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Taeyeon’s POV

Today is definitely one of those exhausting and awful days.

We just finished recording Healing Camp and dance practicing for our comeback.

We are on the state where we can’t even tell how badly we want to sleep.

It wasn’t even 6,

It’s still 5 in the evening.

we are terribly tired and our body is aching everywhere.

I lean my back at the corner of the room,

And starting to give my feet massage after our last shoot.

This practice was purposely for uploaded on the youtube,

So we gave our best performance as we were on stage.

While other members were spreading around the room,

Some of them have a little chit-chat with one to another,

Or just having snack time.

But I can notice right away if there was something missing.

Soo yeon.

She wasn’t here at the moment.

I closed my eyes as I let my heavy sighed out.

The memory of her sad voice rushing down to my brain.

She was a little bit upset before,

Because I couldn’t make it last night.

She didn’t sound mad or something,

Actually she was the one who insisted to cancel our meeting.

Her reasons were because I sound so exhausted,

And I was starting to saw black and shining things.

She was afraid I might faint.

As I don’t have any energy left to argue,

I agree right away,

We still have today after all.

And it turns out,

We barely even see each other face.

I only heard her singing voice.

We haven’t speaking since this morning.

I was trying to approach her before but cookie oppa snatched her right away.

I glared at him but,

she was the one who shots apologetically look.

I want to make up something for her,

To show her if I was really sorry for last night.

I have something in my head.

I just need bike, jacket and her agreement.

While thinking about what I’m going to do later,

She comes with her phone on her ear.

She looks so tired, her hair is so messy.

But in kind of y way,

what?

She’s my girlfriend you know.

I can watch as I pleased.

Besides, She is always y.

Especially after she dances like that.

She works hard.

Didn’t mean if she wasn’t before,

But this time, she seems to gain more strength.

Ya! Kim taeyeon! What are you thinking about?

“hi,” she said with her small smile tugging on her lips while I was scolding my inner voice.

I looked up at her and giving my smile as return.

I just need to study her face, and figure, from top to toe.

I pat on floor beside me, to sign her to sit next to me.

She immediately suits herself.

She leans her head on my shoulder.

“you look tired,” I said after a few second.

“you look worse than me,” she said.

I just let my small chuckle out and raising an eyebrow,

“I’m sorry?.”

“I don’t mean the bad way, it’s just, you look more exhausted than the rest of us all. You had schedule until midnight.”

“ah about that, I’m really sorry.”

And I reach her hand, let my hand holding it a little tighter.

She looks up on me and giving me her understanding look,

“no need to be sorry, I understand, I just miss you so much.”

“I miss you too,” as I kissed her gently on the top of her head.

I can feel the clingy and needy sensation while I’m with her.

She makes my blood rushed,

My heartbeat fastened up,

and stopped while she took a glance towards my face.

And when she has a toothy smile like this, god it killed me.

“get a room,” tiffany’s voice startled me.

She was just walking by with her frowning face towards us.

Yoona and yuri just giggling watching the situation.

“we would if there is any room,” sooyeon shots her back teasingly.

“gross, don’t need the image,” this time, fany’s frowns go deeper as she fanning the top of her head. She was like picturing to erase the image, whatever image she had before.

I sooyeon’s head that still leaning onto me with my free hand,

The one that wasn’t holding on her hand.

“it’s cute actually,” sooyoung said while looking at us.

I can feel my face is starting to burn.

“we are cute,” sooyeon said with her cute voice, and this time, she snuggles closer to me.

Wrapping her hands around me.

Not caring about our dripping sweats.

I let my grin out widely and take my right hand to hold her waist.

“sure, short things combined, it’s cute,” sunny added.

“yah!,” I manage to yell.

“ha said someone who is no taller than us,” sooyeon sticks her tongue out.

Sunny just pouts and leaving like we didn’t say anything.

“why do you used your mask before?,” I asked while silence lingering on us,

Unintentionally my voice sounds cuter and smaller than I thought.

She still clings herself onto me and said,

“I don’t want people to see my ugly face without any make up.”

I frown. She just said it like it was nothing.

“sooyeon-ah, you aren’t ugly at all, you are…God, you are beautiful, with or without make up on,” I said softly while caressing her thumb.

“some people don’t think so.” Her voice didn’t sound sulky.

She said it again like it was nothing.

“but some people do find you attractive.”

“like who?,”

“me.”

“meeeh, doesn’t count.” But I notice her flushed face.

“why?”

“you are my girlfriend, of course you would defend me.”

