Omg~ It’s been like a month, or more, since I last updated. I’m so sorry~~ Mianhae chinggudeuls~ TT^TT Authornim has been busy lately, I hope you understand. Here is a short update. I hope you appreciate it despite it’s shortness. ;) ------------------------------------------- JESSICA’S POV Never in my life have I ever felt as light-hearted as right now. Maybe it’s because I had so much weight in my heart lately, that the sudden absence made me feel such thing. It’s weird. Everything inside of me feels so relaxed, I feel so.. fixed and complete. I fell asleep at ease, no longer having looped thoughts about regrets and what-ifs. My dream, no longer considered as a nightmare. Even in my dreams, I was floating. I was lying on a floating cloud, enjoying the freedom and freshness it has offered me. I woke up with no burdened heart. It felt new to me. But what the heck! I shall embrace this change for thins change is a good one. I was all-smiles from the moment I woke up, to the moment I was about to leave my room and head to the kitchen. Oppa was sitting in the center seat, and was holding his morning news paper and coffee. His hand was halfway in the air, about to take a sip of the hot coffee, he froze when he saw me enter. He looked so puzzled and at th

Omg~ It’s been like a month, or more, since I last updated. I’m so sorry~~ Mianhae chinggudeuls~ TT^TT Authornim has been busy lately, I hope you understand.

Here is a short update. I hope you appreciate it despite it’s shortness. ;)

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JESSICA’S POV

Never in my life have I ever felt as light-hearted as right now. Maybe it’s because I had so much weight in my heart lately, that the sudden absence made me feel such thing. It’s weird. Everything inside of me feels so relaxed, I feel so.. fixed and complete.

I fell asleep at ease, no longer having looped thoughts about regrets and what-ifs. My dream, no longer considered as a nightmare. Even in my dreams, I was floating. I was lying on a floating cloud, enjoying the freedom and freshness it has offered me.

I woke up with no burdened heart. It felt new to me. But what the heck! I shall embrace this change for thins change is a good one. I was all-smiles from the moment I woke up, to the moment I was about to leave my room and head to the kitchen. Oppa was sitting in the center seat, and was holding his morning news paper and coffee. His hand was halfway in the air, about to take a sip of the hot coffee, he froze when he saw me enter. He looked so puzzled and at the same time, so amazed.

“Good Morning, Oppa.”, I said as I smiled even more to him. It made him look more puzzled than he originally was.

It took him quite a moment to sink in my greeting and respond. He greeted me back with a stuttering “Good Morning too.”.

I took a seat on the dining table and started to eat. “Oppa, stop staring at me. It’s rude, it’s making me feel uncomfortable. Okay?”, I smiled while saying the last word, which added more to his already confused state. He just gave me a nod and continued sipping his coffee and at the same time, continued to read the newspaper, but I caught him more than once taking a glance at me, and seemed to be observing me. My oppa is kind of getting weirder as time goes by.

“Oppa, if you have something to ask me, just ask me. You’re starting to creep me out, you know?”

He stared at me for a moment, looking hesitant if he should ask me or not. “Come on. Spill it.”

“Okay. What.. Why.. I mean what happened to you?”, a very generic question.

“Why, what happened to me? Is there a bruise or a wound on my face? OMG. Please tell me there’s none.”, of course that’s just me acting. I know what he really wants to know, I’m just playing dumb so that he can say it himself.

“No. There’s none. What I mean is.. uhm.. How do I say this? There seems to be something new to you. Not new new, but something.. Ugh! I can’t put it into words!”, I’m just holding my laughter. He actually got frustrated because he can’t put it into words. That is soooo like oppa. But I won’t stop acting here. I’m enjoying, why stop?

“New? My dress isn’t new. You’re the one who bought this for me last year. The shoes, you said you’re getting sick of seeing it since I’m wearing this most of the time. I don’t have any accessories yet, so there’s nothing new on me. I don’t know what you’re referring to.”, Jess, conceal the laughter! PFfffft~

“Nervermind.”, he gave up. And with that, I ended up laughing out loud. I can feel that I’m going to have abs anytime soon, my stomach really hurts. Hahaha!

“Stop laughing or else you’ll be taking bath with my coffee. Spill it, or I’ll spill this coffee on you.”,, he was holding his cup of coffee, that’s why I got scared and stopped. He really looked so serious.

