Chapter [15]

On Rainy Days

 

Chapter [15] : Who are you? Lovely stranger.. Part [1]

‘’the date of the surgery is confirmed….’’

‘’GREAT.. then why are u sulking? U were about to pass out when the Dr. first told u that its nearly impossible to get a donor.. and now ur all sad and gloomy?’’ EunHyuk said as the two grabbed their coffee from the hospital’s cafeteria and headed back to MaRi’s room.

YeSung sighed.

‘’I don’t know Hyuk.. it’s just that.. I ran into the donor before meeting the Dr. when he told me the supposedly ‘’good news’’ of finding a donor….’’

‘’how did u know it was him?’’

‘’the Dr. told me later..’’

‘’so??’’

‘’it’s just… the man was.. he look so young and its… it just make me feel bad for him….’’

‘'sunbaenim…..’’

‘’it’s not just that.. that person… I don’t know why.. when we met, he was so calm and looked so peaceful.. he told me we are going to meet if destiny allows.. and right after that I realized that he is willing to give up his cornea to my weak-sighted sis.. he will live as a blind person for the rest of his life..’’

EunHyuk sighed.

‘’u mentioned something about him having a very weak eye-sight…’’

‘’yes.. Dr. Han said so.. but does that make me feel better.. not to feel guilty or bad for him?’’

With that, the two guys arrived to MaRi’s room but before walking closer to the room’s door they saw Dr.Han standing there, talking to a tall man whom only his back was visible.

Yesung felt uneasy, Dr.Han was smiling and chatting casually with the man in front of him, but he felt that there is something fishy going on… The man bowed to Dr.Han and walked away, using his stick as a guide..

YeSung then walked quickly to Dr.Han’s direction…

‘’was it him….?’’ YeSung asked, holding Dr.Han’s arm.

Dr.Han felt uncomfortable with YeSung’s attitude but he nodded.

‘’he said he would love to sit and chat with MaRi before the surgery date.. I told him that I will ask you first…’’

EunHyuk walked closer.

‘’why would he ask such a thing?’’

‘’he said.. he want to be friends with the person who will take care of his cornea forever….’’

With that YeSung handed his coffee to Hyuk and ran quickly to the direction where Kangmin headed to earlier. He ran so quickly, making his best not to pump into anyone who show up in his way.

He stopped once he was out of the main gate and tried to catch his breath, he looked around and gladly he spotted a man using a stick, standing in the pedestrian spot, willing to cross the street, he resumed running and stopped just few steps behind the other, he scanned the signal light.. gladly it was red for the pedestrians.. the speeding cars passing by in front of them send some tiny winds that greeted their cheeks with chilly air…

Yesung was standing there staring at the man’s back.. he extended his hand.. to touch the other’s back? To turn him around? He wasn’t sure… but just before his hand landed on the taller man’s, this latter turned around and held his hand, startling him..

‘’when we met the other day.. I would have expected u to be anything but a ert…’’ Kangmin said with a grin.

YeSung was taking aback by the sudden move but he pulled away his hand and looked hesitantly into the other’s eyes.

‘’what do u mean ert…? I wasn’t trying to do anything inappropriate.. I was just….’’

Kangmin then interrupted the smaller man as he walked to God knows where in a sign for Yesung to follow him.

‘’Hey wait….’’ YeSung called out before following the other, who got seated in a bench located few meters away from where they were standing earlier.

Kangmin sit there, with his sunglasses still on, he folded his stick in a neat way and placed it aside, he signed for YeSung to sit beside him.

The smaller man did so, the two sat there silently for a minute before Kangmin initiated.

‘’Dr.Han told me that you are MaRi’s elder brother.. ‘’ he smiled. ‘’I was taken aback.. I knew we were going to meet once again but that was too quick for my own wishing…’’

YeSung looked at him.

‘’wishing? Why would u wish to meet someone u don’t even know…’’

Kangmin looked at him, not losing his smile.

‘’well.. ur an eye candy…’’ he then gave out a dry laugh. ‘’ how daring of a blind man to say this.. Oh God I sound pitiful….’’

YeSung kept zeroing his focus on the man’s face.

‘’why…? Why do u want to donate ur cornea? Dr.Han said ur not fully blind.. ur eye-sight is very weak but ur not fully blind.. why don’t u just continue the treat-….’’

‘’there is no point Yesung….’’

And for some reason, Yesung felt shivers traveling his body when the elder man called his name.

‘’I have been going under treatment for 3 years and there is no sign of improvement.. I do have one healthy cornea though.. so why keeping it there for no use.. I spent most of my money on treatment.. so doing charity isn’t an option.. instead I decided to give away this sole healthy part of my eye to someone who will be given hope to resume a normal, healthy life..’’