The way she said if I’m her girlfriend always make me tingling and happy at the same time

Of course I will defend her until my last breath.

My smile is growing wider

“hyo!, sooyeon is pretty right?,” I asked hyoyeon who’s enjoying her meal time with yoona and soo.

“who is sooyeon?.” And sooyeon rolled her eyes and said, “God, hyo please.”

“oh, which sooyeon?.”

This time I rolled my eyes and puffed air out of my mouth.

“this sooyeon, who else,” I said as I pointed at sooyeon.

“ah of course, she is the prettiest girl on earth, especially with her bare face and when she accompany me to club, she definitely is prettiest things,” hyo answered nonchalantly.

“see?,” I turn at her as I drop my fingers. And it just hits me.

“hyo, off the record, jung sooyeon won’t join you to the club again without me, and lastly, she isn’t a ‘thing’.”

“sure shorty.”

And I send her my deathly glares, she just brush it off and continue to eat.

“why do you make a fuss about it?,” sooyoung asks while chewing her food.

That’s right, why do I make a big deal about it?

Because jung sooyeon is prettiest when she is without her make up on.

I don’t want her to feel the other way around.

“just because.” I said stare down to the floor.

“unnie, don’t , she is in love, you know how love can be.” Yoona said.

I can swear to God if my face is really burning red right now,

Meanwhile sooyeon shots me her goofy looks.

“what?,” I asked her while looked away, pretending if I didn’t care.

“right, you are so in love with me,” she said as she looks away,

Not wanting to embarrassing me more,

But her reaction doesn’t make it embarrassing any less.

And I feel a slightly peck on my cheek,

It was just a few seconds, but the feeling last a little bit longer than it should be.

“so it counts, and thank you,” she said all smiling after giving me a kiss on the cheek.

“aaaww aren’t you two adorable?,” this time soo spoken up.

“stop it, or I’ll kick both of you out,” she added it again with her serious tone and face.

Yoona, hyo, and sooyoung were laughing.

I can’t help but let my another small chuckle out.

“seriously, stop it,” she added again.

While we were still laughing, sooyeon’s phone is ringing again.

She gives me her apologetically looks, if she needs to answer the call.

I just shrugged my shoulder and nodding a little.

“what again?”

And she leaves the room.

My eyes didn’t stop looking at her until she leaves my sight.

I took another gulp of my yogurt that she bought for all of members.

Within minutes, she already back.

She looks a little bit annoyed.

“what is it?,” I asked as I reach my hand up, to let her to hold it.

She takes it without hesitant, and she pouts,

“krystal, I won’t be able to see her tomorrow, since she has something to do with fan sign or photo shoot or something I don’t care, we didn’t meet for so long,” and now she whines. Her trembling voice is spinning through my arms.

“I thought you were with her all day yesterday,” I said as I raised my eyebrows.

“but still…”

“and practically you were living with her, even if you have your own apartment.”

And she puffs her cheeks, still pouting.

Another call comes to her phone, she takes it right away without glancing at me.

my eyes never look away from her, I studied her expressions.

From annoyed to upset to annoyed again and now she’s smiling.

“arraseo omma, nee, I love you too.” And she hangs up.

“well?,” I asked.

“krystal was calling my mom to make sure if I wasn’t upset with her, that punk.”

And her phone rings once again,

“what?,” she yells at someone on the other line.

I guess it was her sister.

“unnie, the practice will be wrapped up today,” seo comes to my side.

“I got it, today we wrapped it nicely, right?,” I asked as a smile make an appearance on my face.

She just giving me her smile while nodding and then she leaves to tell other members.

“alright, I won’t, alright, anything will be fine, yes, take care and have fun.”

She has her big smile now on her face, I wonder what krystal said to make up to her sister until she wasn’t that upset before.

I’m waiting for her to tell me what happened, but when I see the look on her face if she was zoning out, making me to shake my head and giggle a little.

“so?,” I snapped her out from her daydream.

And she still has her smile.

“we are fine.”

“how so?.”

“she promised to buy me something, like a candle or perfume.”

I start to laugh and shaking my head.

She shots me her questioning look,

I stand up from my spot and cupping her face,

“you are the cutest, really.”

I didn’t waiting for her response,

As I knew if she has blushed on her cheeks.

And I hold her wrist and dragged her with my pace.

“where are we going?.” She almost trips on her feet but she’s doing fine.

“grocery place.” I said while walking to our bags.

“why?”

“I want to have a dinner with you.” As I grabbed our bag.

“the practice?”

And now I turn to face her, she startled for a moment,

“oh it’s wrapped for today.”

