LIME’S POV

Ok. So I am just so inspired right now :D You wanna know why> :D Well. <3

Flashback

Minwoo: I love you, baby :D

Lime: Even if I don’t win?

M: Even if you didn’t join this pageant. :D

L: Aren’t you proud of me?

M: Are you kidding me? Of course I am. I just don’t want anyone else looking at you.

L: Aww. My Oppa is jealous. :P

M: Who told you I’m jealous?!

L: So you don’t care?

M: I just told you I don’t want anyone else looking at you. How can I not care? :/

L: I was just making sure. But you’re not really jealous?

M: I can’t. I’m not your boyfriend.

L: Ahhh. Right *insert fake smile.*

M: I’m your destiny. I’m already yours and you’re already mine. No one can take you away from me. No one can look at you the way I always do. :D

L: Aww. Oppa. Don’t make me blush! *I kissed him on the cheek* Wahaha! Now you’re blushing!

M: No I’m not! *blushing terribly*

--End of Flashback

Haha. I’m so shallow. I’m sorry I can’t help it. Btw, I am already here at the studio and almost everyone is already here too. We will have our lunch in a short while.

“Hey! Stop smiling like there’s no tomorrow. You’re so creepy. You look like there’s some erted thoughts in your mind.” – Niel.

“Don’t ruin the mind. I’m inspired” I said with the widest smile, I even feel like I’m floating.

“Don’ytdo that, you look like you’re floating. Haha. You’re so ugly.”

“Ugh! You just ruined the mood. :/” I said and glared at him.

“Aww, dude, if looks could kill I’d be in a coffin now.” He said and ruffled y hair.

“Ugh! Not My hair Oppa!” He just smiled and walked away. Is there something wrong with him?

Moments Later…

“Hey! What’s wrong with you?” Its Eric, one of the three monkeys I’ve been close to.

“Niel Oppa just ruined my mood. And I just told you I can speak Korean. There’s no need to speak in English”

“I know but I got used to it.”

“Haha. Ok. If tha’s what you prefer.” *Still speaking in English

“Hey, how come you call Niel Oppa and you call me Eric?”

“I don’t know. I got used to it.” – Me

“You should call me Oppa too!”  - Eric

“Andwae! *mehrong!*” – Me

“”Aish. Fine. What’s important is that you’ve seen Cute Oppa dance already. So? How was it?” – Eric

“Ah. About that. Haha. My friends dragged me somewhere. I didn’t get to watch him.” I said rubbing the back of my neck.

“WHAAAAAAT?!” He screamed too loud!

“Don’t shout. Its just a dance number.  Now they’re looking at us.”

“JUST A DANCE NUMBER?! I can’t believe you. It’s your crushes dance number!”

“I already told you he’s not my crush.”

“Aish. Fine. Hey, everyone’s here. They said its time for lunch. Kaja? I’m hungry.” He said rubbing his stomach, haha monkey.

AFTER THE LUNCH

We all got ready for the pageant. We had to walk and walk again but not as much as we usually do. We have to conserve energy! Haha. Besides, my knees are weakening because I am so d*mn nervous. After freshening up a bit, they told us to change to our clothes – the one that we will be wearing for the pageant and they even started applying light make up on the candidates—except for the lipstick.  Haha. We’ll still have dinner before the pageant. XD They have so many expenses for us, I know. XD They provided everything we need—except for the shoes of course. Haha. We even have only one makeup artist, this way the judges can really see our beauty and not the effect of the colors on our faces.

When everyone was almost done, they gave us some time to rest. I wanted to be alone for a while so I decided to just sit in a corner while everyone is bonding. But Eric, being the monkey that he is, insisted to join me after a while. No more quiet time for me I guess? *sigh*

“Hey, I guess we haven’t finished talking yet?” He said smiling.

“Huh?”

“I was about to ask you something a while ago, but we had to eat lunch.”

“Silly, you should have just talked to me while going to the dining are.”

“Haha. I’m sorry, I got lost with the thought of the food :D”

“You have a big appetite huh?” He’s ssometimes like a kid. But always like a monkey. Haha :P But kidding aside, he’s really charming :D

“So, my question? :D”

“Ah. Yes, go ahead. :D”

“So, oyur boyfriend’s coming right? So maybe we could meet?”

“HAha. Why would you want to meet him?”

“So I can learn tips from him.”

“Tips?”

“Yep. How to capture a girl’s heart. Especially a girl like you.”

