-i'd like to hang out with you for my whole life-

 "Just...had a little accident."

 "Elaborate please."

 "I broke a leg...though I don't think it's broken anymore," He answered.

 Jennie listened to all the words before heaving a dramatic sigh. The warm breeze swept past her as she sat on the soft sand of a silent beach. "How did this accident happen? And why didn't you care to tell me, Sehun?" In her deepest thoughts, she felt excluded at the moment, she felt less important. Now that his broken leg was almost together, he had considered letting her know that he had been clumsy. Why not at that moment, when he just got his plaster done, he could call at that moment if she really mattered as much as she did when they were kids?

 Sehun explained to her what happened. He was carrying empty boxes down the stairs and wasn't looking. It was a new place, he wasn't used to the stairs yet.

 Then she heard Yerim's voice in the background. Irene, thanks for the breakfast, she said. In the back of her mind, in the very back, Jennie still thought that that should be her in Irene's place. If Sehun ever asked her to live with him in New York, to leave everything behind, family, friends, her favorite town, she wouldn't have given it a second thought. She would've said yes. Even if it was to take care of his house and him and his sister while he would be out building the world, Jennie would've been more than willing. 

 His words barely got registered in her brain. Jennie drew a heart in the sand before bitterly smiling at it and driving her palm against the surface to erase it. 

 "Irene's taking care of you," she mentioned the obvious.

 "Yeah..." he sounded distant. "Joohyun's been here since Sunday. She only went home to get her stuff...and I don't know," he chuckled, "I want to get better because we're both missing so many classes but I don't want to get better because I've gotten really used to her presence around me all the time."

 "Hmm," she nodded. She didn't understand but...whatever. "So, you're doing fine."

 "Yep."

 And when she went to New York to comfort him, to disclose her wish to heal the wounds Irene had left behind, Sehun wouldn't even listen to her. He wouldn't listen to anybody. He missed classes, lied on his bed with the blanket up to his head and refused to eat anything. He wrote page after page. That was the worst she had seen him, he was worse than the day he had lost his father. Jennie would never understand how a month with Bae Irene did that to him. 

 "--and I was going to say yes but...I know it's too early to trust anyone," he continued, "Oh, it's my bath time."

 Jennie studied the excitement in his voice and asked, "She gives you baths too?"

 "Yeah, kind of," he replied. "I'll call you later, Jen."

 "Yeah...happy bath...with Irene." He hung up before she could finish. Jennie carelessly threw her phone to the sand and brought her legs closer to her chest. She was about to hide her face and close her eyes but a sudden pain emerged from the right side of her head. Jennie would've gasped if she wasn't drowning in a bigger pain than that. She touched the side of her head and looked up to find out what it was that hit her. She saw an array of colors, effect of the sudden impact. The rubber ball tumbled down the sand before stopping at someone's feet.

 "Are you....are you okay?" She asked, eyes wide and covered by the shadow of her trendy snapback.

 Jennie sighed. Nodding her head, she lied. She wasn't alright, that was the reason she was here. 

 "I'm sorry," she said. The girl picked up the ball and left. Jennie followed her silhouette as she ran across the sun that was setting on the horizon. And then she stopped to look at Jennie. "You wanna play?! My friends went home!" She shouted so that Jennie could hear.

 Jennie shook her head sideways. She looked so depressed and the girl noticed so. 

 "Are you sure you're alright?"

 "I am."

 "You're new here? That big house is yours, huh?" The lanky girl pointed at the bungalow behind Jennie. Jennie nodded, eyes distant. "That's cool. I'm Lisa, by the way. What's your name? Kim what?"

 "...Jennie."

 The next afternoon, the girl was back in the sand with her friends. Jennie watched their game from the balcony of her father's vacation house. Lisa turned around when she noticed Jennie and raised her thin arm to wave at her. Jennie smiled a little before running inside.

 Dearest Joohyun