Doojoon POV’s

I spent the rest of my day watching television for news about my concert and a boring, over-dramatic soap opera. Somehow I felt so tired.. Maybe because I didn’t sleep enough? With one heavy sigh, I turned off the television and jumped in to my bed once again. I closed my eyes, waiting for sleepiness to take me.

“Urgh..” I couldn’t sleep.. Even though my body and mind were tired, but I keep tossing around not able to sleep.

“Why?” Somehow I couldn’t take off my mind from the conversation this morning. It’s been so long since someone said that name to me and I could feel every memories and feelings I buried resurfacing again. I couldn’t stop wondering and questioning him. Where was he? What was he doing now? Did he eat right? Did he sleep enough? Did he happy with someone else? Did-Did he think about me? Did he still remember my face, my voice, and my everything?

“Damnit..” It’s happening.. The one and only thing I’m scared about. I started to remember what Yoseob face looks like, what his voice sounds like, and what was it like when I still with him. Go! GO!! Please go away!!! Please, I beg you Yoseob..

“GO AWAY!!!” In the end, I took sleeping pills to make Yoseob disappeared from my mind. However, the next time I opened my eyes I still could see his blur image in my mind.

“Pathetic.. I’m such a pathetic human being..” How I wish to have Yoseob ba