L's perspective

Surprisingly for L he reached the airport without any obstacles... So this time he is pretty sure he might catch up jiyeon on time, can’t help himself the time where he chased over jiyeon just 9 years ago.. On the same airport terminal however that time he was already too late he cant believe he hesitated at that time... Now again he is chasing her again but this time he didn’t think at all, all he did is just flew his car over there..he just can’t let her go he needs her to live he love her too much that it aches.....

He looks around..Running here and there ..

He mistaken few ladies to be her all he did was to apologized

Then after a long search there she finally saw her but to his disappointment jiyeon wasn’t alone at all..?

He tries to calm himself..Made some few deep breathes

L: jiyeon?

Finally he gathered all the strength to call her

Jiyeon slowly turned her head along with the fellow she is with. To his surprised he knew the guy or in the least thought..it was jb?? What a trick he was played on..he feels like its some kind of gag show..but it’s not...

Jiyeon: L? what are u doing here

Her eyes widen, he can’t read her mind..she show some poker face on him all of sudden

L: i came here for you..Can we have a talk?

Jiyeon:i cant..i have to go..we have to go(looking at jb)

L: is he the reason?

Jiyeon: uhh jb? Would you mind going ahead, ill be there for couple of minutes

But JB was in puzzle..he frowned..Looking at jiyeon

Jiyeon: please

Jb: ah...okay..i guess sure

Then jiyeon grabs his arm and kissed JB in his lips

J:it will be really quick ..later...?

JB was in hanged he was looking at L later he says his goodbye to him..and went ahead

L: What was that?

J. I knew you know what you saw..and yes you are not dreaming..and yes again to your next question..he is the reason..its not late to start over again with him i found myself loving him no still in love with him

L: so that’s why you ditch our wedding(frowned his eyebrows)

J: you could say that

L:thats why you  abort our baby?

Her expression changes, even her face turned really pale

L: yes ..my princess i know you had abort our baby

J: how did you?

L:sohee..

Jiyeon smiled mockingly

L:dont give me the crap smile..

J: so what if i did..Are u mad.

L:ofcourse i am..Without my consent?how could you do that.. that’s a

J: if you are mad at me you can resent me..i don’t care

L: i cant believe this...do u really love jb?(looked away and looked back at her annoyingly)

J:yes

L: but just few months, few weeks ago you ..i know you are still in love with me at that time

J: i can play my part really well cant i?i can pretend to love you even when I’m sleeping

L:what did i do wrong? I can change for you...(pause) did you ever love me?

J: yes

L: then how?why?

J: i fall out of love..that’s it..(she looked away)

L: there is a reason for a person to fall out of love tell me

J;you are obsessive, possessive or what so called..you suffocates me well you suddenly disgust me(glaring at him)

L: i can change that,,just forget about him huh? Just return to me(holding her both arms)

J: bwo? You still want me..afterall? Are you crazy?

L: I don’t care how far you have went..i don’t care if you even sleep with him, even if you ditch me and humiliate me, or i can put the abortion into past and never ever mention it to you,,tell me everything you hate ill change ..just please come back to me

He pleaded as he got teary ..

J: looked, how lower you become L?look at yourself..you have become a slave of your feelings,,thats not the L that i had love..you see you have lost the thing i loved about you,,,im sorry i won’t bare to be with you anymore..im sorry find another girl who deserve you..that would make you happy

L: you are the only thing in this world that could make me happy without you,, i might die,, you are my air, tell me how am i supposed to breathe without any air huh?(his grip become tighter)

J: molla..you should figure it out now(pulled her arms to get out of his grip)

L: please dont leave me,,i beg you .i love you

J: but i don’t..(looking away)

L: if you leave here, ..you can’t no you shouldn’t come back to korea

J: ill try my best not to do that..gomawo.

L: i just want to give you heads up if you ..truly leave me,,you will kill me, I feel like you just stab me with a knife in my heart, im gonna die.. I will die without you..

J: suit yourself,,,ill  send flowers then..(she turned around and walk away)

L just felt like a t that moment he died.. He feels dizzy, his head aches. Is it the beer?the wine?or perhaps the soju… He walks towards his car and then next thing he know he was already in his room..Lying there and drowning himself with all soju/beers that he have. He was like this for several days until weeks had passed. He had lost to himself.

Until one day he finally hit his head..he walks toward the bathroom took a bath shave himself./. and looked at himself at the mirror..just looking staring.. he brush his hair with his hand.

The old L is dead..

He made some calls, here and there.. he also quits being a a member of infinite just after surviving the 5 years lifetime of being an idol. He suddenly doesn’t want any more public attentions.,

He shave his head as well and decided to serve the army and enlist himself..,,  2 years  you will renew yourself..kim myungsoo he whispers to himself