Dear diary, 

I just realized that it's almost the end of the year. I will graduate from school in a few weeks, and possibly go to a different university from Mina. I'm scared I won't be able to see Mina again. Not after I just figured out how much she means to me. Not when finally everything seems in place. I'm not ready to leave. I want to make more memories with Mina. 

I don't know how I ended up being so desperate. Mina is not just someone in my life like everyone else. I need her. She makes me feel happy like nobody else does. Being in her arms makes all my sadness go away. I don't want to be away from Mina. She is the love of my life. I can't be okay without her. 

I love all my friends too, and it was hard to separate from Nayeon, Dahyun and Jihyo, when they moved to a different school. But Mina is different. I need her more than anyone. And I would do anything to stay by her side. Even give up my dreams.

If only I could be with her forever. If only I could marry Mina. Or if only I could just let go. But I can't. I can't think logically anymore. 

Yours, 

Chaeng