AN: 

I'm back Babystays <3
Had an awful week...I'm studying English (1st semester for elementary school teacher) and it's so hard?! Like I always thought that my Englisch wasn't that bad but it actually is :((
So, if you want to have a life and be happy: never study Englisch in Germany.

For my German readers (are there any? :D) I started to translate this into German. So, if you want to read it
> Kannst du noch nerviger sein?!<

Have fun and tell me what you think about the chapter <3
Love you lots ;-;

 

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“M-Minho hyung?” Jisung’s naturally big eyes were wide opened, Minho could tell that the boy was genuinely surprised. “What are you doing here?” Said boy opened his mouth but closed it afterwards. He didn’t know what to say. Well, what was he doing here?!

 

“Uhm, you know…” Minho nervously chuckled and tried to gain some more time as he slowly put the tray on Jisung’s desk, turning his back to him. Jisung used the opportunity to run a hand through his hair, trying to look as presentable as he could. Never -not in a billion years- did the thought of Minho being in his room cross the poor boy’s mind. He observed the dancer with shaking hands and tried to slow his heartbeat down.

Minho was starring at the letters and gifts which lay neatly on Jisung’s desk. The boy had kept everything his admirer had given him, even the candy wrappers. The dancer gritted his teeth and tried hard to keep his feelings to himself. He took a deep breath and tried to put a smile on his face before he turned around. Jisung didn’t have to know that his stomach had started to hurt again. When he looked at the squirrel’s face, his heart melted for a second. The small boy looked so vulnerable and scared that Minho felt like an .

“Do you want to drink your tea now or later?” Minho was a big coward. He had opened his mouth to say something different but those words didn’t leave his mouth.

“Uhm later.” Jisung confusedly said and pressed himself against the headboard when Minho took some steps to his direction.

“May I?” Minho pointed to the bed and sat down when Jisung shyly nodded. “Uhm, I owe you some answers, right?” Sighing, he scraped his courage together and looked at Jisung’s face. Once, he caught the innocent look in the younger’s eyes, he decided to tell him the truth.

“I stayed at home for two days since I was ill…uhm and I came back today but you weren’t there. And uhm…I was kind of worried? You know our friends didn’t tell me anything about you…they’re still angry and they’re right. Oh god, what am I doing here? Jisung, I’m so sorry I really don’t-“

“Minho hyung, calm down.” Jisung had a hard time processing everything his crush had said. Well, he tried to stay calm but he was overwhelmed from the mix of emotions he felt simultaneously. The squirrel like boy was sure that he never had seen his hyung so…so…troubled? Minho was usually confident and didn’t show so many emotions.

“I’m sorry Jisung. I really mean it. You were nothing but nice and sweet to me and I was such an . I know you won’t accept my apology, like who would? But I just want to get it off my chest. I’m sorry. I pushed you away and hurt you…oh god, I should go. Sorry for disturbing you.”

“Wait, hyung please wait. I’m…My brain is just not working as fast as it should.” Minho, who was watching his fingers during his whole speech, looked up and smiled a bit at the squirrel’s confused face.

 

Blushing under Minho’s intense gaze, Jisung looked away and saw the stuffed squirrel his secret admirer had gifted him. A small smile graced his lips as his hyung’s words finally sunk in. He finally realized that he was treating him badly and apologized! To be honest, since Jisung had dismissed his first apology he never thought that another one would follow. His betraying heart was beating like crazy and his smile widened without his consent. The boy just couldn’t look at Minho’s face…he was so ashamed about his own behavior! Like who smiles like an idiot after getting an apology from the person who humiliated you in front of everybody? But he couldn’t help it, Han Jisung was damn whipped for Lee Minho.

Said boy started to bite his lips since Jisung wasn’t answering him. He was just staring at something behind him. When a smile bloomed on his cute face, Minho followed his gaze and saw the stuffed squirrel. His heart sank when he understood why Jisung was smiling so brightly. He wasn’t even thinking about his apology, no he was thinking about his secret admirer. The dancer felt like someone had punched him in the guts…hard. He needed some seconds to regain the control of his facial expressions before he cleared his throat. Surprised Jisung looked at Minho’s face and realized that he hadn’t answered the boy. Well, he still didn’t know how to answer him! He was doing so well until now…of course he hadn’t forgot about Minho but someone was genuinely interested in him and he should use the humiliation as an opportunity to forget his crush. Was he ready to let the boy in his life again? Did he want him in his life again? Would he lose months again by chasing somebody who wasn’t interested? He looked into Minho’s eyes and remembered how awestruck he was when he saw them for the first time up-close…in the cafeteria when Minho had rejected him for the first time. Back then they were sporting a disgusted and angry look; right now, they were gleaming with…sadness?

