A/N: Each page is from each chapter ;) You'll understand once you get there ;) Enjoy!

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I was heading to the door as I heard the bell rang, I opened the door and it was a delivery boy, he handed me the package. And I was wondering who sent me that package; it didn’t say anything on the outside of the package. I held it in my hands and walked to the living room.

I opened the package and there was a big old book and a letter, I opened the letter and it was from Kai. I was wondering how he was doing those days. It had been a while since EXO took a break; we were all busy with our own life now after 20 years of living in the frame. Everyone spent their time with their own family right now.

As I read the letter, I found out many things about our members, Suho hyung had his fifth kid, I hoped he will get a boy as he wanted. All his kids are girls, poor our leader, being the only man in the house must be really hard for him.

I laughed out loud when I found out what happened to Kris hyung and Tao, Tao kept on sticking to Kris hyung just like before, not letting Kris hyung getting married and still spent Kris hyung’s money. Tao sure never grew up. Well Kris hyung should be responsible of his son.

Chanyeol and Chen were still singles; I wondered what they were doing not getting married. They were in their forty already. But since both of them like to play around, I didn’t think they will get married anytime soon.

Lay hyung just got married not long ago and now his wife was pregnant but she was worried as Yixing can barely remembered her birthday, sometimes he even forgot that his wife was pregnant. What was I going to do with that hyung? Even though he was older than me, I was still worried.

Seemed like Chanyeol and Chen weren’t the only ones that were single, Minseok hyung was still single but it seemed like he got married to foods as he travelled everywhere and tasted all kind of foods and I admired him for that. He had all the freedom and I was stuck in my house.

I smiled when I got to Hunhan part, I still couldn’t believe that they were together for this long, how many years had it been already? It had been more than 20 years but they were still in love. I was just glad for them that they lived happily together. If only I could show this to that person and showed him that he was wrong.

Kai will get married soon and it will be time for me to go back to Seoul again as of right now, I lived in Jeju Island. And as I kept searching for that name, I finally found it as I reached the last paragraph of the letter. I frowned when I saw what it read; I never knew he had something like that.

This is Kyungsoo hyung’s book, hyung. I think it’s time that I should show it to you.

Take care, hyung!

-Jongin

“Who was that?” I heard my wife asked loudly from the kitchen and I jumped a little in surprised. I didn’t want to show my wife what I got.

“It’s nothing.” I yelled back and quickly went to my room so I could read what Kyungsoo wrote in peace. I scanned the outside of the book and it was really old, it must have been a long time since he had that book. He even named the book, so Kyungsoo’s style. I smiled as I thought of him.

Our Love-Hate Relationship

And it started like this…

Page 1

He really annoyed me today. So I just left him behind at the company, serve him right! Who told him to make fun of me every day, but I couldn’t deny the fact that I like it when he did that. It made me feel like he somehow pays attention to me. What does he think of me? I was really curious. I can’t believe I fell in love with that idiot. Right! That idiot was none other than Byun Baekhyun.

I think I went too far, he was mad at me and I totally hate when he was mad at me. I should just go and apologised but I couldn’t bring myself to do that. What if he finds out I like him? I would never let that happen.

I hate it when he said I should marry Kai! Why would I marry Kai? He was just a close friend of mine? Seriously, it hurt me every time he said that. And Kai just said he was straight and Baekhyun just looked at me worried. Did he think I was sad because Kai said he was straight? I actually didn’t care if Kai was straight or not.

I was sad because you said I should marry him, you idiot!

Page 2

During the flight, I sat next to Baekhyun and Kai, I thought it was strange that I always got to sit next to him but I won’t even complain. Did I ever mention how much I like that guy? No? Well, I like him a lot. I was talking to him all the time but for some reason, he didn’t seem to pay attention. Did I talk too much? I barely talked though if it wasn’t him.

We shared the same hotel room again and I was just glad that he was the one I got to share it with. I really hate sleeping by myself in an unfamiliar place but I know Baekhyun will never let me sleep by myself.

