Chapter [15] : Who are you? Lovely stranger.. Part [2]

YeSung POV

It was a Sunday night, the day of the long awaited gathering, Hyuk insisted that we all should be there for his house-warming party as he and Hae finally moved in together..  and after a long long long time and after a lot of rescheduling.. Kangin and Teuk also managed to join us…

‘’it’s been a very long time….’’ Hyuk said serving the drinks.. Showing his bright gummy smile to the Kangteuk couple..

‘’yes.. and you guys actually end up together.. Tsk.. I knew this will happen.. damn Lee DongHae ur sixth sense is no joke’’ Hae said sipping his juice and elbowing Teuk who respond with a smile.

I smiled at Hae before turning to look at Kangin who was sitting there smiling at the scene of Teuk and Hae teasing each other but I can tell.. counting on my lifetime experience with the Choi’s that all kind of sorrow was dripping off of that smile.. I moved a bit closer to him and tapped his shoulder, he turned his attention to me..

‘’ur okay….?’’ I asked.. He replied with a pale smile and a nod.

We were cut off as Hyuk yelled at us to move our butts and go help him in setting the table.. Observing the HyukHae couple I couldn’t help but push away my worries and sadness and feel happy for the two.. although they may seem as a clumsy, mismatching couple to some people.. they are definitely is a precious, glorious couple to me.. I couldn’t help but throw a glance at Kangteuk each in a while.. Teuk changed.. just like we all did in a way.. although I can clearly see how much he love Kangin, how much he care for him.. I still can read some insecurity in his eyes.. a hidden secret maybe? Something he is trying to keep for himself? I wasn’t really sure.. and maybe it wasn’t something I should be concern about at the first place..

We were enjoying our dinner, with Hae funny jokes and Hyuk smacking the latter’s head most of the time until Teuk suddenly stood up.. grabbing everyone’s attention..

‘’am sorry u guys.. there is a family issue I need to handle…’’ he then turned to look at Kangin. ‘’am not coming home tonight.. I will call u tomorrow okay?’’ and before leaving he hugged Hyuk and thanked him for inviting him over..

The dinner was over yet Hae insisted we should stay and watch a football match together..

‘’ur kidding me? It Barcelona playing tonight? Do u expect me to go do the dishes when my legendary team is having a critical match?’’ Hae was arguing and Hyuk crossed his arms..

I looked at them and smiled once again, how can they fight 24/7 and still enjoy it with the exact same amount of passion.. I was busy admiring HaeHyuk passion for arguing when I felt a hand resting on my shoulder..

‘’they are lovely, aren’t they?’’ Kangin asked showing a sincere smile this time.

I nodded.

‘’they are practicing their love in their own way.. it is something to admire..’’

He looked at me, still wearing that soft smile..

‘’Teuk hyung… I didn’t know he has a family here in Seoul.. Siwon….’’ And I felt like chocking as the name of my beloved one echoed in that room. ‘’…. He told me Teuk lived most of his life in the states.’’

Kangin sighed before shrugging his shoulders.

‘’for some reason… he is keeping his family issues for himself.. he gave me no room to ask for meeting  them, there is something , maybe… he think I shouldn’t know about his family… and I respect that.. it is suspicious in a way.. but I know I can’t force him to talk about it if he isn’t willing to….’’

I turned my body to face him.

‘’u love him, don’t you?’’

