A/N: THIS IS THE LONGEST CHAPTER I'VE EVER WRITTEN

Sorry, just had to get this off my chest :D
I'm sorry for the wait. Uni, work, family, friends, I'm barely alive now
Oh, and I overcame Corona! It was really hard so, don't forget to wear your masks and take care of yourselves!!!
Stay healthy and spread love.

Love you my BabyStays <3

 

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[Private Chat]

 

[11:56 AM]

 

Meow:

Changbin

I need your help

pls

omg

I’m shaking rn

 

 

BabyBinnie:

woah

what’s happening???

are you alright???????

 

Meow:

thank god you’re here

I need your help

help me

 

BabyBinnie:

Minho you’re scaring me!!!

tell me what you need

I’ll help you!!!!

 

Meow:

Jisung’s coming over in 4 hours

and I’m panicking

 

BabyBinnie:

omg

you

you hoe

I died!!!!

I was shaking you hoe

am gonna slap you as soon as I see you again

dumb

ok

ok

I’m alright

uhm tell me why you’re scared?

 

Meow:

I’m sorry :(

BabyBinnie:

Felix just hit me for making you sad..

He’s reading over my shoulder

He can help you since he’s Sungie’s best friend

 

Meow:

Thank you, Felix

(つ﹏⊂)

 

BabyBinnie:

omg he’s swooning over you rn

wait

 

[Baby Binnie added LixiePixie to the chat)

 

LixiePixie:

hyung

you’re so cute!!!!!

What are you worrying about? I’ll help you

 

Meow:

I don’t even know?

Like I know it sounds stupid and I want to stop worrying

But I really don’t want to up my second chance

emotions

Changbin you made me accept them

take responsibility for that

 

BabyBinnie:

Minho calm down

The fact that you think about what will happen

and that you show concern

tells us that you’ve changed

I’m sure that Jisung appreciates that fact and won’t hate you for being yourself

 

Meow:

But I :(

my personality

omg he’s gonna hate meee

I should call him and cancel the date

 

LixiePixie:

stop right there hyung!

you don’t !

you’re great! Everybody loves and appreciates you

do you really think Jisung just fell for your looks?

If yes then I’m gonna smack you

he likes you for who you are

he doesn’t like us in the same way even tho we were nice to him from the beginning

what I’m trying to say is

that he likes you for who you are! for your smiles, your words, your whole being

I’m not in the place to tell you that

but just ask him when and why he started to like you

since there’s more into it than you think

 

Meow:

omg what

he likes me for my personality?????

but I’m the tiest person ever?!?!?!?!

 

BabyBinnie:

Minho I’m going to punch you

boy do you think I’d be your friend if you’d be such an ?

You really need to know your worth

 

LixiePixie:

yes hyung

do you think Hyunjin and I would like you that much even tho you were mean to our best friend if you wouldn’t be the softest kitty ever?

I wish you could see yourself from our perspectives

you always care for us, you look out for us

even when you act indifferent we can still see that you care for us

you proved that in the past

so pls believe us and have faith in yourself

 

BabyBinnie:

yup he likes you for who you really are

so just show him what you’ve shown me for the last years

just be yourself and don’t try to look tough

 

Meow:

I don’t know what to say…

I just appreciate you two so much?

Binnie…I know I wasn’t the best friend to you but I’m really happy to have you in my life

and Lix I don’t know whether I deserve such a loving friend but I’m so thankful to you

I don’t know what I’d have done without you two :(

 

LixiePixie:

sounds like I’ve earned a 5 minute hug

( ͡~ ͜ʖ ͡°)

no jokes aside

you’re more than just welcome

you’re also a great friend and I’m happy to be a part of your friends <3

 

Meow:

I promise you I’ll give you a hug for at least 10 minutes.

Really

BabyBinnie:

wait

NO

hello? I’m still here

 

LixiePixie:

YESSSSSSSSSSSS

ok hyung do you have other questions?

I can help you!

