"Best Friend".....
Slave Heart
Minhyo's P.V.
On Monday I couldn't wait to tell my best friend Lee about the contest! He has always wanted to to a Kpop idol so i wanted to tell him my news! I got to the lunch table and greeted all of my friends"
"Hey guys"
"Hi Funmi!"
"Lee, you know i entered a contest!"
"What is it for?"
I was so excited to tell him! It was all i could do to not jump up and down!
"To Meet SHINee!!!!" I said with a huge smile. but he just looked at me like he didn't know what to say
".....BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!" X'D
"Why are you laughing...?"
"Because they are not going to pick you! Why would you enter something like that?"
"WHY NOT!"
"...Well look at you.." He was grinning
"Why, whats wrong with me?"
" You are BLACK!! They are probably going to pick some hot Asian or White girl! They wont pick you.." He was still smiling i didn't understand how he could be insulting me while smiling in my face...
"How do you know"...my voice was getting shaky.
"Because Asians like milk skinned, small, long black haired, almond eyed girls. Unlike you...you are like a monkey. You are dark skin, and fat...thats not even your real hair!!"
He is always like this. He is always putting me down. The first year of our friendship he was really nice and sweet to me. He even stood up for me when other kinds made fun of me. Or comforted me when i was sad or angry...but for the past 4 years ...its been like this....There were tears in my eyes.
"You know, you are always like this. All you do is insult and criticize me! No matter what it is you can never just encourage or compliment me!" i was yelling at him now
"Come on. Stop being so complicated. You know i love you! You are my BEST FRIEND! I'm Just kidding come on."
I was so angry i couldn't stop. I went to him for support and this is what i get...
"You know why i wont dance in front of you? Why i can't speak Korean or Chinese in front of you, sing in front of you!! I can't do anything in front of you because i am always scared you will laugh at me! All you do is laugh at me!"
"Calm down. You always get so emotional! You know you are my best friend, its because i love you so much!"
"I'm so sick of this.."
I grab my things and leave without eating lunch. Lee doesn't bother to come after me. I run to a secret place and spend the rest of my lunch period bitterly sobbing...crying my heart out...No...i will show them all. I must win. They are wrong. The world isn't such an evil and incepting place. I will show them....they are wrong...
Authors P.V.
Min Hyo continues to work hard with her challenge. Her mother contunues to scold her and she will no longer speak to her "friend". Everytime she uploads a video, other contestants and people harass her online. Saying that she is an insult to Asians. A month passes and Minhyo enters her final entry. For the next month she waits in anticipation. She doesn't give her mother any updates, and she still will not talk to her friend....he doesn't look for her either...
A lot of the things in this chapter is true. My so called "best friend" really treats me like this. Thanks to him my confidence level is 0. it really makes me sad. Even though i care for him, i have limited our communication because i couldn't take it anymore :'( And the online bullying didn't happen to me but i myself read comments like those posted on other peoples YouTube pages for involving themselves in Asian culture though they are not Asian.
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