February 2011was the best month of my life.

Me and Jiyong, happy. Me and Jiyong, together. Never did it occur to me that 'Me and Jiyong' would one day be apart.

It was May when that happened. He just started missing all of a sudden.

He stopped fetching me at school and I didn't see him at the bus either!

In short, Kwon Jiyong dumped me, dumped me like a boss!

No 'byebye', no clues, no nothing!!!

My only question is.... "WHY!?!?!?!!??"

Miraculously, I've survived(kind of) upto the last month of the year. It's now December, a very cold month. Perfect for my loneliness(sarcasm)! 

Early this moth, our teacher announced a project, a diary, to be submitted at the end of the school year. I bought a new pen and a new notebook

just to encourage my lazy self to write something. I filled the first page of my diary with Jiyong's name like this:

JiyongJiyongJiyongJiyongJiyongJiyongJiyongJiyongJiyongJiyongJiyongJiyong

JiyongJiyongJiyongJiyongJiyongJiyongJiyongJiyongJiyongJiyongJiyong

JiyongJiyongJiyongJiyongJiyongJiyongJiyongJiyongJiyongJiyongJiyongJiyong

JiyongJiyongJiyongJiyongJiyongJiyongJiyongJiyongJiyongJiyongJiyong

Okay, truthfully, I filled 4 pages with these...

My life is all about Jiyong eversince the day I fell for him. And now that he's gone, my life is meaningless... 

Come to thin of it, I must be cursing him to hell because he had brought me so much pain.

But I can't find hate in my heart and mind right now, only endless aching.

*Kriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiing!!!*

The school bell rang, signaling the end of classes for today. I grabbed my bag from behind me and stood up.

I felt tipsy with the sudden movement and fell back to my seat. I had to stay there for a few seconds to settle my spinning head.

When I glanced up, my math teacher's undescribable old face greeted me with a frown. 

"Ms. Lee, you have been out of this world for months." He had the voice of a wise wizard which made me want to act polite.

I bowed first before speaking, "Sorry, sir. I'm going through a tough situation that I really can't explain (to someone as old as you-_-) to you."

"Like you what? You broke up with your boyfriend?" he eyed me.

I was itching everywhere and going.. "ahh.." "Ahmm.." "Uhhh.." as I searched my brain for possible answers. Then the word 'yes' just suddenly 

bursted out of my mouth!

"Tsk.Tsk.Tsk." He shook his head sideways. "You kids today..." Then he just froze away with that sentence. He's just staring at nowhere like watching 

his though bubble. So before it popped, I made my escape and ran outside the classroom.

That was reeally weeird----

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Walking to the bus stop reminds me of Jiyong, well everything reminds me of him actually.

I remember when we walk together, he would suddenly snatch my hand. I would stare at him, shocked, and he would just continue walking

nonchalantly. His skin touching mine gives me chills to the bones! It's a sensation that only Jiyong can stimulate.

I sat at the waiting shed then checked my watch. The bus will be coming 10 minutes from now, which leaves me with more time 

to reminisce. Here on this bench, Jiyong would usually play with my hand, massaging it and tickling it. Now I'm staring at my hand

Untickled, untouched.

OH MY GAHD! I'm losing sanity!! Why can't I move on?~

I reached for my pocket and took my wallet. There I grabbed a picture of me and Jiyong with his hand around my shoulder and us with goofy facial

expressions. Tears immediately flowed down my cheeks as I saw the his wide smile and his eyes staring at me, even only in a picture.

My vision blurred and my strength weakened, then the December breeze came and blew away the photo from my hand!

I hurriedly went after it. While I was running, the bus, which just passed by, caught my attention. 

*TOING!*

I fell on the ground first after crashing into someone. I glanced at the guy who got up and ran away! Jerk!

I helped myself up with my elbow then dusted my uniform, when the picture I was running after appeared infront of me. 

I took it and then paid attention to the person in front of me. 

Cute! His eyes formed an inverted 'u' as he smiled his pearl white teeth out. 

to be continued...