I saw tears forming in Kangin’s eyes before he replied to me with…

‘’just as much as u love our Siwon… just as much as u missed him…..’’

~~~~~

It was pass midnight when we made our goodbyes.. Kangin said he will make sure to stop by more often.. and Hyuk was insisting I and MaRi should move in with him and Hae once MaRi is discharged from the hospital.. I smiled at the thought, but then I felt the painful thoughts of Siwon squeezing my chest once again..

‘’what if he comes back and didn’t find me Hyuk.. ‘’

I smiled bitterly at my own response.. was Siwon ever going to come back to me?  is this destiny ever going to be fair to me…  do we still have a lifetime to spend together Choi the maknae??… were we ever ….destined for one another….?

I looked up at the sky that was pouring shy droplets of water…

I closed my eyes.. thinking.. was the rainy days always there to wash my pains away? Oh no… washing my happiness away? Whenever my soul will drench in sadness, the sky will let go of its own tears to wake me up… to alert me that maybe after the rain, there will be a shining day somewhere there in that mysterious future of mine.. maybe… just maybe I should keep the faith that I wasn’t born in this world to be tortured… because regardless of all the heartbreaks.. all the rainy days.. there was a light beam that shined my dark world… a creation of beautiful affection called you… Choi Siwon…

End of POV

It was pass 3:00 p.m when Yesung finished his last tutoring session for his senior high students, he gathered his stuff quickly and ran toward the school gate so he won’t miss the public bus, he was about to make it into the exit gate when he felt a hand grabbing his arm, he turned around to look at the hand’s owner and his eyebrows met when he saw an old man, a man in his 50s with a grey hair and a bent back holding his arm…

‘’are you.. Kim teacher? Kim YeSung?’’

And YeSung worries were washed away as the old man who was now seated beside him in a bench inside the school told him…

‘’am Kangmin’s spiritual father as he like to call me..’’

YeSung found himself smiling as he handed some coffee for the elder.

‘’it’s a unique name.. am sure u feel touched, Kangmin-ssi… he adores u….’’

The elder man smiled before turning his body to YeSung’s side.

‘’well.. beside me and Mira.. I never thought Kangmin will grow some love and care for someone else…’’

YeSung blushed a little as he got the hint; the elder gazes were telling a lot more that what he was speaking out himself…

Silence fell for a moment before the elder man spoke..

‘’our Kangmin… please… don’t take his sight away….’’

YeSung eyes widened.. he turned to look at the elder..

‘’I know ur little sister needs this donation more than anything else… but… our Kangmin… he still have a tiny chance of finding the surgeon who can help him get his sight back…’’

YeSung saw some tears forming in the elder’s eyes.

‘’I know very well… that Kangmin insisted on giving away his cornea for ur sister Kim teacher.. but.. am sure… if u ask him to let this go.. and help u searching for another donor instead.. maybe.. he will listen to you…’’ he then held YeSung’s hand.

‘’my son.. I know he hold a soft spot for you.. Kangmin isn’t my biological son… but… he is the reason I still enjoy this life.. the reason I wake up every morning knowing that there is someone I should care about and watch over.. someone I really should fight to live for.. I beg u Kim teacher… my son.. if u can’t love him back… just let him live with a little hope of being able to see again… he deserve that much… he has been through a lot.. I beg u….’’

Later that day

Kangmin POV

Since Mira and MaRi are now forming an all-girls gang against me, I had no other choice but to give into Mira’s threats of kicking me out of the house if I didn’t take her to visit her beloved unni, MaRi-ah… when we arrived there, MaRi wasn’t alone.. YeSung was there with a couple of friends..

End of POV

‘’Kangmin-ssi… finally we managed to meet… but why are u wearing these black shades? Did u get ur eyelids done and wanna cover it with that?’’ Hae said, elbowing the other.

Hyuk glared at Hae who was acting so comfortably around the taller guy.

‘’hell.. NO.. am just following my own sense of fashion u know and that include those glasses, I wonder if ur eyelids needs to be redone though.. I can somehow see ur weird looking eyes, get them done quickly, u might scare the girls….’’ Kangmin said with a smirk, taking off the shades.

