Taeyeon’s POV

I was lying down in my girlfriend’s bed after we finished our good bye stage today.

We, as in us and members, are just finished our promotion with big dinner tonight, and I just want to lazily lying around with my girlfriend afterward.

On our way to dorm, sooyeon was too busy with her phone, she was getting ready to set up her business around at the end of the year. I was actually quite proud with her. She was starting to work on her business since last year, she was starting to take classes when we didn’t have any schedule. I actually knew it before she told me. Tiffany did. But then she asked me personally, after we were dating, if I was okay with it, and I assure her if I behind this, she has my blessing. Members and company did too. So now, she was busy preparing for the opening and all. she was all busy with her phone nowadays. When I try to take a peek what she was doing right now, she is making an Instagram account for her business stuff,

“do you need any help?,” I asked as I scoot a little closer to her,

She hums, I bet she actually knows everything like how to make an account and all but I couldn’t just sit watching her busy with her own world. I used to get a little upset when she was too captivated with her business, leaving me out of the loop. But it didn’t have to happen twice since she confronted me, and make me sit, literally. I was supposed to get mad but I didn’t, she said if she was sorry and after that little incident, she was starting to give me a little role. Sometimes she asked me about the color match or the proportion of her glasses frame. I know I wasn’t the one when it comes down to fashion. Not wanting to make myself embarrass, I am starting to look around too. Just like how actually a fit ratio glasses are. Sometimes I dropped her off on a fabric and picked her up latter. It was actually nice, dropping her off and watching her wearing her suit, her fit white blouse with black leather pants, I always have this flutter tummy every time she shows her fashion sense, or fashion talking, or fashion working.

On our 22th day, I surprised her with a little date after I pick her up from fabric. And at the end of the date, I gave her a scrapbook compilation of fashion winter, summer, spring, and autumn. She was probably already had the published edition and such, but I thought it wouldn’t hurt just to make her one, besides I could learn from this little clipping by myself. I remember she throws herself at me after I gave her the scrapbook. She was carefully turning back every page with her glimmering eyes and wide smile hanging, and I didn’t forget to put a little cheesy word every corner in the book. She knew if we actually too busy with our promotion but I could pulled it off well in short amount of time.

“when were you had time to make this?,” she asked as she looking up from her scrapbook,

And I just keep driving to our dorm, my eyes are lingering on the road ahead,

“when you were away, when you were asleep, when you weren’t with me,” I said with proud smile, and she just chuckled,

“you were so productive when I was away, maybe I should do it more often.”

There’s obviously teasing and I just have to furrowing my eyebrows with pouting lips,

“don’t tease me, you know I missed you to death,”

And she touches my right cheek as she caresses it slowly,

“it’s for us too, you know, just please bear with this one a little bit longer, you know I’m trying hard for our relationship too,” she said with a genuine smile hanging on her face,

And just like a contagious, I’m starting to smile along.

After I teach her what to do with Instagram, I waited her to make one, since she was too determined to learn it all at once. We finally manage to make an account for her brand. She was all smiley all of sudden,

“thank you,” she said as I saw a twinkle on her eyes,

And I smile back as a return,

“do you think I need to have my own account? You know, just like a private ones?.”

And my eyes immediately shine and my lips agreed,

"What do you think a perfect user name suited for me?," she asked while not looking up from her screen,

"Try missihatecucumber," I said as I put my arm around her back and gets her head on my shoulder,

"Too cliche."

Another hums,

"Ilovekimdorktaeyeon ?" I said with a grin on my face,

As she knew if I was grinning, she lets out her little chuckle but then I could see her pout mirrored from her screen,

"Someone already took it," she huffed,

"I know, I'm that lovable," I said with a little teasing tone,

And I got her eyes out from the screen, her doe eyes turn to a killer in a glance,

"You already knew it so why makes me to considered it?."

A small chuckle escaped from my lips and she huffs again,

"I love you but you're a dork."

And I'm grinning again like maniac,

"It makes you saying I love you."

"you're unbelievable," she let out another mumble again, with a blush on her cheeks,

"What about taengsprincess? better yet, taengsqueen?"

"Good idea, if only you used jessisslave though," she said while stick her tongue out, and I find it the cutest, a small chuckle escaped again from my lips,

"Baby, I'd be your anything but just don't let me use that kind of username."

"Whyyyy? Are you ashamed of me?" She whines, and she seems a little disappointed,

"Of course not, what were you talking about, it was just, sunkyu has been teasing and mocking me about being whipped and lovey dovey to you, but I have this little pride to not let her bully me more than she already was."