I couldn’t help but got mad at him yet again. He knew I hate it when he did something like that, but he kept on doing it and I just couldn’t hold back my anger anymore. I had my limit as well but he always crossed the limit. Byun Baekhyun! I hate you!

I hate him more because every time we fight, he would always fix it by doing that. I felt like my heart was going to drop when he sneaked in my cover and hugged my waist. Every single touch of his, never failed to make my heart skipped a beat. Did he also feel the same way? I couldn’t help but give in again. How could I stay mad at him when those puppy eyes of his always made my heart flustered?

When he told me to sleep with him, I just went straight into his embrace, it was the best sleeping position of all times, sleeping in his embrace, it was no joke, and it felt amazing. The warmth of his body never failed to warm my frozen heart. Again and again, my heart kept melting under his touch.

Page 3

I was really tired that day but I still went to the practice with Baekhyun. I could just reject him but I didn’t because I wanted to spend some times alone with him. But we didn’t do much as I ended up sleeping. By the time I woke up, it was already time to go back home, I was scolding him because he didn’t wake me up but he said he tried but it didn’t work. I doubt it though; I could still hear him right?  but I just shrugged it off as there wasn’t a reason why he would lie to me.

Baekhyun took me to a restaurant after and I was just amazed because he knew me so well. I was happy because he knew me and not the other members. I would be jealous if he knew what everyone likes. But why do fans keep shipping me with Kai? Can’t they ship me with Baekhyun? It would be nice if I was shipped with the person I love.

Too bad… it wasn’t me the person they shipped him with.

Page 4

I was really scared as I kept getting nosebleed, all the members knew about it except for Baekhyun. I told them not to tell Baek as I didn’t want to worry him. He would be the last person I wanted to worry. Because I knew every time I got sick, Baek won’t even sleep and stayed by my side all night. And I didn’t want to be a burden to him so I just kept it from him.

But he found out yet again, he caught me in the bathroom and I was just worried. The members rushed to me but I could only see Baekhyun who was looking blankly. He must be mad because I kept it from him. But I just cared about him, that’s why.

In the end, I ended up crying like a baby. I just hate to see that side of him. I hate it! I hate seeing him getting worried about me when I was just fine. But like always, I kept getting him worried. He just hugged me but it only made me cry even more.

He asked me what kind of person he is to me… but I couldn’t tell him what I wanted to say. Those words are hard for me to say and I just couldn’t bring myself to say it. I just said the bad side of him but he has many good sides.

Byun Baekhyun, you’re like an angel to me.

 Every time I looked at you I was always scared that I might run to you.

When you smiled, I tried to keep myself from kissing those lips.

You’re important to me and I won’t ever want to see you sad or worried like today.

And I love you, more than anyone in this world.

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I was always happy to see our fans but at the same time I felt bad for them. I‘ve always been thankful to them, so I was scared that I might end up hurting them, the people that cared for me a lot. But it wasn’t like I could stop myself from loving Baekhyun either and more than anyone, I was worried that me liking him, will only hurt him in the end.

Baekhyun was acting weird that day, I didn’t know why. Was he angry because of that fan? I didn’t know what they were talking about but I was pretty sure it was about girls. Did he like someone? I hope he doesn’t. When I asked him if it was about girl that made him upset, instead of answering my question, he just asked me what I know about love.

Right! I didn’t know anything about love but all I knew was I love him and it hurt me because I knew he will never love me back, even if he did…

Our love is forbidden.

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I was really tired that day and so as Chanyeol as both of us were studying the menu all night, Chanyeol knew how to cook the food that Baek wanted to eat so I made him teach me. He was whining all night as he wanted to go to sleep but I didn’t let him go as night was the only time, I could practice. I didn’t want Baek to find out as I wanted to surprise him.

In the end, we end up going to sleep at 5 am in the morning as what Baek wanted to eat was really hard to make but I still did my best. I wanted to make him that food as