Jaebeom dont know how and when he falling in love with his fiancee. He never realized it but the conversation with Mark last night had open his eye toward his feeling.

"So you gonna finally tell me what is wrong?" Jaebeom

Mark after cupping Jaebeom face let his hand go.

"Not now Jaebeom." Mark

''But when?"  Jaebeom look at Mark with his pleading eye.

"Dont look at me like that." Mark

Jaebeom make his pleading eye deeper.

"Okay,okay. You remember a few years ago I told you about my little crush with someone?" Mark

"Yes, the guy that you secretly fall in love with but you never told me who is the mysterious person is." Jaebeom

"Well I just know that he is getting married." Mark

Jaebeom gasp

"Ouh Mark, I am so so sorry." Jaebeom said while trying to hug Mark

"Nah, its fine. I knew I would never stand a chance with him but you see, I feel content seeing him from a far. But when I know he will be married. I was fine because I think he just getting married and was like get over it Mark. But then when I see the guy eyes looking at his fiancee. Whoah, Its hurt Jaebeom. He look totally in love with his fiancee." Mark

"Well Mark, they are engage what do you mean by it? Of course he love his fiancee" Jaebeom

"Well you are engage too. Do you love Jinyoung?" Mark

Mark question make Jaebeom stumped.

"What?" Jaebeom

"You are engage with Jinyoung and will get married soon. What do you feels about him?" Mark

What do i feels about Jinyoung? For starter I dont hate him. I dont even know this guy but the way father almost everytime mention him when he see me really make Jaebeom wonder who is this Jinyoung guy.

"You should meet him son. He is such a good kid." Junho

"Jinyoung will surely love this fried chicken, He has a palate of a 6 years old." Junho

"Jinyoung love the book that I bought on your recommendation. Please recommend me other book," Junho

"Jinyoung would love to see this musical. Jaebeom ah next time lets bring Jinyoung too." Jaebeom

Next when they first meet he had this little feeling that Jinyoung is some annoying rich kids but then when he defend Jaebeom with the toilet incident a few month ago really open Jaebeom's eye that this is not only annoying guy. Jinyoung is a straighforward guy and he speak whatever he want but he never speak bad about other people. Then he get angry when Jinyoung misunderstood about his relationship with Mark but Jinyoung aplogize first and earnestly. Jaebeom mind bring him to the memory of their amusement park date. Where Jinyoung helping him when he had a slight panic attack. Jinyoung where there with him. 

But does he have any other feelings towards Jinyoung?

Of course you have.

Huh?

You forget when he was in your room? You totally checking him out. 

No I am not.

Okay how about when he is tidying your hair at the amusement park? Your heartbeat pound faster than usual right?

But its because of my panic attack.

No , your panic attack has residue a little at that time. You know how you feel when you had the panic attack. It does not feel like that right?

Yes.

Good, you were a little nervous when your face is closer with Jinyoung right?

Well to defend myself I am always nervous when anyone become closer to me.

Yesss, but this is the different kind of nervous, am I right?

Yes.

Good. You want to kiss his lips right?

Yes.. Wait what?

Just admit it. You always stare at his lips when he is eating with you. Your little things.

I am not . Jinyoung has a pretty lips.

Yes sure.

"Jaebeom?" Mark snap his finger

Great. I am having a conversation with my conscience when Mark is here.

"Yes Mark." Jaebeom

"Sorry I am a little tired what did you say?" Jaebeom

"You need to come clean with your feeling Jaebeom." Mark

"Wait wait. We are talking about you right? So what is this conversation turn to my feelings?" Jaebeom

"I dont want you to become sad when you lost it." Mark

"Me being sad? About what? What am I losing exactly?'" Jaebeom

"Urghhh, you are always oblivious about your surroundings but this is your feeling Jaeeom. You need to embrace it.?" Mark

"My feeling. Okay let me get it straight. You think I have feelings for Jinyoung?" Jaebeom