She just stay mummed, but her sad looks still on her face, I feel bad I don't know why, maybe because when you were in love, you tend to do your best just to make them happy. Sighed, I should just do it in the first place. it wasn't a big deal after all.

But I don't know what to say now since the air is tensed, she already had her eyes to screen, so I just grab my phone and lock off my screen. I instantly log in to my private IG account and go to setting. Once I finished made the change, I nudge her arms and give my phone to her. Her body is shaking up a little, she tries to restrain her laugh,

"Now you change your username to this one?

"What? It's cute and extraordinary," I said as I took back my phone,

"jsysproperties is nice and extraordinary?” she giggles, I just proudly nodding,

“I thought you don’t want sunkyu to tease you and all,” she added in, still stifling her laughter.

And I just shrugged it off with a smile on my face, thankfully, she wasn’t upset anymore, and she decided to use “mrskim_sy” instead. I was grinning ear to ear, I didn’t expect her to use my family name, and now it feels more real than ever.

“well hello mrs kim,” I teased as I poke her nose with my fingertips,

She puckered her lips and leaning her head on my shoulder,

I caress her silky hair as I kissed her side of head,

My right hand was being covered with hers,

she holds it tightly.

These clingy and needy feelings would never get old.

I took a picture from our intertwined hands,

And upload it immediately to my account, with caption, just a little bit of your heart is all I’m asking for.

Not too long, there is a notification from my recent picture on my private account, it was sunkyu,

you are her properties now? I wonder what she did to you.

And without a second thought, I answered it right away,

She makes me the happiest person alive @mrskim_sy deal with it @nopublicservice

And within second, my phone buzzed off, a lot,

another members starting to leave comment as well,

Awww Jessie makes me happiest person alive too, taeng – 24youngtiff

Shut up tiffany – jsysproperties

Why? It’s true : (  - 24youngtiff

Could you make me a happiest person alive too? @mrskim_sy – soosikshin

Me too, and since when you used her family name @mrskim_sy  – kkabyuls

Darn it people, you had to go with the line, me first – 24youngtiff

Hell no, if she makes taeng the happiest person alive, I think she could manage to make the world in peace now, you go 220cm gurl – hyololols

Unnie, what did you do exactly to make taeyeon unnie the happiest human alive? – lovelyoongchoding

Maybe because they are busy sitting under t-r-e-e, k-i-s-s-i-n-g @all - soosikshin

Aww look at those two unnies, so happy <3–maknaesjh

Anyway, I’m going in the line –maknaesjh

-jsysproperties makes a change on her profile-

I’m trying to say it nicely but BACK OFF PEOPLE hrrr – JSYisminesobackoffppl

She makes me the happiest person alive too ^^ - mrskim_sy

*Cough* cheesy af – hyololols

Unnie, language - maknaesjh

As I giggle over the comments, I’m scrolling my home again and there is a new update from sooyeon’s page. It’s our pictur , and it shows our upper body part, my chin to our touched shoulder, mostly focused on her head leaning on my shoulder, and it has a sweet little caption, you didn’t have to asked, it’s all yours since day one.

After we arrived at our dorm, I just run straight to my girlfriend’s room, I was just being a tail, but then she shoos me,

“change your clothes first,” she demands,

“can we cuddle first?,” I asked with my puppy eyes, but sadly it doesn’t work, it usually works though.

Being a great-whipped-girlfriend I am, I manage to change my clothes in 3 minutes, it was a record, and running to my girlfriend bed, ready to cuddle, but she was still on her night routine,

“wow you actually change your clothes in flash,” she said as she sits on her dressing table, trying to take off her makeup, she looks at my reflection from mirror in front of her,

“since when I didn’t?,” I asked while makes myself comfortable on her bed,

“since always,” she said as a wide smile draws on her face, I just pout, this girl is already knows me too well.

After I waited like 15 minutes, she finally finished with her night routine and went to her bed, with her charming girlfriend, that’s right, it’s me.

“you smell nice,” she said as I wrapped my arms around her waist,

She just lets our softly laugh, under her breath,

“what is it? Where can I buy it?,” I asked as I breathe in her shampoo scent from kissing her hair,

“you can’t buy it,” she said as she takes her phone from her night stand,

“why?, just let me buy it, whatever it takes,” I said as I take her phone from her hand,

“you can’t, I wasn’t wearing anything, it’s my natural scent,” she said as she turned her face at me, she tries to take back her phone but failed miserably since I put it under our pillow,

“so, where can I buy it? How do I buy that scent of yours?,” I asked with our locked eyes , I pulled her body closer to mine, as in there wasn’t any space left between our pressed bodies, as I breathed in her so-called-natural scents.