“Actually, I don’t know what you’re talking about. I just laughed because you got pissed because you can’t think of the words you want to say.”, he gave me a deadly death glare that made me stop laughing.

“I know you know what I mean. Come on. Speak.”, him and his Hitler mode again.

“Psh. Okay.”, so there. I told him everything that happened yesterday. From the moment after Jae picked me up here, to the moment he dropped me home. He didn’t in, he was just listening to me as I spoke. This is what I like about oppa, I can let some things out, and he’ll just listen, give advices and his opinions if needed. He could be a very good guidance councillor or psychologist if ever.

After I finished story-telling, he just gave me a smile and gestured me to come closer to him. To my surprise, he hugged me and whispered, “I miss this dongsaeng of mine.”

That got me confused, so I asked, “Miss me? I’ve always been here, how can you miss me?”

He squeezed my cheeks, smiled again, and replied, “Well, yeah. You’re physically present, but the sister I had changed into someone I didn’t quite know after breaking up with a guy. I miss the old you, the always-brightly-smiling-and-always-jolly you.”

I was so touched by his statement that I hugged him back so much that I felt like I gave all my strength to just doing the hug.

After the brother-sister drama, I headed out to the garage to get my car and head off to school. I was humming along to the songs played in the radio absent-mindedly. It felt as if I was really happy, well of course I am, who shouldn’t feel this happy after everything that have happened? I got off the car, still humming along to the last song I’ve heard.

“Because I’m happy~ clap along if you feel like that’s what you wanna do~”

I was smiling to every person I passed by, and it seemed like they were shock. But naah~ Nevermind those reactions, I proceeded to my journey towards my classroom, still having a smile plastered on my face.

When I arrived at our classroom, I saw my girl friends gathered and forming a circle, looking like they’re having a secretive conversation. It was only them in the room at that time because some of the students were busy fangirling a the gymnasium. It kind of intrigued me bit, so I ninja walked my way towards them, unnoticed and unseen.

“I don’t know either. But I have a bad feeling about this.”, whispered, Tiffany.

“Me too. I think I might have an idea where she went to yesterday. But please tell me that the thing I’m thinking that could have possibly happened yesterday is wrong.”, Hyoyeon added in a hushed voice.

“Let’s just hope that whatever might have happened, it would result to her being happy again.”, Taeyeon seriously said, as an end to their conversation.

After what Taeyeon said, they were quiet, looking down on the ground, as if they’re digging a whole, a whole as deep as their thoughts. They were in a daze for quite a long time, still not able to feel my presence. My curiosity took the best of me, so I broke the ice and said, “Guess what.. your hypothesis as to who I was with yesterday is correct. Also, because of what happened between us yesterday, I feel happy again. After a long time, and it’s because of him.”

They were shocked because of my sudden appearance that they literally jumped off their seats. Their eyes were  widely opened as they looked at me as if checking if my existence is real and not a product of their imagination. From head to toe, they looked at me.

“I know that you’re talking about me. But don’t you feel guilty talking about me behind my back?”, I jokingly said and laughed.

“I.. We..”, they stuttered in reply. Maybe they didn’t get that what I said was just a joke. So, I laughed even more. They were baffled even more.

“Okay girls. You know I was just joking about the backstabbing part right? But I’m serious about what I first said. I’m dead serious.”, I made it clear to them. Let me just play some mind games with them before I tell them what really happened, I’m just going to play with their malicious thoughts for a bit.

“So we’re right that you were with Jae yesterday?”, I nodded as a response to Yuri’s question.  I told you, I’m going to play a bit.

With their wide-eyed expression, they all stared at me,

I know what they are thinking about right now. They think that me and Jae met yesterday and finally resolved our relationship problem, which is true, but I know that they think that we got back together, which is not the case. They’re exaggerating things again. Aiigoo~ my chinggus, really. ( - _ - )

Still with their lost expressions, they were staring at me with disbelief, trying to assess me.

“Are you... you and Jae, really...”, Taeyeon said as she trailed off.

“Unnie, michingoya?”, Seohyun said, which shocked me because it’s kind of rare, almost impossible actually, for her to say such thing.

I heard a strong slam from a desk, which I guess was Hyoyeon’s. She had a dark expression on her face. She’s serious. Really really REALLY serious. “Jess, I knoe that love makes people go dumb, but I didn’t expect that it would make you this dumb. That guy once broke your heart, almost ruined  your life and livers, made you drown in alcohol. And now that you’ve sobered up, you’re going to let him destroy you  again?”

