Chapter 10 - Midnight Talks and a Phonecall

Jaejoong stared at his phone, fingers hovering just slightly above the dial button, itching to press it and get the matter done and over with, but he didn’t. No, it was more like he couldn’t bring himself to. With a sigh at his failed attempt, he threw the phone in a graceful arc, sending it to land on the chair across the room. The pale beauty flopped himself onto the bed, snuggling as deep as he could into his pillow, wiggling in the air, practically smothering himself.

A knock on the door drew his attention and he pushed himself up slowly, knuckling at his swollen eyes.

“Hyung?” A tentative voice came from beyond the door, but the diva didn’t bother to answer it. He wasn’t in any mood for talking, so he just kept silent, returning to his previous position while pulling the blankets over him. The door creaked open slightly, allowing just a tiny stream of light illuminate the dull room, before closing once more. Jaejoong knew that s got the hint that he didn’t want to hold a conversation. It’s not that he didn’t want to talk to s, rather that after finding out about that incident, he wasn’t sure how he should react.

Should he feel happy? Happy that Yunho and Changmin were moving on with their lives. Or should he feel betrayed? Betrayed that they had broken the promise that TVXQ was only the 5 of them. Kim Jaejoong, Jung Yunho, Park Yoochun, Kim Junsu and Shim Changmin. But what was he supposed to expecting? After all, this was SM Entertainment they were talking about, they probably had proceed with the plan and finalized the decision without even asking the duo of their opinions. Yet, his insecure heart wanted reassurance Homin really didn’t want this to happen, that in their heart TVXQ belonged to only the 5 of them.

Tears sprung to his eyes as he tried to hold them back, frustrated at himself for crying for no reason at all. Over the few years after the lawsuit, he had gotten stronger. But maybe weaker in other people’s eyes. He started holing himself in even more, refusing to in front of idea, smiling to himself bitterly when he realized that he was slowly taking after Yunho in bottling up their emotions. Amidst these thoughts, he slowly fell into a restless sleep.

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Junsu stared at the stairs, before getting up again moving away to check on their eldest member once more. He was worried that Jaejoong might end up suffocating himself to death, or starve himself to death if he was to leave the diva alone, though none seem so likely. Once more, Junsu found himself slipping into the ‘leader’ mode, where he had to be strong to stand as a pillar for both Jaejoong and Yoochun. It was rather ironic, he found, that he had been one of the maknaes, being babied on by his hyungs every 5 minute, but now, he was the one who had to rise up to the position of being the strong one.

He opened the door slightly, slowly making out Jaejoong’s lying figure on the bed, chest moving up and down slowly which was the only indication that the elder was sleeping, though not a restful sleep Junsu assumed. He closed the door in relief that Jaejoong was somewhat alright, for now, before making his way back downstairs, where he found Yoochun sitting cross-legged at the window ledge, staring out of the window blankly, a mug of coffee in his hands and blanket around his shoulder.

“Hyung, you shouldn’t be drinkin