Breathe Jinyoung, breathe in breathe out. You can do this Jinyoung!

Jinyoung were wondering if the perseon seated beside him is a mute or have some illness because its been approximately around 30 minutes Jaebeom driving but he does not said any words or even acknowledge there is someone else inside the car.

"Ehem, ehem." Jinyoung 

"Ehem, ehem." Jinyoung cough louder.

"Ehem! Ehem!!" Jinyoung

"Yah, something wrong with your throat?" Jaebeom

"I am bored, please play some music." Jinyoung

"What? I need to concentrate right now if I play the music I cant concentrate." Jaebeom

"What the hell? So you are saying you never drive while listening to the music? What a weirdo." Jinyoung 

"Well to defend myself, its a safety measure." Jaebeom said timidly

"Nonsense, there is not a news stated that you will get into accident if you listen to music." Jinyoung

"Yah, its my car. My rule" Jaebeom

"Your rule? Humph" JInyoung cross his hand defeatedly.

Then they go on with the drive for another 30 minute when Jinyoung stomache rumble loudly

"Oh my god!! What is that sound?" Jaebeom

"Yah, i did not take my breakfast. I am so hungry now!" Jinyoung

" What the? Why did you not eat your breakfast?" Jaebeom

"None of your bussiness." Jinyoung

"Its must be because you wake up late right? What a sleepy head." Jaebeom

"Yah, that is all because of you. You are the one to blame for last night. I was thinking about our date that it is hard to fall asleep." Jinyoung speak without thinking anything.

"So, you want to say you cant sleep because you keep thinking about me? Oh my god! I am so honoured." Jaebeom said sarcasticly

"Urghhhh!!" Jinyoung

"Yah, dont shout!! Eat this." Jaebeom said while tossing his unfinsihed sandwiche.

"What is this?" Jinyoung

"My food, what else?" Jaebeom

"You give me your leftover?" Jinyoung

"Yeah, if you dont want give it back to me." Jaebeom

"No I am hungry. Thanks by the way." Jinyoung

JInyoung took a bite of the leftover sandwiche and he was in shock. The sandwiche is so good or maybe because he is so hungry but the food is seriously the best sandwiche he ever taste.

"Whoah, this is so good where did you buy it?" Jinyoung

"Its good right? Its from my favourite diner Sunshine In and Out." Jaebeom

"What? Its from the small shop? I never knew they have this delicious food. They look like an old diner for me." Jinyoung

"Huh. that is why you always missed something good when you see only the first impression and did not give any taste for the food. That diiner really have a great sandwiche and his strawberry milkshake is to die for." Jaebeom

"You really love strawberry right? The other day, your secretary, Jae is it? Also said that your mood is off because someone drink your strawberry milk." Jinyoung

"Well why cant I like strawberry? That is one of the best fruit existed!!" Jaebeom

"Hummph, you look like a chic and mystery guy that look like only drink expensive coffee 24/7." Jinyoung

"Urgh, I hate coffee." Jaebeom

Jinyoung continue eating his sandwiche when he just realize something. He eat Jaebeom leftover so does this mean he had an indirect kiss with Jaebeom?

His thought make Jinyoung blushed a little, well to be fair, he is still a who does not have his first kiss yet except the incident that happen with Jackson when he was 13 years old and he want to erased the memory of it. So yeah that is why he feel so shy and when he is shy his ears will become so red. And at that time Jabeeom give a glance at him when they were waiting for the traffic light.

"Hey, are  you okay? Why your face look so red?" Jaebeom

"Yes I am fine." Jinyoung let out a nervous cough.

"What the? Your ears look so red." Jaebeom

"I am fine, look we need to move now its green already." Jinyoung 

Jaebeom just drive when he believe Jinyoung is fine.

They arrived at their destination without any words spoken to each other.

"Where are we?" Jinyoung

"My favourite place." Jaebeom said then he get out from the car

Jinyoung followed Jaebeom act and went out form the car. What does he saw is an old park? It does not look like a new park but the park look nice with some pretty flower and tree. Also there is a playground a few metre from the park.