I couldn’t take all the seriousness anymore, so I burst out laughing. Once again, they had the confused expression plastered on their faces. I was still laughing so hard when I felt someone drag me. I didn’t have the chance to look at who it is, all I can see is that person’s back. I just let myself get dragged, letting that person take me whenever. Why? I feel like I’m safe with this person despite not knowing his/her identity. I felt secured that I’m not brought in harm’s way.

He stopped dragging me when we arrived at the terrace of the what-used-to-be student lounge. It was already unused and abandoned that’s why there was no one there. In this location, we can see students that are already rushing their way into the school building. We can see them, but they can’t see us. Since this place is already, almost close to, forgotten, no one would think about looking up. And also, they wouldn’t have the time to even think about other things besides getting inside their room before the teacher checks the attendance.

We stood there silently for quite some time. He was still holding my hands, but less tightly than before.

After watching movies, I came up with conclusions during these types of situations—screaming or making the first move is the wrong decision. I couldn’t tell as early as now if this guy who dragged me all the way here is a good one or a bad one, but either way, it’s still a good choice to keep quiet. If he’s a bad guy, his first counter attack would be slitting my neck or any form of violent action. If he’s a good guy, he could possibly lose all the strength and bravery he had gathered.

“Can you please tell me what really happened? Please tell me that what your friends are talking about... they are not true. Please.”, his head was facing the floor.  He was still holding my hand, and I could feel that he was already losing some of his strength by the way he was holding me.

My brain buffered for quite some time, trying to analyze what he’s talking about, and for that period of time, he was slowly letting go of my hands and... facing me.

The moment I saw his saddened and close to desperate face, it sunk in to me what he was talking about.

I was lost for words. It felt like my tongue just vanished and I don’t have a brain anymore. I felt dizzy and lost my balance. Good thing he was already facing me, so he caught me. Our faces were only centimetres apart, our eyes locked into each other’s. I was wide-eyed for a moment, but I slowly closed my eyes when...

When our lips touched. There was pleading in the way he was looking at me, so I gave in. I thought it would only happen in movies or in stories that one’s heart would pound so fast and so loud that I can hear it, or maybe he can also hear it. The term magical would be the perfect adjective to describe this scenario. It was only for a few seconds, but it felt like forever to me. It was very long for me, I don’t know about him.

Slowly, our lips parted, it felt like it was the bridge between reality and fantasy for me. It was so surreal!

We stared at each others’ eyes, locked into each other’s magical orbs. I kept on asking myself if it was real, if I’m really seeing and feeling something that is in the side of “reality”. I want to slap or pinch myself just to make sure, but it would totally ruin the moment. So instead, I just made myself think that “yes, this is reality.” I’m just going to live by the moment, whether this is real or not, I’m just going to treasure it.

I felt his hands, that were previously placed on my hips, move down. He was starting to feel awkward, so it was my cue to also feel the same. If moments ago, our eyes were locked, now, we are looking at two different directions, trying to avoid each other’s gaze.

I was trying to construct a sentence in my mind that would possibly lighten up the intense and awkward atmosphere that we have, but the only thing inside my head right now it the kiss we just shared. It kept on replaying and replaying in my mind, it kept on bugging me that it’s the only thought I have for the moment.

“Uhmm...”, he started. But it was the only thing he uttered. It was then followed by silence, deafening silence. It was too quiet that I can really hear my heart beat, and also.. his. We were still too close to one another that I can hear his breathing and his heart’s beating.

The silence ate a long period of time for the both of us. My uneasy side took the best of me, so I spoke.

“No, what they’re thinking about me and Jae.. it’s not true.”

His head quickly turned to face me. Wide eyes and shock painted on his face. His lips were moving as if he was trying to say something, but he just can’t let it out.

He remained in that state, again, for a long time until his lips formed into a smile. I didn’t expect that reaction from him after what had happened, but deep inside, I felt glad that he reacted that way. I wasn’t able to even blink when he grabbed me again and owned my lips. Another set of fireworks exploded inside of me. My heart was jumping up and down. I was starting to lose my balance again due to dizziness brought by this extreme feeling, it made his grip on my hips become tighter.

Our lips parted for a while because I got off balanced, but when he tightened his hold, our lips made our way into each other’s again. You might say that this is kind of looking like a Rated SPG thing, but this is just a simple kiss.