"I did not mention Jinyoung at all." Mark 

"But you apply that to him." Jaebeom

Mark raises his eyebrow

"Yes you do! You always do this to me!" Jaebeom

"Do what?" Mark

"Cornered me so Ive tell you the truth." Jaebeom

"So what is the truth?" Mark

"What?" Jaebeom

"Jaeeb..Listen to me. I know you never told me about your  feelings about love and I really dont mind because I know you dont have one. But I can see it now, in the way your eye sparkle or the way you talk about him like everytime we spent our time together there is a time that you whine about him and the way you tell me its not like your usual rant. But you look like you are happy even when you are mad at him. I cant explain how your face brighten when you told about Jinyoung. Its different. I also know that you dont have any idea about love because you protect yourself before getting hurt but let me tell you something. Your heart will not get hurt Jaebeom and if that happen I am always here for you. No matter what happen. I am here. I always with you right?" Mark

Jaebeom look at Mark eyes. Mark eyes look so sincere but there is a hint of sadness.

"How do you know me more than myself?" Jaebeom

"I dont know Jaebeom but you know I love you right?" Mark

"I love you too. You are my bestfriend." Jaebeom

Mark smile faltered a little but then he shake his head and cup Jaebeom face.

"I know you dont want to say it now! But look deeper inside your heart!!" Mark scream at Jaebeom ears and run toward his room

"Yahhh." Jaebeom yell and chase Mark.

 

 

Jinyoung feel restless when he is on the way to the hospital. He is so afraid. He dont know why but his whole body feels lifeless. This is not what he want to feel, he actually plan to meet Jaebeom at his office this morning to ask about Mark and maybe just maybe told Jaebeom about his feelings.

Yes, Jinyoung knows he was totally insane. They just meet a few month ago and now Jinyoung love Jaebeom? Well Jinyoung already list a few point if Jaebeom dont believe his story. Now his mind cant think about anything else except about Jaebeom and accident. What? Why? How? Like when did this happen? He did not concentrate at all when his father brief about last night accident to him and his mother. He just want to know one thing.

Is Jaebeom fine?

He sprint away after his driver stop the car in front the hospital entrance. He barely remember Jaebeom rooms number but he just keep running. He needed to see Jaebeom.

He saw the room number 0116, he barge into the room. He can see Uncle Junho flinch awake with the loud bang from him but he just ignore him,

There he saw... Jaebeom with his head full of bandage.

He look like he just awake from the sleep or maybe Jinyoung make him awake. Jinyoung dont really care. He dont know what to feel anymore. He run towards Jaebeom and his body just give in. He hug Jaebeom tightly. He dont really mind with what the other thinks. He was so relieved seeing Jaebeom still breathing. Jinyoung ignore his surrounding. He actually heard Uncle Junho voice but he cant manage to understand what Uncle Junho said. 

A few second later, he heard the footstep and his parent come inside the room. He heard his mother gasping. Either because of Jaebeom injury or seeing both of them still hugging each other. Jinyoung just dont care. Uncle Junho told everything that happen to Jaebeom and Jinyoung listen carefully. Truthfully he is so mad. Jinyoung dont know who he is mad at but he feels like he want to kill someone.

Then he look up and see Jaebeom face.

How the heck is this guy still look so calm?

Jinyoung feels like dying and he is sure his face looks so ugly now. He did not even have time to wash his face. He can feel how Jaebeom hand is soothingly patting his back. Jinyoung know Jaebeom is not the kind of person who like being touchy with other people but Jinyoung really love the way Jaebeom treat him and he thinks this is the things that he want to do with Jaebeom for his whole lifetime. Cuddling with Jaebeom.

After teasing Jaebeom, he just blurted out the words that he want to say a few weeks now.

"Becaue I love you." Jinyoung whisper.

"Well, me too." Jaebeom

Jinyoung did not heard Jaebeom's answer but Jaebeom next gesture make him frozen.

Jaebeom lightly kiss his hair.

Jinyoung blink.

What? He does not wash his hair yesterday. Jaebeom must smell the smelly hair but when Jinyoung saw Jaebeom expression, Jaebeom just smile at him.

Jinyoung blush a little and keep his head down on Jaebeom chest.