I feel like a teenager all over again when I’m with her, when I was this close with her, like literally close, without any space left between us, I was all clingy and needy, I kissed her top of head, I caress her arm, her waist, plays with her fingers, pat her head, make circles with my index on her palm, sometimes without I realized, I was kissing her hair down to her neck.

I was starting to caress the sides of her face with my fingers and I connect our lips, I’m starting, gently, the back of her head and massage her scalp, I run my fingers to her neck down to her collarbones,

That was it,

The taste of her lips,

Is this how a heaven on earth feels like?

When I nibbled her lower lips,

I manage to hear a little moan escaped from her lips.

And when my hands were so close to touch her belly,

Because I really want to grasp the feelings,

The longing and needy feelings,

Where I really want to feel much closer to her,

So close until she could heard my heart beating for her,

And it’s automatically maneuver to hold her waist instead.

She actually tries to push my hand to go higher than it should on my boundaries,

My hand went from her side tight to her perfect waist,

Until so-close-to her perfect .

But I couldn’t hold my excitement,

I was already near nirvana when she was trying to push my hand a little higher,

But before I lost my consciousness,

I hold on to her waist again and kiss her neck instead.

I could hear a desperate sigh from above, since I was starting kiss her collarbones,

I’m trying to make her as high as I am.

As we were starting to lose our breath,

She pulls apart as she keeps her forehead rests gently against mine,

“I love you,” she said as she looks deep in my eyes,

Her eyes are looking for something,

Something that I didn’t think I would be capable off.

But she keeps her smile a little bit longer than usual, and widely.

As I study her beautiful face, longer than I’ve always been,

I’m too mesmerized with a figure in front of me,

a beautiful figure,

with her silky brown hair fallen perfectly on her shoulder.

I remember I was actually took a picture of her like this,

When we were on our first date,

She was smiling widely showing her perfect white teeth,

Her hands covering her eyes, as I try to take another picture,

I remember her heartily laugh that day.

I hold her hand as it uncovers her face no more,

I want to hold her hand and not letting go,

That was the moment where I realize if I really want to keep her,

If I really want to make this work,

After all, She is the place that I will come back,

no matter how far I go.

I’m shivering with these overwhelmed feelings.

I didn’t even have the courage before to experience what a genuine love is,

Is it really exist,

Is it possible to love someone so much until you could hear your own heart breaking,

With ecstasy and poison, with pain and joy,

How could one love someone enough to take their life away, just because they couldn’t live without that someone,

And now I know why,

a smile linger on my face, my hands are cupping her face,

my thumbs are dancing, make a circle on her cheeks,

“I love you more,”

That is why,

She is the one, who makes me think if I’m capable of anything,

Including feeling the greatest love itself.

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“do I really have to go?,” she said as she sits on her bed, finished packing her things up, she looks like on the verge of crying,

I just softly nodding and smiling a little, looking at how my girlfriend antics,

“really? Do I?,” she asked again, it feels like she was reassuring herself is she really has to go,

“you know you have to,” I said as I sit beside her,

She leans her head to my shoulder, and I’m starting to play with our intertwined fingers.

“let me take you to airport,” I said as I make circles on her palm,

But she just hums and shakes her head, we were already on this conversation, where she didn’t want me to drop her off.

“why?,” I whined. She just giggles,

“you, stay at home.”

There was silence, she might think if I’m already giving up,

“Why didn't you let me to take you to airport?,” I whined again, and she just let her heavenly small chuckle out again, as she wraps my arms with hers,

She was about to fly to L.A. for filming, and her eyes starting to watering, and I’m about to cry as well. This is the first time we will be away from each other for almost a week. We usually couldn’t be apart even for a day, if there was a day she wasn’t on our dorm, where she spend a day on her parent’s home, I just need to tag along. We were like that newly couple who couldn’t keep their hands off from one another.

And to make it even worse, we would be away on her birthday.

“anyway, I already send your post this morning.”

I just hummed in return,

and silence lingers a little bit longer.

