Chapter [2]
On Rainy Days
Chapter [2] : Cloudy days.. might also bring along thunders..!
YeSung POV
It was so sudden.. startling much i would say.. but my answer was NO.. not that i rejected him.. that NO was for his recklessness.. I mean we just knew each other for how long? 3 months? “its 3 months and a half YeSung” =,= seriously this guy is a brainless, big KID.. hot one too xD well, truth should be said right :P the funny part is that after telling SiHan about my 1st love.. and how it was an epic failure relationship that took me over a year to collect my thoughts, get my head straight.. and move on.. not to mention that she was a GIRL.. so this whole adaptation with the homo world is a complete different story.. what hits me the most is SiHan choosing someone like me, liking someone like me, caring for someone like me.. i mean he isn’t the ideal-oppa type.. NO.. he is so classic, i won’t say cold too but boring much lol he isn’t even trying to change that part of him which somehow make him look so cute..! So dating was the deal.. and i would say time was literally flying.. with the speed of light.. we were 1 month away from the day where our marriage is scheduled to take place.. and on that 1 month.. everything changed.. every single thing.. changed..!
End of POV
It’s been already one year since SiHan and YeSung’s first meeting..They didn’t really go through tough time.. their friends –Changmin on top of that list- were so happy for them and willing to help and support them till the very end.. families?? YeSung didn’t have one, beside his younger sibling [MaRi] he didn’t have any other family members to invite over for his wedding ceremony.. as for SiHan, being the 2nd child of a top class family with large dominance on the trading market.. the assumption is that his family will be strongly against his marriage and oppose it till the extreme but the truth is..SiHan was his parent’s favourite child.. his wishes are commands to his parents [ specially his mom ] so whether she approved his choice or not.. she knew that he will do whatever pleases him regardless of its consequences and whether his parents approved it or not.. Things like this didn’t pass YeSung’s mind just like that.. he realized as he spent more time with SiHan that he is emotionally isolated from his family.. as if it was a stain on his coat.. which was a big question mark for him.. WHY? He is the favourite son.. his family is well-known, with good reputation.. that reputation that will surely be affected with the spread of the news of Choi family’s spoiled child and future inheritor marrying with what they’ll call a beggar.. not to mention marrying a MAN!!
“SiHan-ssi.. u can’t skip our meeting tomorrow with the contractor.. the villa is SPECTACULAR.. if we are late then....”
“okay okay.. i won’t.. see u then baby..”
And he end up skipping the meeting.. and the villa was sold out to another couple...!!
“SiHan-ah we still have to choose the furniture for our bedroom..”
“mmmm.. i have a surgery in an hour.. can’t u handle that alone yeye...? plz ~“
Well, its OUR bedroom, how can i choose the furniture alone..?
“SiHan.. am done with the arrangement of the food service for the wedding ceremony.. we still have to go pick the suits.. AND U CAN’T TELL ME TO GO ALONE COZ.."
“Baby no need to get angry.. if u WON’T pick me one along with urs i will just ask mom to do so.. i have to hang up now.. i have to go check on another patient.. take care.. love ya..”
YeSung POV
And that how it kept going.. me running here and there.. calling this and signing papers with that.. picking all the items for my new life.. ITEMS.. all what i had to do is collecting these half-heartedly and throwing them at my apartment’s tiny store.. why not placing them in their supposedly-planned-ahead positions in our future villa.. coz we don’t have one.. not yet.. SiHan thinks that i already did sign the contract.. i couldn’t yell at him for skipping the 3rd meeting for the 3rd self-picked villa.. WHY? Coz he had a conference in the hospital’s branch in North Korea.. in which he didn’t bother telling me about until i called him for the 40th time that day.. he spared some time to text me telling me he was out of the country.. Yes it was getting out of control.. and yes i was on the verge of breaking down as it was too late to take a step back or burry down the feelings burning inside my heart.. i was deeply in love with him.. it took me less than 2 months to acknowledge my feelings for SiHan.. it was so hard to deny it.. even harder to say it out loud.. i remember we had that one argument where he was asking me if we better break things off and just call off this marriage thing.. he was craving for affection from my side.. in which i couldnt’afford.. its not coz i didn’t feel it back for him.. NO.. my feelings for him were written all over my face.. its just that when we are alone.. together.. my emotions will surface immensely that it turns into defensive ones.. a simple touch from SiHan will be ignored or in best cases replied to with a quick smile.. i don’t even know if this make any sense but what i came up with as an explanation for this complex case is that i loved him so much that i couldn’t even picture him being all lovey dovey and overly emotional with me.. jealousy maybe..? i was jealous over SiHan loving ME.. stupid conclusion..? most likely.. but for some reason he liked it.. the first 2 months of dating were phenomenal.. every smile, wink, touch.. it was heavenly.. SiHan’s gazes.. his stares will just cause my body to lose balance.. is that normal..? i mean.. we didn’t go beyond kissing but the stares and simple touches had a stronger effect.. and memorable moments.. not until the wedding day was decided.. my heart is hurting so badly that i feel like screaming.. SiHan don’t even look like SiHan.. his smile.. his laugh.. even his facial expression when he space out isn’t the same anymore.. Did i push it a little bit too far with the hard-to-get act..? he knows that am not acting.. he knew more than anyone that if we had a fight over a silly thing like me wearing tight pants in public i will spend the night fighting my tears not to fall.. that i will have breathing difficulties coz it was that deep.. the love we had.. i was so protective over our relation that i couldn’t handle those tiny arguments.. NEVER..! ironically i do CRAVE for an argument though.. yes am that desperate.. coz i don’t get to see him anymore.. the last time we met was 10 days ago.. the meeting didn’t last more than 30 minutes as he had to run to the ward for another tour to check on his patients.. my thoughts were interrupted when i felt my phone vibrating on my pocket.. i was previously walking aimlessly in my apartment.. i checked on MaRi and she was sleeping peacefully.. it was almost 1:00 in the morning..
