Yuri’s POV

            “ Yul….”

            A loud familiar voice broke my thought away. Within a short period of time, I gathered my sense back, before somebody caught me lost in reverie again. It was kind of embarrassing, had people seeing your blank expression wile you sunk on your deep thought. Well, it happened to me all these times, and I bet they began to think of me being a weirdo as a result.

            “ Penny for your thought? “ The petite figure woman made her way towards me. I cracked a slight smile as her presence was just a meter apart. Her motherly and caring nature radiated from her warm and kind personality.

            “ Anniyo… I’m just lack of sleep last night…” I replied nonchalantly while forcing a fake yawn, trying to lessen her suspiciousness. I appreciated her good intention though, but I’m not ready to open up anytime sooner. To be honest I’m not good at telling people about my feeling –besides I think it was better off this way.

            “ How’s your grandma?  “ The woman I called Taeyeon unnie asked me –I could sense her sincerity as she gave me such concern look. Despite being dorky sometimes, she was still the mature woman I could always lean on.

            “ She’s getting better…” A slight smile captured upon my lips.

            It had been two days since halmeoni discharged from hospital. I was glad her condition getting better day by day –she deserved it though to think about how much she struggled throughout her lifetime. Halmeoni had to struggle alone when harabeoji passed away –it happened after my dad’s nine years old birthday. She is a woman who isn’t only tough and strong but also caring and gentle. I was glad I had a grandmother like her –she could be the best present God had sent to me after He took my parent away.

            Oh, yeah, talking about how days passed, it kind of reminded me of my due date. The day of my forceful marriage –No, I couldn’t say things like that though, as I had agreed. So, let me correct it –a marriage contract. A secret contract between him and me –it was getting nearer as the times ticking with such a pace. I didn’t know why I feel nervous each time I thinking about the biggest decision I had ever made throughout my twenty three years living. The thought of it made me gulped my throat in apprehensive. Does every bride feel this way before their marriage? Why do I feel like crying and ended up distancing myself from him?

            “ Um, unnie…”

            “ Neh…” Taeyeon unnie laid her attention back on me, as she stopped herself from chopping the vegetables. I helped myself from the sudden oddly feeling by gulping amount of air inside. I caught her intense gaze before I shooting what’s been hanging on my mind recently.

            “ How does it feel to marry someone? “

            Called me for being too innocent or what –but I did. Her gaze softened up upon realizing where the conversation going. She couldn’t help but exploding her ahjumma laughter across my face –I pursued my lips in dissatisfaction.

            “ Yah! Yul, what are you talking about? Are you drunk or got hit by a bus before? “ She blurted out –oh, yeah, I forgot that she still the dorky and annoying prankster. I folded my hands across my chest, while leaned my back on the cabinet. She suppressed her laughter down as she saw my solemn face.

            “ Unnie… I’m serious! “

            “ Okays hahaha oh, gee, you’re being ridiculous sometimes, Yul… “ I could saw the tears on the edge of her right eyes –she must be laughing too much. Taeyeon unnie composed herself before gave me the proper reply.

            “ Um, well… To tell the truth, it was the best decision I had ever made. Marrying someone you love, grow old together, and spending time for almost everyday –I couldn’t ask for more. So, if you want to know how it feels, then I will say it’s the most wonderful feeling…” she stated gleefully. I could see her eyes gleaming in joy as she gave me her whole opinion of being married. I didn’t know why, but I feel jealous of her. She married someone because of love, not for a contract or just helping out a stranger. It reminded me of times when I told myself that I’m going to marry someone I love in the future –guess that my luck didn’t work out properly this time.

            “ Um, did you by any chance, feeling nervous or something during the wedding preparation? “

            Blame it on my stubborn side then, as I kept shooting her some silly questions. She didn’t seem to mind though –yet I knew it might have a bad effect on me later. I tried to shrug off the uncertainty away and let my curiosity take over.

            “ Why are you asking me such question all of sudden? It’s doesn’t sound like you…” She smiled. Well as you see, I didn’t even tell my colleagues about my rush wedding this weekend. I felt like I’m not even ready to announce it, and decided to tell them when everything was done –it wasn’t like I invited them to my private wedding.

            “ Nope… Just kind of curious! “ I backed away and guess that she buy it, though –I sighed in relief.

            “ Yeah, of course I did nervous… I refused to meet him three days before the wedding ceremony, because you know what? I felt like being emotional each time I saw his face. We argued a lot everytime he gave me a visit, and at that time, I started to doubt my decision to marry him. My older sister then came to me and saying stuffs that it was normal for a bride and groom. So, I took my time and convince myself that it was just a phase every couple had experience before their marriage and yeahs, I ended up marrying him… And I’m not regret it for a bit! “ She said cheekily as she had her eyes winked. A smile curved on my lips –it gave me such a hope.

            “ You must be very happy right? “

            She covered her face, trying to hide her blushing cheeks from my sight –too bad it was obvious.

            “ Of course I do…” Despite being shy and all, she wasn’t the type of woman who can hide her feeling without being noticed. “ And do you know what?” She paused. “ I’m pregnant eight weeks already, but I haven’t told Sehun, yet…”

            I caught her lighten expression came to the surface. I was so happy upon hearing about her pregnancy. She had been married for one year, and it might be the best present for the couple.

            “ Congratulations, unnie. But, why you didn’t tell him? “ I uttered a naïve question. She rolled her eyes playfully, while gave me a light hit on the arms. Gee, she’s so physical woman sometimes.

            “ It’s a surprise, Yul, duh. Tomorrow is our first wedding anniversary so it might be the perfect time for me to announce the news… “

            I couldn’t help but chuckled. Taeyeon unnie and her husband Sehun wasn’t like the typical married couple I’ve met. They acted like a pair of bestfriend sometimes, instead of a newly wedding couple. I shook my head in amusement.

            “ Okays, then good luck for your surprise, unnie… I bet Sehun oppa will be over the moon after he found out about the baby inside…”

            I couldn’t deny the fact that I felt a small pang inside my heart. Seeing my friend’s happy marriage made me sinking in unreasonable jealousy –I wish I could have one too. You know, had to see your beloved husband playing with your kids on the backyard, prepare them a meals after they’re done with playing –it was something I might not have a chance to.

***

            “ Halmeoni, Seobaby, I’m home…” I knocked the main door of my house. It didn’t take much time as I sensed a pair of legs on the opposite side, opened the wooden door for me. I caught my eyes widen in surprise as our gaze met. The sudden nervous grew inside of me as I began to act frantically –I wish I could control myself better.

            “ You home? “ I threw a casual question on him, as I stepped myself in. He closed the door slowly before followed my steps behind. Yes, he left the house this early morning, even before I had a chance to ask him. I thought he was going to runaway or something –but he was back, much to my disappointment.<