"I refuse to believe it, Sana."

The tears begin to well up in my eyes, "You refuse to believe what, dad?"

"My daughter isn't, and never will be gay," he says waving his arms in the air.

"Dad, it's a bit late, there isn't much you can do about it."

"What will my friends think? What will your friends think?" he says pointing at me.

"My friends are 100% supportive which is more than I can say about my own father."

He pinches his brow and says in a much calmer voice, "W-what would your mother say?"

I stand there in shock, not believing that he would bring her into this, "Mum would think that you should stop being an ignorant jerk." Tears are streaming down my face uncontrollably.

"Well what am I supposed to say to this, Sana?"

"You're meant to t-tell me that y-you love me no matter w-what." I say barely discernibly.

"Minatozaki Sana, you know that I love you but we can try to fix this. We can get help."

I look at him through the tears, "Are you kidding me? There is no single thing you said that would make me believe that you have an ounce of love for me"

I shake my head, walk up the stairs and run straight to my room. I slam the door and lock it. My back slides down the door and I bring my knees up to my chest and let the tears fall.

How did I not see it? I guess I just blocked out everything that he would have to say...

The times he would switch off the Ellen DeGeneres Show and mutter something under his breathe, the times we would see a stereotypical gay person walking down the street and he would roll his eyes and look away.

Why was I expecting him to hug me and tell me that he accepted and supported me? Why? Why does this even have to be a thing?


I wake up to the message tone of my phone.

"Break is nearly over Sana, 2 more days! I'm so excited to see you, I miss you so much"

I smile at the thought of my best friend "I miss you too, Nayeon, I'll see you then. Xx"

I then realise that I fell asleep on the floor, I stand up and stretch, my back is aching from the hard ground.

I tie my bed hair into a messy bun and I pull on my JYP hoodie. I make my way down the stairs and fix myself some cereal and sit down at the counter.

I hear a beep from my phone; I pull it out of my pocket and see that it's a message from Dahyun.

"Look what I found." Underneath is a photo of her with no make-up on and a beanie pulled all the way down to her eye brows.

I giggle and reply, "It looks adorable on you. You should totally keep it."

I put my phone down and continue to eat my breakfast until I hear footsteps. A smell of cologne fill the air, which I would recognise anywhere. I see my dad walk pass in his required suit and tie. He glances at me "Morning."

I mutter a barely incoherent reply.

He fixes himself a coffee to-go, he then faces me, "I'm off to work now, but I might be home a little late so..." He puts down his mug and brings out his wallet and pulls out a $50 note dropping it on the counter, "Buy yourself some dinner."

"Uhhhh ok?" I say glimpsing at my phone which just beeped.

He doesn't take any notice, "See you when I see you" he says with a kiss on the head and then he's out the door.

I sigh and pick up my phone to another message from Dahyun.

"Should I also keep these?" Accompanied by a picture of her wearing the same beanie but with my giant hangover sunglasses and my favourite scarf wrapped tightly around her neck.

I laugh "Keep whatever you want, they all look super cute on you."

I put my bowl and spoon in the sink and begin to rinse them when I hear my phone go off again.

"You know I hate being called cute, so just to remind you of how y and badass I am..." along with a picture of her wearing a snapback backwards, a pair of RayBan sunglasses and her giant headphones.

I chuckle "omg. So y babe. Could you get anymore badass?" I reply sarcastically…. Sort of.

I take the cash off the bench and make my way upstairs. My phone goes off just as I walk into the bathroom.

"Hey I thought sarcasm was my thing?"

I reply "Oh it is but I guess it's just been rubbing off on me"

Almost immediately "It is pretty contagious BUT I shall talk to you later."

"Totally. Later Eagle, miss you. X"

Not expecting a reply due to Dahyun being emotionally stunted, I get in the shower.

20 minutes later, I'm clean, shaven and smelling good so I get out of the shower. I unlock my phone to check the time but I then find that I have a text message.

"Miss you too."

I smile like an idiot. Maybe she isn't as emotionally stunted as I thought.

I wrap myself in a towel and make my way to my room. I choose to wear a light blue sundress along with white slip ons and minimal make up. I wear my hair in a single side fish braid.

I grab my handbag and phone and make my way down stairs. I'm walking past my dad's office when I hear the landline ring. I slip into his office and pick up the wireless phone.

"Hello?"

"Sana? Is that you?"

I smile at the familiar voice "Yep, hey Nan" I say to my grandma.

"Hey my little chickaboo, I was checking if you were still coming today?"

I giggle at the nickname "Yep, I was just about to leave"

"Oh good, do you still remember where Lex's house is?"

"Of course I do, Nan"

"Ok well I guess I'll see you soon then dear"

"Yep ok, I'll see you then" I hang up the phone and put it back on the base.