‘’But…’’

‘’but ur too bold for a good looking man…’’ he throw a witty comment before reaching out for his stick.

YeSung kept staring at him for couple of minutes.

‘’if u keep staring like that my handsome face will fall off…’’ and he laughed once again.

YeSung blushed in embarrassment and looked away.

‘’staring my .. ur so daring for…’’

‘’for a blind man….’’ Kangmin cuts him off with a pale smile before standing up.

‘’No.. no that wasn’t what I was about to say…’’ YeSung stands up too but he didn’t realize he was holding Kangmin’s arm.

The taller one looked at him with a smile.

‘’I always have been a well-mannered, handsome, tall man.. but if u keep touching me this way.. I will start having doubts about the manners part.. specially with those chubby cheeks of yours.. I can’t guarantee my hands not to act naughty…’’

YeSung pulled away, another shade of red covering his cheeks.

‘’and u dared to call me a ert earlier?’’

Kangmin laughed.

‘’it seems that we will have a lot of fun together in the upcoming days..  Mr.Kim…..’’ and with that he bowed to the smaller man and walked away.

YeSung followed him with his eyes until the man disappeared among the crowd.

Who are you?

Who the hell are you…?

It was around midnight when YeSung finally lay on that couch next to MaRi’s bed.. it was a tiring day for him.. after that meeting with Kangmin, he had to run to school for some extra tutoring classes, despite the fact that his schedule is tighter now and he barely have anytime for himself, he had to bear with it, because he knew very well.. that MaRi’s treatment is costly and he can’t afford the needed amount of money with his modest salary, he had to add extrea sessions to earn some extra money… he make sure MaRi drifted to bed before he tried to catch some sleep too.. that night.. and although his chest felt heavy… he was too tired to think of anything.. he didn’t need that little time before sleep take over him to think of Siwon… he knew that his lover will appear in his dreams.. holding him close, patting his back.. assuring him that everything will be just fine..

Only if you know how much I miss you…

How empty my life is without you..

How am on the verge of breaking down..

I need you to recharge me with strength Siwon..

I need you to embrace my with warmth..

Where are you baby.. aren’t you sick of this separation yet..

And it was one other night where he drifts to sleep with sorrow tears washing his soul…    

Next Morning

‘’Oppa… Oppa wake up…..’’

YeSung rubbed his eyes, he looked around lazily and saw MaRi standing beside his couch with a wide smile across her face.

‘’MaRi-ah… why are you up already? What time is it?’’ he looked to the clock hanged on the wall, it was 9:45 a.m.

YeSung sit on his sleeping place and sighed, he thanked God it was weekend and that he don’t have to rush to school.

‘’Oppa.. go wash up quickly so we can have some cupcakes for breakfast….’’ MaRi said looking at the cutely designed cake box placed on the table beside YeSung’s couch.

‘’cupcakes?????’’

MaRi nodded. ‘’and Mr.Teddy Bear wants to join too….’’ MaRi said pointing to the big teddy bear toy lying on her bed.

YeSung looked around in confusion.

‘’who brought these cakes and what’s with that toy?’’

‘’its Kangmin-ssi….’’ One of the nurses told him as YeSung headed to the reception to check on who sent the stuff to his sister’s room.

YeSung eyes widened.

‘’when?’’

‘’am not sure Sir, but he had a session earlier… around 8:00 a.m and he asked me to pass the cakes and the toy to your sister’s room….’’

YeSung headed to Dr.Han’s office with a tired expression on his face.

What is he? Santa? Why is he doing this?

I should tell him that am going to look for another donor..

Thoughts of this man is giving me the creeps..

I can’t let him shove himself in our lives..

The earlier I push him away.. the better it’ll be..

10 minutes later..                       

‘’here it is…..’’ Dr.Han handed a paper with Kangmin’s address on it. ‘’but you can meet him quite often since he stop by the hospital almost every day for his sessions..’’

YeSung nodded. ‘’I know.. but there is still some stuff we need to discuss.. stuff that require some privacy..’’

YeSung  then bowed to Dr.Han and was about to leave when Dr.Han called him.

