Dear diary, 

I'm tired. I give up. I don't want to love Mina anymore. I'm becoming too desperate for her affection and I'm afraid that it's pushing her away from me. I can't stand the way I feel when I'm not with her, or the burden of giving myself away when I am with her. It's all just too much. 

I want Mina and me to be just friends like how we were before. Or if we were ever really like that in the first place. Maybe I had these feelings for her since I first met her without knowing about them. I have come to hate these feelings now. 

I resent myself so much because this isn't Mina's fault. I'm the one who fell for her relentlessly. She didn't force me to. Or maybe she did. I don't know. 

Please help me. 

Yours, 

Chaeng