 

Meow:

Which movie should we watch?

 

BabyBinnie:

are you ignoring me?

hellooo?

 

LixiePixie:

good question!

don’t choose a horror movie he really hates them

maybe a funny one?

don’t try to pick an extreme movie to have an excuse of cuddling

I don’t know why some boys think that that’s the perfect way to get close???

like I am scared and uncomfortable and you only do this for your own benefits

wow

 

Meow:

ok no horror or extreme movie

noted

I also noticed yesterday that Sungie wasn’t enjoying the movie :(

thank you Lix

 

BabyBinnie:

he loves animations so just watch a Ghibli movie?

 

Meow:

we could do that! Thanks Bin

 

BabyBinnie:

oh, wow now he can hear me

 

LixiePixie:

good luck hyung and pls be yourself and just enjoy your day <3

 

Meow:

I’ll try

thank you guys…I owe you one

 

BabyBinnie:

that’s what friends are there for, you fool

ʕっ•ᴥ•ʔっ

 

Meow:

⊂(´・ω・｀⊂)

 

LixiePixie:

oh

just my two bois hugging virtually

*holding back tears*

great

 

Meow:

don’t worry Lixie you’ll get real hugs <3

 

LixiePixie:

*sobbing intensifies*

GReaT

 

BabyBinnie:

stop hitting on my boyfriend and prepare things for our boi

 

Meow:

I will

thank you again~

I’ll let you know how it went

 

LixiePixie:

not if Jisung tells me before

(・ω <)

 

 

 

***

 

 

“What are you doing?” Minho’s mom let out a loud shriek at her son’s voice. Don’t get her wrong, she wasn’t surprised about her son talking to her…well to be honest, she kind of was. Minho wasn’t really talkative and rather stayed silent if he didn’t have to talk. So, it was safe to say that she was beyond surprised when he came up to her yesterday, telling that he had invited Jisung over. She was happy! Really, but at the same time it scared her a bit since her son was acting out of character for some days now. Ok…not really out of character but how could she describe the feeling? It was more the kind of him stopping the act of being indifferent the whole time. Well…the whole act was anyway kind of her fault.

She had decided to get divorced when Minho was only eight years old. His dad was a good man, just too focused on his work, never being at their sides…She didn’t want Minho to have a dad who worked until midnight every day, even on his birthday. A dad who missed every family trips and school festivals causing the people to think that the poor boy didn’t have a father. Well, long story short, after the divorce she was having a hard time, although she had decided it. A young woman in her thirties who had the feeling of having failed not only as a woman but also as a mother. She had cried every night, feeling guilty of taking a boy’s dad away from him. It was needless to say that his dad never visited him, nor contacted him regularly since he was too occupied with his work. She knew that her son was a very sensitive boy who sensed her discomfort and tried to cheer her up in every way he could think of. As a result, he stopped putting pressure on her by telling her the hardships he had. He kept his problems, his sadness, every kind of negative emotion to himself and tried to ignore them if he couldn’t overcome them alone. This caused him to grow up as a cold and indifferent boy. He had never learnt to deal with his emotions, so he just stopped having them. At least stopped them from showing.

So, she didn’t know why his cold façade started to crack down but she was incredibly happy about it. As long as he would stop being a heartless living being, his mom would be at his side to support and encourage him.

“I’m preparing the chicken you like so much. I hope that Jisung will also like it.” A soft smile was plastered on her beautiful face as she looked at her son’s troubled mien. “Are you alright?”

“Uhm…yes. I try to. Just feeling a bit nervous.” Minho tried to choose his words carefully, not wanting to trouble his mom.

“There’s no need to, sweetheart. Jisung is a great guy and I’m sure that you’ll do the right things.”

“Yeah, I’m not so sure about that.” He murmured, hoping that his mother didn’t catch that.

“Why? Has something happened for you to think like that?” Caught, Minho slightly widened his eyes before breaking the eye contact and watching his feet.