"But why are we here?" Jinyoung

"Well, to tell you the truth, I don know where I should bring you for our first date and when I searched a few suggestion from the internet i feel like I dont want to do that so that is why i bring you here." Jaebeom said timidly

JInyoung look how Jaebeom fidgeting when he try to tell the reason why they are here and he totally suprise seeing the unsure side of Jaebeom. Jaebeom does not look like a succesfull young independent bussiness man but he look like a very cute lost boy. Wait, cute?

"You should just ask for my opinion or we could discussed what we want to do today." Jinyoung

"But my father said it is not a gentleman thing to do when you ask your partner for the idea what you want to do on your date." Jaebeom

"Aigoo, what did Uncle Junho said to you? You are so naive believing your father like that." Jinyoung

"He is the only one I have in this world, why I should not believe him?" Jaebeom

Jinyoung were taken a back when  he heard Jaebeom's word. Jaebeom is still a mystery for Jinyoung. Sometime he look like a normal guy you meet but then there is a time when Jinyoung realize how cold Jaebeom is toward other people. He vividly remember when Jaebeom flinched whenever someone tried to touch him I mean when some stranger accidentally touch him or when someone tried to talk to him, Jaebeom will become a different person. Why do I know this? Well it is when you literally snooping your fiancee in his work hour just because you were bored and luckily Jae hyung really a great accompanion and told Jinyoung about Jaebeom schedule that day. Yeah I know its look like I am a stalker but I just curious what does Jaebeom do at the office and I already ask Uncle Junho permission to snoop on his son. Jaebeom is really a shy person but not with someone he knows for example when he is with Jae he become a normal person the same way he acts toward Mark. So in conclusion he will treat people differently but still he is the same kind man.

"Hello? Earth to Jinyoung. You day dreaming again." Jaebeom

'"Huh?" Jinyoung

"I just ask if you want to eat first or take a walk first?" Jaebeom

"Of course eat first stupid, I am hungry." Jinyoung

"Urgh you are grumpy when you are hugry." Jaebeom

"Well, everyone will become grumpy whenever they are hungry." Jinyoung rolls his eye annoyingly.

Jaebeom bring Jinyoung to some small nice restaurant located a few metre away from the park

"All the food in this restaurant is so delicious, choose anything you want." Jaebeom

But before Jinyoung ask for the menu an old women come to their table

"Yah, young man! Its been a while the last time I meet you." 

"Hello auntie, sorry I am quite busy this time around and its hard for me to come here." Jaebeom

"So as usual?" 

"Yes for me and what do you want Jinyoung?" Jaebeom

"Hurmm, I want bulgogi bimbimbap and also a kimchi jigae please." Jinyoung said after he scan the menu

"Okay, coming right up. Where is the other guy that you usually bring?" 

"Ouh, he is busy." Jaebeom said while smiling

"Aigoo, I hope you are not cheating with this guy." 

"Auntie I already told you he is not my boyfriend okay."Jaebeom

"Whatever you say." the auntie said and walk towards the kitchen area.

"So you always come here? I thought you just moved from America a few month ago and who is the guy that you come with?" Jinyoung

"Its been almost a year since I moved from America and when I stumble around this place I always come back because its so good and it was Mark. I bring him almost whenever I was free. This shop open 24/7 so sometimes when I craving some really greasy spicy food, I will ask Mark to accompany me." Jaebeom

"Why Mark?" Jinyoung

"Why not? You are funny Jinyoung hahahaahaha," Jaebeom

Jinyoung just swallowed a lump inside his throat. Yes why Jinyoung? Why does you feel uneasy when you heard Jaebeom went with Mark to this restaurant? They are friend so why not? Jinyoung tried to be a reasonable person but still there is a small maybe a dot feeling of jealousy? Am I being jealous? Toward Mark? Why? Because I like Jaebeom?

Jinyoung just realize something, he does like Jaebeom but its just a like right? Like and love is totally a different things right? Right?

