KYUHYUN’S POV

i wake up and.. wait.. is today.. is today the day that leeteuk and taeyeon will take jangmi??

today??

no... no seriously i don’t want to get up.. i don’t want to face what ever will happen today

but why is everything still dark? what time is it?

i roll my body and look at the clock on the end table next to my bed and... 23:37 PM!!!

oh.. it’s almost midnight...a few minutes left and the day will come

can i stop time? can i pause my life and stay in 23:37 PM forever?

aish come on kyuhyun don’t be silly.. i close my eyes but i can’t stop thinking about what will happen tomorrow morning, i will lose jangmi forever?

wait, what will happen to me and seohyun? i mean the reason we live together is because of jangmi....

i open my eyes because i can’t sleep at all, i look at the clock again and it’s.. 23:38

i don’t want the clock to show me the number 00:00 because that will mean the day’s finally come.

i decide to get up and go to the living room

i wonder if seohyun can sleep... she cried so hard when we clean up jangmi’s room, i try my best not to cry and be strong for her but seeing her like this make me feel so weak

i open her bedroom door slowly peeking her and i see her still sleeping, i give my self a sigh.. thank god she can sleep, i close the bedroom door and go to the living room

i sit on the couch and i look to my left and i spot jangmi’s stuffs that we finished clean up, everything’s already inside the box... this is really happening? jangmi will be taken away. and it will happen tomorrow, and tomorrow is less than half hour left

i’ve been pushing my self to be strong but how can i stay strong when someone i love will leave me? forever

i can’t help but cry, i cry because i’m mad, i’m mad at myself, i’m weak! i can’t do anything, i should’ve do something frome the first time i find out leeteuk and taeyeon meet up, i should’ve do something!! but what did i do?? get sick! i’m weak.

....... my chest.. it’s starting to hurt again... KK KYUHYUN WHY ARE YOU SO WEAK?!! i’m so mad at my self. i hit my chest so hard “STOP” “STOP” i keep hitting my chest trying to remove the pain but it get worse, ..bip.. the sound of the clock distract my attention, i look over to the clock and now... 23:40

20 minutes left? “ 20 MINUTES” i yell and i throw the clock to the wall so hard and the clock broken to pieces

i feel my heart beating so fast and it hurt, i hold my chest and hit it again “KYUHYUN YOU’RE WEAK! YOU NEED TO FIGHT THIS PAIN! YOU NEED TO PROTECT SEOHYUN!! BUT HOW CAN YOU PROTECT SEOHYUN WHEN YOU CAN’T EVEN FIGHT THIS PAIN?!?!” i said as i cry.. i didn’t realize that i was screaming

“KYUHYUN!!!!” seohyun sound shock and she run towards me, she sit next to me and hold my hand trying to make me stop hitting my chest

SEOHYUN’S POV

i can’t sleep.. at all.. everything feels so slow, but it’s good though.. i don’t want everything to past by.. i don’t want this day to be over soon, i want this day to be pause and stay like this forever

i heard footstep walking towards my room and someone open my bed room, i close my eyes pretending to sleep, i know it’s kyuhyun, i know he’s checking in on me to see if i can sleep or not, i don’t want him to worry about me so i pretend that i sleep, i heard the door being closed and i open my eyes again

i roll my self left and right and left and right trying to find the good position but everything is the same, everything feels wrong.. maybe because everything in my life is wrong.

DRAAK my eyes got widen when i heard something being bang to the wall, and i can hear something broken, i get up and open the door slowly.. i thought it’s a robber or something so i open the door silently and walk slowly to the living room but it’s not a robber or a bad guy.. it’s kyuhyun.. he’s crying.. hitting his chest 

i close my mouth and cry “KYUHYUN YOU’RE WEAK! YOU NEED TO FIGHT THIS PAIN! YOU NEED TO PROTECT SEOHYUN!! BUT HOW CAN YOU PROTECT SEOHYUN WHEN YOU CAN’T EVEN FIGHT THIS PAIN?!?!” he yell and i get weak.. looking at him.. he’s so vulnerable right now and he still trying to be strong.. i can’t hold my self and i yell “KYUHYUN!!!” 

i run towards him and sit next to him, i hold both of his hands trying to stop him from hitting his chest

“kyuhyun.. what are you doing?” i said as i cry hard

“seohyun...” he said with his small voice

i grab his hand harder, his hands are sweating.. his face’s red from all the crying, he’s so pale, i know it’s because his heart problem.. he shouldn’t be like this

“kyuhyun i’m here, you don’t need to try hard to be strong for me because without you even trying you are more than strong for me” i said and he look at me but he look so pale and no energy 

“seohyun..” he keep calling my name with small voice and he keep breathing hardly

i cry and hols his hand so tight.... kyuhyun stay with me please, don’t do this.. 

i cry because i feel like he’s leaving me.. NO! seohyun don’t think about something like that, he’s strong.. he can do this

“yes? kyuhyun.. i’m here, what is it?” i ask him trying to control my voice

“it...hurts...so much” he said and he squeeze my hands

i freeze. i feel like i’ve been strike by a lighting, i don’t know what to do, he hasn’t start the therapy yet so the doctor hasn’t gave him any medicine, tears start to fall again and this time i can’t control my tears.. but i know i can’t cry.. i have to be strong for him, he has always be strong for me and this time i’m the one who need to step up

“kyuhyun look at me” i said and i put my hands on his cheeks 

he look at me. his face’s sweaty and i can see tears forming in his eyes

“you will be ok.. i know that, and i know that you can fight this.. i’m here. you need to know that i’m here and i will always be here, and kyuhyun.. please.. please don’t you ever do that again.. don’t you ever hurt yourself again.. please” i said as i cry and my hand keep holding his face

“i’m sorry... i just.. i’m ...mad at myself because i can’t... i can’t protect you and.... and .. seeing you cry.. sorry.. sorry for hurting you” he said with his small voice and heavy breath

“you are always strong for me.. you don’t even need to try.. you.. you’re always and will always be my hero.. and just so you know you never hurt me.. i know it’s sad that jangmi will be taken away from us.. but i don’t want to lose you either.... kyuhyun you never hurt me, you know that? please don’t hurt yourself again because it won’t help, it’ll make everything worse.. and... it hurt me” he look at me and his breath is starting to be normal again but his face’s still pale

“seohyun i’m sorry... i’m so sorry.. i love you” he said

“i love you too” i smile and i hold his hands again

“i know it’ll be hard.. but you need to believe me ok? we need to to this together” i said and he nodded

“come here” i said as i put pillow on my lap and give him a signal to lay down on my lap

he rest his head on my lap and i rub his head and he close his eyes

i lean and kiss his forehead and he open his eyes 

“thank you... for being here.. for everything” he said

i nodded and smile 

DING DONG DING DONG DING DONG the big clock on the living room make a noise... kyuhyun and i look at the wall where the big clock is and yes... its midnight.. today is the day.. it’s finally here

kyuhyun look up to me and i keep rubbing his hair, “don’t worry.. i’m here” i said

“sleep now” i said and i kiss his forehead again

he close his eyes and i look at the clock again

i take a deep breath and close my eyes... whatever happen tomorrow.. i will never let 

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