It’s 11 PM already, I couldn’t sleep. Never experienced insomnia before, but now... ergh I think I’m having it. But seriously, nothing’s running through my mind right now, but... Everything seems delusional. It feels like a freaking dream that I would love to wake up to. It isn’t really a nightmare, but this kind of situation made me forget who I really am. This maybe sounds so stupid, but this is life, you gotta enjoy it no  matter what happen.

I miss  how lovely those One Direction boys. I felt guilty for ignoring their text and calls recently. I’m so bored that my activities here are only go arond travelling around Jakarta and other cities nearby and doing some texts and calls with One Direction and Do Kyungsoo.

Phone buzzed. Great, just in time Liam Payne. “What happened there in Indonesia? You’ve been acting strange lately. Like rejecting our calls and ignoring textes” shoot. Why am I so predictable? Is it that hard to be a mysterious person? I was just that damn lazy to text him back. So, I decided to call him. After a few ring, he picked it up.

Feeling like hanging it up in three... two....

“Come on, just speak, how hard it could be? Say anything, please Al” I missed that name. Stupid girl, you missed your own name.

“I know you’re not deaf, I know you can speak.” He added. Still, I didn’t say anything. I’m too scared to talk, also too scared to be silent.

“You know, I hate people that call me just to waste my time. I’m sorry, but I’m busy. Al, please understand that” He sounded disappointed. Of course, I know he’s busy. And, he hung up.

Even Liam acted like this, damned what really happened?

I looked at everything again, I touched the wall. I could sense it. I breathed, I smelled Chrysantemum. What? Oh god, let me wake up now. This is not the dream that I wanted. I wanted it to be great, not like this.

I laid back to the bed. Closed  my eyes, and hoping that when I wake up in the next morning, everything will be all right.

--- the next morning ---

“Wake up, Al. It’s 7 AM and we’re leaving this house 30 minutes later.” Mom whispered in my ear, I don’t care. I could prepare myself only in 15 minutes, or maybe less. It’s not like I’m going to a party that I have to wear a dress, do some makeups and style my hair. Ew, never been to an event like that before. Gross.

“Alicia Kathy Horan. You sleep like a pig, really.” Tch mom, do you know where did I get this habit? It’s naturally from you.

“Ergh mom... Technically, you insulted yourself too” I yawned as I wake up.

“I don’t care Alicia as long as you’re up.” She said, crossing her arms in her chest. Oh cool, like a  dude.

“Yea, I wanna stay up all night and jump around until we see the sun~”

“Stop singing Alicia, get ready. You have to be downstairs by 30 minutes, or for exactly...  27 minutes. See you later.” Yes see you later mom.

I continued to sing One Direction’s Up All Night. Well, the song is catchy, Zayn’s voice too. Naw I miss Zayn, and I’m going to meet his friend in.. A week. Precisely, a week. Damn, I’m not ready. I’m going to meet a stranger that actually not a stranger, we text each other regularly, well everyday actually. But who cares. So, I changed into this [without the bags, okay...]

It’s awkward wearing this kind of clothes in a place like this. But I am weird, but I don't think that this is that weird. After I made sure that everything was ready, I proceeded to go downstairs.

The. Luggage. Oh. My. God. It’s. Not Heavy......

I didn’t leave anything behind I swear.  So now I became a swearer like Niall, greaaaat, excellent. Duh, who cares, if I really left anything behind... I would just ask Kane to keep it for me, or ask her to send her to Ireland. It’s not such a big deal since I’m staying at a cousin’s place.

When I arrived at the living room, I placed my luggage beside my mom’s. Uh oh, Kemal’s coming. He grinned at me, I just response with a smile. And guess what? He looked away from me, smirking. What the hell was that? Don’t care.

“I’ll introduce you to Kris as soon as we arrived at South Korea.” Like I ca- no, I do care about meeting Kris. I REALLY do care.

With that, he left me alone in this living room. I sat on the couch, staring at everything that exist in this room blankly. Suddenly, or magically I supposed to say, Kania appeared right next to me. She’s a real friend to me. I hugged her, she cried in my shoulder, I let her, as long as she’s comforted with it.

“Woah, you’re leaving.” She said, still sniffing.

“Well, yeah... Text me okay? Or call? Or skype?”

“You haven’t give me the boys’ skype!!”  Oh her directioner soul strikes again... Well better than no. I picked a piece of paper from the pocket in my jeans.

“Wow. The function is like doraemon’s pocket. That pocket gave me One Direction’s members’ skype.” She stared at my pocket cheerfully. Thank god you let me see her cheerful expression before I could leave her. It’s not like I’m leaving her forever, but I missed that expression of her.

“So... Ready for meeting your future husband? Do Kyungsoo?” What? KANE? WHAT HAPPENED?