“Y-yes…there were some things going on…but I-I don’t want to tell you. You would be so disappointed with me…” A long sigh left the dancer’s mouth as he tried to stop the shame he was feeling. His mother always cared for him, told him to be nice and yet he acted the way he did.

“Minho, look at me. I don’t know what you did and maybe I would be sad and would scold you for your actions but I would never judge you or get disappointed only because you didn’t act the way I would want you to. You are my precious son and I love you with all my heart. Nothing you do can stop this love. Do you understand?” Her usual friendly face was overtaken by a serious expression, showing him how honest her words were.

“O-ok. I’ll keep that in mind. Thank you, mom.” He lightly leaned to her side, putting his head on her shoulder.

“Now go and take a shower and style your hair to impress your crush.” She shooed him away after leaving a kiss on his head.

“MOM!”

“Yeah, yeah I’ll not say this in front of him.”

 

 

 

***

 

 

 

Jisung took a deep breath after he convinced himself that he wouldn’t pass out and pressed the doorbell. After what felt like an eternity, the door opened and Minho’s head peeked out of the crack.
“Hi Sungie. Come in!” Jisung blinked twice after nodding dumbly and followed the elder inside. His hyung was dressed in comfortable yet stylish clothes, showing him that he actually thought about his outfit. He had even styled his hair! Tousled curls were adorning his forehead, perfectly completing his soft look. Panicked, he looked at his own clothes and felt underdressed. What if Minho gets the wrong idea about him not caring about the date???

“I really like your sweater. You look cute…” Minho said quietly, trying to look at the squirrel-like’s face but failed miserably.

“Thank you. It’s actually my favorite sweater.” The poor boy felt how his cheeks flared up as he took his shoes off. Like a lost duckling, he followed the dancer into the kitchen, smiling instantly when he saw Minho’s mother.

“Oh, hello Jisung!” She said, grinning brightly and eased the boy’s nerves automatically.

“Hello. Thank you very much for the invitation.” His mother just rolled her eyes playfully and pointed at the dining table.

“Go on and sit down! I’ll be there in a second.” Quietly the boys did what they were told to and sat at the table awkwardly, waiting for Mrs. Lee to come. Some seconds passed without them speaking, until Minho let out a groan.

“This is bad, right? You can really leave if you want to. I won’t be mad at you.” Jisung tried to suppress the giggle that left his mouth but it escaped nevertheless. Minho tilted his head to the right, resembling a confused kitten.

“Hyung, I’m okay now. Sorry for being so awkward.” The dancer smiled softly and nodded as his mom entered the room.

“Jisung I hope that you’re hungry!”

“I am and thank you so much for preparing all these.” He gestured at the full table and felt how his stomach grumbled.

“Enjoy the meal!”

 

 

Many minutes and full stomachs later, Minho’s mom disappeared to the kitchen and left the boys alone.

“Do you want to go to my room?” Minho was trying to act cool as he led the cute squirrel to his room.

“YOU HAVE THREE CATS NOW?” Jisung was starring at the three fluff balls which were cuddling on the elder’s bed, not believing his eyes.

“Uhm, yeah. I found Dori on the streets a month ago.” Minho’s mouth fell open as he saw how his cats surrounded Jisung when the boy sat down on his bed.

“Aw, they’re so cuddly!” He was grinning so brightly that Minho caught himself starring. The slightly red puffed cheeks, the big gummy smile, the gleaming eyes…The dancer could feel how his heart swelled and had to stop himself from cuddling all of them.

“Usually they aren’t. I guess they just like you.” The smile Jisung gifted him was worth the jealousy he felt when the trio ignored him after he also sat down. “You have a dog, right?” He casually asked as he played with Soonie’s tail.

“I do! You actually met him few times.”

“I have?” Jisung stopped petting Dori and watched Minho with widened eyes. . He wasn’t supposed to know! Well, he didn’t know how he could cover his mistake up; so, he decided to spill the truth.

