“Let’s buy foods” Krystal said. I nodded slowly as I thought about my second letter, I felt stupid and felt anxious the whole time.

“Why are you spazzing out? Is it about Freezer?”  And again, Krys hits the bull’s eye. “No, no please stop this, Krys.”I showed her a begging face. Krystal then patted me “Okay, okay let’s say that you don’t like him now even the fact is your act lately show different thing” she said. “Thanks for your concern” I smiled.

Today, we had to attend school’s club. I joined the basketball club. My best score in school subjects was sports because I loved them. I am 180 degrees different from the girly Krystal. I enjoyed my club so much despite from studying hard, that’s why the red color appeared often in my report card.

After two hours of practicing, I’m all sweat. I gulped my mineral water fast to regain energy. Now it’s five o’clock and I wanted my tired body to go home soon. I took the bus today, I stepped up as I brought along my heavy gym bag. I looked for an empty seat and found one. The person’s face beside the empty chair was blocked by the person’s body in front. As I walked nearer, I could see his face and my heart skipped a beat. It was him, Oh Sehun who probably had received my letters, two of them.

He was playing his phone and not paying attention around .I immediately quitted the plan to seat and remained standing as I held the railing. Unfortunately the bus was full and the chair beside him was the only one vacant, I looked really weird for not taking that seat. The bus started to move but still, I chose to stand with my stiff legs.

The board felt so long, my heart kept racing as I felt everyone being so confused of me. I kept silent when suddenly the bus driver stopped in shock, my feet lost balance and I nearly fell. And I felt my heart skipped again for the second time in this same damn bus. I heave a sigh and gripped the railing harder in case next unwanted things will happen.

“Excuse me, the seat beside me is empty” A voice heard. I turned back and met his eyes, his hand was holding an earphone when the other was still plugged on his ear. It’s my first time hearing his sound, it felt so soft and warm. I didn’t except this from his cold face.

“Ah, thankyou” My voice trembled. I finally seated, I made our distance as far as possible without making him feel confused. My cheeks got warmer and seriously how many shocks will I get now? I could die by stupid heart attack.

Now what I think the reason he offered this seat was he saw me nearly fell, I knew it. Well done for myself I did something stupid again. The bus was quiet with only engine sound was heard, and with him beside me, I could hear his silent breaths. I did nothing but playing with my hair tie bend as I pleaded for he didn’t hear mine, my nearly exploded heart.

‘It’s my stop! It’s my stop!’ I screamed joyously in heart. I stood up without facing him and took my bag then I walked out, trying to be calmed and hide my happiness. Actually it’s half, I’m happy to escape the situation but then I felt sad to leave it.

I greeted my mom and went to my room to take a shower, I felt so clean and clear from the sweats earlier, I enjoyed the fresh scent of orange soap that lingered me. It’s Friday and that means no school  tomorrow, happiest day of week. I went for dinner then I planned to spend my time on reading a novel. I didn’t want to sleep early today. I chose my comfortable pose and started to read, but after few paragraph, I lost my concentration.  My mind kept replaying the bus scene and despite of reading the novel, I ended up thinking about this boy.

My phone vibrated, and I checked it. It was from Krystal. She asked me to have a walk tomorrow and I agreed. I felt hot and wanted to tie my hair in a bun but soon I found that my tie was missing. I really hate myself being clumsy. Later, my eyes grew heavier and soon will lost in the dreamland, hopping for Sehun to appear  not to appear in it.

I went to the mall with Krys, she happily trailed the shops to find clothes while my eyes only attracted to the sport shops. She said that I must change but I think it’s not even necessary, who’s going to see me anyway?

Before we went home, Krys and I stopped on a bubble tea shop and have some talk.

“How was yesterday’s club?” I asked Krystal with a teasing tone, she attended the school’s dance club. Krys didn’t answer and gave me a pissed face.

“Or should I say. How’s your time with Kim Jongin yesterday?” I said once again. Jongin was the dance’s club lead and he was a little bit close with Krystal, I gave her a hundred percent of agreement for that. Now after she heard that, Krystal didn’t remained silent. She cleared and said.

“And how’s your Freezer, JaeIn?” I bit my lower lip as my mind recalled yesterday’s scene.

“You’re blushing again, girl” She said with full of pleasure. I know she win again on teasing me and lucky her that she got that anti-blushing cheek, not like mine.

My phone rang and it saved me on this kind of situation.

“Buy some pack of tea on your way home please” my mom said. I gave an okay and then hung up the phone.

“Let’s go now, Krys” I said as I took my bubble tea. She stood up and nodded then we left. We walked together and later went on separated way. I need to go to the mini market first to buy my mom’s tea. I went in and walked to the tea corner. I grabbed a box of it and went to the cashier as I texted my mom.

I putted the box on the cashier desk and soon heard a scan sound. “Anything else?” I looked up and answered it.  “No thanks”

As you guessed, It’s him again Oh Sehun.

Seriously what the hell happened? I took out my wallet and quickly gave him the money. I bit my lips to keep calm and cleared my throat. I pretended to look at my phone to not look at him. “Here’s your change” now I heard his voice, talking to me for the second time, it’s strange that somehow I felt grateful for that.

I took the money and left soon, this two days were so hard for me. I made fast steps to home with the plastic bag on my hand. I put my palm on my warm cheek as my heart slowly stopped to race. ‘It’s okay, he doesn’t know me and I don’t know him.’ I tried to calm myself.

“This is what they call a fate darling” Krystal’s word appeared and that  made me heave a sigh.

 It's sad for me that I could only escape and fight my own desire.

 ‘I want to know him..’ 

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