I stared at the peach painted ceiling, feeling quite odd. Was this what I wanted all along? Did I make the right choice? Tears fell down again when I thought of that particular man and soon, I couldn’t stop sobbing.

‘Hey, you’re still not okay?’ Suddenly, I could hear a deep voice beside me that I quickly got up from the bed.

‘I just. I feel horrible.’

It didn’t take long when I was carefully held close into his chest. The memory of what happened earlier this evening went back to my mind.

-Flashback-

‘Hyemi-ya.’

‘I don’t want to be with you. Let me go. I –I don’t know you anymore, Son Dongwoon.’ I uttered shakily but still firm with my voice. I tried to struggle free from his strong hold but he still won’t let go.

This was not where I really belonged.

‘Son Hyemi!’ His eyes got teary that it hurt me more but no, I won’t live in lies anymore.

‘Stop calling me that! That’s not my name! Let me go, you liar!’ My last words had weakened his hand and I almost fell on the ground when he let go. But before my bottom managed to hit the earth, I could feel a pair of strong arms quickly caught my body from falling.

‘She’ll come with me. Let’s go.’ I heard L’s voice as he tried to drag me away, followed by a group of the people earlier. As we went away, I couldn’t stop feeling so guilty and broken when I looked at his face. His sad eyes, his shocked and dumbfounded face that stood still in front of the house.

What have I done?

-End of Flashback-

‘I’m a bad person.’ I poured everything that I kept inside my chest since I left Dongwoon Oppa earlier but the guilt’s still suffocating my lungs.

‘No, you’re not. He’s the one who kidnapped you.’ I snapped at his words that I hastily pushed him away and broke the hug.

‘He didn’t kidnap me!’

‘Then, what really happened? You went to him?’

‘I –I don’t know…’

‘Then, what’s the only thing that you know?!’ He yelled that I suddenly got mad.

‘Stop talking to me! I just don’t know!’ I yelled back and turned away from him. I could feel his hand trying to grab my arm but I swiftly resisted and settled down on the couch. I closed my eyes as soon as I did. I just didn’t want to fight any longer. So many things happened today.

I was tired.

‘Suzy-ya…’

That name… Hyemi. Dongwoon Oppa, what would happen if I went with him? Would I cry like I did now? What could he possibly be doing at this time of hour? Was he still standing still in front of the house? He wouldn’t, right? Oh, dear.

The guilt and this restlessness, they haunted me all night long.

***

Just when I thought of having a good night sleep when she’s here beside me, this stupid fight happened. She just couldn’t stop crying for that man that I felt s