‘’Mr.Kim… before blowing off an opportunity for your sister to regain her eye-sight back.. i want you to know that ur sympathy towards Kangmin-ssi is baseless.. he spent the last 2 years training himself for a blind man’s life.. he will come to the therapy keeping in mind that he will have to life as a blind man for the rest of his life.. he though kept receiving treatment because of his family persistence.. so u don’t have to feel pressured for having to accept his donation.. he is a man to respect.. you two can be friends instead.. people in the same situation as him lacks a shoulder to lean on.. if u want to pay him back.. just keep his company.. that will be more than enough.. believe me…’’

YeSung POV

I walked out of Dr.Han’s office feeling something sinking deep in my chest.. why was I feeling so badly in pain.. it’s not that he is having a painful life.. he might have one… but he still seem to be keeping his spirit up.. sympathy? Did that even cross my mind..? I don’t want to owe him anything because….. because.. just because I don’t want this man to be attached to my life in anyway.. if I approve this donation then I will owe him this for the rest of my life and MaRi’s too… then it will be impossible for me to push him away.. what kind of human being would that make me..? but again… he may also not want to reserve a spot in your life YeSung.. aren't u pushing this a bit too far..? I really should push away these messed up emotions and thoughts.. I really should..

The second I opened MaRi’s room door, the sight before my eyes almost the life out of me…

‘’Oppa.. do I call u oppa or ajhussi…’’ MaRi asked staring at the small kid seating in Kangmin’s lap.

‘’hahahah.. do u think oppa is that old.. if yes then call me ajhussi…’’

MaRi shaked her head.

‘’No.. although oppa has a little cute daughter but I still find oppa young and handsome…’’

With that Kangmin caressed MaRi’s hair.

‘’so her name is Mira?’’ MaRi asked pointing at the little girl in Kangmin’s lap.

‘’yes and she can talk a little bit.. Mira-ah.. say Hi to unni…’’

‘’un ni iah…’’ the little girl murmured causing the other two to laugh.

‘’she is really cute and pretty.. is her omma pretty too?’’

I felt my heart being squeezed, I didn’t know… I really didn’t know that Kangmin has a baby.

‘’am not sure… but what am certain about is that Mira is the prettiest girl in the world.. just as pretty as MaRi is….’’ And MaRi moved closer and kissed Kangmin’s cheek.

‘’oppa is so handsome when he smiles.. and u have two dimples too.. just like Siwon oppa….’’

With that I lost my last droplet of patience and walked into the room.

‘’oppaaaaaaaaaaaa’’ MaRi called, placing the little girl in her lap.

‘’MaRi-ah u take care of the child for now.. I and this oppa…’’ and he pointed to Kangmin. ‘’ we need to talk for a minute….’’ And I held his arm dragging him out of the room.

‘’watch out young man, did u forget am a blind person.. have some mercy…’’ Kangmin said with annoyance showing in his voice.

‘’why didn’t you tell me…?’’ I asked in a deep tone.

Kangmin sighed before fixing his thick sunglasses.

‘’tell you what?’’

‘’DON’T PLAY FOOL AND SPIT IT OUT KANGMIN.. WHY THE HELL DIDN’T YOU TELL ME THAT YOU HAVE A DAUGHTER? DAMN IT….’’ I was shouting at the other, I didn’t realize the people in the corridor stopped walking and looked at my direction.

‘’are u insane? Stop shouting.. we are in the hospital…’’

I crossed my arms and glared at the other. ‘’ am calm now.. so go ahead.. explain yourself…’’

End of POV

Kangmin looked at the man in front of him, the view was blurry for sure, but he still can feel YeSung intense gaze.

‘’so what if I have a daughter.. why is it something I should tell you… I don’t understand the reason behind your anger young man…’’ he said in a sarcastic tone.

YeSung rolled his eyes.

‘’first of all am not a young man Mr. sacrificing.. am 27 years old and based on Dr.Han you are 4 years younger than me so u better start talking to me formally.. secondly, u should stop acting as if am gonna fall on my knees begging u to look at me.. u should stop fantasizing Mr.Choi.. am not interested in you nor on your personal life..’’

Kangmin faked a smile. He knew that those words shouldn’t have the effects they are having on him right now.. he felt YeSung word digging deep in his heart.

‘’u sure are not.. when did I say otherwise….’’

YeSung sighed before pointing his finger at the taller man.

‘’if I was confused before of whether I should accept ur donation then am 100% objecting that now… how can u do that when u have a daughter u should watch after.. r u even in ur right mind?’’

Kangmin for once couldn’t keep the cool act any longer.

‘’my daughter.. as u said is MY DAUGHTER.. and ur not in a position to lecture me of how I should watch after her.. u should know by now that am a hopeless case.. and that there is no chance for me to retrieve my eye-sight so why are u making this more complicated.. have u even thought of ur sister.. Dr.Han already told u that if u don’t get a donor as soon as possible then there is a huge possibility for MaRi to lose her sight once and for all.. how can u claim u love her so much yet u still act so selfishly..’’ Kangmin breathing was cracked as he let out the last sentence.

