It's not the same anymore. The night when we were all gathering to have a memorable farewell party is the night that I wish to rewind. If life was a videotape, where you would rewind and fast-forward, I would have rewind it to that one night, so that I would not have hurt him that way, looked at him that way, thought of him that way, parted and ignored him that way because I already know that...that...that he was not going to live on. 

"Youngbae..." I cried, wailing on the floor. " My baby, Youngbae... I'm sorry." 

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" Guys," Youngbae said, " I am going to move to somewhere which is very far away from you all..." 

" To where, hyung?" Seungri asked.

" I'm not going to tell you." he smiled. " I can't tell you. But I'll be able to rest peacefully there. " 

All of us were confused at this statement. I thought he was joking. I thought he was saying that he would move in to the city with me, spending the rest of our lives together. After all, we could not bear to say goodbye, can we? But Youngbae's expression turned serious. He sat on the sand and looked away. 

" Don't look for me, you guys will never find me. I hide well." Youngbae spoke. 

The atmosphere was not right. I placed a hand on his shoulder. " What are you talking about, Bae?" I laughed nervously. " Yah, baby, you're always bad with jokes." He shoved my hand away. 

" I'm not joking, Jiyong. Do I look like I'm joking? I'm moving somewhere. I can't and I'm not going to tell you." Youngbae said coldly. 

Seunghyun then stepped in front of me. " The heck, Youngbae! What's wrong with you today?! Why are you saying these kind of things?! This is so damn not funny, dude." 

Youngbae said nothing, he just stared at the dark sea with an unreadable expression. 

"Hyung, what do you mean? If you're having some trouble, you can always share it with us." Daesung said. 

" Right, you must be having some problems eh, hyung? Then, leave it to Seungri. It'll be easier to solve." Seungri said after Daesung. 

" Yah! Say something, Youngbae!" Seunghyun's voice was loud and clear. This is not funny, Youngbae. I could see Seunghyun gripping his hands tighter and tighter. 

" Because I hate all of you. " He growled. I have not seen that kind of expression before. It was pure hate, as if he had been holding it for a long time. We were all taken aback. I would lie if I say I was not scared. All this time, Youngbae was always a passionate person. Never have I seen him this furious before. I could not stay silent any longer.