“Yes, but don’t know that he’s mine. He’s the big Golden Retriever that you occasionally pet in the park. You pet him once and looked so happy and then you disappeared as soon as you saw me…Yeah…So, I just let him walk freely and that traitor always found you to ask for attention. I was always standing behind…you know so that you could pet him without having to leave…”  Minho stared at him without blinking, what was unusual for him, and Jisung felt how his whole face lit up. The boy had always thought of him as a stalker and now he was confirming it!

“Really? Wow…that’s so nice of you…I always wanted to have a dog but since my mom is allergic to them, we decided to get cats. I usually walk around the park when I’m feeling down and meeting your dog was always the highlight of my bad days.”

“You don’t think that I’m weird?” Jisung asked although he didn’t want to hear the answer.

“No, if anything then you’re super considerate and so nice? Like oh my god who’s so nice to strangers?” Minho laughed cutely and blushed when their hands touched while petting the cats.

“Thank you, hyung.” The younger was also avoiding any eye contact. The cats seemed to sense the awkward aura since they decided to leave and join Minho’s mom in the living room.

 

“So, uhm do you want to listen to the songs first or watch a movie?” Jisung groaned loudly and face planted on the boy’s soft covers.

“I really don’t want you to listen to the songs! It’s so embarrassing.” A cute pout appeared on his lips and a pleading look was directed at the elder.

“I really want to listen to them but if you really don’t want, then I won’t do it.”

“No, wait. Now I’m feeling bad!” The boy sat up again, “I just feel shy since you’ll hear me for the first time, I guess? Like I’m usually very confident about my rapping and singing skills but right now I’m feeling so…so nervous?” Minho was nodding with a serious expression on his face.

“I know how you feel. Do you remember our dance competition? I was so nervous even though I knew how good we are. I just knew that you guys would watch us and I was scared of not reaching your expectations. So, yes I think I know how you feel.” Jisung stared at the wall for some seconds before he nodded cutely with determined eyes.

“Okay, we can listen to them but only two songs since I also only saw two dances.” Minho laughed lightly and stood up to take his phone.

“No, wait! Movies first!” Jisung couldn’t stop him from listening to the songs but he could push it back as far as he could.

“Oh, ok. We can do that. Let me grab the snacks first.” He quickly left the room and returned with many snacks and bowls.

“Hyung, there was no-“

“Shhhh, just move a bit over and enjoy the movie!”

 

 

***

 

 

Watching the movie went well and now they were sitting next to each other with their arms touching slightly. To be honest, Minho wasn’t able to concentrate on the movie since he wanted to touch Jisung so badly but he had to refrain himself from it. The other boy seemed to have the time of his life since the elder coincidentally had chosen his favorite movie. He had been giggling and cooing all the time, sometimes even reciting some lines.

So, now they were both sitting there, knowing what would follow.

“Ok, you take an earbud, I take the other one. And you’re not allowed to look at me! Lay down and face the ceiling. Hey! Stop laughing!” Minho felt bad for giggling, he really did but he couldn’t help it! Jisung was acting all flustered and cute urgh…he just wanted to hug him. “Oh, and only one rule. We’re not listening to ‘Wow’. I’d rather yeet myself out of the window than listening to it with you. Do that when I’m gone.” Minho was laughing loudly now causing Jisung to punch him lightly.

 

Two minutes later, both boys were laying down next to each other, scrolling through the playlist.

“We can listen to ‘Matryoshka’! It’s really cool and the most popular song.” Minho shook his head and kept scrolling until he found an interesting title.

“I want to listen to this one.” He showed Jisung his phone and cooed internally when the boy scrunched his nose up.

“It’s…okay, I guess. Yeah better than the others. Ok, let’s listen to ‘Broken Compass’. And remember to only look at the ceiling.” He pushed Minho’s face to the side when the boy turned to him.