YeSung was standing there, mouth half-opened… he really didn’t know what to say.. Kangmin still shouldn’t just give up like that..

‘’if I had this talk with you before meeting MaRi then I would have let go of this whole donation idea but no… this girl… this amazing little kid whose full of life she deserve to live a normal, healthy, dreamy life.. its sad that she had to be ur sister.. someone as selfish as u don’t deserve a sister like MaRi…’’ and Kangmin was about to walk away when YeSung held his arm, they both turned around to the direction of a noise coming across.. it was an emergency case.. a wheel-bed with a bleeding woman in top being pushed with a high speed by a group of nurses.. YeSung was staring blankly at the scene before his eyes when Kangmin pulled him closer and switch their positions, the elder man was pushed to the wall and Kangmin trapped him with his arms.. the corridor was so noisy but then as the crowd passed behind the two men… the silence fell over once again…

YeSung raised his head to look up at the taller man….. and it was then when his heart stopped beating.

Kangmin was sweating.. his glasses fell off so his perfectly polished featured were glowing.. his eyes were glued to YeSung’s but they were also zooming into the blank.. their faces were unbelievably close.. Kangmin felt his breathing mixing with the shorter man.

‘’u should be careful….’’ Kangmin said, still trapping the elder man between his arms.

YeSung felt waves of chills traveling his body.

Those gazes.. those lips… this smell… it’s all so familiar..

Its… its so…so.. Siwon-ish..

Kangmin pulled away when he realized the position himself and the older man were standing in, he knelt down and started scanning the floor searching for his glasses and stick.

YeSung was still in daze… he then managed to look down, the man found his glasses and put them on… he then used his stick to guide him inside MaRi’s room…

YeSung was still standing there, feeling his legs so weak to move.. he saw Kangmin carrying his daughter and was about to pass him when he said.

‘’the surgery is in 10 days.. until then.. I wish u will accept the fact that this man whom u seem not to like the slightest bit.. will do anything to help ur sister get her sight back.. even if u disapprove it.. this surgery will be performed.. and I will be the first to visit u and MaRi in ur place.. by then I wish u will stop being the jerk ur acting like right now… see u soon…. Sweet cheeks…’’ Kangmin managed to smile at last.

2 days later

YeSung POV

It was around 5:00 p.m when I arrived to the hospital.. it was another long day in school.. thanks God Hyoyeon spared sometime to spend it with MaRi during the morning.. when I arrived there I was surprised to see DongHae and EunHyuk waiting for me.. I hugged my friends.. I was re-assured by then that I wasn’t as lonely as I thought I was..

‘’she just slept..’’ Hae said… it was around 8:00 p.m by then..

‘’thank u guys for sparing sometime to stop by.. it really means a lot to me…’’

EunHyuk circled my shoulder.

‘’there is no thanks between friends.. Hae has to leave though because his parents called him to join a family gathering.. am staying here until u kick me out urself…’’

I smiled… we send Hae home and it was already midnight.. Hyuk was laying in my couch and MaRi was deeply asleep.. I put my blazer on and covered Hyuk body with the warm material so he won’t freeze to death.. it was a very cold night..

I texted Hyuk once I was seated on the back seat of a public bustelling him that am going for a night walk and that I might comeback late.. so that he won’t worry..

The bus stopped on the targeted place, I made my way to where I was planning to.. a place I missed like nothing else..

‘’Happy Day’’ restaurant..

I stood there staring at the place that held our youth memories back then Siwon… do u still remember?

I walked closer and touched the glassy windows.. I remembered our fights. Our sweet moments.. when u played piano for me once.. when I taught u how to make cakes and pasta.. how I burned my fingers when teaching u how to make coffee.. how u always were so warm despite ur tough attitude.. I felt my legs dragging me to all the places around town where we had our memorises pierced in the corners.. the Cornish.. new year’s eve.. our love countdown.. when u first confessed to me.. Jeju island and our bittersweet memories there.. how I thought the world stopped revolving when I thought I lost u that day.. but even then…. It wasn’t as painful as it is now Siwon-ah… if I lost u then, I would have lived with ur memories knowing that we weren’t destined to live more than we what we lived already… but now.. when there is no single evidence of u being underground.. or even above that.. do u know how painful that feels? The thought of u being in no particular place.. nowhere for me to find u.. to hold a grip of u.. can't approach u…

The second my legs stopped walking I found myself facing that dark, intimidating place.. the place where I ran into u pouring ur pains and soul content to ur dear mother.. it was the graveyard.. where I first realized.. u weren’t the spoiled, evil maknae they all thought u were.. u was so fragile.. so weak and heart-broken.. so needy.. so lonely.. just like I am right now when ur not by my side Siwon… I knelt on the floor allowing my sorrows to take over.. I cried just like u did that day Siwon-ah.. I cried for my miserable lonely life.. I didn’t mind showing my weakness to the person I loved more than anything in my existence.. I cried.. and screamed inside my head..

