KYUHYUN'S POV

i'm on my way to the cafe, i don't use my car because i just feel like walking and suddenly my heart's pounding so fast

i can hear my own heart beat and.. that feeling i had came back... the feeling of losing someone important in my life

what's wrong with me? why did i always feels like this, i try to be strong but my heart's pounding so hard

seohyun, i wish you are here with me now. you're the only one that can make me feel save. 

i took a deep.. deep breath and walk to the cafe again but the thought of seohyun still in my head

am i going to lose her? but why? is she going to leave me? aish kyuhyun.. stop thinking non sense 

i arrived at the cafe.

I walk in and i spot leeteuk sitting on the back table 

"hyung.." i greet him but i stop when i spot someone else with him... Kim Taeyeon.

"taeyeon-shi?" i ask with my eyes widen.. why is she here? 

"kyuhyun please sit down, we need to talk" leeteuk said

i sit in front of them and i don't know what's going on right now

............awkward....silent

"so.." i said trying to figure out what's wrong

"kyuhyun... we.. we're now.. we are now together again" taeyeon said 

ok. they're back together again. now... what? why should i know? i don't care!!

"and the reason we tell you is because..." taeyeon continue

i stare at her.. she look nervous and i can tell that something is up.. but

"we're starting a life now, we're fixing everything that's wrong and we're ready to live our old life...... including having jangmi in our live"   leeteuk said

wait.. what did he just said?! 

my heart beat faster.. this. this is the reason i keep having the same feeling, the feeling of losing something, they're taking jangmi?? they can't do that.. not to me... not to seohyun!

"wh.. what?" i try to speak as i hold my anger 

"kyuhyun-shi we're so sorry.. this is what we have to do, she's our daughter" taeyeon said

"NO SHE'S NOT" i said as i stand up and hit the table.. i know everyone is looking at us but i don't care

"since the day you left her, since the day you gave her to seohyun.. she's not your daughter anymore. Seohyun.. she's the one who always been there for her.. seohyun is the one who take care and love jangmi with all her heart! jangmi is a part of her life now! you can't take her away.. not from seohyun.. not from her mother" i said as my eyes start to get watery

i'm not gonna let them do this, seohyun don't deserve this.

"kyuhyun.. i'm her mother.. i gave birth to her" taeyeon said 

"AND YOU THINK THAT'S ENOUGH?!" i said and i start to yell again. Leeteuk stand up and trying to calm me down but i ignore him

"you think giving birth to her is enough to call yourself mother? yah! taeyeon-shi, do you still remember.. even before you and leeteuk broke up seohyun is the one who take care of jangmi! everytime you and leeteuk are fighting.. you always ask seohyun to take care of jangmi.." i said 

"kyuhyun!" leeteuk said but i still ignore him, i look at taeyeon with all the anger i have in my head and i see tears in her eyes but.. what the hell...

"taeyeon-shi did you forget that you are the one who give jangmi to seohyun?! did you forget that? and you think you could just take her back again?! the way you treated jangmi... the way you treated seohyun.. how can you call your self a mother and a friend?!!" i said

"KYUHYUN-AH!" Leeteuk said and he punch me

i stil stand there, with my face looking down and my bleeding lips, people are staring but i ignore everythin

i wipe my lips and look at them

"and now i'm the bad guy for telling the truth?" i said

"kyuhyun, no matter what happen.. she.. she will always be my daughter.. i make a mistake.. everybody make a mistake and now i'm fixing it" taeyeon said and she start to cry

"fixing your mistake by making another one? way to go" i said 

"there's nothing you can do" leeteuk said and i look at him

"when taeyeon gave jangmi to you, you didn't sign anything.. so legally jangmi's still our daughter and we have the right to take her back. there's nothing you can do" leeteuk said

"if you don't give jangmi back to us.. the children department will take her and give her to us.. so you don't have a choice" leeteuk said

i can't believe what i'm hearing.. i just stand there looking at them with anger in my head

seohyun.. how am i going to tell her.. seohyun i'm so sorry everything's a mess.. i'm so sorry you have to lose something you love.. i'm so sorry i can't do anything... seohyun i know how much you love jangmi.. i'm so sorry