“Haha. You’re funny.”

“I’m serious. I’ve always had this little crush on you. I just figured out that since it’s already the last day, Maybe I should tell you. I was afraid before that you might avoid me if I tell you right away. Don’t worry. It’s just a little *gesturing “little” with his hand* crush. :D”

“Haha. Silly. I’m not like that. *smiles*”

“Ok. You just made that little crush bigger!”

“OPPA!” I said hitting his arm.

“Ok. Now you’re making my heart go thump thump!” Thump thump? Haha. Ok. I just remembered Pikachu kid :D

“Hahah. Thump thump? You’re such a kid. Stop it.”

“Ok. So back to what I was asking you? I’m getting the feels that you were avoiding it. :P”

“So you’ve noticed? You shouldn’t have brought it back then.”

“Hey. Hey. Hey you little princess. What’s with the mood swing? Is it that day of the month when you get your emotions all mixed up?” He said slightly laughing ‘cause I glared at him. Haha. Still a kid :P

“He’s not coming.”

“What? But this is a big day for you.”

“Big NIGHT.”

“Ok big NIGHT. Like there’s so much of a difference.”

“There is. If this won’t be held at night then he could’ve been allowed to watch.”

“So his parents didn’t allow him to? How come? It is their son’s girlfriend’s big night.”

“Remember what I told you? They don’ approve of me.”

“But he loves you,”

“Yea. He does. But I know and I understand he loves them more.”

“But he should at least tell them.”

“O yea? Well guess what? He’s not even trying. I accept that we can’t be together.”

“Na-ah. Not now at least.”

“That’s what he told me too. But remember? THE MOTHER DOESN’T APPROVE OF ME.”

“Aww. But don’t give up. I know you love him so much.”

“I am not giving up. Not unless…”

“Not unless what?”

“No unless HE gives up.”

I can’t help but think of how we will end up. Have I ever mentioned? Every time we have our vacation, we always loe our communication. Yes, we don’t text, chat or whatever. It’s always almost like a break up or a cool off.  I hate it but I can’t do anything with it. I am also getting tired, and lately we’ve had had so many fights. Well I always initiate it and I am sorry about it. But… *sigh* nothing never mind.

ERIC’S POV

YES I ALSO HAVE A POV. IT’S NOT ALWAYS THEM :DDDD

Anyways, I guess you’ve already known about our conversation right? Me and Lime? Well, after she said that, I felt the urge of hugging her but I figured out it wasn’t the best thing to do. So what did I do? I texted Niel. I guess he knows so much more than I do. And when he got to where we were, he ruffled her hair and said “Don’t cry. You’re so ugly already.  What more if you cry? The people will think that this pageant is all just a joke. They will throw tomatoes on you.” And he laughed so loud. :O  guess I made the wrong move? He just made her feel worse didn’t he? I mean who’s going to  be relieved with that? But to my surprise Lime flashed what probably the sweetest and most sincere smile I’ve seen from her. She really is weird. And what was the best about her was that she didn’t need any compliments like other girls do, instead, she was even delighted that Niel …insulted her. Haha. She really is somethin’ huh? :D

Anyways. After some time, they called us for dinner. We were really nervous. I think the girls didn’t even have proper dinner. Haha. As for us? Of course we did! What did you expect? We’re going to say “no” to food?! Yea right. Haha

“Guys. The stage is all set up. You’ll be out any minute now. Fix yourselves. We know you can do this.” One of the choreographers said while smiling.

“Aww. Look at you guys. You all look so beautiful.” Another one of them said smiling—with matching twinkle in his/her eyes. (I don’t know address him/her)

“Aww. So we’re not pretty before?” One of the girls (Lime’s schoolmate) said while pouting. Haha. She’s so cute :D

“Aniya. That’s not what I meant. You know, and I know you are all pretty, with or without any makeup on. And above that, you are beautiful inside and out. So what now? Group hug?!”

We all went to him and hugged each other. Well, we tried to. There’s just too many of us. Haha. I am really going to miss these guys.

“Let’s do this!” and we all rushed to the backstage, did I mention? We are at the studio so we basically had to go down 3 floors. And all of us, yes ALL, even the girls and their high-heeled shoes RAN downstairs.