YeSung was leaning his back to the wall, his chest tightened to the view of Kangmin..

This man…

Those feelings..

Hae gasped once Kangmin took off the shades.

‘’damn it.. how can those shades make such a difference.. damn it…’’

‘’why? Ur impressed by my good-looks? Come on.. just admit it….’’ Kangmin said with a wink.

Hae glared at him and before he can answer he felt Hyuk smacking his head.

‘’how admirable my dear boyfriend is flirting with another guy before my eyes…’’

Kangmin laughed at them before he felt a hand grabbing his arm.

‘’Hyuk, plz watch over the girls.. I and Kangmin will go for a walk…’’

‘’Woooooooo seems that the fashion terrorist ajhussi succeeded in turning Yesung hyung into a fanboy…’’ Hae said before he receives another smack in the head by Hyuk.

Kangmin smiled before placing his other hand on YeSung’s.

‘’he is a dedicated fanboy, but u two don’t need to hide it.. u can fight over me freely…’’ he said teasingly to Hae before he receive a pinch on his arm from YeSung.

‘’OUCH UGLY CHEEKS THAT HURTS….’’

YeSung rolled his eyes before giving a questioning look to Hyuk, assuring him to look after the girls.. Hyuk nod his head in understanding.

YeSung POV

Once we were out of the hospital, he suggested we go to the cornice, and I really found his suggestion weird.. I mean, although what I was going to talk to him about needed some privacy.. but the cornice was a little bit, inconvenient as its mostly a destination for couples..

‘’oh plz.. u brought me here to talk about this again?’’ he looked really irritated.

‘’first of all I didn’t bring u here, u suggested the place.. secondly, Kangmin am not being selfish or inconsiderate… GOD.. u have a daughter.. a father to look after, u may argue and say that he is the one whose watching after u not the other way around but isn’t he an old man? What if he –god forbid- pass away.. how can u take care of Mira in ur own? U really should think it through.. its great to have a kind heart and it means a lot to me, how dedicated and sincere u are on trying to help out my sister but am not gonna be selfish and ask u to give up ur sight for my sister’s sake once and for all….’’

He remained silent for a minute before he turned to look at me… he smiled.

‘’do u know chubby cheeks, although people in my situation shouldn’t have such fantasies, but I always thought I will arrange an event, and confess to my crush in a place that is more or less like this one….’’

I looked at him with wide eyes.

‘’I also thought maybe if am so lucky, that person will be a kind-hearted beautiful woman who will love Mira just as much as I do.. and will be willing to treat her as her own mother….’’ He then walked few steps backward…

‘’but am too daring for a blind man remember? I dare to grow affection for a man whom if given a chance will push me off of a bridge so that I stop shoving myself in his life the way am doing…’’

‘’Kangmin-ah….’’

‘’what if???’’ and he stopped walking.  ‘’what if I give up on helping MaRi…’’ YeSung then looked at him worriedly. ‘’what if she finds another donor… will I still have the right to keep being the daring person I am and ask u out?’’

I lowered my head, I knew… I knew very well this will be revealed one day; Kangmin was hiding his true feelings behind his witty comments, hiding his yearning gazes of love under his dark shades.

‘’can u… only once.. Hold onto me?’’ and he took a step forward.  ‘’will counting down on my way to u make me look more pathetic than am already am?’’ and he took another step forward.

I squeezed my eyes shut…

By the time Kangmin took his last step forward, the moment I felt the taller man’s hands resting on my shoulders.

‘’is asking u to look at me, for once… without thinking of him.. does that make me.. more self-humiliating that am already am….?’’

And following my impulses…. I hugged him.. I buried myself in his warm chest.. I knew very well, that deep within me I was giving away another part of me to this man.. I was certain by then… that at some point I saw Siwon on him.. and if people will call it betrayal.. then let it be.. coz for me.. the one is betrayed is confused YeSung, scared YeSung… lonely YeSung.. the YeSung in denial.. not Siwon.. it’s the hungry for love YeSung that was released from its self-created jail that day… for once.. I thought to myself.. that maybe the rainy day was a sign.. yes it is.. a sign that I should never give up.. because Siwon would have never gave up on me, would he?

I pulled away from the hug and looked at him, he was zooming out.. I smiled bitterly, holding back my tears..