"you have to give her back next week, or the department will take her" leeteuk said

"take your time to tell seohyun" he said

bastard. how do you expect me to tell her?!

i curl my hand into a fist and i punch him.. i punch him so hard and he fall down.. taeyeon stand and help him get up

"that's for seohyun" i said and i walk away

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i sit under the tree.. looking into the lake with my empty head.. and seohyun face pop in my mind

she's smiling.. she's holding jangmi's hand.. i'm right next to her.. the three of us are having a good time .. we're having another seokyumi day but suddenly jangmi fall and she's gone.. everything now is dark.. seohyun and i are calling jangmi's name but there are no answer... she's gone

"kyuhyun-ah" a voice said and it break my thoughts

i wipe my tears and greet my best friend who's standing and looking at me "oh.. hi donghae hyung" 

"are you ok?" he ask me, Donghae has been a really good friend for me since a long time

he knows about my life, he knows how happy my life is with seohyun and jangmi, he knows why leeteuk and taeyeon gave jangmi to seohyun in the first place.. but he didn't know that all my happy life will soon be over

"umm i'm fine hyung" i lied

"yah! don't lie! if you're fine, you wont be sitting here and shading tears like a girl" he said

i just stare blankly at the lake and my eyes start to get watery

"hyung.. my life's soon falling apart" i said

"kyu...kyuhyun.. what's going on?" he said and he sit next to me

"leeteuk.. taeyeon.. they're together again.. and they're taking jangmi away from me and seohyun" i said and tears start to fall

"WHAT?! why did they do that?? how can they do that?!" he ask

"seohyun and i are not legally jangmi's parents or family.. we have to sign a paper but we didn't.. so yeah.. they can do that" i said trying as hard as i can to except the truth

"that's unfair! kyuhyun.. what are you gonna do?" he ask

"i don't know hyung.. i'm weak. i can't even defend my self.." i said and tears start to fall even more

yeah. i'm weak. i can't stop shading tears. i should've do something but all i do is sitting near the lake and cry. i'm weak.

"kyuhyun, you know that there's nothing you can do, so it doesn't mean that you're weak if you cry" he said

"hyung.. i can't imagine how i'm gonna tell seohyun, she love jangmi too much.. i can't do this to her.. since the first day we live together.. she always took a good care of jangmi, she always smile even when jangmi cry.. even when jangmi wake her up in the middle of the night.. she always stay by jangmi's side no matter what. i can tell that sometime she's tired and she want to take a rest but she never care about herself.. all that she care about is jangmi's happiness.. " i said and donghae patted my back

"kyuhyun, everything will be ok" he said

"she's destined to be jangmi's mother.. why should this happen to her?" i said

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*knock knock*

i knock the apartment door, my hands are shaking.. my body's cold and my eyes are swollen.. i hope seohyun didn't get worried to much seeing me like this.. oh and there's a bruise under my bottom lips because leeteuk's punch

the door's open and i see seohyun look at me and get shock

"KYU?! what happened?!?!" she said 

i try to answer.. but it's so hard for me to open my mouth.. i look at her.. 

i look at her eyes.. her beautiful eyes. 

i'm about to make those eyes full of tears.. i'm about to make her heart broke into pieces 

seohyun.. how should i tell you? when should i tell you? how should i tell you? should i even tell you?

"kyuhyun are you ok? please answer me" she said placing her hands on my cheek so i'm facing her

i can't even say anything.. i hug her

i hug her tight.. so tight 

"kyuhyun please tell me what's wrong" she said

"seohyun.." i said

i keep hugging her and i start to cry.. 

"kyuhyun... kyuhyun are you ok? talk to me.. please i'm here" i said

i want to tell her.. but i feel so weak.. everything is blurry and my head is dizzy.. i try to hold my body but i can't and i fall down

"KYUHYUN?!" i heard seohyun's voice screaming my name... everything's black but i still feel her hand holding my hand

"kyuhyun please wake up.. kyuhyun" she said and i can feel her standing up and i can hear the telephone beeping but i can't open my eyes

"yeoboseyo?? yes i need ambulance now!" she said while crying

i still can't open my eyes..

"seohyun i love you... i'm sorry" i said and i lost my consciousness

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