Experiencing Love: Insecurity

First Love

Seohyun hummed a familiar and most recognisable tune as she walked down the hall of the SM Entertainment building. After speaking with BoA, one of her most trusted Unnies, Seohyun felt much better than she had once did. The love she was feeling for Kyuhyun didn't seem to make her heart hang as lowly as it did. No. Instead, she felt happy. Oh so strangely happy. Seohyun wasn't even sure why, but perhaps that was simply the way love. It causes many different emotions in the blink of an eye.

As the Maknae of Girls' Generation continued to walk down the hall, something stopped her. It was Song Qian, or better known as Victoria, the leader of F(x). She was talking on the phone, a smile of her face. Victoria always looked so beautiful, Seohyun couldn't help but stare. Without make-up, she still seemed flawless. Seohyun quickly turned to look at her own reflection in the glass window which overlooked a part of Seoul, why couldn't she be like Victoria? Then, a sudden thought quickly ran through Seohyun's head.

What if Kyuhyun didn't love a girl like her?

What if Kyuhyun thought Victoria was more beautiful and loved her instead?

What if Kyuhyun never liked her at all?

What if she confessed to Kyuhyun and he decided to reject her?


What if Kyuhyun decided to stop talking to her after that?

What if...


Seohyun shook her head in a scolding manner, now she was feeling sad. Why was she asking 'What if' questions? It was pointless since most 'what if's never happened anyway. The maknae sighed, she didn't know why it felt so weird. Besides, beauty was in the eye of the beholder. Everything was based on opinion. Now, it just depended what Kyuhyun's opinion was. Seohyun had watched many people, many dramas and read many books where people would act foolishly in love. She never thought that she would end up like them.

The Girls' Generation maknae breathed in and out, calming down her anxious and weary spirit. Her chest was tightening slightly, her heart beating in a rapid pace. Seohyun felt her tongue going dry, the fluids leaving . She closes her eyes then, thinking of the image of Kyuhyun. That was enough to make her calm down. It was even enough to make her blushing.

Finally feeling calmer than she once did, Seohyun opened her eyes and began to go along her way. She would have said hello to her older unnie, but Seohyun could see that Victoria was talking on the phone.

"Kyuhyun oppa, that doesn't even make sense!" Victoria exclaimed with a smile on her lips, Seohyun's eyes widened. Without a word, the Super Junior maknae turned to head to Victoria with slightly widened eyes. Her lower lip trembled. Victoria was talking to Kyuhyun over the phone. Victoria. Not Seohyun. The maknae was beginning to feel in creeping over her. She began to feel the insecurity taking place. Why did people have to have the feeling of insecurity? It didn't help anyone, all it caused was sadness and pain.

"..." Silently, Seohyun simply stared. Victoria quickly said her goodbyes to Kyuhyun, shutting her phone. Victoria looked up to see Seohyun staring at her slightly. The leader of F(x) gave an all knowing smile.

"Hi Joohyun-ah." Victoria smiles at the other. Although Seohyun felt bitter on the inside, she couldn't help but smile back. Seohyun gave her signature bow, then looking back up.

"Hello." Seohyun spoke simply.

"I was talking to Kyuhyunnie." Victoria then mentioned, causing Seohyun's eyes to glaze over with ice. The leader giggled to herself, she noticed. She, just like Boa, knew.

"Hm, I know. I heard you say his name." Seohyun replied politely, Victoria laughe even more.

"Don't worry Joohyun, he's all yours." Victoria ensured the younger, causing Seohyun to blush once again. Honestly, Seohyun was sick of blushing, she had done it so many times.

"U-Unnie..." Seohyun stuttered as she looked down.

"Good luck chasing him down, okay?" Victoria said, giving Seohyun a smile.

"Y-Yes." Seohyun stuttered once again, Victoria waved then.

"Bye~" Victoria sang, Seohyun simply waved.

Suddenly, Seohyun heard her phone beep. The maknae took her phone eye, her eyes widening and a smile sweeping onto her lips.

To:Joohyun
I'm back.
From:Kyuhyun


Seohyun felt her heart beating again.

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Sorry, it's so short... I've just finished studying, but I'm meant to do my homework... I'll try to update it more often~! >_<

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tsukuyomi-sakurachi #1
Chapter 15: I see. I understand. Nonetheless, thanks for sharing this beautiful seokyu story to us.
milkyberry #2
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pinkmonsters #3
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corinneniix
#4
Chapter 15: Open for grabs?? Are you serious??
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ILovePikachu2
#5
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#7
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tsukuyomi-sakurachi #8
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Cuatas4ever #9
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corinneniix
#10
ERICA UPDATE THIS