Dont say you miss me, when it’s your fault i’m gone

That day is like the normal day Jin Ae’s been living; quiet and alone. It’s been two weeks since that incident happen and nothing has actually changed after that. Taehyung is still cold to her as ever, even worst since that night. While Chanyeol, she haven’t yet meet him since his proposal was rejected. He seems to avoid her. Maybe Chanyeol is awkward around her or maybe he could hate her for rejecting him in a flash. Jin Ae can’t accept his love, not him, not any guys. All parts in her heart are only for Kim Taehyung and that’s the fact.

Jin Ae tried to forget all her lonesome feeling and trying to focus on her work. When she is preparing the coffee, Ha Na is approaching her

“Unni, i heard that you’re appointed to be a new manager at our branch and it was at New York!! Congratulations! ” Ha Na sounds excited more than her

“Gommawo” Jin Ae’s lips plastered with a straight smile.  Even she wondered whether her smile is sincere or not

“It must be great to be at overseas. Sajangnim has made a right decision to appoint you. Tell me what couldn’t you do? This place is live because of you and Chanyeol oppa. Just look at all over this place. You’ve made a total revamped by decorates it and introduced so many appetizer.”

“Ha Na, i’m sorry but i don’t have any changes to give” Jin Ae glances to her side before continuing her work

“I’m just saying the truth, unni! You’re such a perfect person i’ve ever met. I’m so jealous of you” Ha Na pouts and seconds after she smiles happily

‘I am perfect? You’re going to take back those words if you really know the truth of my life, Ha Na kyah’ Jin Ae let out her chuckles, more to sigh actually.

“Yoboseyo? Oh, Yoo Na, what’s up?” Ha Na stopped their conversation when she suddenly got a call

“Kyah, you know we can’t play during work time” Jin Ae whispered. But Ha Na just keep talking while signalling to cover her

“So we’re okay on this weekend? Good. Ani, i’ll just go by myself. Jamsil is just a stone's throw away. Okay, bye” Ha Na hanged up the phone and she look up at Jin Ae while smiling apologetically

“Ha Na ah, so you’re going to theme park this weekend?” Jin Ae is curious

“Eo. I wished to go by weekdays. There are not much people by weekdays but too crowded in weekends”

Suddenly Jin Ae got an idea to celebrate her birthday with Taehyung. He promised last year that he will bring her to a theme park for her 24th birthday since for last two years they can’t go anywhere but stay in home and too bad that Taehyung just got few hours to celebrate her birthday together. This year gonna be the best birthday celebration after three years. She smiles while thinking all the good things that will happen later. After her work time ended, she is going to text V about her plan. V has promised wasn’t it? Furthermore, her birthday fall on weekdays so they can go out freely and publicly on that day. 

Today is Jin Ae’s birthday and she has already prepared everything to celebrate it with Taehyung. She is wearing a pretty baby pink short dress, make up and perms her hair for the first time. It’s quite hard to drive the scooter with dress but for this special day, she bears it and at last she arrived to the theme park. Jin Ae kept checking her phone to see the notifications from Taehyung.

‘Tae, i’m already arrived. I’ll wait for you at the front gate’

That text is already a 25th messages that she left him including 87th missed call but not one of them get a return though the texts are all seen. Jin Ae knows that her boyfriend is a famous idol so he is too busy in his work. She tried to understand him and trusting that he is going to come today although Taehyung is not giving any answer to her plans.

After 6 hours of waiting, Jin Ae’s gut told her to check on BTS’s SNS and as for her shock, V is uploading his selca saying that he is bored to death and telling his fans to entertain him. All this while, she thought that he has super tight schedule and that’s why he can’t come to this place. With a pain smile, she left the place and heading to Taehyung’s dorm.

She waited for him in front of his apartment since they haven’t yet come home. Sun is about to set when Jin Ae finally saw BTS’s dark van come in the garage. She stands up and her eyes are wildly finding Taehyung. Her right hand is holding Taehyung’s favourite cupcakes that she made last night before. She knew that V saw her because their eyes have met but to her surprise, he wore his glasses and pretended to not saw her.

“Oh, noona!” Jungkook is the first one to notice her and coming with a big smile. Later, except Suga and V, everyone is coming to her despite of crowded fans. Suga is well known to have ‘tired syndrome’ but he already smiles and bows to her before he head into their dorm. V is following his Suga hyung without any guilt to turn his head to her even for once

“Noona, what are in your hand? Looks delicious” Jungkook is already touching here and there. His voices distracted Jin Ae who still looking at V’s back with a sad look

“I brought desserts. Here, strawberry cupcakes for you guys” The cupcakes changes the owner. Jungkook looks so happy with that rectangular box in his hand. When Hoseok tried to steal the box, he is running away with his precious box.

“Are you okay, Jin Ae?” Jin saw an unusual look in Jin Ae’s eyes

“Noona, i’ll try to have some words with him. Don’t worry too much. We know him well, right? Be strong, noona” Jimin pats Jin Ae’s shoulder and gave her his courage smile. . 

“Do you want to go up to meet him? i can take you there. You look tired and pale” Namjoon also spoke up when watching Jin Ae who has drained with sweats

“No, it’s okay. I’m going first” Jin Ae smiles and she walks off. Before leaving that building, she is once again looking at V’s house from her place, hoping that he could at least watching her through the window and she smiles in vain when not even of his shadow that she could saw from their window

That night Jin Ae is sitting alone in her room while her minds are wandering along. She doesn’t know that her life is too pathetic. She’d never asked to get any attention from other people but only her loved ones. One by one her precious one is leaving her alone. Now, it’s Kim Taehyung.

“Eomma., i miss you so much tonight. Why are you leaving me so fast? No one is here to accompany me eomma. Everyone is abandoning me, appa too.”

“Eomma, why am i so cold tonight? I’ve turned the heat on but i still in cold. Help me eomma, i want to be in your embrace” Jin Ae crying

After some time, Jin Ae woke up and she is going out of the house. Her appearance is totally shabby but she doesn’t care at all. She arrived at the swimming pool where Chanyeol brought her before. She glared at the deep of the water. Jin Ae never realise that the water could be this blue and far below, it was dark, as dark as her future. Slowly, her mind played Chanyeol’s words;

“Being in the water is like being in another world. It’s totally different from our reality. You’re problems is vanished as your head is into water”

“I wondered how accurate is Chanyeol’s words” Little by little, her steps are getting deeper into the water. She is now fully drowned in the water.

Chanyeol ran as if the bomb is going to explode in any second behind him. He ran until his last breath and when arrived, he is full of sweat

“Excuse me, could you please tell me where Choi Jin Ae patient placed?” Chanyeol rushed to the receptionist

“It’s room 205. You can go straight from here and turn left at the end. Her room is the first among three of them.” The nurse in charged is giving him the right direction.

After saying thank you, he is quickly ran to the room meant. Chanyeol’s heart felt like stopped for a second when he saw his dream girl is laying around and covered with white blanket. Her right hand was inserted with a liquid that was hanged besides her bed.

“Jin Ae. Choi Jin Ae, i’m here, are you okay?” Chanyeol grabbed her hand. It felt cold. He both of Jin Ae’s hands to give enough warm.

Jin Ae’s eyes opened a bit.

“Chanyeol....you...how do you know i’m here?” As soon as she opened her eyes, she was bedridden in a white room and looking at her wrist, she knew that she was at hospital

“You should carefully choose the place if you really want to die. My coach saw you entering the pool 3 at morning. Luckily he recognizes you who came with me that night