Jessica’s POV

I feel my cheeks being poked side-to-side, when I was in my deep sleep.

I try to brush it off, or even kick it off.

Who actually dares to wake me up, I feel my bones are starting to crack as I moved.

Then the smell of meds and hospital comes to my nose,

And I ended up opening my eyes.

My eyes landed at a tall figure in front of me, gripping an infuse pipe,

I found soojung staring at me while poking my cheeks.

I rubbed my eyes and slapping her hand off from my face,

she looks at me with an eyebrow raised, unimpressed.

I’m trying to find the embrace that keeps me warm last night,

I was uncomfortable sleeping on the couch but then she was there to ease me,

To comfort me, even we don’t have that much free space, our body just pressed so close onto each other,

I remember it if before sleep drifted me off, I remember her arms that wraps around me,

Her vanilla and something sweets scent lingering me all night,

We were laying down together in these small couch, my head was on her chest, I remember listening to her steady heartbeat, as it was my lullaby.

But I had to wake up with an empty space, there isn’t comfort that lingering me since last night,

My eyes are trying to search her sight in the room, corner to corner,

but I find no one but soojung.

The worst things that I could imagine at this rate,

Waking up in the couch, uncomfortable, and I’m missing her touch,

She wasn’t here, Taeyeon is gone.

“unnie, are you fully awake?,” soojung asked while looking at me with her puzzled looks.

“where is taeyeon?,” I ignored her question, and I can hear her sigh escaped from her lips, it isn’t answer that she wanted,

“taeyeon unnie just left, she said if she went home to bring your clothes and food.”

I lift my lower lips in a pout, and just like what I did before, my sister ignores me,

Realized if I’m upset with somebody that out from my sight right now,

I’m trying to stand up from the couch, and stretch a little, letting a big yawn out.

The backache from sleeping uncomfortably came in like a wrecking ball.

“you alright unnie?,” soojung asked me with the same puzzled expression.

I just grab her free hand, the one which haven’t any infuse pipe,

and walk her back to her bed.

Soojung climbs to her bed, she flaps back her hair, not letting any bangs covering her forehead,

“do you feel any better?,” I asked as I puffed the pillow to make her comfortable in her laying position.

She looks up at me with her pout. this girl is in her comfort zone, very comfort that she can’t barely remember if she was fainted last night while she was practicing,

I finally reach a certain point where I’m going to babysit her until the day I die,

“what now?,” I asked while rolling my eyes at her and take the chair besides the bed a little closer to her, for me to sit.

“unnie, I’m sick, can you be a little thoughtful with your little sister, not to mention you only sister who is sick right now?,” and there’s the whining that everyone didn’t know about. Soojung will always be a little kid when she comes to me. I try to look annoyed but I failed, since soojung has my card. She knows if I love her too much to stay mad at her for this long. It doesn’t take long for us to reconcile, it’s either she cries, or I did. But we always make up, give us 30 minutes, and we would forget about what happened 30 minutes ago.

“what do you want, soojung-ah?,” I asked with my loving tones, high-pitched, ready to make everyone curls up their fingers.

“I want to get out from here,” soojung said with her desperate voice, a smile tag along on my face while I caress her face and her hair,

“do you feel any better? If you have some luck, maybe we can get you out from here faster,” I said, still her hair.

She nods exaggeratedly, I smile back in response, with shaking my head a little, this kid is just too adorable to resist,

“do you want me to cut you some fruits?,” I asked as I turned around, grabbed grapes and apples that taeyeon brought last night.

“sure, since you already grabbed it, and peel it a little,” soojung said with her cheeky grin.

I stand from my seat and walking to  bathroom, cleaning the fruits,

I handed her the washed grapes and starting to peel the apple,

“unnie,” soojung said in the midst our comfortable silence,

“hmm,” I said, not taking my eyes off from the knife in my hand,

“sooo what did you get from taeyeon unnie?,” she asked while chewing her grapes,

She knows if I was having a little mental breakdown to find present for taeyeon,

Since taeyeon already has everything, like literally everything, she can buy everything,

And I don’t want to give her that money can buy,

But at the end of the day, I have no idea what to give her, I was practically begging soojung to help me out. Actually if I want to ask, I should ask fany and sunny, but I have this pride to hold on, like, I’m taeyeon’s girlfriend, I can’t let people think if I don’t deserve taeyeon because I don’t know what to give her on her birthday. Even if fany and sunny aren’t people. Well, of course they are people, but what I meant is, they are our members. Taeyeon’s best friend. How can I put it in words? Umm..I want to impress them, even myself. But I meet with dead end.

