Helpless
Inmate 457Choi HaSeul
I exited the metro and walked in direction of the movies theaters. Professor Ok got tickets for a movie at the threaters and it was a popular book so we decided to go and critizice the adaptation together. I was wearing my usual jeans and large shirt and felt a bit ashamed when Professor ok arrived. He was so elegant, with his good manner and natural grace I kept wondering why he insisted to be friends with me.
He waved to me and I smiled to him in return. The man ran to my side. hugged me and I stiffened. I was here just so YongGuk will be reassured. « Sorry I'm a bit late, some of my students had questions to ask me. So ready for the movie ? »
"Sure I am !" I said to him. He lead me to the cashier. "Popcorn ? Cola ? Anything ?" I had an embarassed smile. "Let me pay, come on, you're always inviti-"
Professor Ok had a grin. "Huh. I really want to invite you, okay ? So popcorn ?"
I nodded, a bit defeated and he gently gave me the popcorn. We went inside the movie room and looked at the trailers with a lot of attention. "HaSeul we should come back for this movie, right ? It seems interesting !"
"Sure it looks nice but only if this time I can pay, Professor Ok !" I said to him. He sweetly laughed. "You'll never call me Gae Rim, am I wrong ?"
I was now embarassed, he asked me several times to call him by his name but it was hard for me to do so. He looked amused by my reaction and shrugged. "I'll wait for you until you'll call me by my name."
As the movie started, we just watched it in silence, I was really starlted when he reached for my hand to hold it. I gave him a confused look and he sent me a reassuring, very charming face, hopefully with the room being pitch black, he coudln't see how red I was. I was tense for the rest of the movie. When the movie ended, he released my hand to gather up our things. "You enjoyed it HaSeul ? ... HaSeul ?"
I was a bit lost in my thoughts and blinked. "Oh yeah I mean, it would never be better than the book but it's not bad."
He agreed with me and as we talked about the movie, I relaxed myself. Maybe it didn't mean anything. His hands holding mine maybe was an error. After all, what a man like him found in me ? He must have tons of pretty students falling head over toes for him, the ones with mini skirts and pretty makeup. The girls I always looked with envy at university. He must be so popular so why me ? I followed him outside the theaters and he showed me a Pasta restaurant. "What about some pasta ? It's time to eat dinner, right ?"
We ate together, him talking about his life and education. I listened to him only with one ear. Professor Ok was gentle with me, let me order what I want, help me with my chair, treated me like a real princess. How was I so blind not to realize he was interested in me ?
I barely ate, not at east at all. He insisted to have dessert here and as we exited the restaurant, we walked to his car. He dropped me home, a hand on my tigh.
«Tell me if you feel uneasy. » He said, just as shy as I was. I looked the landscape and prayed to arrive home soon. As I quietly gave him the directions, soon he parked in front of my house. I exited the car and he joined me, all smiley. « HaSeul I really enjoyed that date with you. You're all I ever wish to find in a girlfriend. »
I was a bit taken aback. "But you must be so popular and why me ?"
He smiled. "You're simple. You're right I'm a bit popular, but I don't like to use that term. When I asked for your help, you just helped me, without trying to impress me, it felt refreshing and I've never seen such a particular beauty before."
He got closer to me and kissed me softly. I froze a bit, super surprised by his words. He hugged me close to him and reflection his personnality, his kiss was tender and patient, a bit timid. "Would you be my girlfriend ? But if you say yes, you can't call me Professor Ok anymore, alright ?" He said, trying to ease the atmosphere.
I smiled to him as he pulled away and felt really bad about him.That guy all perfect that he was, his touch didn't made my whole body tingle, his kiss wasn't giving me any butterfly in my stomach. But he liked me in a sincere way, his smile almost reaching his ears as he expected a positive answer from me. How can I stay unaffected by him ? With YongGuk, his fingers on my chin were enough to burn my skin and make my heart beat twice faster....
« Professor Ok. I need to be honest with you... Actually.... »
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Bang YongGuk
HaSeul was a bit distant to me these weeks, she came only once a week and was clearly uneasy. Putting a clear line between her and me. I felt a bit embarassed by the situation. Did I make her feel uncomfortable somehow ? I always tried to make our time together nice. But these days, she wasn't natural at all, her easy smiles showing off her bunny teeths were rare or immediately replaced with a blank face.
I didn't dare to ask her what was wrong. But it made me worry a lot about her.
After all, I had affection for her, those two hours were what I expected the most every single week. When HaSeul arrived, I noticed right away something was wrong with her, I could guess she had a lot of worries these days. She sat at o
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