Bang Yongguk 

I can't believe it. This whole thing is overwhelming. But no matter how impressive this big concert is, no matter how loud the crowd is cheering, the smile on my face is only half sincere. I appreciate every little thing that is happening for us, I enjoy performing and I have never been more proud of B.A.P. than I am now. But there is always that emptiness. The feeling of someone that's missing. That little place in my heart where the hurt never really goes away. I miss her so much. I wish I could call her. Her sweet voice used to be the last thing I heard before falling asleep, even when I was away. But now... I am worried sick about her. Is she feeling well? Is she eating? Is she happy without me? I wish she isn't, but at the same time I want her to be happy, even when it's not with me. I want her to fall asleep safely in someone's arms at night, I want her to laugh at someone's jokes and argue with someone about their stupid ideas.

Even when none of those are mine.

2 monthes later

"Zelo, please, please do this for me!" It's not gonna take long before my knees hit the ground and I will be literally begging my dongsaeng.

"Hyung, I don't know, she hasn't answered my texts either. She won't open the door."

"How can you know if you won't try?" He is hesitating. Zelo misses his Noona just as much as I miss her. And we both know she has never resisted any of his requests. She can't say