 

"Jinyoung? I think its time for you to let Jaebeom go. You have been hug him for a while now" Jaehwan chuckle

"Aigooo, honey. Let them be. Jinyoungie here must feel so relieved. His face is not that pale anymore. Jaebeom darling, how are you feeling?" Jinhee

"Actually I am feel quite okay but then someone jumps at me at I feel dizzy all of sudden." Jaebeom said teasingly

Jinyoung hit Jaebeom chest.

"Yah, you cant hit the patience." Jaebeom

Everyone was laughing seeing both Jaebeom and Jinyoung antics.

Then they heard a knock and Mark come inside the room.

Jinyoung suddenly feels shy and get up from Jaebeom but still sitting on his bed. Now Jinyoung just intertwine his finger with Jaebeom

"Morning Uncle Junho.. Uncle..Auntie." Mark greets everyone then went to Jaebeom side.

Jinyoung cant see how worried Mark is, Mark suddenly look a few time older than his age.

"Jaebeom? How are you?" Mark brushes Jaebeom face lightly

"Much better than last night." Jaebeom

"Hi Jinyoung," Mark smile

Jinyoung just bow at him.

"Here Jaebs, I bring you some chicken soup. Sorry, I want to come last night after uncle call me but then your father forbid me to come because its already to late. So I decided to make you some chicken soup and also your favourite dessert and strawberry yougurt." Mark

"Wow, that is a lot! Sorry Jaebeom auntie cant think to bring anything to you. I was so shocked." Jinhee

"Its fine Auntie Jinhee. I dont mind." Jaebeom

Jinyoung form a little pout when he see Mark organize all the food at the table. 

"Ouh I dont bring enough plate or utensil  because I dont think there is a visitor early in the morning. I think I bring my extra plate and utensil. Let me bring it." Mark

"Let me help you." Jinyoung suddenly gett of from the bed.

"Ahh, no need." Mark try to decline

"Nahh, let him help Mark. I know you want to buy extra food right? Because you just bring food for me only right?" Jaebeom

Mark chuckle.

"You got me." Mark

Both Mark and Jinyoung went to the lobby but Mark ask Jinyoung just wait him there. He run toward the parking lots. After a few minute Mark come with an empty hand.

"Unfortunately I dont bring any extra. Lets look at the cafeteria. They must have something right?" Mark

They went to the cafeteria in silent.

Mark decided to order some food and a few cup of coffee and tea. Both of them are waiting for their order to be ready.

"I am sorry Mark." Jinyoung started the conversation

"You are forgiven.Dont worry." Mark

"I confessed." Jinyoung

"Okay." Mark

"I confessed to Jaebeom about my feelings." Jinyoung

"Yes Jinyoung you told me that already." Mark

"You are not mad at me?" Jinyoung

Mark chuckle.

"Mad? Why? I am not mad at you Jinyoung. Maybe jealous. Yes I am jealous at you." Mark

"I am sorry." Jinyoung

"Dont apologize to me for having feeling at Jaebeom. Its inevitable. Like look at me I am only his friend and I still love him. You are his fiancee.of course you will develop feeling. Cant you see the guy?" Mark smile at Jinyoung

"You are so kind Mark." Jinyoung

"I will not say that if I were you Jinyoun. You dont know me. Maybe I will snatch Jaebeom away from you." Mark tease

"I dont think so." Jinyoung

"Yeah, you are right. I will never do that. Jaebeom like you." Mark

"He did not answer my confession yet." Jinyoung

"I would be suprise if he did." Mark laugh

"Well, he give me a peck on my head." Jinyoung

"Wow, that is good Jinyoung. Nobody even me get a peck from him." Mark

There is a little silent between them.

"You are not mad at me right?" Jinyoung

"No Jinyoung. I am not. Actually, i told you the truth that I am fine if you are together with Jaebeom. I have accept my fate to have one sided love with Jaebeom." Mark

"How do you cope this?" Jinyoung

"I dont know either how I do this. At first I feel suffocated too but then I think I still have him by my side so what else I want. I used to be a greedy person you see, I am the one who initiated my friendship toward Jaebeom. So I thought I will definitely get his heart too. But after afew years giving hint and flirting. He just saw me as his friend only. I mean as his only friend." Mark

"Have you told him? About your feeling?" Jinyoung

"Yes. A lot of time actually. I told him how I love him and he always answer with quote Yes I love you too my friend." Mark chucle

"You must be sad right?" Jinyoung

But Jinyoung cant get Mark answer for his question when their order is ready. The both walk in silence again.