And continue to drag her to the door.

“we are leaving,” I said to whole room.

“jal ga” “annyeong unnies, take care” “have a nice date!” “go get some!”

And we left the building with my car.

After I close her door, I walked to driving seat and starting the engine.

She seems a little puzzled, but I let her alone with her mind.

After a few minutes passed by, she turning the music on.

And Taylor’s teardrops on my guitar is playing.

“aisshh, you still have her on your tape?.”

“what can I say? I love her voice.”

I can feel her send me a glare.

Her glare was saying like, “oh do you dare to say if you love other woman’s voice”

“especially her song,” I added while grinning at her.

She doesn’t seem too amused with my action.

She was folding her hands.

I still have my grin plastered up.

I was changing to next song, it’s david guetta’s without you playing.

She doesn’t send me glares anymore, instead it’s a pout.

It’s so cute, I feel like want to capture it with my lips.

I’m starting to sing along,

“I can’t win,

I can’t reign,”

And I get her to look at me while I’m still looking at road.

“I will never be the same,” I reach her hand in mine, and giving it a squeeze,

“without you,

Without you…” and I manage to look at her, intensely.

Without forgetting if I was driving, and knowing if it’s traffic hour.

We are stuck for 5 blocks to grocery store.

She is giggling now.

“pabo,” she said.

“yours though.” I said, smiling too.

And she slaps my hands which on her, softly.

“why do you want to have dinner without telling me? I could spare some nicer clothes you know.”

“what’s your wearing now is great enough.”

“but I’m all sweaty!” one stomps foot and pouts.

“me too. Besides we didn’t go to fancy place, so don’t bring your hopes up.”

“that makes me want to wear my best dress more!” another stomps foot and still pouting.

Her whining voice is so cute,

Her face is so priceless.

It makes me warm and happy all of sudden. Every time.

“wait a minute, do you want anything?” I asked as I get ready to get out from the car.

And she shakes her head, eyeing me.

“alright,” and I’m heading to grocery store with my hoodie up.

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Jessica’s POV

We are on our way again after she bought ddokboki outside the store.

“did you come down to the store just to buy this?,” I asked as I didn’t see her bringing another stuffs, besides the foods.

She nodded.

“is it alright?,” as she stirring the wheels and took a glance on me.

It’s the same ddokboki, no difference, but it’s taeyeon who bought it for me, she makes a lot effort,

So I nodded while smiling.

“what do you planned for tonight?,” I asked as I feed her some ddokboki.

“you’ll see.”

I nodded again.

I’m willing to wait, she is the one who planned the night, it wouldn’t be anything but marvelous night.

And my phone is ringing again, my mom’s id popped up on screen caller.

“sure, go ahead,” she said before I asked if it’s alright to answer the phone in our date.

“nee omma.”

After a few minutes, she hung up and I turn my phone on silent mode.

“what is it?,” she asked without looking at my side.

“my mom, she told me to eat something before sleep.”

Taeyeon was nodding, with a smile on her face.

“It’s nice,” she said. Still smiling.

“what?”

“talking with your family frequently.”

And it hits me, she never talks about her family often before.

I guess she misses them a lot.

“don’t you call them often too?.”

“I did.” She said.

“you did? Does that means you don’t anymore?.”

She lets out her heavily breathe and shakes her head.

I’m furrowing my brows,

“when was the last time you called them?.”

“last Christmas?,” she sounds unsure with it after some thinking.

And it shocked me, I never live a day without talking with my mom or krystal.

“daddy always trying to reach me but I was so busy and tired when I talk to him on the phone, haeyeon used to talk with me before her bedtime but eventually I couldn’t get their calls and their messages, so I think they gave up.”

“why don’t you call them then?.” I asked, still in my shocking phase.

She just shrugged her shoulder,

The silence is covering us.

“since when?,” I asked, not wanting to keep the quietness any longer.

“since when what?”

“since when you’ve been distancing yourself from your own family?”

She seems a little taken aback with my question, but she answers it anyway.

“I’m not distancing myself from them, it’s just, our work is totally no kidding.”

“you have to make time for them, do you know if what you were doing right now is actually hurting them?.”

My voice is trembling, picturing her family missing her.

It has a broken picture.

And she lets her sigh out.

“I don’t mean it like that.” She said.

This time I let my sigh out and taking her free hand on mine gently.

“I know, but without you noticed it, you were hurting your parents, and yourself, don’t you miss them?”

“I did, I do miss them so much,” and I catch a glimpse of tears on her eyes.

But she always manages it well to not let it fall.