 

“Do you like him?”  Minho asked in a strained voice causing Jisung to tilt his head adorably.

“Whom?” Tongue-tied, Minho nodded to the direction of the letters and presents.

“Oh.” Jisung said and furrowed his brows. Why was his hyung asking about him? “I don’t know. I mean I don’t know him…but his letters are really sweet. He genuinely cares about me. I think I’ll give him a chance.” The boy shrugged and looked at his bedsheets. He blushed really hard when he realized that he had his ‘Sailor Moon’ sheets on. Why now?! Don’t get him wrong, he loved it and was also not ashamed to voice his love for Sailor Moon out but he didn’t want his crush to see them.

 

Minho dug his nails in his palm when he saw the blush on Jisung’s face. Of course, he would blush after thinking and talking about him.

“Can I take a look at your books?” The dancer wanted to turn around and take a deep breath.

“Uhm…sure?” Jisung didn’t understand why his hyung was acting so weirdly. He still didn’t answer him…

Minho touched the backs of the books and tried to stop his stomach ache. What was he thinking??? That an apology would be enough? He had lost Jisung and had to accept it. The latter had someone else in his life now, Minho should focus on his marks and dancing like he always had. Minho could hear how Jisung laid down and spent another five minutes with the books, too afraid of facing him again.

 

When he finally turned around, Jisung was asleep. A small smile crept on his face while a relieved sigh left his mouth. Quietly, he stood next to his bed and stopped his hand from finding its way into the boy’s hair.

“I think I miss you, little squirrel. Yes, I really miss you.” Minho whispered and felt how his shoulders slumped. Finally, he said what he wanted to tell Jisung the whole time. Even if he couldn’t hear him, it was better than nothing. Slowly he walked to the door and opened it, glancing at the sleeping boy’s face for the last time, before he closed it quietly.

 

Jisung opened one eye to make sure that his hyung had left before he pulled his blanket over his head and squealed until he had to cough.

 

 

 

***

 

 

 

fake friends

 

[6:51 PM]

 

ratbin changed ‘’ to ‘soft kitty’

ratbin changed ‘ice block’ to ‘Seungbean’

 

Satan Oppa: I feel like I’ve missed something

 

ratbin: no I just realized that my friend is a soft kitty

 

Seungbean: are we talking about the same Minho hyung?

 

ratbin: Minho I’m going to tell them

ratbin: when I brought him home after he had thrown up something happened

 

soft kitty: shut up you RAT

 

UwU: see!

UwU: I’d told you they hooked up!

 

soft kitty: wtf no

 

ratbin: well we were in the same bed

ratbin: ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

 

Dumblix: you were WHAT

 

panicked DAD: I swear you boys are WILD

 

ratbin: we both were tired so we took a nap

ratbin: in the same bed

ratbin: next to each other

ratbin: and later we hold hands

 

soft kitty: you

 

ratbin: no, that didn’t happen

ratbin: you wish

 

Dumblix: :(

 

ratbin: don’t be jealous baby

 

Dumblix: no

Dumblix: now I want to take a nap with soft Minho hyung too :(

Dumblix: can I hold your hand hyung?

 

ratbin: I-

ratbin: what was I even expecting

 

soft kitty: uhm yes

soft kitty: but only for a minute

 

panicked DAD: that’s shocking

panicked DAD: I was expecting like….3 seconds?

 

Satan Oppa: I thought Changbin wasn’t allowed to enter your house?

 

Seungbean: that sounds like he’s a vampire

 

UwU: PLOT TWIST

UwU: Changbin hyung is a vampire

UwU: and he’s with Felix hyung because he needs the blood of a

 

Dumblix: honestly

Dumblix: you Jeongin

 

Satan Oppa: Felix you’re a ???

