Go.. before it's too late.
I Fell In Love With My Bestfriend!
I leaned forward and buried my face in my hands. Why does this hurt so much? Tears fell unknowingly as i read the bolded line again.
Song hyerin, you're the one i love.
I could feel my heart beating furiously. Wait, what? I can't...... I threw the letter to the table and placed my hand on my chest.
Don't. Do. This. To. Me.
--
That night, i let tao read the letter. I could read his thoughts although he had put on a lifeless expression. Tao suggested that i sleep with him that night. I said no, plant a kiss at his forehead and went to my room for a good night sleep.
I hovered over my bed and took the picture of my mum and dad by my bedside table. I wiped the dust off with my pjs and kissed it. I missed them so much.
"I feel so messed up. I don't know what to do. I love tao. But why.. does it hurt so much?"
All my life i spoke to them. And i feel better everytime. But not today. Why? Is it because with every passing second.... kevin gets further and further away? Can i handle being half a world away from him?
I took the picture and held it to my chest and begged before falling asleep.
"Please..... Give me a sign."
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I woke up feeling like a piece of crap. My body ached all over and my mouth was so dry i could drink the ocean. Then i got a shock when i saw my reflection from the mirror. MY EYES ARE SWOLLEN. Very swollen. I look like a balloon. I hurriedly took a bath and put on some fresh clothings.
I peek into tao's room and there he was, sleeping soundly like a baby. My heart warmed at the sight. I went to the kitchen to make breakfast. Then i went back to my room, and there on my bedside table.... was the letter. Instantly, the feeling of emptiness secluded me and i know i had nowhere to hide. I took the letter into my hands and reread it again. Word by word.
Song hyerin, you're the one i love.
Then i heard some noice coming from tao's room. I went over to find him on the floor, still asleep.
"Babo, wake up. Why are you on the floor? Breakfast's ready!" I tickled his sides.
He pulled me onto him, and i froze. Where's the butterflies i should feel? No more dugeun dugeun? I feel nothing.
He eyed me slowly and sat up, making me sit right in front of him.
"Let's talk,"
I shot him a confused look and stayed silent. What is there to talk about?
"Go find him,"
"Wh-what for?"
"Face it, hyerin. You don't love me like that."
"I do,"
"You're lying,"
"IM NOT LYING!" I yelled, and paused before continuing, "I just.... don't know what i feel...."
"You love him. Go find him. Before it's too late,"
He ruffled my hair and kissed my forehead.
"Thank you, oppa. Thank you so much," I hugged him before getting my stuff.
Where do i go?? I bit my nails and think. Yes, the 'Woo Company'. I need to find hanna, and fast. I flagged a taxi and wasted no time in getting there. I took a deep breath and muttered under my breath.
I love you kevin. Please don't go.
Song hyerin, you're the one i love.
I could feel my heart beating furiously. Wait, what? I can't...... I threw the letter to the table and placed my hand on my chest.
Don't. Do. This. To. Me.
--
That night, i let tao read the letter. I could read his thoughts although he had put on a lifeless expression. Tao suggested that i sleep with him that night. I said no, plant a kiss at his forehead and went to my room for a good night sleep.
I hovered over my bed and took the picture of my mum and dad by my bedside table. I wiped the dust off with my pjs and kissed it. I missed them so much.
"I feel so messed up. I don't know what to do. I love tao. But why.. does it hurt so much?"
All my life i spoke to them. And i feel better everytime. But not today. Why? Is it because with every passing second.... kevin gets further and further away? Can i handle being half a world away from him?
I took the picture and held it to my chest and begged before falling asleep.
"Please..... Give me a sign."
--
I woke up feeling like a piece of crap. My body ached all over and my mouth was so dry i could drink the ocean. Then i got a shock when i saw my reflection from the mirror. MY EYES ARE SWOLLEN. Very swollen. I look like a balloon. I hurriedly took a bath and put on some fresh clothings.
I peek into tao's room and there he was, sleeping soundly like a baby. My heart warmed at the sight. I went to the kitchen to make breakfast. Then i went back to my room, and there on my bedside table.... was the letter. Instantly, the feeling of emptiness secluded me and i know i had nowhere to hide. I took the letter into my hands and reread it again. Word by word.
Song hyerin, you're the one i love.
Then i heard some noice coming from tao's room. I went over to find him on the floor, still asleep.
"Babo, wake up. Why are you on the floor? Breakfast's ready!" I tickled his sides.
He pulled me onto him, and i froze. Where's the butterflies i should feel? No more dugeun dugeun? I feel nothing.
He eyed me slowly and sat up, making me sit right in front of him.
"Let's talk,"
I shot him a confused look and stayed silent. What is there to talk about?
"Go find him,"
"Wh-what for?"
"Face it, hyerin. You don't love me like that."
"I do,"
"You're lying,"
"IM NOT LYING!" I yelled, and paused before continuing, "I just.... don't know what i feel...."
"You love him. Go find him. Before it's too late,"
He ruffled my hair and kissed my forehead.
"Thank you, oppa. Thank you so much," I hugged him before getting my stuff.
Where do i go?? I bit my nails and think. Yes, the 'Woo Company'. I need to find hanna, and fast. I flagged a taxi and wasted no time in getting there. I took a deep breath and muttered under my breath.
I love you kevin. Please don't go.
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