‘’ur actually a daring man.. how is it fair for someone to be that good-looking…’’

Kangmin smiled before caressing my cheek.

‘’just as it is unfair for someone to be as ridiculously captivating as u are….’’

End of POV

EunHyuk POV

This week was very tiring, not coz of work… but because of the effort I and sunbaenim put on looking for a new cornea donor for MaRi.. we stopped by almost every single hospital in the city, we filled an application so that our case will be taken into consideration, maybe the fact that MaRi is below 10 years old will be a +1 for her case to be favoured over others, but we wouldn’t build up high hopes though coz donating cornea isn’t as simple as donating blood… someone suggested we post an advertisement in newspapers or distribute flyers asking for donations but wouldn’t the donor ask for a payment? And wouldn’t that cost a lot? I tried to connive Yesung sunbanim to ask Kangin hyung for some finical support but he refused.. Kangin wasn’t even aware of MaRi’s condition at the first place..

It was around 10:00 p.m when we collapsed in the couch inside MaRi’s room, she was busy watching some kids show on TV, although she can’t see the screen clearly, she managed to smile to what she was hearing..

YeSung sunbanim patted my arm..

‘’Hyuk.. I know this whole searching for a donor thing is very tiring.. am really thankful ur bearing with this for my and MaRi’s sake… really thanks Hyuki…’’ he said in an exhausted tone.

I smiled to him before turning my body to face him.

‘’Did Kangmin-ssi knows about ur intention to look for a new donor?’’

He sighed before resting his back against the couch.

‘’he doesn’t.. there is only 3 days left for the surgery.. I really don’t know what am going to do if we didn’t manage to find a new donor…’’ he turned his head to look at me. ‘’I met his father….’’

‘’Kangmin’s father?’’ I asked in a slight shock.

Sunabnim’s nodded.

‘’he asked me to stop Kangmin from his reckless behaviour.. he still has a tiny chance to regain his eye-sight.. his father is still searching for a capable surgeon to handle his case..’’

‘’but?’’ I asked.

‘’he refuses….’’ YeSung said before sighing.

I smiled before holding his hand.

‘’does he like u that much? To the point of giving up his eye-sight so ur sister will be given a chance to regain her sight?’’

YeSung shut his eyes closed.

‘’u know this is not the case.. he is really doing this for MaRi.. and he definitely don’t want me to look at him in a special way only because of the gratitude for what he is planning to do to save MaRi’s eye-sight….’’

‘’but we both agree that he liked u… u know there is nothing wrong about being clear about one’s feelings sunbanim….’’

YeSung opened his eyes and turn his body to look at me.

‘’and so what if he do Hyuk.. this won’t change anything…’’

‘’yes it will.. specially in Kangmin’s case.. sunabanim there is no way u wouldn’t have felt that this man gives a Choi feeling…’’ I said and he looked at me with a blank expression.

‘’a…. a Choi what? What do u mean?’’

I crossed my arms.

‘’okay u have all the right to wear a blank expression… what am saying here sunbanim is that… I don’t know why… but the moment my eyes landed on this man.. I felt waves of chills traveling my spine.. his face looks slightly different.. but his lips, his nose, his smile.. the dimples, his dark hair, even the way he talk, damn even his height.. he is a freakin other version of Siwon..’’

YeSung lowered his head….

‘’I know Hyuk.. I know all of that.. I already noticed that.. if u need more information… then even his smell… its…. Its exactly like Siwon’s …’’

I raised his chin so he can look at me.

‘’and another info is that his last name is Choi too!? Omg sunabanim how can u stay still.. u should have asked him how on earth did he get that last name.. he told u everything about his past.. how can u not think that maybe this man will somehow lead u to Siwon’s place… GOD.. what if he turn out to be our Siwon…. OH GOD….’’

I felt sunbanim shivering… and he didn’t reply.. he didn’t say a thing.. when it was the time for me to go home.. I hugged him and whisper to his ear..

‘’I don’t want u to build hopes that will collapse and drag u down along.. I just want u to be happy.. so if Siwon is sending u signs so that u can go and find whatever fate is holding for u then u shouldn’t ignore it.. and if that Kangmin is ur destiny.. then there is no way out.. u already know by now that love will dig its own way to our hearts hyung, even if we block its way with iron or steel… search a bit more on his past.. and am sure.. just like am sure am holding u in my arms now that he will turn out as a unexpected gift from ur destiny…’’