Satan Oppa: like HOW

Satan Oppa: you’re ing gorgeous

 

soft kitty: Woojin hyung are you alright?

 

Hyunjon: maybe he snapped

Hyunjon: but fr this is the first time I heard him swearing

 

Seungbean: well technically you didn’t hear him

 

Hyunjon: you know what I mean

 

Dumblix: could be pls change the topic

 

Seungbean: that’s because he was crushing on Changbin hyung since 8^th grade

 

Dumblix: YOU SEUNGMIN

 

ratbin: WHAT THE ACTUAL ???

ratbin: you were?

ratbin: omg I’m so happy right now

 

ratbin changed ‘Dumblix’ to ‘SoftLix’

 

SoftLix: u-uwu

 

soft kitty: don’t worry Felix he was whipped for you the moment you sat on our table for the first time

soft kitty: he was a blushing mess all the time

 

Satan Oppa: I ship

 

UwU: I still think that Changbin and Minho hyung are hiding their past from us

UwU: but at the same time

UwU: Lix hyung is really cute and handsome so I could believe him

 

panicked DAD: why is everybody so nice today?

panicked DAD: and where is Jisungie?

panicked DAD: the softest bean is missing

 

Hyunjon: I really miss him :(

 

cutiepie: Hello

cutiepie: ヾ(＾∇＾)

 

SoftLix: BABYYYYYYY
SoftLix: when are you coming to school again?

SoftLix: I miss youuuu

 

cutiepie: have to stay home for 2 more days

 

SoftLix: :((((((

SoftLix: Minho hyung can I hold your hand for 2 minutes?

SoftLix: I’m sad

 

soft kitty: fine

 

ratbin: he just-

ratbin: I’m still here you know right?

 

SoftLix: uwu

SoftLix: hyung our names match!!!

SoftLix: Changbin hyung you should think about that before you napped next to Minho hyung

 

Seungbean: is Felix jealous?

 

Hyunjon: I think so

 

panicked DAD: everything is so weird today

 

UwU: PLOOOOOOOOOOOT TWIIIIIIIIIIST

UwU: Felix hyung is only dating Changbin hyung to get closer to Minho hyung

 

Satan Oppa: Jeongin: your local fanfic girl

 

cutiepie: Changbin hyung don’t worry he’s just joking

cutiepie: he loves you

 

ratbin: STOP

ratbin: I can only handle a limited amount of softness

ratbin: I have eyes and I’m not afraid to cry

 

soft kitty: don’t cry

soft kitty: you’re ugly when you cry

 

panicked DAD: who looks good while crying?

 

Hyunjon: me

 

Seungbean: big fat lie

Seungbean: you’re ugly

 

Satan Oppa: yes everybody is ugly

Satan Oppa: but forget about that

Satan Oppa: I know that nobody did their homework yet

 

Seungbean: Mom back at it again

 

Hyunjon: I hate this family

 

panicked DAD: hush before I hide my son from you

 

Hyunjon: I-

Hyunjon: ok, I’m sorry

 

 

 

***

 

 

 

Minho was kicking a pebble on his way to school. He didn’t know why but he was hoping to see Jisung waiting for him since the boy was coming back today. But he wasn’t and Minho had to walk alone, thinking about the ‘talk’ they had. Well, it wasn’t really a talk since Jisung didn’t really said anything…

When he entered the school, he walked to his locker to get his heavy books before class started. He opened his locker and took everything out before he closed it rather loudly. He was about to walk away, when something fell on the floor. Minho frowned and looked at the folded paper which was laying there, waiting to be picked up. Huffing, he bent down and opened it when he was standing up.

 

*

I kind of miss you too, hyung. And I’m neither little nor a squirrel!

*

 

Minho starred at the paper with widened eyes and read it over and over. His eyes weren’t deceiving him, right? The boy felt how his ears reddened when he realized that Jisung had heard him three days ago…But he was missing him too…that was good, right? At least it meant that Jisung didn’t hate him as much as he had thought.

Minho only put the paper in his pocket when Changbin called his name. With a big grin he pressed his books against his chest and made his way to his confused best friend.

