'Last night was a disaster.' I recalled as I stepped into school, rubbing my eyes tiredly. After Chanyeol left, I walked back into my house and received one hell of a long lecture from my parents. They didn't want me hanging out with anyone past eleven, so when they saw me talking to him outside of my house, they became really angry. 

"Chanyeol's a really nice boy, Haein, but I don't like you hanging out so late at night- especially when exams are just around the corner," My father told me sternly,"You didn't do very well in you previous tests, and not sleeping early is just going to affect your concentration for the next day. You need to buck up Haein, and if you're not going to help yourself, get somebody to help you."

There was more before that, but I just couldn't remember; I was just too tired. I had to find somebody to teach me things and fast. I mean I would ask my teachers but they were really busy and never seemed to have time for me. 'Oh god, please help me." I prayed. If I didn't do well in my exams, my parents were going to kill me and they were so close to doing that last night.

I sat in my seat and stared at the table blankly. Who was I to ask? Chanyeol? He only took some subjects that I took, so he was out. Eunhye? No. I was uncomfortable around her, so no matter how warm she acted towards me, I was never going to spend one on one time with her. Which left me with Luhan. He took majority of the classes that I took and he was a top student, so that had to be my answer.  

It was probably going to be awkward because of the night before, but I had no choice- if I wanted to score, he was going to be my only source of help besides self study. I turned around in my seat and looked around the classroom, in search for Luhan, when I spotted him. Standing up, I walked up to his table, quite nervously, and stopped in front of him. 

"H-hi," I stuttered as he looked up at me and smiled,"You free after school?" I needed to play it cool around him, or else he'd know that something was up. "'Cause I kind of need your help." I looked at his unsure expression and decided that it was probably a no when he suddenly nodded his head. I turned around and went back to my seat just as the teacher walked in. Ever since Eunhye came, I've started to become awkward around Luhan. We never used to be this way and I don't know how we can ever be the same again.

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I patiently waited at the study corner, tapping my pen against my book as I occasionally glanced at the clock. My classes had ended early and I wanted a head start before my session with Luhan began, so I opened my book and began reading. No matter how hard I tried to focus, the thought of being alone with him for an hour or more was nerve-racking and distracted me from studying.

What would I say to him? How was I supposed to act around him? Where was I to look? Not being alone with Luhan for a long time really took its toll on me. I sighed and planted my face onto my books, frustrated with myself for being so insecure. It was so ironic how he was my best friend, yet I didn't know what to do around him.

"Hey, you alright?" I immediately lifted my head up and looked at Luhan with alarmed eyes as he sat down next to me. "Yea, just tired is all heh." I lied as I looked at the table, afraid to face him. The only reason why I was acting that way was probably because there were so many things going on in my life that I forgot how to be myself around him.

"So, what do you wanna start with?" I slid my geography textbook to him and continued to look down as I saw him open it. "I don't understand half of the chapters in there," I said as I laughed to myself at how stupid I must've sounded,"And some of the stuff in the rest of the books." Luhan raised his eyebrows at me and took a deep breath before he continued flipping the pages.

I felt bad for making him stay back just to help me, but then again, wasn't that what best friends were for? Just because I hadn't spent one on one time with him for a while, didn't change the fact that we were best friends. "I guess we'll be starting with the first chapter then," He said and started to explain it.

I started to loosen up after a while and forgot about whatever had been happening the past few days. We started to crack jokes, laugh at random things and just act like we used to before Eunhye came. These were the bittersweet moments that I missed and now, it was finally coming back. "Wait, so all I had to do was put brackets?" I repeated just to be sure that I hadn't heard the wrong thing. I felt really stupid, I mean all this time I thought I had been using the wrong method, but it was just my obliviousness.

Luhan nodded his head and laughed to himself as he shut the workbook and put it aside. It had been a few hours since we had started and so far, I managed to understand whatever he had been explaining- except I started to realise something. Ever since I started dating Chanyeol, I began to neglect my feelings for Luhan.

Yes, I did remind myself from time to time that I had feelings for him and that it was wrong of me to be with somebody else, but I just couldn't remember what it was like to be in love with him. I didn't spend enough time with Luhan, which led me to forget why I liked him more than friend should. I kept telling myself that he was the one, that he was the person I wanted to be with. I even made myself react a certain way to situations where Eunhye and him were concerned.

I was practically forcing myself to love him, when deep down I knew the feeling was starting to fade- until that day. Being so close to him and finally spending time with him alone, managed to rekindle the joy that we used to share before all the complications started and at the same time gave me reasons as to why I wanted to be with him so badly.

"Can we continue this another day? I gotta meet Eunhye soon." Luhan bit his lower lip as he looked at me with sorry eyes. It was heartbreaking, hearing that he needed to meet her rather than stay to help his best friend with her studies. It was obvious that she was his main priority ever since she came and not me, so why was I so sad? Shouldn't I have gotten used to it by now?

"Sure. Do what you gotta do." I reluctantly said as I started to pack up my things. "Haein, it's not that I don't want to spend time with you, I just had plans before," Well, he didn't actually reply when I asked him if he was free after school so I didn't really have anything to prove him wrong,"I know I haven't been spending that much time with you lately but I'll try to make it up to you."

Luhan held my shoulder and pursed his lips waiting for my reply, but I wasn't satisfied with 'making it up to me'. I wanted him all to myself but that was never going to happen. I stacked up my books and stood up as a slip of paper fell out onto the carpeted floor. I bent down to pick it up when my hand bumped into Luhan's. 

I looked up at him, speechless, as I let my jaw stay ajar. There was something- definitely something. It was like a spark that was ignited when our skin came into contact with each other. I had never felt it before whenever that happened, so why now?

My eyes were glued to his; I just couldn't move. Why was he looking at me like that? Could he possibly have felt it too? No, he was probably looking at me like that because I was staring at him. 

I picked the paper up, gave him a stiff smile and said a short 'bye' as I turned to walk away. Honestly, it was really embarrassing but it couldn't have been that bad because he smiled back, so it should have been alright, right? I wasn't sure, but I was pretty happy that I felt that tiny electric shock- it was like a sign that maybe I stil