After moths of being away in our beloved country Korea, its now time to go back, I can finally see my sweetie KyuHyunnie, I know that he knows that in this relationship we had, I am just using him to forget, I know that I’m selfish at this time, but I will love Kyu Oppa with all my heart… I try… and I will…

“Passengers, we are now here… thank you for choosing Korean Airlines have a good day…” the announcer said

We all stood up and headed outside the plane, I ran as fast as I could to see my oppas and Kyuhyun

As I was near in the waiting area, I already saw him with wide arms, waiting for me to run to him and buried myself in his wide chest 

“oppa!!!!” I said as I run to him, leaving my members behind

“SICA!!!” he shouted with a happy face

then I hugged him tight, placing my arms on his waist

“I miss you… “ I said as I cup his face with my small hands then I slowly move it forward in front of my face, then all of a sudden I give him a deep passionate kiss

     “wow!!! Stop that, I’m envious…” Lee Teuk oppa squealed as he pulled Taengoo closer

then  we broke the kiss and he carried me and spun me around

“KYA!!! Oppa!!!” I giggled

then he put me down and pulled me closer

“I just miss my baby…” he said as he kissed me again

“BWO? Do you mean you two are together?” SUPERGENERATION asked us

“neh…” we said shyly

“Chukahae…” they all said

“Oppa? where is? DongHae oppa?” Yoona asked suddenly

“oh? He was at SM, he sent a song to add in our album…” YeSung oppa informed all of us

“I see…” Yoona said in a low voice

“don’t be sad, Yoong, I know he will make up to you later…” I cheered up my beloved dongsaeng

then she smiles to me

“there you go. I don’t want a sad Yoong, araso? Just sit beside me and Kyu oppa?” I said as I dragged her and sweetie Kyu until we reached the van

//

now this is first second world tour here in Seoul after in Japan, it’s my turn to do my solo, in the audience are my mother, Krystal and Kyu oppa sitting together side by side, then in my surprise DongHae and Lee Teuk oppa went to see our performance or just to see Yoona’s, I don’t know. The other SNSDs’ families are also there to support us, Park Seungil too.

The lights are still off, I was sitting in front of a grand piano, I heard the loud cheers of the fans, as the light went on, my fingers started to play the keys, I closed my eyes and felt the meaning of the song and hoping He feels it too.

Can you tell me
How can one miss what she's never had
How could I reminisce when there is no past
How could I have memories of being happy with you boy
Could someone tell me how can this be
How could my mind pull up incidents
Recall dates and times that never happened
How could we celebrate a love that's too late
And how could I really mean the words I'm bout to say

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take my time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you

I sang whole heartedly, I can feel that my tears are about to fall, why is this happening to me, I forgot him right?

Then the lights went off again, some stuffs help me to stand up and fixed my dress, then the lights went on again, the roars and cheers of the fans become louder, then I sang while walking in front of the stage with all my deep love with a man who doesn't love me anymore

I cannot believe I let you go
Or what I should say is I shoulda grabbed you up and never let you go
I shoulda went out with you
I shoulda made you my boo boy
Yeah that's one time I shoulda broke the rules
I shoulda went on a date
Shoulda found a way to escape
Shoulda turned a almost into 
If it happend now its to late
How could I celebrate a love that wasn't real
And if it didn't happen why does my heart feel

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take my time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you

After I sang, I smiled with all my might, I controlled my feelings, I wanted to be happy, and then I waved and headed out of the stage

//

as I reach on our dressing room, I saw my members looking at me teary eye

“wae? Why are you guys looking at me like that?” I asked them

“Sica? Are you okay?” Fany asked me and I just nodded

“are you sure, it seems when  you are singing, aaahhh… it’s different…” sunny said to me as she hugged me

“SUNNY!!! I’m fine…” I said as I hugged her

“Yoona, you’re ON!!!” manager oppa told to her, before she stood up and headed to the stage

then Kyu oppa went to our dressing room, he congratulate me

“chukahae….baby Jess…” he said as he hugged me

“gumawo…” I said to her sweetly

He asked a towel from the stuffs and wiped my sweat in my face

“gumawo…” I said as I blushed and turned red as a tomato

“ahm… Jess, I think I will not finish the concert” he said to me with a sad face

“why?” I said as my mood suddenly change

“I had rehearsals to do…” he said and I just stay silent

“come on… mianhe…” he said as he pulled me into a hug

I hug him back and we both headed to the back exit

“be careful, okay?” I said as I waved to him

“I will…” he said before he entered to his car and he drove off

I was heading back to the dressing room, I can feel all the people and stuffs are looking at me, ooopsss, I forgot I still wearing my y costume of my almost perf, I was heading back to the dressing room when I felt two strong arms grabbed me and dragged me to a silent and abandoned place of the concert hall

//

Donghae’s POV

As I was watching her, I felt that the song was for me, I can’t help it, so I decided that I needed to talk to her

I went back stage to see her, I asked her members where is she and I found out that she is with Kyu, that made my heart sad

when I saw her, she was about to go back to the dressing room but with all my courage, I decided to talk to her  and confess, I hope it’s not yet late

//

Yoona’s POV

As I do my solo, I saw DongHae oppa, stood up from his seat and heading out, I wonder where he is going, it made me sad because he didn’t finish watching my solo, because of that I lose track of the dance routine that lead me to mess up my number, but I still compose myself and go on, I can’t help to think that, do he still love me?

//

“what? What do you want?” I asked him as I grab my arms back

Then he face me

“I want you back…” he said in a serious tone

“what? are you insane?” I asked him

“all this time, I still love you…” he confessed to me

“sorry… I don’t have time for tgis stup…” I said as I turned my back to him but he pulled me into a kiss

my eyes widened, I tried to pull away but when I keep on stopping him from kissing me, he got more aggressive, then all of a sudden, I gave in and kissed him back as tears flow from my eyes

Then we broke it when we both need air, he rested his forehead against mine

 “Sica, let me make up to you… please…” he said to me as he placed his hands on my waist while my arms was against his chest

we stayed in that position in a while and when I got into my senses and  I pushed him

“why?” he asked me

“oppa, why just now?” I asked him back

“I’m sorry…” he said in a low voice

“I asked for forgiveness from you right, I asked another chance, but you just trash me and made a relationship with Yoona, what would you expect from me?” I explained to him

“I’ll break with Yoona, just please give me another chance…” he said in a serious tone

“don’t do that, I will not let you hurt her because of me… I think that it is better that I’m the one who got hurt…” I said while crying

“are you telling me that…” he said but I cut him off

“oppa, Kyu oppa and I are together…” I spilled to him

“what?” he asked me in disbelief

“oppa, I waited for you, I waited for you to love me again but people are just people, I felt tired waiting for you, I felt tired making myself believe that we can still be together and just leave the mistakes we made behind, Yoona loves you so don’t leave her…” I asked him a favor

“do  you love Kyu?” he asked me as I saw him in tears

“to be honest, I think I was starting to love him, and I know I will love him with all my heart… maybe we just ended here, oppa. let’s just accept it…” I lied to him before I turned around and walked away

"SICA!!!" he shouted

"Sorry...." i mumbled silently

To Be Continue…

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