Just as I get up I notice the picture frame, the medium sized picture of my mum, my dad, my brother and I. I smile sadly remembering that day as if it were yesterday. All of us sitting at the park mum and I having a conversation about how being a doctor would suit me. As my brother and my dad chatted about the before football game. It was a perfect day.

I snap back to reality and shake of the sadness that's beginning to kick in. I quickly stride out the front door locking it behind me and to my car.

I get in and plug in my phone; I press on "Dahyun's Instrumentals" and let the music fill the car.

I drive carefully, not allowing the memories to flood back in. I stop at the nearest supermarket and get a nice bouquet of flowers I then head to the liquor store and get a nice bottle of wine.

I jump back in my car and head to my destination.

I get out of the car bringing the flowers and the wine. I make my way to the front door when I hear a bunch of screaming.

"Aunty Sana!" I see three little kids latch onto my legs.

"Hey guys!" I crouch down to their level "How are my little munchkins?"

"GOOD." They all say at once.

"How about we all go inside hm?" They all nod and run inside ahead of me. I smile at my three nieces and nephews.

I manage to shut the door but when I turn around, I see my oldest niece, Hayley standing there with her arms behind her.

"Hey Hayley bear, how can I help you?"

She points to my full hands "Do you need some help holding anything?" She says sweetly.

I smile "You can hold these if you want" I hold out the flowers.

She steps forward and takes them carefully like it's a new born baby.

"Let's go give them to mummy hey?"

She eagerly nods; we make our way through the house and eventually into the kitchen.

"Sana! Hey" Lexie my blonde cousin strides over and gives me a giant hug "How are you? I haven't seen you in ages."

"I'm alright I guess," I say as we exit the hug "But these are for you." I say handing her the wine and as Hayley holds up the flowers.

"Aw thanks, Sana"

"No problem," I say, I look down at Hayley "Thanks for helping me, little one."

She smiles "No problem." She giggles and runs off.

I look up to see my Nan and other cousin walking in the room "Sana?! " The two hugs come simultaneously.

I smile "Hey guys, I've missed you" I say.

They smile "It's been a while, hasn't it?" Says my younger brunette cousin, pulling her sunglasses to the top of her head.

My Nan smiles "Only a few more people to come"

I look around thinking about who else is coming today; we have Lexie, Tzuyu, Nan and myself. We have Lexie's kids; Hayley, Maybelle and Chace.

"Hey Lex, is Brad here?"

She nods "Yep, he's out the back with Uncle Paul watching the footy."

I nod "of course he is. And is Matt coming?"

She smiles at the mention of her brother, "Yep, he's making his way down with the family."

I smile "Aw, good"

My mum had 2 siblings, a sister (Josie) and a brother (Ethan). Aunt Josie married Uncle Paul and they had Lexie and Matt while Uncle Ethan raised Tzuyu on his own.

"Where's Josie and Ethan?"

My Nan answers with, "Oh they went into town to get some stuff, they'll be back soon."

I nod "Oh good, well I'm gonna go say hi to the boys but I'll be back to help with lunch."

"You can stay out there with the boys if you want" my Nan says.

Tzuyu interrupts "Yeah, I'll go too. If you want the house to remain intact, I suggest you don't let me in the kitchen."

Tzuyu and I make our way out into the back room.

"Score?" Tzuyu says as she settles down on the couch.

"32-24" Brad replies.

"Who we rooting for?" I say from behind them.

They turn around "OH Sana, it's you." Brad says as he jumps up and gives me a hug.

Uncle Paul smiles and pulls me into a giant bear hug "I missed you squirt, how've ya been?"

I giggle at the nickname "I've been alright, how about you, old man?" I say as I sit down next to them.

He shakes his head "Never better."

We watch the game with a few bits of small talk chucked in there until I hear tiny footsteps. "Uncle and Aunty are back, Sana." I hear a little boy say.

I turn and face my nephew, "Well, thank you for telling me that, Chace. You're turning into a big boy now huh?"

He giggles "Yep, I'm 4 years old now."

I act shocked "4 years old?! Oh my gosh you're so big now!" I jump up and swoop him up in my arms. I carry him on my hip "Let's go then, big boy."

He nods his head enthusiastically.

We make our way back inside, I put him on the ground when I see my Aunty. "Aunt Josie!" I say as I run over and give her a giant hug. I turn to the person next to her "Uncle Ethan!" and I pull him into an embrace.

We exchange the common small talk until someone asks "How's your dad?"

I sigh and put on a fake smile "I guess he's ok, I mean he's been working a lot, I guess it just distracts him."

"Well, it was such a shame that he couldn't c