Having a crush on Do Kyungsoo, might be the worst decision I’ve ever made. I don’t even know him directly, yet I already have some strange feelings for him. I don’t even know if he considers me as an acquaintance or no. We only texted few times, and those few times... Made the greatest feeling ever. No joke. That feeling when I got a text from him, wasn’t the same when I got a text from Harry. It feels different, just different.

I laid in the bed with some thoughts, Do Kyungsoo, Harry Styles and my beloved-psycho-cousin. I called Niall, but he said he was busy, I called Liam but his response was just like Niall’s. I need someone to talk to. I probably look tough, but sometimes I could be crushed by simple problems, such as these problems I’ve been thinking.

I heard a knock from the door, hope this would be Kania or Aunt Sadie, or even better, mom. And fortunately mom entered the room. Yeah oh right, now I got someone to talk to... But I feel uncertain whether I should tell her about the problems, or no.

She would just say that those problems are simple, but she knows that simple problems are always my greatest enemy while some huge problems are my greatest ally. But I’m just like that, I solved the problem between my principal and my so-called-friends in Ireland few months ago. I thought that those problems are that simple, while the other said that it was complicated.

“We’re leaving tomorrow, are you okay with that?” She’s just so nice that she still ask my opinion about that thing, of course I agree with her. Her decision are always right, not like mine.

“Having some simple problems?” Shoot, jackpot, she knew it with just seconds. Greatest mom, ever. I just looked at my fingernails lifelessly.

“Don’t hesitant to tell me everything. I know I’m your best best friend.” She said with a chuckle. Yes mom, you are and you know it.

“I have a two-faced cousin.” I paused for a second, “a stranger that suddenly barged into my life” I continued as I sighed at the words I just said. “And those are simple problems like you always say. But those problems are not that simple to me” I closed my eyes, holding back those tears that wanted to go out from its actual place.

I know I’m exaggerating, I know I’m weird, I shouldn’t cry just because all of these things. I might look tough, but at some points, I would be crushed and get down easily.

My mom didn’t say anything, she just smiled and walked to me. I looked at her, biting my upper lip, hoping she would give me some advices that probably useless at this moment. Instead of saying some advices, she hugged me and my hair. I tried to be tough again, but 1 tear fell down to my cheek.

Why am I so weak? No one would like to be a real friend of mine if I’m like this.

“Don’t ever think that you can’t face those problems. You solved many problems that actually bigger than those you’re thinking now. Just carry on, play with those problems. Just think that this is all just a game that you should play and you must win it.” Now that’s what I call real encouragement.

After having some more problem-talk with my mom, I packed my things up. I felt better than before. I put on a kpop song, it’s the acoustic version of Know Your Name by Jay Park. Best kpop song yet. I sing along with the song. My phone is lifeless right now, low battery and no one texted or called me. I don’t care- well, I kinda hope that Kyungsoo would text or call me. But he’s a damn kpop star. I know that they’re busy, just like 1D. But honestly, the management of One Direction are more humane than the management in the kpop industry.

My iPod is still playing some other songs and I’m finished with my packing. I’m leaving tomorrow, leaving Kania and Aunt Sadie, and I’m leaving with Kemal. Tch that EXO-M so-called manager. Hope Kania would be happy because Kemal is leaving her with her mom again. I hope I could be happy since Kemal coming with my mom and me. But I still hoping that Kemal would introduce me to that leader of EXO-M. He must be close with them right? He must be really nice to them, because they’re celebrity and I also see that he wants a close relationship with me because I’m close to One Direction. He never actually tell me that, but I could feel it. I always can.Having a crush on Do Kyungsoo, might be the worst decision I’ve ever made. I don’t even know him directly, yet I already have some strange feelings for him. I don’t even know if he considers me as an acquaintance or no. We only texted few times, and those few times... Made the greatest feeling ever. No joke. That feeling when I got a text from him, wasn’t the same when I got a text from Harry. It feels different, just different.

I laid in the bed with some thoughts, Do Kyungsoo, Harry Styles and my beloved-psycho-cousin. I called Niall, but he said he was busy, I called Liam but his response was just like Niall’s. I need someone to talk to. I probably look tough, but sometimes I could be crushed by simple problems, such as these problems I’ve been thinking.

I heard a knock from the door, hope this would be Kania or Aunt Sadie, or even better, mom. And fortunately mom entered the room. Yeah oh right, now I got someone to talk to... But I feel uncertain whether I should tell her about the problems, or no.

She would just say that those problems are simple, but she knows that simple problems are always my greatest enemy while some huge problems are my greatest ally. But I’m just like that, I solved the problem between my principal and my so-called-friends in Ireland few months ago. I thought that those problems are that simple, while the other said that it was complicated.

“We’re leaving tomorrow, are you okay with that?” She’s just so nice that she still ask my opinion about that thing, of course I agree with her. Her decision are always right, not like mine.

“Having some simple problems?” Shoot, jackpot, she knew it with just seconds. Greatest mom, ever. I just looked at my fingernails lifelessly.

“Don’t hesitant to tell me everything. I know I’m your best best friend.” She said with a chuckle. Yes mom, you are and you know it.

“I have a two-faced cousin.” I paused for a second, “a stranger that suddenly barged into my life” I continued as I sighed at the words I just said. “And those are simple problems like you always say. But those problems are not that simple to me” I closed my eyes, holding back those tears that wanted to go out from its actual place.

I know I’m exaggerating, I know I’m weird, I shouldn’t cry just because all of these things. I might look tough, but at some points, I would be crushed and get down easily.

My mom didn’t say anything, she just smiled and walked to me. I looked at her, biting my upper lip, hoping she would give me some advices that probably useless at this moment. Instead of saying some advices, she hugged me and my hair. I tried to be tough again, but 1 tear fell down to my cheek.

Why am I so weak? No one would like to be a real friend of mine if I’m like this.

“Don’t ever think that you can’t face those problems. You solved many problems that actually bigger than those you’re thinking now. Just carry on, play with those problems. Just think that this is all just a game that you should play and you must win it.” Now that’s what I call real encouragement.

After having some more problem-talk with my mom, I packed my things up. I felt better than before. I put on a kpop song, it’s the acoustic version of Know Your Name by Jay Park. Best kpop song yet. I sing along with the song. My phone is lifeless right now, low battery and no one texted or called me. I don’t care- well, I kinda hope that Kyungsoo would text or call me. But he’s a damn kpop star. I know that they’re busy, just like 1D. But honestly, the management of One Direction are more humane than the management in the kpop industry.

My iPod is still playing some other songs and I’m finished with my packing. I’m leaving tomorrow, leaving Kania and Aunt Sadie, and I’m leaving with Kemal. Tch that EXO-M so-called manager. Hope Kania would be happy because Kemal is leaving her with her mom again. I hope I could be happy since Kemal coming with my mom and me. But I still hoping that Kemal would introduce me to that leader of EXO-M. He must be close with them right? He must be really nice to them, because they’re celebrity and I also see that he wants a close relationship with me because I’m close to One Direction. He never actually tell me that, but I could feel it. I always can.

This story is so lame...isn't it