Am I going to see u for once.. once only before I say my goodbyes to a world that is empty with anything BUT you.. to a world that if full of everything….. BUT you…

End of POV

YeSung was drown in his painfully sweet memories when he felt someone kneeling in front of him, tapping his left cheek.

‘’sweet cheeks… is that you?’’

With that YeSung looked up at the man in front of him and he felt his tears crystallizing in his eyes.

‘’wh…..what? what are u doing here?’’ YeSung asked his voice cracking.

Kangmin smiled before cupping YeSung’s face, erasing his tears away.

‘’I might also be ur garden angel u know… stop crying and walk me home.. its too dark here.. darker than how it is usually..’’

And the taller man helped YeSung standing before he hold his arm.

‘’what? Are u going to stand there uselessly.. walk me home.. its 2 blocks ahead from here…’’ and YeSung sighed, closed his eyes and tried to collect his thoughts.. he was still feeling down.. his eyes are swallown and his nose and eyes are still read.. he don’t remember crying like that in a while.. ever since Siwon 's disappearance…

‘’do u live here?’’ YeSung asked, trying to get rid of the awkwardness he felt from the taller man running into him in such a situation.

‘’oh.. so u didn’t come here to visit me? Poor thing.. I keep building up hopes but they betray me…’’ Kangmin said with a smile.

YeSung looked at the taller man then to his hand that was holding his arm tightly.

‘’why would u go to the graveyard at such a late hour…’’

Kangmin was silent for a minute before saying.

‘’it was another fail try to recall some memories.. I thought it might work today since I had some cracked flash backs playing in my head earlier….’’

YeSung didn’t understand a thing.

‘’what are u talking about…?’’

Kangmin smiled before turning his attention to the other.

‘’am not a normal blind man u know…’’

YeSung rolled his eyes.

‘’yes u told me this earlier, ur a handsome, well-mannered blind man….’’

Kangmin laughed.

‘’true.. add to that, that am a person who lost lots of memories.. the time I lost my eye-sight….’’

YeSung stopped walking and looked at the other in shock.

‘’what do u mean u lost ur memories?’’

Kangmin let go of YeSung’s arm.

‘’I have been into an accident.. or maybe an assault attack from robbers.. am not really sure.. I fell into coma for a week… and when I woke up I couldn’t remember anything about my past life.. I couldn’t remember anything at all.. not even how do things in life look like since I lost my sight in that same mysterious accident….’’

They continue walking and Kangmin kept talking about his painful memories.

‘’the police officer back then told me that a new born baby was found in the same area I was found at after the accident., he asked me if she is someone I know but I couldn’t tell coz I couldn’t remember…’’

‘’no way… u mean Mira?’’ YeSung asked in shock.

Kangmin nod before sighing.

‘’a DNA test was suggested to find out the baby’s identity but my condition was too bad so that we couldn’t perform it.. a month passed after that and I was slowly adapting to my new situation.. I remember that back then  i needed a lot of blood transfusion as I lost a lot of blood due to the accident.. a generous man.. a generous old man was there for me.. he was a regular blood donor in that hospital.. that old man is now my only family, he provided me with warmth and shelter.. he took care of me and Mira for the past 3 years.. Mira whom I volunteered to take care of as if she was my own daughter.. and that how is my life went since then.. I work in this small bookstore with my whom i call my ‘’spiritual father’’ and we both take care of little Mira who is the candle of our lives…. When u asked me earlier about my weird talk of my flashbacks.. I keep having those but the images are blurry and all what I got to see is this graveyard.. it keep appearing in my dreams.. for some reason’’

What Kangmin rather not to tell the elder one is that when they had they quick intimate moment the other day with YeSung body glued to his, the smaller man being in his arms… this also keep giving him weird feelings.. it makes him feel that there is something about his past has to do with all the feelings he got when he held YeSung close like that… he wish he could tell the other about how he felt about it… but he knew he shouldn’t..

By the time Kangmin finished talking they were standing in front of his small house, next to the bookstore where he work at.

YeSung stood there looking at him.

‘’I wish I could….’’

Kangmin opened his arms.

‘’u wish??? no need for that cute cheeks, u know u can hug me whenever u want…’’ and he smiled causing the elder man to smile too.

‘’am so sorry.. u had to go through all of this….’’

Kangmin smiled.

‘’u don’t have to.. instead.. u should just continue being a nice oppa to ur sis.. I called u selfish earlier but it was because I let my emotions take over.. I didn’t want that angelic girl to go through the tough life I went through.. that’s all….’’