Slowly, as if my lips were going to crack the moment he bumps into it, he pulled back. I was still closing my eyes, trying to sink in what just happened. It took me quite a while to take it all in before opening my eyes, and see him staring straight back at me.

I guess I had this shocked expression plastered on my face because of the way he looked back at me. He looked like he was worried; worried that maybe I was offended by what he did. However, before anything else comes to his mind, I smiled at him. The moment he saw me smile, he sighed in relief.

He held my waist and back to straighten me up. He was holding me gently; too gentle that it felt like it only the air that lifted me up. I felt like a feather. The way he touched me was like him touching something so fragile, something so vulnerable. He lifted me up so I can sit on the terrace’s raised platform. I was sitting while he was standing, facing me. He was still holding my hips, trying to maintain my balance as I sit in this thin, beam-like thing. He threatened to let go of me, so I enclosed my arms on his neck. At first, I was hesitant to do it, but when he told me that I should not look down, and I looked down ( - _ -#), I shrugged aside that hesitant feeling.

The awkwardness slowly vanished, and was replaced by comfort and happiness.

We were just there for about an hour and a half, doing nothing but just stare at each other and smile without even talking to one another. It may sound crazy, but that’s all we did for the rest of our stay there. Well yeah, we skipped our first class, but what the hell, this is something worth skipping class about.

As the bell rang, he lifted me up again and made my feet touch the ground. I fixed and removed the dust off my clothes. When I raised my head up, I saw him smiling intently at me. If I’m not in *insert L word here* with him, he would look like someone crazy, but of course, that smile he has looks so stunning for me. Of course, as a response, I smiled back at him.

We made our way back to our room together. We’re not holding hands, for your information. We’re not in the relationship to be doing so. We were just walking side by side, sharing a sweet smile at one another. I don’t know what “we” are right now. But I don’t care. As long as I’m happy and he’s happy, labels aren’t important.

When we arrived at our room, the teacher wasn’t done discussing, so we waited outside for a while. We sat on the floor, and were just talking to one another. When we ran out of things to talk about, we remained quiet. A few minutes past after the beginning of the silence, and I felt him hold my hand. He was looking at the opposite direction at first, then turned to me and then to our hands. I was looking at him as he looked and played with our hands.

The door opened and revealed our teacher who was holding a pile of books. His eyes were covered by the books that’s why he wasn’t able to see us sitting.

We waited until he completely turned his back on us before we stood up and entered the room.

As expected, the rest of the gang ran their way to us when they saw us enter. The rest of the students in the room were in a state of shock because of the sudden running antic they did. They just jumped over the seats and even bulldozed their way.

When they reached us, they grab the both of us and dragged us outside the room, the girls dragging me and the boys dragging him. I was lost in what was happening.

I’m starting to notice that my brain kept on buffering recently. OMG! Am I getting old that fast? ( O . O )

The formed a semi-circle around us as they were folding their arms above their chests. They have intrigued looks in their faces. By the way they are staring at us, it looked like they were trying to see through us. Trying to make their way into our eyes and seek out what they want to know.

We couldn’t escape their stare so we ended up spilling to them everything. Good thing the whole school had a General Assembly that’s why there were no students left in the room. It was only us. While Sunny was walking in the hallway on her way to the gymnasium, Tiffany pulled her in the room and locked it.

“So, would you mind telling us right now?”

With that statement, we told them what happened. Everything except the kissing part.