Jinyoung thought were interupt by the same lady who brings out their food. Jinyoung looks up and see how Jaebeom smile genuinely when he look at the food. Oh how he wished Jaebeom will smile like that at him.

"JInyoung?" Jaebeom snap his finger to get Jinyoung attention.

"Eat, you are hungry right?" Jaebeom

Jinyoung just nod and start eating his food and it just like Jaebeom said the food is so delicious that Jinyoung totally forgotten how a few second ago he realize that he like Jaebeom. Speaking of the devil he look up and see how Jaebeom eat sloppily. He eats like a kids almost 45% of the food is not end up at his mouth but all around his place. Oh my god this man is literally a kid.

Jinyoung took his napkin and grab Jaebeom chin that make him suprise a little

"What the" Jaebeom

"You need to clean yourself, oh my god all the messed and the food its such a waste. You dont know how to eat properly?' Jinyoung

"Well, my mom used to spoon feed me and after that I just learn by myself how to used chopstick and like you see I am not that good with it and if I used spoon my father will scold me," Jaebeom

Jinyoung feel sorry for Jaebeom.

"Urghh, I dont care about that but please clean yourself dont you feel a little bit shame when people see you like that?" Jinyoung

"Well usually Mark the one who clean it for me so I just let it be." Jaebeom

Hearing Jaebeom said Mark again for nth time make Jinyoung annoyed.

"You always depend on Mark? Are you a kid?" Jinyoung

"No I am not, it just become a normal thing for me when Mark always help me with and he is so kind enough and never babling like you. If you feeling ashame being seen with someone like me then sorry." Jaebeom spat

"I did not mean it like that, its just, Why didn't you get married with Mark. You sound like you prefer him than me." Jinyoung

Jaebeom gasp

"How dare you! Mark is my best friend how could you said something like that" Jaebeom sound frustrated

"Well, its look like it. Even when we are on our first date you keep talking about Mark this, Mark that. " Jinyoung does not want to be defeated by Jaebeom even when he knows that his word is hurtful

Jaebeom take a deep breathe.

"Just finished eatiing your food because its not nice to waste the lovely food auntie has cooked for us and then we can go back home. I know you dont like me Jinyoung but saying someting like that toward my friend is a no no for me." Jaebeom said

They continue eating in silent and after Jaebeom paid for the food. Jaebepm take Jinyoung back to his house without even saying a single world towards Jinyoung. He just drove away after Jinyoung get out from his car.

Jinyoung look at the car that were quickly gone and stomped his feet.

This is so not fair!! He scream loudly and get inside the house and staightaway to his room.

I was waiting for this day! It supposed to be a really good day to know each other for this date. Jinyoung already wrote a few question he want to ask Jaebeom throughout their date. Jinyoung dont know why he feel so excited about the date. He literally being giddy since yesterday but now what happen. This is why he should not think hard about feelings. Look like he is the one who has feeling toward Jaebeom. Jinyoung scream frustratedly inside his pillows.

Jaebeom drove away after he left Jinyoung at his house, he dont know why but he really dont like the way Jinyoung accused him for wanting Mark to be as his what fiancee? Boyfriend? Jaebeom dont really know why Jinyoung act like that. He really hate when other people discriminate his relationship with Mark. He always being teased by his classmate about how both of them look like a couple, a married old couple or anything. Yes, Jaebeom realize that his skinship with Mark sometime makes people misunderstand but he never had feeling towards his friend. Mark is the only one who approached him when he is alone at America. How he was so happy seeing another Korean even though he is just a half Korean (I know Mark is not korean but just imagine him as one in this ff). The only guy who he can tell about his past without the other one shows pity. Yes Mark knows about his past. He told Mark when he is 15 yearls old when Mark keep questioning him why he like to be alone and all that. Mark never shows how he pitied Jaebeom but he give a determine look at Jaebeom and told him he did not do anything wrong and stop being like a misreable kid. Mark always make him feel he is an appreciated person whenever he told funny story that happen to him even when Mark knows that Jaebeom  feels sad but he still continue his story until Lim Jaebeom give him a loud laugh. Mark knows the way to make Jaebeom cheerful and its hurt when he heard how his fiancee said those words to him.

