Nothing Lasts Forever - 003

Sometimess  it seems like all I ever do is lie, I fake smile for my family and my friends. I kept telling them that I’m okay, I’m fine and the most of all I’m alright. My parents know already about what happened to Sehun a months ago. They keep telling me to be strong and forget about the past. How I can forget the past if the memories keep pulling me back. I still have to attend college. As I told you, I used to be gamers, but now I’m not used to it anymore. I just, I don’t like it anymore. It’s reminds me of Sehun, sehun’s was a gamers too. We used to play together, but it’s now it’s just a memories. I really miss his voice…  I miss to talk with him, drinking coffee together. He wants me to be happy, but I can’t, someone I love just leave me like that.

Sehun’s family just accepted what happened to Sehun. Sehun’s family were very rich, they played important role to business people in Seoul, just like my parents. They still have their little son they explained not wanting to show their feelings, Lied… they heart must be broken into pieces, they just lost their son. I mean, how can they forget Sehun so fast?

My family, consists of my Dad and Mom. They were very busy with their business, but they still have time for making me forget about Sehun. Once, they planned to bring me to their friend house and meet their son but I refuse, what’s the point meeting my parent’s friend’s son? I still can’t. Right now, my mum are planning to move to our second house somewhere besides, my college will start around this weeks. My dad will transfer me to a new college, where my friends are there too. They moved too because of me. I felt guilty to everyone, it’s my faults, because of me. Making their life difficult. Esp. to my Mom.

Every day, I spend my afternoon time at coffee shop, right now, I’m facing the window watching the couples walking together, in the winter. Your Boyfriend bought you a hot coffee when you’re cold, give you his jacket and hold your hands tightly. If I didn’t run that time, Sehun will be now sitting with me. I learnt a thing that nothi