 

"What? Mark. You dont need to buy us breakfast." Uncle Junho

"Its fine Uncle. You must be so tired. You can go back home and rest after eating. I will look after Jaebeom." Mark

"Mark you are so nice. I will take your suggestion. I need to bring a few things for Jaebeom too.'' Uncle Junho

"I can take care of Jaebeom too." Jinyoung

"No you dont need too. Remember you have a quiz for your 3 pm class? You whine at me yesterday." Jinhee

"Aishh I forget about it." Jinyoung

"Dont worry Jinyoung. I will take a good care. Dont worry." Mark

"I think I can skip. Its just a quiz. Its not a big deal." Jinyoung

"No it is a big deal. You need to go Jinyoung." Jaebeom said sternly

"But my parents is fine with it. Right father? Mother?" Jinyoung

"Nothing is more important that your education Jinyoung. You go to your uni and took the quizzes." Jaebeom

"But.." Jinyoung try to whine

"No but." Jaebeom

Jinyoung pout and cross his arm.

Jaebeom sigh.

"You can come visit me after your class." Jaeebom

"Is this the way you persuade me Jaebeom?" Jinyoung tease

"Whatever Jinyoung." Jaebeom

"That is all? No futher persuading? No promises? Nothing?" Jinyoung

"Okay fine, you can get one wish if you took the quizzes." Jaebeom

"Deal!" Jinyoung smile.

"Aigooo Jinyoung ah, what are you? A toddler? You are a grown up man and still pouting?" Jinhee said while hits Jinyoung left arm

"Sorry Jaebeom. You have to deal with this one." Jaehwan 

"Why both of my parents like this? I am not a kid okay." Jinyoung said while stomp his feet.

All of them are laughing seeing Jinyoung throwing his little tantrum.

All of them said goodbye to Jaebeom. Jinhee need to drag Jinyoung along with her when Jinyoung dont want to leave.

"So? Have you realize anything?" Mark said after giving Jaebeom a slice of apple

Jaebeom sigh.

"Yes." Jaebom siad defeatedly

"Good and now?" Mark 

"What?" Jaebeom

"Jaebeom..." Mark said frustratedly

"Whyyyy?" Jaebeom

Mark glare at him.

"Well. I am afraid." Jaebeom

"Jaebeom.." Mark said with a symphatetic voice

"No, no, no. Dont talk to me with that tone. You know how I hate it when people feel sympathy for me." Jaebeom shake his hand

"Okay, okay. Sorry. But what are you afraid off?" Mark

" Mark what if when I open my heart then he also left?" Jaebeom

"Jaebeom I dont know about the future so I cant reassure you but you have to know. Jinyoung is not a same person as you know who." Mark

"But." Jaebeom

"Listen Jaebeom. This is the first time you feel like this right? You are happy right? Hell you even join a blog about relationship. I know in your heart you want this too. Lets be happy Jaebeom. Lets do this." Mark

"You said it like we gonna be in a polygamous relationship." Jaebeom

"Well Jinyoung si stuck with me too if he want you." Mark

"Does he want me tho?" Jaebeom

"Of course Jaebeom. He really want you." Mark

"Even if he know the truth? About my real self?" Jaebeom

Mark keep quite for a while.

"Yes Jaebeom. I am sure of it." Mark

Jaebeom look at  his friend face that is full of hope. Jaebeom love see Mark when he is excited about something. Mark always the optimistic one between them. Jaebeom stare at the room ceiling. Jaebeom dont know what to think scratch that, he has a lot to think for but his mind cant cope with everything now.

He need to think about his feelings.

He need to think about Park Jinyoung.

He need to think about his future with Park Jinyoung

He need to think how to forget about the past.

He surely need to know about L.O.V.E

 

 

 

TO BE CONTINUE!!!

HAVE A GOOD DAY

MINMINHYO