~Chapter Song: Because of you (by) By2~

I made this chapter longer because I felt bad for my inconsitsencey lol, thank you for reading!

The next morning, So-Hyun woke up to a big fat boulder in her stomach. She couldn’t even call it butterflies, that would be too gentle, she was feeling nervous and she didn’t want to say it was because of Professor Seung-Ho, but then again, she couldn’t say it wasn’t either.

She felt stupid and tried to shake off the memory of last night by climbing under her duvet.

“I guess I was just a little jealous”

She's realisng for the nth time that climbing under the duvet doesn’t magically clear your thoughts away. She screamed internally and pondered on it some more and no matter how she thought about it, she didn’t want to believe him. Her mind then wandered back to Jin-Goo. He’s the closest thing she has to a friend at this moment, in his own way he managed to sneak his way into her life and she couldn’t say she was uncomfortable with it anymore.

She tried hard to convince herself she didn’t need friends and she still believes that. But why is it now that at the mere thought of not having Jin-Goo Oppa around does she feel something tug at her heart? Just because he’s jealous doesn’t mean that he’s going to ask you to stop seeing him… So-Hyun-ah it’s the 21st century.

You’re overthinking things! She chastised herself and froze when her little brother’s voice came through the door,

“Noona! Come have breakfast!” He said not even lifting his eyes from his phone.

“Tell mum thanks, but I’m going to go back to sleep. Now leave” she smiled in amusement as he obediently left, eyes glued to his phone. She was exhausted, her silly thoughts wouldn’t let her sleep properly last night.

Before she went under her covers for the dozenth time that morning, she got a video call from Jin-Goo and she answered with a smile.

“Oppa!” she said with a morning voice that needed honey tea therapy – stat!

“Wow, you picked up?! Why aren’t you sleeping, its 9am!” He teased, and So-Hyun hushed him “Woah So-Hyun-ah you sound cute in the morning- “He said cheekily.

So-Hyun laughed it off, but she still couldn’t control that feeling tugging at her heart.

“Why are you quiet? Are you blushing because I called your voice cute?” He teased even more this time laughing “Ooh So-Hyun-ah don’t get flattered, this Oppa is a player you can’t fall for me” He winked at her.

So-Hyun rolled her eyes. She couldn’t control it anymore, the eye-rolls have become automatic since she’s reunited with him.

She was thinking about how she couldn’t imagine not talking to him like this anymore and she hated that. She should have tried harder to push him away. She knows she’s not being rationale, but she can’t help it, she can feel it, he’s going to leave her just like everyone else has.

“Yah! So-Hyun- “Jin Goo sang trying to get her attention

“Oppa… how long do you think we can be friends for?” She asked still in her train of thoughts “Oppa, I think I want us to be friends for a long time” she confessed not realising her inner thoughts were being heard “I’m scared Oppa, I don’t want to be abandoned… I-I don’t want to keep losing people” she said breathless still unaware that she was saying this out loud nor did she notice the tears that were running down her face.

“So-Hyun-ah” Jin-Goo whispered “Why...? what’s- “He decided to stay quiet and let her cry, he slowly turned his phone over so that the screen became dark.

The wall that she’d spent so long building had slowly started to crumble and she was scared she was going to be buried under all the rubble. She was lost under the layers of bricks and she was struggling to breathe, she wanted to ask for help but knew that no one would hear her. She wanted to get out herself, but she could slowly feel herself caving into the darkness no matter how hard she tried. She hated herself for this. Why did she have to get like this? Why couldn’t she just be normal and not think and think and think and think again.

Just when she was about to collapse, she saw a flicker of light. Deep down under the layer of bricks and rubble she saw the tiniest bit of light.

“So-Hyun-ah” Jin-Goo called out softly

The light was growing a little bigger

“So-Hyun-ah” He called out again, his voice growing larger

“YA KIM SO-HYUN!” He shouted, and the light exploded, and she woke up from her thoughts. She looked at her phone in confusion and saw the worried look on Jin-Goo’s face.

“Oh? Oppa? What’s wrong?” she asked

“I’m in front of your house, will you come to me first, or should I knock?” He said his face still filled with worry and sweat dowsing his face.

Did he run here?

“Huh? Why did you come? Did you miss me that much, weirdo!” She chuckled

“So-Hyun-ah… Will you come, or should I knock?” He asked again, not entertaining her joke.

“No, I-I’ll come out to you, hold on”

She was so caught up in confusion that she threw her phone on her bed and didn’t hear it go off.

Professor Seung-Ho:

> So-Hyun-ah good morning! Did you sleep well?

> What are you doing today?

> Would you like to go on a date with me?

^^^^

She slowly opened the door to see Jin-Goo with one hand leaning against the front door and his phone in the other staring at the doormat that said ‘Welcome’. She noticed he was wearing a t-shirt and what looked like pyjama bottoms?

“Oppa” she said softly watching as he lifted his eyes to meet hers. So-Hyun watched as his face spread with concern and before she knew it she was embraced in his arms. She didn’t know what to do, she’d gotten used to the skin ship with him, but there were always times where it felt different; like in this moment.

So-Hyun remembering the worried face he had on earlier wrapped her arms around his and patted his back softly.

“Oppa, are you okay- “

“So-Hyun-ah” He whispered quietly “I won’t leave you” He said holding her tighter and So-Hyun froze. In that moment she had flashes of the past hour and realised what she had done.

She didn’