3 months later

Taeyang POV

Sarah disappeared without a trace. I pestered everyone about her but no one is willing to tell me where she went. Even sajangnim was not on my side at all. Sajangnim had to pay SM Entertainment to shut up about me cheating on Sarah with Yuri. I knew it was a real stupid decision that I made but I was so lonely. Everything went really haywire when my world tour started and Sarah was not there to support me. I knew she had to support my dongsaengs but I still felt jealous and needed her by my side.

It did not help that everytime I sang Eyes, Nose, Lips, it reminded me of her as I wrote the song based on her. Even Jiyong and Seunghyun was pissed off with me. Ever felt totally alienated? It certainly felt that way. CL gave me a slap before she went back to the states and said if she found out that I contact Sarah or hurt her any further, I should say goodbye to my .

I stalked Sarah's SNS but she shut down everything and when I finally found her again, all her accounts were private hence I was unable to even find out where she was or if she was ok. I felt completely and utterly lost. 

Yeah (maybe i’m missing you)

I meet ordinary ppl and talk to them
Laugh w/ them, just like usual, w/o any thoughts.
Tv is my only friend at night
I finally go to sleep when the sun rises in the morning
I’m too shabby, i might have liked you a lot.
After you left, the blue sky seems like it’s just yellow
Where are you feeling hurt, i’m here
Or maybe you’re in love w/ someone else
Some other love, i miss you my baby

My heart feels this sad but i have no one to talk to
I wanna smile broadly sometime but have no one beside me
Maybe i’m missing you

Back then, we were like that
Between you and me it was all clear and pure
First it was all about love, just like everyone says
Why did we do that though we all know
(But) as time goes, like the glass breaking
Like the ring in hands losing its light
Like getting a cut by a sharp knife
Like strangling my neck w/ the chain of restriction
The memories that i have w/ you
Which i thought they’re gonna be always good
Though i hate it, only the wounds and unsolved misunderstandings are left.
I needed to hold back till the end
The words of “i’m breaking up w/ you”
(Yet) the time we fight and argue
It was better than now.

My heart feels this sad but i have no one to talk to
I wanna smile broadly sometime but have no one beside me
Maybe i’m missing you

I still feel like you’re next to me everyday when i open my eyes
Can’t we turn the times back that we’ve been together ah- ah-

My heart feels this sad but i have no one to talk to
I wanna smile broadly sometime but have no one beside me
Maybe i’m missing you

I missed her so badly but yet I had no news of her at all and that hurt so badly. Jiyong was so happy with Kiko and even Seunghyun appeared to be moving on but yet I was stuck here badly missing her, the girl of my dreams who I let go because of my stupid mistake.

Sayurimei and Chicklet, hope you guys are happy with the updates! I plan to end this story in 2 chapters!