“Ok, one, two, three.” He pushed play and caught himself how he stopped breathing. A dark beat filled his ears and he recognized the background voice as Chan’s. To his surprise, the first person rapping was Jisung. Minho tried to glance at his face but the rapper pushed it upwards again. His body relaxed on his own and he let the voice take all of his attention. Jisung was lying next to him, their bodies slightly touching and his sensual voice was everywhere. Minho closed his eyes and fell into a world of Jisung and Jisung only. He opened his eyes when Chan started to sing, disturbing his Sungie time. But his whole concentration was still on the song. A shiver ran through his body caused by the rather deep and dark lyrics which stood in contrast to the upbeat rhythm. The beat made him wanting to move along, he hardly could resist as a dancer but the lyrics kept his mind grounded like an anchor.

 

The song ended too quickly and Minho opened his eyes again, catching how Jisung was watching him.

“What do you think?” The boy started to gnaw on his lips, showing how nervous he actually was.

“I love it! Really. To be honest, I didn’t know what I should expect from you guys but you completely surprised me. I mean it’s so good???” Minho couldn’t describe what he felt in that moment. Somehow, he felt closer to Jisung than he ever was. It was like a little intimate moment between the two boys, linking them even more together.

“Thank you, hyung. I know we’re not bad but we also need to improve. Well, we’re better than before…like we were really BAD when we first started but now it’s ok, I guess.”

“Don’t worry, I know what you mean. But I’m sure that Hyunjin and Felix would love to work with you guys together. I mean I would love to work with you in the future. That would be great. Yeah. Haha.” Minho felt dumb but he couldn’t stop talking. Jisung making a song for him and him dancing to it? It sounded like something what…what boyfriends would do…

“That would be very cool.” Jisung smiled and pointed to the ceiling after Minho watched his happy face for some seconds.

“Ok, I want to listen to a solo from you now. You know, you also watched a solo stage of me.” Jisung groaned again and started to whine cutely but Minho shook his head. He really wanted to feel the same emotions he had felt earlier without the other two interfering.

“FINE. Chose one and prepare yourself to say goodbye to me since I’m going to kill myself afterwards. Just play it without showing me. I want to die in peace.” Minho giggled again and chose a song. The intro of ‘Close’ filled his ears and he felt how Jisung tensed. He wanted to look at him but the boy’s smooth voice stopped him from moving even a single muscle.

At first, he just listening to the lyrics but a weird feeling settled in his guts. Jisung was watching him, so he turned his head, facing him and let his mind be filled with the refreshing melody of the song.

 

Minho stopped breathing when the lyrics of the first verse reached his ears. Was…was he talking about…no, right?

But when second verse bagan, he was sure of one thing. Jisung was talking about him!

 

*

Name, age where do you live
I know too many questions

I wonder if it’s excitement
I'll cross the line a little bit now
I avoided this road I was walking in danger
I'll look at you for a moment and rest,

I know, that acting like this at the first time we met is a bother
Noisily I mumble a lot of words, this is also my first time feeling this way

*

 

Minho felt how his heart beat increased and hoped that he wouldn’t resemble a tomato too much. Jisung, the freakily talented, nice, most supportive and caring boy had written a song about him! He took all his courage and searched for the boy’s hand without breaking the eye contact. Jisung was still watching him with wide eyes, not calming down a bit.

 

 

*

I’m still not used to it, babe

What am I saying, why am I being like this

My heart is pounding, babe

Even though I try my best to stay composed

My trembling voice and my awkward gestures again,

Speaking loudly for no reason again, even when you speak to me,

But I can only speak like this, even when I pretend to be bold

When I look into your eyes, I still freeze

It’s all strange to me, even this feeling right now

They are all first time but I feel fluttered and looking forward to even the nervous moments

*

 

Minho intertwined his fingers with the smaller’s cold ones, squeezing his hand lightly. He knew that Jisung was freaking out internally and he wanted to tell him that it was okay. But he was scared of missing even only one second of the song, so he kept quiet and brushed his thumb over the boy’s knuckles. His heart was beating crazily at the lyrics, he had to stop his hands from trembling because comforting Jisung was his priority now.