 

 

 

***

 

 

 

Jisung was sitting next to Chan and tried to focus on his meal. His eyes however were busy with observing the cafeteria, searching for his crush. He pressed himself against Chan’s side when he thought about his actions earlier. He still didn’t know whether it was a smart move but he couldn’t forget Minho’s words for the last three days. But a note in his locker? Sighing Jisung wished that Minho hadn’t seen his note yet. Maybe he could take it out later?

“Changbinnie is coming!” Felix gasped and gushed over his looks. Jisung hurried to glance away and stared at his food like it was the most interesting thing in the world.

“Hellooo.” Changbin hugged his boyfriend from behind and pressed a kiss on his cheek.

“Disgusting.” Jisung smiled when Seungmin rolled his eyes.

“You’re just jealous.” Hyunjin grinned until he got punched. Jisung couldn’t focus on them since his body tingled like crazy. He could feel Minho’s intense gaze on him and blushed madly. A silly giggle left Minho’s mouth when he realized how flustered the boy was. He himself wasn’t any better but it still amused him.

After some minutes Jisung raised his head and smiled automatically when he saw how soft Minho looked. His hair was extra fluffy and his lips were stretched in a big smile, showing his cute teeth off. He was so occupied with admiring soft Minho that he didn’t realize how the boy caught his gaze and flushed. Now it was Jisung’s turn to smile and the longer they shared eye contact the more giggles left their mouths.

“Uhm, are you guys alright?” Woojin was looking at Jisung and frowned when he saw how red he was. Minho was also a blushing mess and grinned brightly at his plate.

“Minho, you’re scaring me. What happened?” Changbin turned to him and watched him with worried eyes.

“Nothing. Just remembered something.” His best friend wasn’t convinced but he nodded after they shared a look which meant that they’ll talk later.

 

“Jisungie hyung did you get a letter?” Jeongin was eating his sandwich and was oblivious to Hyunjin’s heart eyes.

“Uhm…yes. In fact, my locker was full of letters and presents.” He shrugged and felt bad because he hadn’t even opened one of them. His mind had been too occupied with Minho and Minho only. Said boy’s smile left his face when the topic about the admirer started.

“So romantic! I bet he would have visited you like a worrying boyfriend if he knew where you live.” Jisung blushed again and wanted to hide under the table when he saw how Minho looked at him. What was happening with him? It was insane! His admirer sent him so many letters, so many presents but he never felt like he did right now. And all that Minho did was smiling and blushing. He sighed deeply and put his head on Chan’s shoulder.

“Oh, before I forget it! You’re all invited to my place this weekend!” Hyunjin adorably exclaimed and hid his face in Woojin’s lap when he realized how loud he was.

“Yes, it has been too long since we met the last time.” Chan said and looked at his kids friends lovingly.

“Ok, then it’s set. Sleep over at my place this Saturday.”

 

 

 

***

 

 

 

Jisung was trying to focus on the class but his history teacher was too boring. Only two minutes separated him from his freedom. He really needed his bed today after what had happened. He tried to suppress a smile as he thought about Minho.

He flinched when the bell rang, ending the class.

“Jisung, are you ok?” Eric put his hand on his shoulder and smiled when Jisung adorably nodded.

“Such a tiring day, right?”

“Oh, yes.” Jisung said and took his bag to pack it.

“Do you already have plans for the weekend?” Jisung cleared his throat when he caught Eric’s hopeful gaze.

“Uhm, yes. We have a sleep over at Hyunjin’s place. You?” He asked although he wanted to leave already.

“I’m meeting with my friends, haha.”

“Cool, see you tomorrow!” Jisung wanted to rush out but Eric was following him, so he slowed down.

“We could also meet sometime I mean with Felix and the others what do you think?” But Jisung wasn’t answering him. He was starring at the handsome boy who was leaning against the wall and clearly waiting for him.

“Minho hyung?” Jisung said confusedly since the boy wasn’t looking at him. He was staring at Eric so intensely that the boy bid his goodbye and left without looking back.

“Hi Jisung. Ready to walk home?” He asked and took some steps before he turned around and looked at the unmoving squirrel.

“Are you coming?”

Jisung shook his head to gain the control over his body back and nodded lightly. With reddened cheeks and a smile, he stood next to Minho who was smiling lightly.

“Let’s go.”