There was a silent moment before Knagmin felt YeSung walking to his side…. He was right in front of him, he can sense his steady breathing..

‘’I think… u should reconsider getting rid of this……’’ and he took off Kangmin sunglasses, the taller man stiffened.

‘’plz don’t…..’’ YeSung placed a finger in the taller man’s lips. ‘’if u think that u still deserve to live even if u lack what many others do.. u then shouldn’t hide behind this.. ur pain, happiness, fears.. don’t cover them with a thick barrier that will serve u nothing but a concerned soul, fearful to face the world…u have beautiful, dreamy eyes… don’t cover them from the world Kangmin-ssi….’’

Kangmin smiled, he then tried to zoom into the smaller man’s eyes.

‘’what about you? is crying alone will help u heal ur wounds? Will this self-torture bring him back to you?’’

YeSung gasped.

‘’Choi Siwon is it? Even his name is unique.. I think am going nuts after all.. being jealous of someone I have never met….’’

YeSung felt the tears reforming in his eyes.

‘’how did you….’’ But the words failed him as his voice cracked.

Kangmin walked few steps closer to the other before caressing his hair.

‘’from now on… u can’t cry alone… u won’t cry alone.. if I can’t bring him back to you… I will make sure ur wounds heal up.. those wounds caused by this deep love u have for that man.. just let me help u heal them up…..’’

That Night

YeSung POV

By the time I arrived back to the hospital… EunHyuk was gone.. he texted me back saying that he had an urgent meeting earlier next morning so he had to leave.. I seated myself in the couch after making sure MaRi was still enjoying her peaceful sleep.. I  heard a gentle knock on the door, I jumped from my place before running to open the door slowly so that it won’t disturb MaRi’s sleep.

‘’a delivery for you Mr.Kim….’’ I thanked the nurse and walked back to my old position, I opened the nicely wrapped box and my eyes widened seeing a set of brownies with extra chocolate and nuts… I turned around the box and I saw a tiny hand writing on the edge.

First step of letting go of ur sadness..

I used my spying skills to know ur favourite chocolate type..

Make sure not to grow a belly.. I only like ur chubby cheeks, a chubby belly is a big NO..

wish u yummy brownie dreams ^^

The same handsome, tall.. blind man..

I found myself smiling but those tears refusing to stop swinging in my eyes..

This man.. who was he really? Did Siwon send him to me to lighten my pains…?

I squeezed my eyes, allowing the tears to dig along my ‘’chubby’’ cheeks..

Couldn’t the destiny who send me Kangmin, brought u instead Siwon-ah….?

 

End of POV

Next Morning

It was around 9:00 a.m when YeSung woke up from his deep sleep, he looked around, the room was empty. He even slept in the same clothes from yesterday…. WAIT A SECOND.. the room is empty???? Where the hell did MaRi go? He throw his cover aside and started searching on the toilet of the room, he get out of the room and started searching everywhere in the hospital.. he asked all the nurses about MaRi.. but no one knew where did the little girl go.. he asked the security to help him looking for her.. he felt his head being ripped off.. this feeling… he knew it very well.. when Siwon was lost.. it felt just as bad.. one of the security guards told him to search on the garden outside.. he ran to there, there was a lot of patients with some of their family members, he looked around.. he felt as if a cold water poured him…. MaRi was there, playing with a little girl…. A little girl that looked familiar…

Mira?

He looked around and saw Kangmin walking to the girl’s side before handing them some strawberry milk to drink.

YeSung sighed in relief but he knew he had to scold the older man for almost giving him a heart attack.

‘’OPPA……..’’ MaRi called out at YeSung before running to hug his leg.

‘’MaRi-ah how can u disappear like that without telling me about it… do u know how scared I was?’’ he said hugging the little kid.

‘’can’t u just relax.. u ruined a lovely morning for the kids….’’ Kangmin said walking to YeSung’s side.

YeSung didn’t reply, he just glared at him before letting go of MaRi who dragged Mira along and both went to collect some flowers.

After getting seated in a close bench YeSung started.

‘’r u in ur right mind.. do u know how scared I was?’’

‘’am sorry Mr.Scared the girls planned this since their first meeting and I have a weak heart to girls pleading…’’ he said with a grin.

YeSung ignored him and looked straight at the girls who were running around, enjoying each other’s company.

‘’the… brownies… how did u know about them?’’ Yesung asked hesitantly.

Kangmin smiled.

‘’just like I knew about Siwon….’’

YeSung looked away, he didn’t like the fact that Kangmin knew a lot about him, he felt so exposed to the other which was giving him the chills.

