Jessica’s POV

After a couple of days the doctor told me that I can be discharge from the hospital, then I went to straight to the funeral of my baby, SM keep the news to the media, they pay the hospital to shut their mouth about what happened and keep it to their selves and leave it there until they die

This is the last day of his funeral, my tummy is just 3 months and it is still difficult to know the gender, but as a mother, I can felt that he is a boy, and this is the first time I will visit him, my mom and Donghae’s mom are the one who assist and prepared of all this since I can’t

I am at the car with KyuHyun, who is driving, since I got out of the hospital, I didn’t talk any single word from me, all I just do is nod and shook my head when answering, all I want is to end this and let’s see what will I do

“we are here…” Kyuhyun oppa said to me as he parked the car

I sighed and looked outside the window, I saw a lot of people, I got my black shades and went down as Kyu oppa opened the door for me

As I entered the hall, I saw that all people are looking at me with their sorrowful face to give me sympathy

“Sica….” My mom went to me and hugged me but I didn’t say any word

she lead the way as we ended in my child’s coffin

I close my eyes and prayed for him

“baby, omma is here… I’m sorry I didn’t protect you… I love you with all my heart,… always take good care of omma, okay?” I said in my mind then face my mom and hugged her

she assisted me to sat down while I just staring blankly, suddenly one by one of my SM town family went to me, first the staffs, then FX, SHINEE, SUJU, TVXQ, Dana unnie, Sunday unnie, Boa unnie, then my SNSD sisters hug me except Yoona, she is with DongHae, who still didn’t approach me

then Kyu oppa went to my side and wrapped his arms around me, no one can make the pain go away in my heart, NO ONE

after a few hours, it’s time now to say Goodbye to baby, we are at the Seoul National Cemetery, and buried my baby there, we stay for a while and went home

I rode in Kyu oppa’s car since I don’t want too many people

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Kyu Hyun’s POV

We are heading back to their dorm, the trip back home was silent, after a few minutes of driving we arrived and I assist her to go inside of there dorm, we saw SNSD in the living room gather around and crying

Jessie just looked at them emotionless but when she turned her gazed to Yoona, I saw the ranging anger in her

“let’s go,,,” I said as I pulled inside her room as I felt the urge in her to attack Yoona

“let go of me…” she said in straight tone

“I know how you felt…” I said before I hugged her tight, she hugged me too and cried in my arms

I just listen to her heavy sobs, I lend my shoulder for her to lean on and let her stress out, we are sitting in her bed, I wrapped my arms around her and I put the covers on us, her arm is around my neck, I can felt her heavy breathing because of too much crying, I her hair and hummed a song for her, the song scars deeper than love

“oppa, don’t leave me…” she mumbled in her sleep

“I won’t, I promise…” I said as I pulled her closer and hugged her

Tears didn’t stop flowing from my eyes, seeing my love one in this state, how I wish she loved me first, so that she will not be hurt like this

I just stayed beside her until the another lifeless morning woke Jessica, I bid goodbye to her because I have some commitments to do, I talked to Tiffany and Tae Yeon, to look after her while I didn’t come back, they agreed and promised to do their job because they want the old Jessie back, the Jessie we all knew before, the cold but warmth hearted one

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Jessica’s POV

After Kyu oppa go, I stayed in my room the whole day, I didn’t attend schedules, I still need time to think

I heard knocks from Fany and Taengoo, I went to the door and slowly opened it

“Sica, here… we bring you your favorite American style breakfast…” Fany said with her eye smile

“Yeah, it has bacon. Egg. French toast and a cup of cappuccino” Taengoo said in with her Engrish

“thanks, but I’m not hungry…” I said emotionless before I closed the door leaving the two broken hearted

I headed to my window porch and I saw dark clouds, I think it’s going to rain, I sat on the small space in my window’s porch, I rested my back in the wall while hugging my knees looking at the sky, waiting for the rain to pour, then it starts together with my tears

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Donghae’s POV

As I woke up, I immediately prepared to go to SNSD’s dorm, I cooked Sica’s  favorite breakfast, after I prepared everything, I drove as fast as I could, when I’m parking I saw KyuHyun went out the building and went to his car and revved away

“so he sleeps with….” I said but I didn’t continue because I know he just look after her, the way that a man should do to his love one that I never did to Sica

I went down to my car, and called Tae Yeon, if I can visit, they said yes and instructed me to come up

I knocked and not too long the door opened

“oh!!! HI oppa!!!” Tiffany said in a way too loud voice

“SSSHHhhh…….” Tae Yeon said to her

“can I come in…” I asked politely

“sure… sure…” TaeYeon whispered as she leads the way to the kitchen

The three of us went to the kitchen and sat in high stool that surrounds the center island of the kitchen

“so what brought you here?” Tiffany said while eyeing me

“well, is she awake?” I answered her with also a question

“we think so…” Tae Yeon said in a serious tone and while resting her chin into her hands

“I brought her breakfast, can you please help me to give it to her?” I asked them a favor

“but how? She didn’t talk to us since last night….” Fany informed me

“chinja? But how about to KyuHyun, did she talk to him?” I asked them eagerly

“I guess, he sleep here…” Tea Yeon said but Tiffany cut her off by nudging her

I just smiled

“don’t smile if you just force yourself, a lot of things happened, we know you are also hurt, we know you want her back…” Tiffany console me

“I love her… I really love her…” I confessed

“why now, oppa? Why did you just realized that now, why not before, well boys only realized a girls worth, if they are already gone” Tae Yeon said non stop

“that’s why I’m here, I want your help since, both of you are close to her, I wanted to win her back starting now, so please help me to give this to her” I said while showing the lunch box I brought

Tiffany looked at Tae Yeon then both of them looked at me

“so??” I asked them

“okay…we will help you to win her back, but you better be serious this time or else your really dead meat to us” they both said to me in serious and interrogating tone

So we prepared everything in a tray, it looks so delicious and made because of love, so TaeNy and I went to her bedroom door, I was just beside Tiffany but hiding of course, I heard her answer that breaks my heart into pieces then she closed the door

“mianhe, oppa…” they both said with sad eyes

“it’s okay… fighting!!!” I said hiding my sadness

Both girls hugged me before I go home

When I was entering my car, I saw her from her window, looking up the sky, then I felt drops in my face, it was starting to rain, then I looked to her again this time she is crying that made my heart hurt more

“Sica, mianhe…” I mumbled under the pouring rain

I stayed under the rain and just watch her grief in pain

“I will win you back…” I promised to myself

I went inside my car and stayed there looking to my sad Sica, I was just silent watching her from a far, all I wanted is to see her until she become fine

TBC...

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