End of POV

It was around midnight when Hyuk left… but right then Hyoyeon arrived carrying along her stuff since she decided to stay with MaRi until the day of her surgery..

‘’YeSung-ah u know u can’t stay up here, there is no enough space, its just one couch.. so just go home and rest for tonight hmmmm?’’ Hyeyeon asked as she helped Yesung putting on his blazer.

‘’yes Noona…’’ he said, almost whispering.

The moment YeSung opened the room’s door, about to leave.. the figure of the person who has been haunting his thoughts since their first meeting was standing before his eyes.

‘’Kagnmin-ah….’’

He smiled and bowed, apparently as a way to greet Hyoyeon who was standing behind YeSung.

‘’I had a late therapy session today, I thought that maybe before going home.. I could see you…’’ he said, a slight blush was showing on his cheeks.

YeSung looked at the taller’s hand, he was holding a nicely looking paper.

‘’r u sure u just stopped by to see me?’’ YeSung asked and Kangmin rubbed his neck.

‘’actually no.. I also came to give u this..’’ and he handed him the paper.

‘’its an invitation for a 3-days mini exhibition event in out book store, the last 3 days before MaRi’s surgery, I really wish u could stop by, u can bring along DongHae and EunHyuk too…’’ he said with a smile.

‘’am coming too..’’ Hyeoyeon said, staring at the taller one who smiled widely.

‘’please do….’’

YeSung walked Kangmin to the elevator before getting back to the room to get Hyoyeon’s car keys.

‘’damn it Ye… how come u know such a hottie without introducing me to him u little ungrateful brat..’’ she said pinching YeSung’s arm.

He rubbed his arm before throwing a glare at her.

‘’damn it Noona stop this.. aren’t u a married woman….’’

She sticks her tongue to him before crossing her arms.

‘’so what? Can’t a married woman enjoy the view of handsome men.. PLUS u maybe have a point thpugh.. the dude looks totally into u so I have to chance anyway =.=’’

YeSung blushed slightly.

‘’stop talking nonsense and give me the keys.. its too late.. am sleepy…’’

She glared at him before winking.

‘’arasoo arasso.. u can always change the topic but u can never hide the love stares…’’

YeSung tried to hide his trembling hands when Hyoyeon passed him the keys.. he kept thinking about her words.. was Kangmin stares telling what she thought they were? Even though he can’t see him clearly.. despite the blurry view… his eyes still can show the love he carry for the elder? Then what about him? Was his eyes showing what he refused to admit to himself? What he refused to admit he was feeling toward the younger man? Was he really… falling in love?

Next day

YeSung POV

It was another tiring day in school.. yet I still find my legs walking me to his place.. I stopped there.. in front of the bookstore where he work at with his dad.. I felt Mira hugging my leg as a greeting, her soft scratches on my jeans brought me back to my senses..

‘’oppa is here.. what about MaRi unni? She didn’t come with u?’’

I knelt down and smiled to the ridiculously cute girl before my eyes.

‘’unni is a bit tired today, I will make sure she comes with me next time…’’ and I caressed her hair.

‘’Kim teacher….’’ I heard the ajhussi’s voice calling me, he was standing there in the entrance with a book in his hand, he waved at me and Mira ran to his side and hugged his leg just like she did to me earlier.

‘’he is there’’ and the ajhussi pointed at a room in the right side once I stepped inside the book store, a room that apparently belonged to him.

I looked at him shyly… was I that easy to read? Did he really read my longing for him? Was it written all over my face?

He gave me another warm smile.

‘’he is on one of his moods today.. so he ended up locking himself up in his mini-atelier..’’

‘’is it okay to disturb him then?’’ I asked hesitantly.

He patted my shoulder.

‘’instead of disturbing, u may end up as an inspiration…’’ he added causing me to blush.

He gave me a sign to walk to his room and I did…