The girls ran to the men’s side and Mira looked into YeSung’s eyes, the elder man couldn’t help but smile and then he carried the little girl before placing her in his lap.

‘’oppa… are u appa’s friend? U two look so close?’’ Mira asked.

‘’no no they aren’t friends they are dating…’’ MaRi said, winking to Kangmin.

YeSung eyes almost popped out.

‘’WHAT?’’

Kangmin winked back to MaRi before caressing Mira’s hair.

‘’yes sweaty.. this handsome oppa is ur father’s boyfriend…..’’

 

End of Chapter [15]

 

A.N: was this a late update? Not really right :P this was kind along =.= sorry for that.. anyhow.. I noticed that on the previous update some of u got the huuuuuuuuuuuuge hint I gave using the chapter’s pic but some others didn’t.. so I need to clarify something..

For those who got the hint: I know u will ask something like (how come Yesung didn’t recognize the similarities in looks?) the answer for this u will know it in the next chapter ^^

For those of you who didn’t get the hint: (I wish I made it clearer in this chapter ><)

LOL anyhow this is how am picturing ‘’Kangmin’s’’ character, just imagine his hair being brownish.. (like in GDA 2009 event ;~;)

 

P.S: I chose this name coz before Siwon’s latest drama news were confirmed I read somewhere that his character will be called ‘’Kangmin’’ am not sure if it’s still the name there though LOL

AGAIN : sorry for any typos/Grammatical mistakes (English isn’t my first language after all =.=)

And plz keep supporting this story, I wish u didn’t get tired of it already :/

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farrelandmerry
358 streak #1
Chapter 18: Finally!!!! After so many years trying to find this story! T^T I remember reading this in 2019. The ending just.... T_____T
jongwoontrash #2
Chapter 8: FCK. The ending of this chapter just killed me. Huuuuuuu. Fck. They are like confessing to each other silently. Huuuuuuuu. :') It's too beautiful.

Damn. Wait. I really wanna comment at everything but my mind is reeling from the last scene. Hahaha.
Okay. *Deep breath* Aww. Nighttime walks are just cute hahaha. Them eating ice cream and Siwon teasing Yesung and finally opening up to him about Leeteuk. Then there's Yesung offering his company (along with the thigh touching *squeal*) Hahaha. Then there goes there teasing and FLIRTING althroughout. The decorating thing with holding Yesungie's waist. And there's the piano scene!!!!! So sweet!!!!!!! "hyung" They are really getting closer and closer waaaaah (even physically). And Siwon already staring at Yesung's lips (Tsktsk, Siwonie). And Hyuk and Teukie talk stating how obvious the two (lovebirds) are. Hahaha. Then there goes another problematic thing with Min Jung (Damn, girl. All threr of them?). Hahaha. Teuk's talk with Yesung making the latter SERIOUSLY jealous that I can practically feel his pain. And waaaaah amusement parks are really a place for romance, eh? Roller coaster teasing reminds me of their movie date (w/ eunhae). :D Then there goes the water fight. Our Siwonie is getting (more) physically attracted to our (his) Yesung (Well, who won't with him dripping wet like that). And FCK, of course, the best scene of the chapter huuuuuuuuuuu Them finally losing their defenses. The hug. The thoughts.

‘’for a minute.. only for this one minute.. can u think of me… look at me.. at SiWon not Choi SiWon…’’

‘’for once.. can I see u as.. YeSung.. rather than my brother in law.. can I … can I hug u….?’’

‘’I wish I had ever looked, thought… or felt of u as Choi SiWon.. if I ever did I wouldn’t been succumbing to my downfall…’’ (THIS. OH MY GOD)

"For a minute..
Just a minute..
At this exact moment..
I wanna love you..
Kim YeSung.." (WAAAH. FML)

*DIES* HAPPILY HUUUU
jongwoontrash #3
Chapter 7: "“for this...” and he pointed at his forehead. “komawayoooo....” and he flashed me with that annoying... beautiful smile of his."