I’m recalling the last call I just made with my father. He said a lot of things, like usual, he loves to make a report at least every 2 days. Just like now, he told me about my older brother who was getting ready to join military. Or maybe about my little sister, who was teenager that always throwing a fits,

“she was a little bit handful but it reminds me of little version of you,” he said while chuckling, I can’t help but feeling embarrassed, did I really that rebel, I remember climbing up on a tree in the park when I was a third grade in elementary, but then I couldn’t go down, so I just sat onto a big branch until I fell asleep, and without I realized there were loud voices calling my name from afar. They were my dad and my mom, they thought I was kidnapped or something. Remembering it makes my heart flutter, I was really boyish at that time. But I doubt it if my little sister would climb a tree, she is a princess in our home. She is tough but the sweetness from inside could melted your soul alive. I remember that time, it was a midnight and I was cuddling with my girlfriend in my bed while watching the fault in our stars on my laptop, my phone rang. Without looking at caller’s ID, I answered it right away, wanting it to be done fast since we were almost half passed the movie.

“unnie, can I ask you a favor?.”

Hearing my sister’s voice after a while caught me off of guard,

“hayeon? What’s up? Aren’t you supposed to sleep right now?,” sooyeon’s ears perked up while I mention my sister name, i give her a sign to continue watching without me but then she paused the movie,

“I need a favor unnie, can you help me or not?,” her voice sound sharp, always so high-school-scholar chick,

a frown draw upon my face,

“what is it?,” I asked, try so hard to not let it gets me,

“so long-story short, I was volunteering in a down-syndrome group, and there was a girl who really likes you, like really likes you, and I just found out today if she has a tumor in her brain, umm I thought it might be nice if you send your signed album and I’ll deliver to her, what do you say?,” she sounds a little bit anxious at first, and my heart feels warm and thankful, she grew up well, it’s because mom and dad of course, small smile drawn upon my face,

“I would say of course, does she know if you’re my sister?,”

“no one needs to know if you’re my sister,” there you go, the cold kim’s blood showing up again, i couldn’t help but hold my giggle back,

“do you need anything else?,” I said as a wide smile hanging on my face, my girlfriend who had been studied me for a couple minutes now raising her eyebrow,

“that would be enough,”

Still, so cold, I was chuckling again a little, she couldn’t say if she was thankful or sorry, like teenager in general.

“you’re welcome, and I love you too, sleep well,” and I could hear a little hum on the other side before I met the dead line.

“who was it?,” sooyeon asked while taking a sip from her mango juice,

“my sister,” I answered as I kissed her head and getting up from my bed.

“where are you going?,” she asked as I leave the room, but not a second later, I came back with a cd and pen in my hand.

I naturally come back in my last spot, while hugging my girlfriend from behind, I continue to sign the album and make a little note beside my signature. She is still looking at me with her wandering eyes, but I keep mummed, only smile answered her furrowing brows. After finished signing it, I leave it on my night stand and make myself comfortable while back hugging sooyeon tightly. Before I resume the movie, she stops what I’m about doing and turns her face just to take a look better at my eyes,

“you didn’t answer my question, and you were smiling in about 5 minutes now, without a break, care to fill me in?,” she asked while playing with our folded fingers,

“so,”

And I told her about my sister’s favor then the smile spread to her as well,

“as expected, from kim,” she said as she snuggles closer to me,

“am I supposed to get offended by that?,” I asked as I pressed the play button,

She looks up and find my eyes again somehow, she makes a serious face for a second and I’m  starting to pout until she shows her wide grin and peck my lips,

“nope,” she said still grinning,

And I just hug her tighter. For a moment, my room filled only with movie’s sound, until she breaks in,

“can I help you to send the cd?, I could do it via post right?,” she asked hopefully,

“you could do post?,” there was a teasing tone from my voice,

And she just needs to nudge me softly with her elbow, on my stomach,

“of course I am, I’m mrs. Capable, you’d be surprised of what I am capable of,” she said proudly with her pucker lips, and I just chuckle, I manage to steal a kiss from it though,

“right, you are mrs. Capable of everything, including to make me falls head over heels,” a smile and a blush creep to her flawless face,

“sweet talker,” she muttered under her breath,

“only for you babe,” I said as I kissed her head and continue to watch the movie, not for a minute, she opens her lips again,

“why me?,” she asked, her voice sounds so little, I was a little confused,

I thought I already made it clear for her, without hesitant, I answered it right away,

“because I’m in love with you, you make my heart  jumps every time I saw your face,  every time I listen to your voice, you make my heart jump every time I’m this close with you.”

“still?,” she asked again,

“of course,” I said as I tightened up my hug and kissed her top of head.

For a while she didn’t talk, there are no movement, only her steady breath I could hear, but I can feel her heart beating faster, did she fall asleep or too engrossed with movie,

“you make my heart flutter, I blame it to your cheesiness,” she added in again, I could feel a blush crept to her face,

And I manage to stifled a laugh,

And the next day, she really sends the gift to my parent’s home. She went from her parents’ home to post office. She did it by herself, without our manager around, I’m actually kinda proud, since she was a spoiled princess, and I’m not doing well to prevent her from that. I was actually surprise she didn’t have to get lost in a way from post office to our dorm, but she took a really long time to go back to dorm.