Jaebeom tried to be reasonable and think again if he always mention Mark but Jaebeom is sure that he did not mention Mark a lot today, but why does Jinyoung act like that? Jaebeom never know the answer.

But one Park Jinyoung know the answer to why he act towards Jaebeom.

He just wake up from his nap when he know why he is so frustrated towads Jaebeom. He just realize how he actually have feeling for Jaebeom. It just make sense to him now. How eventhough he does not like the idea of arrange marriage but he is okay doing it with Jaebeom. How he never feel annoying when Jabeom keep having a cute banter fight with him. He does feel disappointed when Jaebeom keep ignore him in earlier time in their relationship. He still remember being such a silly person when he keep write and delete, write and delete message for Jaebeom and just shrug it off because he does not know what he should write to his fiancee. Jinyoung knows that his fiancee is a really handsome guy when he see the way all the girls and the boys at their enganement party look at Jabeeom. The look of lust and awe. He feel so proud at that time when he can call Jaebeom as his fiancee but he never never never knows that all his feels towards Jaebeom is love. 

I just said the L words.

But Jaebeom looks is not the reason why he fall in love with him but then why? They just knew each other for only a few month ago and why does Jinyoung sure about his feeling as love and not just an indescribable feels? Just say it Jinyoung, you love Jaebeom. Full stop. 

Just admit that you totally have feeling when you saw an emo boy for the first time a long time ago. How you stare at his beautiful face when he watching at the sky and you even without breathing beacuse you were scared the boy will know you were there or when the time you become brave and just come towards the said boy hoping the boy will remember you. That night Jinyoung already has feeling towards Jaebeom but then he keep it bottle when he knew that Jaebeom will be far far away from him and he will never have a chance to see him again.

But Jinyoung never knew how fate works. He never knew that his father will be best friend with Jabeeom's father and how Uncle Junho loved talking to him about Jabeom and how he listen warmly when Uncle Junho complaining about how Jaabeom rarely call him. His favourite past time is to listening how Uncle Junho so proud about Jaebeom achievement and all the glory about Jaebeom and Jinyoung never realize a spark has return to his heart whenever he listen to Jaebeom's name. He never see Jaebeom but Uncle Junho always show his picture to Jinyoung. The picture when Jaebeom in his uniform clothes looking so sharp or a picture of Jaabeom's wounded knees because he fell down on rainy day.

All those things does not make Jinyoung realize his feeling yet but then he remember how one day Uncle Junho were sighing.

"What happen Uncle?"Jinyoung

"Nah, I just received another marriage proposal." Junho

"For you?Who is it? Does I know her?" Jinyoung

"  Dont be silly Jinyoung, not for me. But for my son." Junho

"Jaebeom?" Jinyoung

"Of course, I dont have any other son." Junho laugh

"Marriage? Isn't it too early for him?" Jinyoung

"Hurm, it was my family tradition. My parents set me up with.. ehem. I was 22 years old if Im not mistaken." Junho

"That early? Oh my god so do you choose for him or he can choose his partner?" Jinyoung

"Man in Lim family never chooses their respective partner. Its always choosen by the parents and its usually with a really good family friend or a really good family who can give a lot of benefit to our family." Junho

"And why are you worried?" Jinyoung

"I mean, I know my son. He will never says no to me but then I want him to be happy and all the candidate here really dont click with me at all." Junho

"So Uncle, just propose the marriage plan with whoever you think is suitable for your son. It is that easy. You dont have to accept all these proposal but you make one. I am sure other side will be honoured being choosen by you," Jinyoung said nonchalantly

Jinyoung become talkative when he being uneasy and hearing words marriage and Jaebeom really make him relentless. 

And when his parents propose the idea for him, that day he feel light for a certain reasons but still he does not realize he has feelings towards Jaebeom.

Are you sure you are not realize your OWN feelings or you just deny it because you were scared of what will Jaebeom react?

Stupid Park Jinyoung, shut up!!

TO BE CONTINUE