Upset.
I'm Not Her.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jka14KS4mWA
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Throughout the class, the two of you awkwardly and silently sat there.
When the bell rang, DaeHyun hurriedly left.
You grabbed his wrist but was taken aback when he flared at you, snatching his hand away.
Eyes flashing in hurt you mumbled, "Did I do something wrong?"
He stared at you, emotion void in his eyes.
"What did I do in the span of 24 hours that made you hate me again?"
Again, DaeHyun was speechless.
"If you were gonna play around with me like this..why did you kiss me yesterday?"
He frowned at you.
"No no. Don't you dare make excuses. I DIDN'T KISS YOU. You kissed ME."
Tears gathered at the corners of your eyes, "Was it fun? Letting me feel like you actually had feelings for me for a moment?"
DaeHyun's heart and fists clenched.
"Well congratulations. This time..I'll leave you alone for good. I won't do anything to you. I promise. I'll stay out of your way..just please..stay out of mine."
You turned to leave when DaeHyun held your shoulder.
Vehement eyes glared at DaeHyun who flinched, "I'm sorry."
You scoffed, "Sorry?! YOU'RE SORRY?! Is this some kind of joke to you?! Is this fun for you?!"
DaeHyun yelled, "You try being in my shoes! Try getting over your dead girlfriend when there's a girl who LOOKS JUST LIKE HER! Try getting over her and feeling like a selfish moron when you fall for that girl! Do you think you could live living like me? How do you think I feel?! I like you, I really do! I don't know why because I tried so freaking damn hard to stay away from you! But I CAN'T. I CAN'T, I REALLY CAN'T. But GUESS WHAT? I can't even love that girl because I'm afraid she might die too. TRY LIVING WITH THAT GUILT-"
This was the most DaeHyun had ever said to you, you were stunned.
You tuned him out for a moment and looked down when he calmed down.
Tears slipped down your face when you whispered, "Have you ever thought for one second..that your girlfriend might want you to move on and be happy? Maybe not with me but just with anybody. If you really did try so hard to stay away from me...then why did you enter my heart in the first place?"
DaeHyun didn't reply, he looked up at your face.
You said one thing that broke his heart, "I'm not her. I'm __________. Not your girlfriend..and I don't think you'll ever be able to love me or anyone else until you understand that."
You walked away and he didn't hold you back, even though he desperately wanted to.
*I know. My heart knows that you're not. But my eyes think that you're YeRin and I'm too scared to love you, what if you die too?*
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