e same time, so amazed. “Good Morning, Oppa.”, I said as I smiled even more to him. It made him look more puzzled than he originally was. It took him quite a moment to sink in my greeting and respond. He greeted me back with a stuttering “Good Morning too.”. I took a seat on the dining table and started to eat. “Oppa, stop staring at me. It’s rude, it’s making me feel uncomfortable. Okay?”, I smiled while saying the last word, which added more to his already confused state. He just gave me a nod and continued sipping his coffee and at the same time, continued to read the newspaper, but I caught him more than once taking a glance at me, and seemed to be observing me. My oppa is kind of getting weirder as time goes by. “Oppa, if you have something to ask me, just ask me. You’re starting to creep me out, you know?” He stared at me for a moment, looking hesitant if he should ask me or not. “Come on. Spill it.” “Okay. What.. Why.. I mean what happened to you?”, a very generic question. “Why, what happened to me? Is there a bruise or a wound on my face? OMG. Please tell me there’s none.”, of course that’s just me acting. I know what he really wants to know, I’m just playing dumb so that he can say it himself. “No. There’s none. What I mean is.. uhm.. How do I say this? There seems to be something new to you. Not new new, but something.. Ugh! I can’t put it into words!”, I’m just holding my laughter. He actually got frustrated because he can’t put it into words. That is soooo like oppa. But I won’t stop acting here. I’m enjoying, why stop? “New? My dress isn’t new. You’re the one who bought this for me last year. The shoes, you said you’re getting sick of seeing it since I’m wearing this most of the time. I don’t have any accessories yet, so there’s nothing new on me. I don’t know what you’re referring to.”, Jess, conceal the laughter! PFfffft~ “Nervermind.”, he gave up. And with that, I ended up laughing out loud. I can feel that I’m going to have abs anytime soon, my stomach really hurts. Hahaha! “Stop laughing or else you’ll be taking bath with my coffee. Spill it, or I’ll spill this coffee on you.”,, he was holding his cup of coffee, that’s why I got scared and stopped. He really looked so serious. “Actually, I don’t know what you’re talking about. I just laughed because you got pissed because you can’t think of the words you want to say.”, he gave me a deadly death glare that made me stop laughing. “I know you know what I mean. Come on. Speak.”, him and his Hitler mode again. “Psh. Okay.”, so there. I told him everything that happened yesterday. From the moment after Jae picked me up here, to the moment he dropped me home. He didn’t in, he was just listening to me as I spoke. This is what I like about oppa, I can let some things out, and he’ll just listen, give advices and his opinions if needed. He could be a very good guidance councillor or psychologist if ever. After I finished story-telling, he just gave me a smile and gestured me to come closer to him. To my surprise, he hugged me and whispered, “I miss this dongsaeng of mine.” That got me confused, so I asked, “Miss me? I’ve always been here, how can you miss me?” He squeezed my cheeks, smiled again, and replied, “Well, yeah. You’re physically present, but the sister I had changed into someone I didn’t quite know after breaking up with a guy. I miss the old you, the always-brightly-smiling-and-always-jolly you.” I was so touched by his statement that I hugged him back so much that I felt like I gave all my strength to just doing the hug. After the brother-sister drama, I headed out to the garage to get my car and head off to school. I was humming along to the songs played in the radio absent-mindedly. It felt as if I was really happy, well of course I am, who shouldn’t feel this happy after everything that have happened? I got off the car, still humming along to the last song I’ve heard. “Because I’m happy~ clap along if you feel like that’s what you wanna do~” I was smiling to every person I passed by, and it seemed like they were shock. But naah~ Nevermind those reactions, I proceeded to my journey towards my classroom, still having a smile plastered on my face. When I arrived at our classroom, I saw my girl friends gathered and forming a circle, looking like they’re having a secretive conversation. It was only them in the room at that time because some of the students were busy fangirling a the gymnasium. It kind of intrigued me bit, so I ninja walked my way towards them, unnoticed and unseen. “I don’t know either. But I have a bad feeling about this.”, whispered, Tiffany. “Me too. I think I might have an idea where she went to yesterday. But please tell me that the thing I’m thinking that could have possibly happened yesterday is wrong.”, Hyoyeon added in a hushed voice. “Let’s just hope that whatever might have happened, it would result to her being happy again.”, Taeyeon seriously said, as an end to their conversation. After what Taeyeon said, they were quiet, looking down on the ground, as if they’re digging a whole, a whole as deep as their thoughts. They were in a daze for quite a long time, still not able to feel my presence. My curiosity took the best of me, so I broke the ice and said, “Guess what.. your hypothesis as to who I was with yesterday is correct. Also, because of what happened between us yesterday, I feel happy again. After a long time, and it’s because of him.” They were shocked because of my sudden appearance that they literally jumped off their seats. Their eyes were widely opened as they looked at me as if checking if my existence is real and not a product of their imagination. From head to toe, they looked at me. “I know that you’re