KYAAAAAAA~ HUHU. THAT WAS SO SWEET. AND FLUFFY HUHU. Forehead kisses are just amazing.
Totally lived this chapter too. Yesungie spacing out and smiling nonstop. Haha. Even MaRi can't resist the Choi maknae. And I really like Hyoyeon's characyer too. Tsk. The rooftop argument. Our boys are starting to get jealous with each other. But then there goes the allergic to shrimp thing (little details make me squeal) and the sofa talk where Yesungie traced Siwon's face (awww~) then them talking about Hyoyeon's close relationship with Yesung (him thinking like his her mom is just so precious). And there goes MaRi about her oppa's obsession with brownies and Kara unnies. Aaaaand Yesungie being jealous of our leadernim. Hahaha. The people around them are starting to notice the "whatever" between the two (Even Leeteuk who just knew them for a few hours). AND OMG THE LAST SCENE. I don't know but rapid forceful turning arounds to a hug (haha) really gets me everytime. These two ate just sooooo cute. :') YeWon all the way.
jongwoontrash #4
Chapter 6: Waaaaah! I LOVE THIS CHAPTER SO MUCH. I really liked the pasta making part because I'm really a er for tension!!! Gaaaah! It was so cuuuute. Also the chocolate baking with the cream (). Haha. Naughty Siwonie. Then the "backhug" during pasta making wahahaaahuuu kyeopta. Even the quite serious part with pinning Yesung to the refrigerator. Haaaa~ Then there was the movie part. Haha. Siwon teasing Yesung was so cuuute and so was Yesungie brushing his lips against Siwon. AND the jacket scene waaaah totally liked Siwon finding other excuses for his affectionate gestures (like what he said after they cooked the pasta with regards to him saving Yesung). Then there's the ending which totally gives hints to what happens later in this series. Kyaaa. This chapter is paaaaacked.
jongwoontrash #5
Chapter 5: This is my 2nd (or was it 3rd?) time reading it and I just wanna say that I like this story so much!!! I didn't get to comment because I always end up itching to know what happens next but this time I want to let you know my thoughts. I liked the last part of this chapter because the both of them are starting to connect both ways (the graveyard scene in the previous chap was also good since it showed Siwon's vulnerable side that made Yesung feel). I really like Siwon's thoughts here and his instinct to go follow Yesung and hug him while crying. Kudos to you, authornim. :)
nighcloud407 #6
Chapter 18: TTT___TT ITS SO HEARTBREAKING #sobs I'll miss siwon and yesung tease each other #sobs ,oh this so sad:(

Actually, need time to open this final chap, seriously I need to call my courage and prepare my heart to this chapt. previously I used to seek for an update, but especialy for LAST CHAPT, I put my curious aside bcoz I havent prepare my self yet for the ending that I expected it would be so heartbreaking like this since u r the MASTER OF ANGST.

dont be sorry this story are amazing this way though its not a happy end but at least yewon still belong to each other ( ) thanks for ur stories if u have a time I still wait for another yewon story, PASHA!!
nighcloud407 #7
Chapter 18: TTT___TT ITS SO HEARTBREAKING #sobs I'll miss siwon and yesung tease other #sobs ,oh this so sad:(

Actually, need time to open this final chap, seriously I need to call my courage and prepare my heart to this chapt. previously I used to seek for an update, but especialy for LAST CHAPT, I put my curious aside bcoz I havent prepare my self yet for the ending that I expected it would be so heartbreaking like this since u r the MASTER OF ANGST.

dont be sorry this story are amazing this way though its not a happy end but at least yewon still belong to each other ( ) thanks for ur stories if u have a time I still wait for another yewon story, PASHA!!
tifane
#8
Chapter 18: Awwww honey, you put so much emotion here!!!! :'( You know I was sobbing so much here! I want to forgot this :'( it's make me so sad to read something like that about my baby Yesungie!!!!!! :( WAAAHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE SOB SOB SOB :'(
But I don't hate it, you write something dramatically realist >.< And it's so so beautiful! I swear this is amazing! :D You did a good job!!!! ^^ u know I prefer the happy ending so I will wait for another new happy story! :D
OMG!! Your YeWon here really deserve to be happy, and Mari who will grow up without her brother betside her... Arg it's so sad!!! :(
Honestly when I was reading this end, I could't still accept the fact that my Sungie dead but... GOD! You had to make him give his eyes to his forever love! *o* OMG OMG OMG! That was so JJDJKLOWER DUDJDHFHGSJJDDJJDDJFKFJGIITUG >_< but again stiiiiiiiil so sad, why did u have to make me cry a lot tonight!!! :'(
Snif... Love youuuuuu, I enjoyed this and it's the most important think :D
Kyaaaaaa this story is really aw aw aw amazing!!!! Thanks for making it ^^
I still need more YeWon Moments, plz plz write more when u can honey, and plz no more die, I beg you '^^ xD
HUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUG <3
Wasurenagusa #9
Chapter 18: Ah author-nim this story was TOO beautiful. I'm so glad I've found this fic. Though the ending is giving me a hurt feeling inside... this is such a good story. I hope to read more from you. (Oh and ignore my previous comment for chappie 17, I didn't knew there was a chappie 18 until now.) Still sobbing in my mind. One of the best stories I've read on asianfanfics :D Great Job.