“what’s in your mind, unnie?,” soojung asked that night, a week before today.

“I don’t know,” I said as I’m whining and screaming on my pillow.

Then soojung tapped my back,

“what is taeyeon unnie likes?,”

I gave my answer right away,

“she likes sincerity,” and she flick my forehead,

“yah! Who dare you to flick my forehead,” and who said payback is a , is true. I throw a pillow at her face, with remote as a bonus since I didn’t know if there was a remote on top of that pillow.

“that hurts!,” she said as she rubs her forehead, it wasn’t that hurt since I didn’t throw it that hard,

“cut it off, it wasn’t that hard, now help me out here, kid,” and I raised my voice. Not exactly raised, I’m whining.

“what I mean is, what is taeyeon unnie into? Does she like Fashion? Art?,” she corrected her question carefully,

“she likes car, she likes to paint, she likes to sing, she likes to liked photos on instagram, she likes Disney movies, oh yes she likes Disney movie so much, oh my god, do I have to buy her paramount? or maybe build her a castle?” and soojung palmed her face,

“unnie, let’s think this thoroughly, she likes photograph, she likes art, what do you think now?, do you have something crossed your mind?,” soojung asked while gripping my arms, trying to pull myself together,

And just like that, there is something in my mind, as a thank you, I kissed soojung all over her face, which she wasn’t appreciated but I don’t care, at this very moment I love her so much.

Back to present,

“you still haven’t give it to her yet?,” she asked with an eyebrow raised,

“well thanks to some people who forget about her meds and collapse while dancing for hours,” I answered with double eyes roll. Soojung just give her I-am-sorry-it-won’t-happen-again smile.

“I get something that she will like, maybe she will shed a tear a little,” I added proudly,

“you are so confident, unnie, do you really think she would like it?,” soojung asked with her mocking tones,

“DON’T MAKE ME NERVOUS THAN I ALREADY DID, I TRIED TO BRUSH THIS FEELINGS OFF SINCE I MADE THE PRESENT, I DON’T WANT TO SCREW THIS UP,”

“sorry unnie, my bad, I don’t know what it is but I’m sure she will like it, since you MADE it by yourself,” she said while patting my shoulder, she bolds her voice on the made word.

And that makes me smile widely, even the nervousness still lingering in my stomach.

“but 2 days ago, members were asking about what she wants for her upcoming birthday,” i said as I feed soojung the apple,

“and?,”

“I don’t know what she meant, she said if she wants to feel the greatest feeling with her love ones, she wants to explore every first thing with that person,” I said while closing my eyes tightly, try to remember what she said.

And soojung choked on her apple, who would actually choking while eating apple?

“here,” I handed a glass water for her, she drinks it a little, then she opens again,

“what do you think when she said that?.”

“I don’t think, I can’t think anything when she said that.”

“seriously unnie? She said she WANTS to explore every first thing with that person, don’t you see where she was going?.”

What? Did I miss a point here?

“I don’t understand, I thought she was having a daydream where she rides an unicorn with her loved ones, I don’t know soojung-ah,” I whined, still have a puzzled face,

Soojung placed her glass on her night stand,

“currently, her loved ones is you, unnie, perhaps she meant it’s you until long time later, until god knows when, and she wants to explore every first thing with you,” soojung said while holding both of my hands,

And it finally occurred to me, if taeyeon sends implicit meaning in her wish, and I can feel a smile hanging on my face, the puzzle face turn in to a big goofy smile and eyes,

The warm fuzzy feelings on my stomach growing bigger every time I think about her love to me, which is real, very real.

“that’s sweet,” I said, still smiling from ear to ear.

“but members were screaming on her face and telling her if she has a byuntae mind when she said it,” I added, a thinking looks back on my face.

And soojung takes her deep breath,

“unnie,” she asked for my fully attention, and I give it as we lock our eyes,

“what soojung-ah?.”

“of course your member would scream on her face when she said that.”

“why?”

“she said if she wants to explore every first thing with her loved ones, which is you.”

“and?,” I don’t know where she was going with this,

“unnie, sometimes your innocent caught everyone on guard,”

“tell me quickly,” I demand.

“the very first thing is including,” she said as she exhaled,

She paused. After a deep breath, she continues, my eyes still focus only at her,

“to make love to you.”

“WHAT?!”

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Taeyeon’s POV

I’m coughing all the way to our dorm, why do I have these feelings if some people were talking about me. when my cough finally died down, my phone rang. A smile graced on my face since it’s about time my girlfriend wakes up and call me. but my smile fade when I saw the caller id, it’s company,

“hello.”

