Having You

Queer Feelings
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Napangiti ka nung mabasa mo yung message nya, telling you that if you two can talk.
After the break up kasi, wala ng communication.
You cut all the ties na connected sainyong dalawa.
Yung rason mo is takot ka, you're scared to face the reality that you two are over na.
Yung relationship nyo, it's almost close to the definition of perfect.
And all you did is to ruin it.
Wala naman talaga syang mali e, yan yung paulit ulit mo sinasabi sa sarili mo.
Alam mo sa sarili mo na nasayo yung problema.
Na kahit na paulit ulit mong sinasabi na magiging okay ang lahat pero deep down alam mong hindi.
Lalo na at alam mong kinakain ka na ng insecurities mo.
She was loved by everyone, alam mo yun.
At first, you can still tolerate kung ano man yung sinasabi ng iba sayo.
Kesyo daw hindi kayo bagay dahil sobrang iba kayo from each other.
Kesyo daw she's friendly and loved by everyone at ikaw hindi.
Na she's nice and you're not.
Na you're just no one at kung ano ano pang masasakit na salita. 
Nung una naman talaga kaya mong i-tolerate e, pero that time na pati sya sinasabihan na nila ng masasakit na salita.
Dun ka na nag simulang matakot at kainin ng insecuruties mo.
No, she doesn't deserve that treatment.
She's too precious para sa mga walang katotohanan na sinasabi ng mga tao sa paligid nyo.
Ayaw mo syang masaktan, so mas pinili mong ikaw nalang yung mag suffer at wag na sya.
Mas pinili mong ikaw nalang yung masaktan kesa sya.
And mas pinili mong ikaw nalang yung mag mukhang masama sa mga mata ng ibang tao kesa sya.
After all yun naman ang tingin nila sayo diba, that you're a .
So just like a na sabi ng iba, naki pag break ka sakanya without even telling her the reason why and without giving her a chance to talk. 
You just simply ended your relationship.
Simple as that.
As if that you're really a heartless person just like what the people around you was saying about you.
Naaalala mo pa yung ngiti nya na agad nawala when you said the words that breaks your heart and her's.
How her eyes are begging for you na sabihin mo na hindi totoo.
How she begs for you na wag gawin yon.
How she begs for you not to leave her.
How she begs for your reason why.
And how you just simply answer her with your voice and face void in any emotions.
"Just because" 
Hindi mo na sya binigyan ng chance mag salita pa and you just left her like that.
Narinig mo pa yung pagtawag nya sayo but you never look back.
Your hand cupped your mouth to muffle your sobs.
The look on her face is too painful for you to see.
Seeing her cry just because of you is too much for you.
Kumapit ka dun sa wall para i-support yung sarili mo.
You're trembling, then a sob manage to escape from your lips.
Your tears kept flowing down your c

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Urnzone
Gays ehem yeh gays, pengeng love life hahahaha

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its_aaarrriii
34 streak #1
Asan ka na po
notjoohyunn
#2
Chapter 39: Kung sa Seulrene moments willing to wait kami, pati rin sayo author-nim :>
notjoohyunn
#3
Chapter 27: Ex niya ata
flying_dubu69 #4
Chapter 40: otornimmmm pakigalaw ang baso kung buhay ka pa

charizzzzz
autornim kaseeee, pabitin-_-.
yoonhyunseo
#5
Chapter 2: Where are youuuu otorrr?
gomtokki_23
#6
Chapter 5: medyo sobra naman si Seulgi dito. tsk
Ivie12
#7
Chapter 40: Next Chapter po plessss 😁😁😁
agentayase_thehunter
#8
Chapter 28: That 'Akala mo ikaw lang , pero hindi pala' daaaaaaamn. Shet ang hirap pag nagmahal sa may unfinished business pa.