The room wasn’t locked though.. I stood there for a minute, although what he was drawing couldn’t be seen from my angle.. I took my time to observe him.. he was zooming in and out.. the way his eyes always look like.. I wondered though, did he know what he was drawing? Or was he one of those painters who will draw random things in random colours and consider that an art by itself.. I saw him wiping his beautiful forehead.. was drawing a tiring thing to do as well? The view of his exposed forehead and horse-tail tied hair make me think that he was really good-looking, he looked different than my Siwon with his current looks but everything else about him was purely Siwon-fied..

‘’until when ur planning to stand there? Ur feet will get sore..’’ he said startling me.

I walked forward hesitantly and I saw him smiling brightly before signalling to me to sit next to him.

‘’I came to… help u out.. ur dad said u guys had a lot of cleaning to do… for the upcoming event..’’ I said stutteringly,  as I seated myself next to him, it feels so hot all of a sudden.

‘’hmmmm.. and is that the same reason u were checking me out a minute ago? How erted….?!’’ He said teasingly and I rolled my eyes.

‘’checking WHOM out? Ur delusional….’’ I said before turning my attention to his drawing then back to him.

‘’Kangmin what is this?’’ I asked in shock.

He smiled once again before turning his body to face me.

‘’when is ur birthday? I remember its in August but what date exactly?’’ he asked all of a sudden.

‘’its on the 24^th  Mr.Spy .. & don’t change the topic..’’ i said crossing my arms.

‘’August is far away, I bet u will have to change that….’’

‘’what are u talking about?’’ I asked in irritation.

He looked back to the drawing’s side.

‘’yesterday.. I had a dream.. I dreamt of you… and…. And him.. Siwon-ssi.. u guys were celebrating ur reunion.. u guys called the day of ur re-gathering.. ur birthday.. both of u.. so I wake up with a heavy heart but I thought that I shouldn’t be mean.. I still have to share the happiness with you so I draw this birthday cake.. am a fail cook so I can’t make u this, and am broke so I can’t buy you one either.. so the least I could do is giving u this drawing as a gift..’’ he smiled bitterly. ‘’its silly u know.. how can just a thought of sending u away to another man hold such power to rip my heart….’’

I looked at him, feeling the pain chewing my heart.

‘’idiot.. who said I will accept this.. the only drawing I will demand u to make is a drawing of me when u get ur sight back…’’ I said and for some reason it came out too sad for my own knowing.

He held my hand and smiled.

‘’I will definitely do so.. its so depressing.. the thought of having such a beautifully created man by my side but I can’t see him clearly.. I can’t admire his looks enough…’’

I was distracted by his hand that was holding my tiny one gently to realize that his dad was calling us to join him for a snack.

‘’dad u call this a snack? It’s a bitter tasting tea and some terrible cookies?’’  Kangmin complained and received a slap on the arm by YeSung.

‘’hahaha its okay son am used to his sharp tongue, u try some…’’ and he passed some cookies to me. I smiled and handed some to Mira who was playing with her toys in the floor.

‘’come on.. try some’’ YeSung said, placing some cookies in Kangmin’s plate.

‘’DON’T….’’ his father yelled and I looked at him confusedly.

‘’what? Was it the coconut cookies again?’’ Knagmin asked with a pout.

‘’yeah.. u should have told him earlier…’’ his dad said and I felt disoriented.

‘’am sorry son but Kangmin is allergic to coconut, the plastic surgeon who fixed his damaged skin due to the assault accident warned that he should strictly avoid some certain foods that will hurt his skin.. and coconut is one of them….’’

‘’plastic surgeon….?’’ I looked at Knagmin in confusion.

Kangmin sighed before turning to my side.

‘’when I was transferred to the hospital, I lost a lot of blood and my skin also was badly affected specially my face, coz of the late rescue the bleeding from my forehead didn’t only affect my sight but also my skin as it grows a bacterial layer, so I had to treat that but I did that a bit late as I fell in a short coma first, remember? And then I had to bring myself to adapt with my amnesia so I ignored my terribly damaged face, a face I couldn’t see clearly at the first place…..’’ he said in a sad tone.

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An hour passed, and we were in the middle of the cleaning mission when I stopped cleaning those shelves and stared at Kangmin who was playfully singing while cleaning the shelves on the front side of mine… I felt my breathing cracked… why was this happening to me? why did he have to tell me all of that? His face was fixed? So this isn’t his real looks? That’s why his face looks different? Different than him?

