Maybe that's a good idea. I don't foresee anything going past friendship with him anyway. I'm just really not his type I guess." I revealed as I took a seat with my girls in the kitchen.

"Oh unnie. What did he do? Things were looking good last few weeks. Did he do something like  sleep with you and then leave you right after?" Sunmi asked.

"What? No!" I defended. "It's just after some thinking, we realized we were just better off being friends."

God I hated lying to my girls and I hated how my heart was breaking into pieces saying those words which might just be the best scenario for every