Why is it always the world need someone who looks like angel? Who have a good face? Who have a good body shape? Why? Is it true that people with no good face, no good body shape, and who didn't look like an angel should not be in the industry? These question keep bugging me all the day, since I debuted and after I debuted, I can see in all the angels eyes, they do not accept me in this industry, they can't accept that the way my look looks like, they say I'm too ugly to be an artist. I should not be in here, I should vanish from this world. Their words keep stabbing me hards like a thousands of swords came stuck trough my hearts. It hurts.. Its really hurts.. Every night I will crying over in the toilet when everyone was fell asleep. It just I always have a these kind of dreams, the people are judging me by my looks, all I want is some happiness, some protection and some love.. Why can't these people give me these things?? Am I too unprecious to be loved? I thought slowly as my tears keep streaming down onto my cheeks. I was crying once again in the toilet. Suddenly a door cracks open a bit just to reveal a messy hair L.joe. There he is, the one that gain a lots of popularity in our group Teen Top. Why?? It's a simple question, he has a good looking face, everyone love a boy that have a good looking face right? "Niel-ah,, what are you-why are you crying?" He asked me while step closer to me. Quickly I wiped away the tears, "W-what?? Haha, no.. No.. I'm not crying, I just have some scary dream, thats why I came over here and well yeah.. Haha, okay l.joe hyung, I'm gonna go off to bed first. Haha, besides I don't wanna see you do your bussiness." I said to him while laughing before step out and goes to my room that I share with Changjo.~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ L.joe P.O.V~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ What's wrong with that boy? These lately I've seen him been crying a lot at midnight, what's wrong with him. I must find it out, but let's check it out tomorrow. I thought to myself and shrugged it off. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Niel P.O.V~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ After some times crying inside the toilet I creeped up on my bed that I was shared it with Changjo, our maknae in Teen Top. These lately he was change from a lovely boy to a manlier boy. I smile at his adorable sleeping face before turn my back facing him and close my eyes. Suddenly I can feel his hands slide onto my waist pulling me closer in the process, my back was pressing against his chest, his legs hook on my hips. I can feel his stable breath tickling my neck. "Mmm.. Niel hyung.. Where did you go?" He mumbles. "I-I go to toilet." I answered him. "mm... Next time don't dissappear like that, you makes me worried" I turn back, struggling in the process, "Changjo ah, do you sleep?" I asked him. "......." No anwers, a soft snore can be heard escaping from his lips. I smile at him before closing my eyes, inhale deeply before darkness take over me..~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Here the first part.. Hope you'll like it... Sorry for the hard font to read, I type it on my phone so yeah, it would be like this.. Anyways comments are appreciated... So once again sorry for the short chapter..