I looked at my right side, he was slowly walking to my side, wearing the same ridiculously charming dimpled smile of his…

‘’so the chubby cheeks are lazy today? How come u volunteer to help out but end up lazing around?’’ he said teasingly standing 2 steps away from me.

‘’why didn’t u tell me before? About u getting ur face fixed?’’ I said in a deep tone.

He frowned before walking closer to my side.

‘’why would I ? u will mock me and call me plastic and all.. how can I seduce u then?’’

A chuckle escaped my mouth and in a second I found him trapping me between his arms, my back hitting the shelves behind me.

‘’what???’’ I asked hesitantly as his disoriented eyes looked to no particular angle on my face.

‘’ur so cute, a man can stand this much…’’ he said before slowly leaning closer to me… I closed my eyes when I felt his lips brushing softly on mine… he stopped though… so I looked straight in his eyes and the well-known waves of chills travelled down my spine.

The tears found their way, forming in the edges of my eyes…

‘’please Kangmin don’t do this to me…’’ I said weakly and I saw a concern expression covering his face.

‘’sweet cheeks what’s wrong? R u feeling unwell?’’ he asked placing a hand on my forehead and I felt my skin burning with his touch.

‘’can’t u just.. stop shoving ur self into my life like this? Am becoming ur prisoner by my own.. please have some mercy on me… I can’t remember the last time I was myself… yearning for Siwon is no longer enough for me…’’ I let out my tears and I felt him losing his trap on me…

He looked down and blinked his eyes constantly….

‘’I wish I could do that.. I wish I was noble enough to go look for him, for you, to send u to him right at the spot.. but am not that brave… am not that generous.. if I could.. I would have found a way out for myself.. am too weak to fight the urge to run to you.. to watch u from afar.. I wish I could do that.. maybe.. just maybe when MaRi take care of my cornea… those eyes will spare me the worries of watching after you.. maybe just then I will stop pitying myself for clinging to you and leave that to my eyes.. something u will never find an escape from.. something that will never make me feel as humiliated as I already feel….’’

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When I bowed to Kangmin’s dad after I finished the cleaning that day, I gave one last look to Kangmin’s side…. Mira dragged him to play some organ with her… I sighed, I saw him forcing a smile while placing the girl in his lap… I turned my back… I stopped right away though… because what I heard.. the music he was playing.. digged deep in my chest.. it was a piece I remember very well..

the one Siwon played for me on Kangin’s birthday.. I placed my hands on my ears.. I didn’t wanna listen anymore.. the more he plays the more I lose the little sanity left for me.. I ran.. ran away from that place.. this was more than what my heart can take.. I really should stop seeing him.. I can’t do this to my heart.. its cracked enough.. I can’t let myself to fall for someone who resemble my lover in every possible way.. I can’t.. I can’t..

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That night was another heavy one.. the day was cloudy and the chills sent by the freezing weather was as depressing as ever.. I was glad Hyoyeon was there for me.. today wasn’t mine.. not at all.. I couldn’t even fake a smile to ease MaRi’s worries as there is only 48 hours left before her surgery.. I just checked on her one last time before I kiss Hyeoyeon goodnight and drag my legs lazily to drive myself home.. the moment I passed the entrance gate I saw someone…. Whom I never thought I will see.. not with the company of the other person either..

‘’oppa please take me back home I can’t do this anymore..’’

‘’MinJung NO.. we can’t go back home until u finish ur therapy.. we talked about his already.. stop being stubborn.. this is it…’’

I was too shocked to even move, and it was then when the pairing in front of me stopped walking as I apparently blocked their way..

‘’could u plea-……………OH MY GOD..’’ Leeteuk hyung gasped and I saw MinJung raising her head to look at me, her expression as shocked as his.

‘’Hyung you….. MinJung? How come….. you guys…..’’ I blabbered , pointing at the two of them….

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I knew it was raining heavily but I couldn’t stop running..