talking about me. But don’t you feel guilty talking about me behind my back?”, I jokingly said and laughed. “I.. We..”, they stuttered in reply. Maybe they didn’t get that what I said was just a joke. So, I laughed even more. They were baffled even more. “Okay girls. You know I was just joking about the backstabbing part right? But I’m serious about what I first said. I’m dead serious.”, I made it clear to them. Let me just play some mind games with them before I tell them what really happened, I’m just going to play with their malicious thoughts for a bit. “So we’re right that you were with Jae yesterday?”, I nodded as a response to Yuri’s question. I told you, I’m going to play a bit. With their wide-eyed expression, they all stared at me, I know what they are thinking about right now. They think that me and Jae met yesterday and finally resolved our relationship problem, which is true, but I know that they think that we got back together, which is not the case. They’re exaggerating things again. Aiigoo~ my chinggus, really. ( - _ - ) Still with their lost expressions, they were staring at me with disbelief, trying to assess me. “Are you... you and Jae, really...”, Taeyeon said as she trailed off. “Unnie, michingoya?”, Seohyun said, which shocked me because it’s kind of rare, almost impossible actually, for her to say such thing. I heard a strong slam from a desk, which I guess was Hyoyeon’s. She had a dark expression on her face. She’s serious. Really really REALLY serious. “Jess, I knoe that love makes people go dumb, but I didn’t expect that it would make you this dumb. That guy once broke your heart, almost ruined your life and livers, made you drown in alcohol. And now that you’ve sobered up, you’re going to let him destroy you again?” I couldn’t take all the seriousness anymore, so I burst out laughing. Once again, they had the confused expression plastered on their faces. I was still laughing so hard when I felt someone drag me. I didn’t have the chance to look at who it is, all I can see is that person’s back. I just let myself get dragged, letting that person take me whenever. Why? I feel like I’m safe with this person despite not knowing his/her identity. I felt secured that I’m not brought in harm’s way. He stopped dragging me when we arrived at the terrace of the what-used-to-be student lounge. It was already unused and abandoned that’s why there was no one there. In this location, we can see students that are already rushing their way into the school building. We can see them, but they can’t see us. Since this place is already, almost close to, forgotten, no one would think about looking up. And also, they wouldn’t have the time to even think about other things besides getting inside their room before the teacher checks the attendance. We stood there silently for quite some time. He was still holding my hands, but less tightly than before. After watching movies, I came up with conclusions during these types of situations—screaming or making the first move is the wrong decision. I couldn’t tell as early as now if this guy who dragged me all the way here is a good one or a bad one, but either way, it’s still a good choice to keep quiet. If he’s a bad guy, his first counter attack would be slitting my neck or any form of violent action. If he’s a good guy, he could possibly lose all the strength and bravery he had gathered. “Can you please tell me what really happened? Please tell me that what your friends are talking about... they are not true. Please.”, his head was facing the floor. He was still holding my hand, and I could feel that he was already losing some of his strength by the way he was holding me. My brain buffered for quite some time, trying to analyze what he’s talking about, and for that period of time, he was slowly letting go of my hands and... facing me. The moment I saw his saddened and close to desperate face, it sunk in to me what he was talking about. I was lost for words. It felt like my tongue just vanished and I don’t have a brain anymore. I felt dizzy and lost my balance. Good thing he was already facing me, so he caught me. Our faces were only centimetres apart, our eyes locked into each other’s. I was wide-eyed for a moment, but I slowly closed my eyes when... When our lips touched. There was pleading in the way he was looking at me, so I gave in. I thought it would only happen in movies or in stories that one’s heart would pound so fast and so loud that I can hear it, or maybe he can also hear it. The term magical would be the perfect adjective to describe this scenario. It was only for a few seconds, but it felt like forever to me. It was very long for me, I don’t know about him. Slowly, our lips parted, it felt like it was the bridge between reality and fantasy for me. It was so surreal! We stared at each others’ eyes, locked into each other’s magical orbs. I kept on asking myself if it was real, if I’m really seeing and feeling something that is in the side of “reality”. I want to slap or pinch myself just to make sure, but it would totally ruin the moment. So instead, I just made myself think that “yes, this is reality.” I’m just going to live by the moment, whether this is real or not, I’m just going to treasure it. I felt his hands, that were previously placed on my hips, move down. He was starting to feel awkward, so it was my cue to also feel the same. If moments ago, our eyes were locked, now, we are looking at two different directions, trying to avoid each other’s gaze. I was trying to construct a sentence in my mind that would possibly lighten up the intense and awkward atmosphere that we have, but the only thing inside my head right now it the kiss we just shared. It