 

*

The road I’m walking now

I’m walking on the heaven, this moment where I’m trembling,

feels like I’ve been comforted and saved by someone

I still don’t know anything about you but

I will get to know you slowly and steadily, no matter how long it takes

Wish we could get closer bit by bit

Words that come out are disguised as being bold but on the inside I’m a coward who’s shaking

In my empty heart, for the first time it’s spring

Found its way and bloomed right at the center

If you think I’m too much, I’m sorry but

I’m being like this because I’m afraid that I won’t be able to catch you ever again once today is over

*

 

Minho felt like crying, laughing, and smiling at the same time. He was feeling so many emotions that his head seemed to turn, making him dizzy. Slowly he turned to his side and cupped the boy’s soft cheek with his unoccupied hand, lovingly caressing it. Jisung took a needed breath and closed his eyes, beginning to relax his tense body.

 

 

*

I just wanna know you, oh

Can you tell me now, oh

I wanna get to know more about you

Will you tell me now?

*

 

“Thank you for not giving up.” The song had ended for some minutes but the boys were not moving an inch. Jisung opened his eyes at the sound of his hyung’s voice and smiled slightly.

“You had to choose this song, right?” Minho let his finger slip through the younger’s strands causing him to sigh contently.

“So, you wrote a song about me.” Jisung groaned and tried to move away but the boy held him in place. “I’m just teasing you. I like the song very, very, very much. Didn’t know that you could also sing.”

“I usually rap but Chan hyung had a cold and I had to fill his singing parts and somehow they loved it. Now, I’m also singing now but only on some songs.” Without noticing Jisung scooted closer while talking, loving the warmth that radiated off Minho’s body.

“You’re incredibly talented, Jisung.” Said boy smiled thankfully, pushing his head against the caressing hand, reminding the dancer of his cats. His heart was so full, it felt so heavy yet lively.

“I’ll tell you more, I promise.” Minho said, answering the last question Jisung had sung about. But before he could answer, somebody knocked on the door.

“Boys, it’s getting late and you still have school tomorrow!” Luckily Minho’s mom wasn’t coming in like his mother would. Jisung blushed a bit when he took their positions in. From outside they would look like a loving couple…

“Thank you, mom.” Minho sighed deeply and sat up, pulling the younger with him.

“Come on, I’ll walk you home.”

“Hyung, there’s no need to! I live around the corner, remember?” Minho just shrugged wordlessly and left the room first. Some things would never change…

 

 

Five minutes and hundred ‘thank you for the meal’s later the boys made their way to Jisung’s place. It was chillier than the younger had thought and was happy that they would be there in no time. His train of thoughts got interrupted as Minho took his hand again, intertwining their fingers as it was something naturally. Jisung cleared his throat but let his hand there where it was.

“Thank you for taking me home, even there was really no need to.” With his keys in his hand, he was standing there awkwardly again, rocking on his heels. How should they say goodbye? Just waving or a hug? Fortunately, Minho took over the decision and pulled the younger into a hug. Jisung quickly wound his arms around his hyung’s toned body and sighed at the warmth that engulfed him. But what happened next surprised both boys. Without really thinking about it, Minho planted a soft kiss on the boy’s plush cheek causing it to redden dramatically.

“I-“

“Uhm…”

“See you tomorrow, Sungie.” Minho said when he found his voice again, looking at his own feet.

“Y-yeah, see you tomorrow, hyung.” He hurriedly tried to open the door, letting the set of keys fall to the ground. After two more tries, he managed to open it and waved shortly before entering. Minho waited until Jisung was inside and turned around after that. He made his way home and put his hands in his pocket since they felt unusually empty. Thousands of questions were running through his mind but he only could think of one. The date was a success, right?

 

 

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AN: I actually had goosebumps when I realized how much the lyrics of "Close" fit to this story???
It was like Jisung actually had written it for my story ;-;
*Chan if you're here reading this and helped Jisung with the song, then big thanks to you!*