Lime’s POV

The next morning…

Are you all wondering how the pageant went? Well, it went smooth to all of us. At start, some were nervous, well, including me of course. But since one of the hosts is also one of the choreographers, he made us really comfortable. It felt like a normal conversation. But of course, someone has to win right? :D And guess who? :D Niel Oppa was Mr. Interhigh and Bora Unnie was Ms. Interhigh. They both deserve the title. After the whole event was finished, they invited us to have some bonding and snacks. Well, being the good daughters that we were, all the ladies denied the invitation and just wished the guys a good time.

Sunday…

As for now, we went to the church after that had lunch at a restaurant. Umma and Appa said that they were proud of me. Well, I was really happy with everything that happened too. :D Minwoo also texted me last night and said that he was proud of me too and that I will always be the best for him. Haha. Don’t you think he’s sweet? Aww. I miss him already. For the past weeks we haven’t talked that much becaus I always had practices and everything in preparation for the pageant. I’m just glad it’s finally over. :D And what I was happier about was that finally, tomorrow, some quality time with my friends and of course, MY Oppa :D

AFTER A FEW MONTHS.

There weren’t any exciting events so there’s no harm in skipping a few months :D Well, not that much I mean. You see, after the pageant, I and Minwoo had great times together. He knew about the guys who have been close to me and guess who told him about them? It was Niel. At first he said he was ok with it, but then he knew that Eric is still texting me. At first all the guys were texting me, They asked me about girls, yes, they were asking me what girls want and don’t want. Haha. But eventually I lost contact with the others. In the end, Eric was the only one whom I kept in contact with. Minwoo finally admitted that he’s jealous of him. I was a bit irritated because it took him time to finally admit it and at that it felt like he does not trust me.

And it wasn’t just that. Recently, we have been fighting so often. Our friends are worried about us, but when we’re ok, we are really sweet so that cancels out every worry that they have inside them. But seriously, I am beginning to get tired of this. And… one night, while we were texting, he suddenly brought out some topics that we had had misunderstandings about.

Aish. We’re always like this. What’s happening to us? –Minwoo

Oppa. Are you getting tired of this?- Lime

(After a few minutes)

Oppa?- L

Hmm? To be honest, I am getting kind of tired with all these. –M

I didn’t know how to react. What would I do? I have been holding on to what we have even though I knew all along that we aren’t really meant for each other. And if before I would correct myself and say “not now at least”, now I don’t think we are meant to be together at all. I know I have been unreasonable lately. I am always in a bad mood. But… I’m tired of this too. T.T

Hey?- L

Uhm. Oppa. So, what do you think should we do? I mean, you’re not happy anymore. And… I hate to say this but I am too…-L

I don't even know now why I asked this when I know fully weel that he might just answer the worst thing that I will ever hear from him. I definitely love him, the way I always used to. Never did my love for him lessened. Never did I think of letting go. I wanted to hold on. I wanted to be the girl for him. But what can I do? To tell ypu the truth, I am longing for acceptance. I know we're still young, but can't they even make me feel like I exist? I don't need them to welcome me to their family like the way other families do when they find out that their child has a "girlfriend" if that's what you even call me. But instead, every time I see his Umma, I feel like she's burrying me alive with her stares. I don't mean anything but it's what I feel. And the worst is that he can't even or he's not even trying to do anything for me. If I'm not mistaken, he can't even mention my name when her Umma is around. One time, we were doing the props for our play, we-- I mean Me, Minwoo and our groupmates-- were supposed to meet at a certain someone's house. I was already there but he told me that he'll go there with his Umma.  Then he texted  me and asked me what part of the house I was at. I told him I am at the gate 'coz they made me do something and it was the only available place. Guess what? He said:

Can you please go inside for a while? Umma might see you.

I am not even doing anything to harm him. Just seeing me near him is a bad thing? Wow. I didn't know I was that bad. But seriously, it's hurting me. But I never complained about it because I was afraid he might think that I am making him choose. I want to. But i don't have any right. And I know we are still young.

I'M JUST SO D*MN HURT. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I KNOW I WANT TO BE WITH HIM, BUT I AM HUMAN TOO. I HAVE MY WEAKNESSES, UNFORTUNATELY MY HEART AND MIND AREN'T SAYING THE SAME THING. THEY ARE SCREAMING TWO DIFFERENT THINGS. I LOVE HIM. I WOULD LOVE TO BE WITH HIM... BUT I KNOW, EVEN IF I CANNOT ADMIT IT TO MYSELF THAT SOMEDAY, SOMEHOW WE HAVE TO SAY GOODBYE.

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