Her hand still in mine.

I give her another gently squeeze.

“call them then, make amends, they will understand, you don’t miss the water until it’s gone, don’t wandering for too long, taeyeon-ah.”

She brings my hand that wrapped on her to her lips.

And the silence occupied us for a long time after her nice gesture.

She seems lost in her mind.

I feel guilty to bring the family topic all of sudden,

But I can’t help but feeling sad for her and her family.

So I let her to get her mind right back to track.

Only her playlist swaying on the background.

“we are here,” she said as she let my hand go and stopping to the side of a wide field.

I look around when I jump out from my seat and she was going to the back of the car.

We were on a big empty field with sounds of sea wave in a far.

Taeyeon really taking a long time, so I walked on the back of the car, and my jaw dropped.

“tada!.” She has a big smile plastered on her face.

And a bike with basket in front of it, and passenger seat on behind.

There is a picnic basket and a mat.

“are we going to have a picnic?,” I asked as I start to jumping around like a kid.

She just nodded as she placed the picnic basket on its place,

and ride on the bike.

“hop in, baby.”

And I did.

She was paddling through the night in the bike-road.

At first I was holding on to her so tight,

I could feel her laughter vibrating down to my spine.

And then when the air finally hits my face,

I feel so fresh.

After I’m sure we are steady,

I’m starting to unwrapped my hands on taeyeon’s back,

And I’m opening my arms widely.

“you said you want to be free,” taeyeon yelled through the wind.

She actually remembers it, I was saying it when we were on interview.

But I can’t believe she even brought the bike.

“now you are free, and you are with me,” she yelled again.

And without I’m aware, we’re already on the sea shore.

The half-moon was at the topped of it.

We were taking out the mat and picnic basket,

And enjoying our night.

Without talking, just enjoying each other companion.

Moonlight on the sea water reflected to taeyeon’s face.

I find her so beautiful with her hair up, bunny messy.

“you are so beautiful,” I said.

And the blushed creeping on her face.

I let my smile joined us.

We were spending the next hour with our hoodie up,

But even so, we had great time.

We were stargazing, having kimbab and hamburgers picnic, a little toast, and walking on our bare feet through sea water.

I check on my watch, it’s already 11.

How fast time flies by when I’m with her always amazed me.

She gives me sign to ride the bike, because we’re going back.

After the quietness been lingering on us for too long, I broke the silence,

“taenggu..”

And she was answering with a little hums.

“I’m sorry.”

She a little bit tensed.

“about what?”

“about me can’t control my mouth, why did I talk about your family all of sudden.”

I feel upset with myself.

“don’t be sorry,” she said softly, almost like a whisper.

“still, I should be more sensitive about family topic, I couldn’t jump on you to tell you what to do…”

“can we not talk about it?,” she cuts in with her trembling voice.

And right there, I just zipped my mouth right away.

Not wanting to bring down the atmosphere.

We had a great time tonight.

She was paddling for me all the way for god’s sakes.

Doesn’t mean I don’t offer to paddle on our way back.

I did, but she turn it down.

After some time for bickering, she finally sits on driver seat.

So I don’t push her about the last topic before it went down.

When our way to my home, she still doesn’t say anything.

After another silence, I manage to opened my mouth,

 “I had a great night,” I said to warm up the atmosphere.

And she’s finally smiling.

“I had a great night too.”

“thank you for the food, the ride, and your effort, I really appreciate it.”

“pleasure is all mine, princess.”

I want to say if I’m sorry again, but it will bring the moods down, so I canceled the mission.

She has a big smile on her face.

So do I.

I don’t want to ruined it again,

hearing her trembling voice is enough to bring my own tears ready to fall.

When we finally arrived at my apartment,

I turn my face to look at her fully.

She reacted with turn her face to look at me.

I circling my hands around her neck,

Bringing our head closer,

and bruising our lips slowly and softly.

With closing our eyes.

Enjoying the moment before we pull apart.

“I love you taeyeon-ah..”

I said without missing a beat.

And without waiting for another second,

Taeyeon brings our lips together again,

While whispering I love you back

“is it that nice to let your family taking care of you?,” she asked with her low voice.

resting our forehead together.

I look at her with my concern face and answered it gently,

“it is. It’s the nicest things you could ask for.”

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Taeyeon’s POV

Sooyeon’s word keep spinning in my head.

“you don’t miss the water until it’s gone, don’t wandering for too long, taeyeon-ah.”

It’s 2 am and I’m still awake.

Holding my phone, watching the contact ID.