End of POV
“Hello...”
“ur voice is forever huskier at night...” SiHan voice sounded weak but u can tell he was smiling.
“its 1:00am.. did u call me at such a time to say that?”
“i missed u...”
“of course u did..” YeSung said sarcastically.
“ur still mad at me..?”
“why would i be..? ironically i end up preparing for a marriage by my own.. for a couple of me and myself.. i think me and I will make a perfect couple..”
SiHan sighed.
“don’t go to bed.. am on my way to ur place..”
“u better make use of ur precious free time by going to bed ur self..’’
‘’I’ll be there in 10 minutes...” and he hanged up.
20 minutes later
SiHan and YeSung were sitting in YeSung’s room. YeSung sitting on his own bed and SiHan sitting on the chair of YeSung’s desk facing the other.
“so that’s it.. u will keep that pouty expression on ur face...?”
“Tsk.. so now even my face isn’t good enough for u..? not pleasant for ur precious Doctor eyes..” YeSung said with an ironic tone, full of anger.
“YESUNG STOP IT...” SiHan stands up.
YeSung smirked.
“Stop what exactly.. my sarcasm..? well.. its what helping me maintaining a smile.. even if its a fake one.. “
“I KNOW.. I KNOW THAT WE HAVE A LOT OF GOING ON...”
YeSung raised his index and middle fingers.
“u mean.. alot of going with YOU.. drop that WE”
SiHan held both YeSung’s arms.
“YOU.. YOU THINK AM HAPPY TO SEE OUR RELATION CRACKING.. DO YOU EVEN REALIZE HOW MUCH IT HURTS TO FEEL THAT GAP BETWEEN US.. THAT ICE BOARDER SPLITTING OUR HEARTS APART..?”
“whose fault is it SiHan.. tell me one reason for all of this.. one damn CONVINIENT reason...” YeSung was fighting his tears, holding them back.
SiHan loosened his hold of the younger man before turning his back.
“i wish i knew.. i wish i ...”
“stop lying SiHan.. u can lie to me but u can’t lie to ur self...”
SiHan turned to face him again with a startled expression.
“what lies are u talking about...?”
“who is he...?”
“W... what?”
“my question is clear.. who is he...? or maybe she.. the one ur having an affair with...” a tear already fell from YeSung’s right eye.
SiHan took couple of steps backward.
“how... did u.. what the hell did u just say...?”
YeSung took a deep breath before erasing his tear.
“leave SiHan.. just leave.. am not in a good condition to carry on this conversation...”
SiHan lowered his head for a second before speaking out.
“Do u even want me.. at all...?” it came out so heart-aching that a tear fell from SiHan’s eye, he was having his turn of emotional crisis for the day.
“Does it even matter....” YeSung answered coldly, before turning his back and positioning himself in his bed.
SiHan smiled despite his teary eyes.
“it will never matter.. it never did...”.
All what was heard after that is YeSung’s apartment’s door being slammed.
Its not the normal pain am feeling SiHan.. not even close.. its like.. u pulled my heart out before leaving my place with a broken heart..
I was harsh.. too harsh.. but its not feeling good.. not the slightest bit.. that night felt cold.. so cold.. i didn’t even realize it was raining until i felt strong winds shaking my room’s window.. it was a stormy night.. cold and stormy..
I don’t know when and how i managed to sleep that night.. what i remember is waking up with a heavy head and a feeling of blankness within my heart.. there when MaRi’s voice smoothly hit my ears, waking me up with her tickling method..
‘’oppa oppa.. wake up quickly.. there is an ajusshi waiting for u outside...”
I washed my face quickly before rushing to meet the man standing on my apartment’s door.
I met him before.. he is a colleague of SiHan.. they are co-workers..
“what’s the matter..? Did SiHan send u here..? is there something i can help u wit......”
“SiHan is dying...”
End of Chapter [2]
A.N: Did i cause any gasps again...? lol sorry.. it might seem confusing.. how the story is progressing.. but i can tell u that the REAL conflict didn’t surface yet.. plz be patient.. and support this fic =)
Sorry for any typos grammatical mistakes :S
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