kept on replaying and replaying in my mind, it kept on bugging me that it’s the only thought I have for the moment. “Uhmm...”, he started. But it was the only thing he uttered. It was then followed by silence, deafening silence. It was too quiet that I can really hear my heart beat, and also.. his. We were still too close to one another that I can hear his breathing and his heart’s beating. The silence ate a long period of time for the both of us. My uneasy side took the best of me, so I spoke. “No, what they’re thinking about me and Jae.. it’s not true.” His head quickly turned to face me. Wide eyes and shock painted on his face. His lips were moving as if he was trying to say something, but he just can’t let it out. He remained in that state, again, for a long time until his lips formed into a smile. I didn’t expect that reaction from him after what had happened, but deep inside, I felt glad that he reacted that way. I wasn’t able to even blink when he grabbed me again and owned my lips. Another set of fireworks exploded inside of me. My heart was jumping up and down. I was starting to lose my balance again due to dizziness brought by this extreme feeling, it made his grip on my hips become tighter. Our lips parted for a while because I got off balanced, but when he tightened his hold, our lips made our way into each other’s again. You might say that this is kind of looking like a Rated SPG thing, but this is just a simple kiss. Slowly, as if my lips were going to crack the moment he bumps into it, he pulled back. I was still closing my eyes, trying to sink in what just happened. It took me quite a while to take it all in before opening my eyes, and see him staring straight back at me. I guess I had this shocked expression plastered on my face because of the way he looked back at me. He looked like he was worried; worried that maybe I was offended by what he did. However, before anything else comes to his mind, I smiled at him. The moment he saw me smile, he sighed in relief. He held my waist and back to straighten me up. He was holding me gently; too gentle that it felt like it only the air that lifted me up. I felt like a feather. The way he touched me was like him touching something so fragile, something so vulnerable. He lifted me up so I can sit on the terrace’s raised platform. I was sitting while he was standing, facing me. He was still holding my hips, trying to maintain my balance as I sit in this thin, beam-like thing. He threatened to let go of me, so I enclosed my arms on his neck. At first, I was hesitant to do it, but when he told me that I should not look down, and I looked down ( - _ -#), I shrugged aside that hesitant feeling. The awkwardness slowly vanished, and was replaced by comfort and happiness. We were just there for about an hour and a half, doing nothing but just stare at each other and smile without even talking to one another. It may sound crazy, but that’s all we did for the rest of our stay there. Well yeah, we skipped our first class, but what the hell, this is something worth skipping class about. As the bell rang, he lifted me up again and made my feet touch the ground. I fixed and removed the dust off my clothes. When I raised my head up, I saw him smiling intently at me. If I’m not in *insert L word here* with him, he would look like someone crazy, but of course, that smile he has looks so stunning for me. Of course, as a response, I smiled back at him. We made our way back to our room together. We’re not holding hands, for your information. We’re not in the relationship to be doing so. We were just walking side by side, sharing a sweet smile at one another. I don’t know what “we” are right now. But I don’t care. As long as I’m happy and he’s happy, labels aren’t important. When we arrived at our room, the teacher wasn’t done discussing, so we waited outside for a while. We sat on the floor, and were just talking to one another. When we ran out of things to talk about, we remained quiet. A few minutes past after the beginning of the silence, and I felt him hold my hand. He was looking at the opposite direction at first, then turned to me and then to our hands. I was looking at him as he looked and played with our hands. The door opened and revealed our teacher who was holding a pile of books. His eyes were covered by the books that’s why he wasn’t able to see us sitting. We waited until he completely turned his back on us before we stood up and entered the room. As expected, the rest of the gang ran their way to us when they saw us enter. The rest of the students in the room were in a state of shock because of the sudden running antic they did. They just jumped over the seats and even bulldozed their way. When they reached us, they grab the both of us and dragged us outside the room, the girls dragging me and the boys dragging him. I was lost in what was happening. I’m starting to notice that my brain kept on buffering recently. OMG! Am I getting old that fast? ( O . O ) The formed a semi-circle around us as they were folding their arms above their chests. They have intrigued looks in their faces. By the way they are staring at us, it looked like they were trying to see through us. Trying to make their way into our eyes and seek out what they want to know. We couldn’t escape their stare so we ended up spilling to them everything. Good thing the whole school had a General Assembly that’s why there were no students left in the room. It was only us. While Sunny was walking in the hallway on her way to the gymnasium, Tiffany pulled her in the room and locked it. “So, would you mind telling us right now?” With that statement, we told them what happened. Everything except the kissing part.