I’ve been watching it for over an hour.

It’s written as “Appa” on it.

I just stare at it again, letting my mind caught up on me.

I haven’t really talk to him since long time ago.

I forget how much we spend on our phone bills years ago.

Talking and laughing.

Daddy always has his way to comforted me.

But since I was conflicted with myself and work,

I was shutting everyone out. Including my family.

The only things that remains is my relationship with my brother. Even before, I rarely talked with my oppa. But he always sends me a message when it was my birthday or Christmas time. And I do that to him too.

It was around our 1^st Japanese album that I feel everything was falling apart.

We were so busy focusing on our tour and Japanese debut.

It was 3 years ago for god’s sake.

Haeyeon always talking about her days, when she was having trouble with some kids who pick on her, and I would tell her to brush it off because small people always picking on the bigger person, because her friend think if she is greater star among of them all.

It’s making me sad when I didn’t have time to reply her message while she was saying if she had perfect marks on her math subject, my least favorites subject. She knew I at it, well, everybody knows. But I didn’t take my time to compliment her, or even just to say good job.

But she didn’t stop, she keeps texting me and calling me to meet up with her and having ice cream together. I told her if I was really busy and she stops calling after that.

I feel on the verge of crying right now.

Actually I was always planning to call them, but I don’t have the courage. I’m afraid if my explanations wouldn’t be good enough.

I let out my shaky breath.

I recall the moments when dad always calling me when I was off to schedule and I was always the one to called when my schedule ended. He was always the one who asked me about my day, if I get enough eat and sleep, and about boys. As awkward as it is, I never talk about guy with him. And It was the time when I realizing if I have a really big crush on jung sooyeon. And it gets tougher when a man was trying to drag me off stage. Dad was really worried, some goes to mom. I had enough of her worried tone, so I told them to leave me alone because I’m doing great. They didn’t do it at first try, but after I missed a few call, they gave up too.

Mom doesn’t as chatty as dad, we spoke at the enough amount. She has always the strict one on our family. I couldn’t talk with her as freely as I was with dad. She didn’t quite agree about me being in music business but she gave up eventually because I show her my hard work, especially on our debut. She just embraced me with her open arms and tell me if I did a great job. She always has a soft side. People could tell. But sometimes, she might be hard. She keeps everything to herself. My personality is kinda similar with her.

“don’t wandering for too long, taeyeon-ah.”

Sooyeon’s voice echoed again on my head.

My cheeks already wet with my tears. I tapped calling on contact id.

And waiting with my trembling hand and my body is shaking, trying to hold my tears.

After a few beeping, the other line is finally picking up.

“helo..” it’s appa’s voice.

And I just starting to hiccupping within my crying.

“taeyeon?,” dad’s voice turn softer, concern, and worried.

I keep crying.

“taeyeon-ah? What happened? Why are you crying? Are you hurt?”

And I just sniffling, trying to get words out from my lips.

But I can’t. I keep shaking and sniffling.

“who is it? It’s 2 in the morning,” I hear my mom’s talking.

“it’s taeyeon, she is crying.”

I'm crying harder when i hear my dad's saying.

“taeyeon-ah,” this time, my mom’s voice welcoming me.

make amends, they will understand

and I finally can open my mouth,

gasp for some air,

“omma, appa, mianhae…”

And I feel like they understand what I’m saying,

Because I heard my dad saying,

“it’s alright taenggu, we understand, just, don’t do it again, arrasseo? We always here taenggu, we’ve waited this moment for so long.”

And I hear my mom sniffling to the other line.

“arrasseo omma appa, mianhae jjeongmal mianhae..”

And in the morning,

I had a wakeup call from dad.

He was so loud in the morning, talking about some fans sending me gifts.

We talked about my schedule and his business.

We talked like there weren’t the times when we didn’t.

I missed how comfortable it is to talk with dad.

I even get to talk with haeyeon, and tell her if I was sorry.

Thankfully she understood the situation, even if she’s just 12.

I have smile all over my face first things in the morning.

Been a long time since I feel this happy.

Actually I feel happy every time I woke up and knowing jung sooyeon as my girlfriend.

And now, having my family back, it’s even greater.

i wasn't that puzzled. the missing puzzle is getting less and lesser.

After a long talk with mom and dad, they finally hang up,

letting me do my schedule.

my mind goes straight to one person after the phone ended and relieved feelings is washing all over my heart,

I send a message to sooyeon.

And grabed the towel, ready to brace myself for our last practice time.

“thank you, for being the courage when I was the coward, I love you. See you at 15. Xx, TY”