Yes YeSung… MinJung is my little sister.. the one I was ashamed to admit was my own because of her dirty reputation..

I kept pumping into people but I didn’t care… I had to run..

I couldn’t tell any of you.. Kangin doesn’t know anything.. how am I supposed to tell him that am the elder brother for the woman who broke his heart and slept with his brother and was dating his brother-in-law…?

I start feeling my steps getting heavier.. my clothes were fully drenched but I couldn’t care less, I had to run..

She is going under intensive psychological therapy sessions… she was this close to lose her mind completely when SiHan stole away her child and locked her in their apartment for days.. before people broke into her place and rescued her..

I was getting closer, just 2 more blocks Yesung, 2 more..

He kept threatening her that he will take revenge.. he will make her and Siwon pay for what they did.. for breaking his relation with you apart.. he lost the basic means of humanity and stole away her child.. she told me when I ran into her after being rescued that SiHan last words to her were that he was going to get his revenge from Siwon and her too by stealing away her baby… he said he will never allow Siwon to see you again, he will never allow him to see anything at all..

I slipped on my way there, I let out a moan of pain… my right knee was bleeding… but… but how can I stop now.. how? When he is so close.. I have to bear with this… just as I beard with our separation… this pain is nothing compared to that..

So ever since,  he was nowhere to be found, the police won’t take MinJung words seriously since she isn’t mentally stable now.. so SiHan is still free out there living his life normally while every one of us had to go through all kind of because of his mental sickness.. am not sure if our Siwon ever saw my niece.. am not sure if he is still alive either… but what I know very well that SiHan should be punished… MUST be punished.. and u have to find the happiness u deserve Yesung..

I was finally there, standing in front of his place…. I don’t know from where did I generate such a power… the moment I was brought back to reality, I found myself breaking into Kangmin’s room, breath cracking and the pain from my leg un-stabilizing my motion..

‘’sweet cheeks.. what’s wrong? Why are u here at such a late hour? is MaRi okay?’’ he asked in concern.

I was out of breath…. I pointed at his chest.

‘’Kangmin-ah… ur shirt… take it off please….’’ I asked and received a blank expression from him.

‘’w…..what?’’

‘’JUST TAKE THE DAMN SHIRT OFF…’’ I yelled at him and he was still standing there, looking at me blankly…

I knew this wouldn’t work so I walked closer to him, took a deep breath and looked at him.

‘’am sorry.. I will make sure to buy u a new one…’’ and in one movement I ripped his shirt off..

He gasped and I shut my eyes closed…. It was there, right on his left shoulder… the same bruise that was printed in his skin because of the bullet…..

‘’HYUNG ….’’ He called out in annoyance and I tried my best not to collapse.

‘’Kan….gmin…. ur left shoulder…. The bruise…’’

‘’I was shot…..’’

He said… and I lost all coherent thoughts.

‘’the doctors back then told me that this bruise is coz of an old shot .. it wasn’t coz of the assault atta-…………’’ and he was cut off as I kissed him… I crashed our lips together, it was a messy, disoriented, weird kiss.. but it wasn’t meant to be other than that.. he pulled away as the taste of salt mixed with our kisses…. The taste of my tears..

He looked at me with the same zooming out looks and I cried even harder before I pull him back and forth from his ripped shirt…

‘’Choi Siwon YOU SPOILED LITTLE UNGRATEFUL JERK…………’’ and I stopped before sliding down holding his legs…. The ‘’painful’’ happiness I felt at that moment was worth all the sorrow I had to swallow in his absence….

End of POV

End Of Chapter [16]

A.N: yes I know this was too long :S and yes it was lame =.= I tried my best though :/

Just so u guys know, this fic have ONLY 2 more chapters.. and instead of starting a new story I decided to continue my other one ‘’Will it Snow For Christmas’’ I really wish u will show as much support for that one as u did for ‘’On Rainy Days’’… I already posted  13 chapters of ‘’Will it Snow For Christmas’’ but its been in hiatus for over a year now.. so yeah.. I really wish u will enjoy the last 2 chapters of ‘’On Rainy Days’’ and plz give it a lot of love and support..

As usual, sorry for typos/grammatical-mistakes..

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