When she gets back, she straightly run to her room and finish her packing.

Back to present time,

"Why didn't you let me to take you to airport?,” I asked as I look at her nose, since my head was a bit top of her,

“you know the reason,” she said while muttering, not daring to lift her head,

“no I don’t, tell me one good reason why I can’t dropped you off?,” I asked as I lift her chin with my index finger,

“let me see you off from my car at least,” I pleaded, but then she looks away,

“taeyeon, you don’t understand,” she said as she watched our hands again,

“tell me what I don’t understand,” I demand her softly,

The silence comes up, it was a little bit tense, until she spoke up,

“you don’t understand,” she said softly, barely a whisper, she continues,

"I don't think I could go in when I see your face, when I was aware if you were still near me, all I wanna do just go run to you, searched for you, and hug you tightly,"

And her voice starts to wavering,

I can feel my eyes are starting to sting,

“and I will ended up missing my flight,” she added as she lets out her small chuckling,

But then small chuckling turns to a little sobbing, and I can’t bear with the sight,

"Why are you crying?," I asked as I put my hands around her shoulder,

And my eyes are getting the burn sensation too.

It was only for a week,

But the thought of sleeping without her makes me deepened sad,

Tears were on the verge of dropping,

“why are you crying too,” she said while giggling between her sobbing,

“it’s because you did it first,” I said as I wiped my tears and chuckled,

"Why are we crying, we are so ridiculous, it's barely a week we'll be apart but acting like it would be 3 years," she added in while chuckling and take some tissues out and wiped her own tears,

"I feel like we are a teenager," I said while release her from my hold,

"I second that,” she said while chuckling again, she wipes my tears now, I hold her hand and letting in to touch and caress my face,

“I love you,” I said as I walk her to elevator, members already saying their goodbye and a lot of ‘bring back foods and clothes’.

And the elevator dings open,

“do well,” I said as I put down her luggage,

“aren’t I always?,” she said as she walks to elevator,

“I’m sorry I couldn’t be there for your birthday,” I said as I put my best sad face,

The elevator was about to close but she holds it up,

“I know, and I’m sorry too, I’m going to miss you,” she said as she still looks at me, not for a second she took her glance away from me, even when she pressed the button,

The elevator was about to close again, now I hold it up,

“I already am,” I said as I’m starting to pout,

And she was trying her best to not let her tears drop again,

“ugh kim taeyeon you had me really bad,” she said as she looks at the ceiling,

And I show a smile a little, the elevator was about to go off again, but I manage to cancel it again,

“take care,” I said, and she nods,

“bye, see you soon,” she waves as the elevator’s door close,

And I just had to look at that door, hoping it would be opened again,

And it did,

and it brings a little Christmas in my heart,

as sooyeon practically throws herself to my embrace and connects our lips,

And let it melted like a hot chocolate on a cold winter night,

“I love you.” “I love you too.”

We just have to look at each other’s eyes,

Deeper and longer,

And we have no will to pull apart, until,

“KIM TAEYEON STOP BEING A LOVELY DOVEY, SOMEONE IS GOING TO NEED THE USE OF THE ELEVATOR, NOW GET OUT FROM MY SIGHT,” sooyoung voice echoed from emergency door, as she was panting, I assume she used the stairs,

Sooyeon breaks into laugh and, me as well, she pulls apart and go back to elevator,

“are you walking…,” I asked sooyoung but didn’t manage to finished the sentences,

“yes I am, it was because of you two I need to climb up to 120 stairs!,” she yells from her spot.

And sooyeon giggles again,

And I already miss her warmth body against mine,

I didn’t know if I could manage to passed a day without her,

“bye,” she waves as the elevator’s door close,

I’m still standing on the front of elevator’s door,

hoping to have another Christmas feelings,

hoping to have sooyeon’s body pressed against mine,

hope to feel that soft lips of hers,

Instead of all that hoping and wishing I imagined,

I snickered through that scary and annoying voice from before,

I didn’t thought her voice could get any scarier that it already was,

“DO I NEED TO TELL YOU TWICE KIM TAEYEON? STOP HOGGING THE ELEVATOR, AND GET YOUR B*TT OVER HERE NOW OR THAT WAS GONNA BE YOUR LAST GOOD BYE FOR YOUR GIRLFRIEND.”