“taeyeon-ssi, come here in 15 minutes,” the other side’s voice echoed in my head, it’s Sunday and there’s no holiday.

“alright,” I said before I hung up.

I check my back and side mirror, looking for an U-turn. When I arrived at the building, I send a text to my girlfriend,

Babe I’m on company right now, maybe I’m going to be a little late to bring us breakfast, do you mind? I hope this won’t take too long, talk to you later, love you.

As I take a deep breath, I knock on CEO’s door.

“come in,” a low but sharp tones being heard from the other side of the door, I opened it and it revealed the chairman, Kim YoungMin. His confident showed up from his sit. I can see he ups with no good. He stands up from her seat and offered the couch, I can see his mouthing the words “we need to discus.” And sitting at the single couch, and I sit on big lounge.

“I heard about your third winning last night, congratulation,” he said with his foxy smile. Cut the crap, this is not him, but I want to play it nice for now.

“thank you, it was because the hard working members and fans,” I said after bowing. And he bows back, just a little, maybe 27 degree. just like sooyeon said when she was on radio star. Man, that was a funny one.

“why are you smiling? Do you know what we are going to talk about?,” he asked, still with a smile on his face.

“uhm nothing, just remembering my girlfriend,” I answered, I make the girlfriend sound bolder than I intend too. It gets his eyes perked, he shoots me his you-don’t-know-what-are-you-going-to-deal-with looks.

“ah about your girlfriend, how was she? Still together?,” and that was his sharp tone that we adapted for a long time, he doesn’t sound so amused,

“of course, I’m planning to keep her forever,” I said, not stuttering, not wavering. A smile back on my face when I saw him flinched a little.

“well, I’m about to change your plan,” he said with his smile as he gets up and walking to his desk. He comes back with a folder files on his hand. When he sat down, he gives the folder to me.

“take a look,” he said. And I did, I open the folder and it reveals the contract with SONY BGM record, and the letter was written with “Solo Contract.” And I find the headache come to me strong. I didn’t expect this.

“I know if you had your birthday yesterday, and for your present, I’m trying so hard to get this fix, so I give you that,” he said. I only heard his voice, my eyes glued with the papers. I’m trying to read every word of the contract and there is a paper which is signed from our company and there is a little space to place mine.

“you know, I know how much you love singing, and take this just like an opportunity, you will grow bigger with this opportunity, you will become a solo singer that boomed k-pop or even international music, I can tell, a lot of people are going to love you when you take this big step, you are moving forward, it will be great advantage to our company too,” he finished his words with a smirk.

And I can sense something is up,

“but?,” I said.

“how can you know if there was a “but” ?” he asked while smirking.

“because I know you, Sir,” I said with my greeted teeth.

“oh, you do? Then you have to know what is the but then,” he said.

“I have to leave my girlfriend,” I said under my breath, it sounds like muttered.

He was leaning back a little on his seat, he nods and his smirks is still there,

“it’s not like I’m against your relationship, it’s just in this industry, even if we covered it up nicely, it will blow up, we can’t have girl on girl relationship, or you will get doomed, so what do you say?.”

The curse word is on the tip of my tongue,

“you never liked us since we were trainee,” I said as I look down,

“of course not, I like you since you guys this little,” he said while indexing his palm on his shoulder, it gets my attention,

“you just like us because we just like your money machine, we were working our off since we were trainee, the only thing we deserve since the pain and hard work by then is our happiness, and my happiness since that day is HER, it’s always been HER, and knowing this company, it won’t work well in our relationship but it doesn’t matter, since all that matter is her, us,”

I’m trying so hard to control my emotion, I can’t let out my anger here now, or I’ll just make it worse,

“Taeyeon-ssi, you don’t know what are you talking about. You’re going to throw away this big chance, this is your dream, look at this on the big picture.”

“the only dream that will I take a look on the big picture, is spending the rest of my life with her,” I said as I stand up from my seat. “It’s a No, Sir,” I said before I bowed to him and walk away from him. I can feel he was holding his anger. If I didn’t know any better, he will hits the wall or flipped the table.

“I thought you are a smart kid,” his voice stopped where I’m going, my hand on doorknob,

“but you aren’t smart enough to let a girl tore your dreams away.”

And just like that, I walked out from the room and close the door. I let out the big exhale that I’ve been holding all the time from my lips.

The only thing in my mind right now is to calm myself down and don’t let his word get me. for thousands time I will choose jung sooyeon over those things. The crown and fame doesn’t mean anything when I have no one to share with.

I checked my phone while I’m trying to get in the car. There is a missed call and an unread message. All of them is from sooyeon.

I don’t like it when you leave without saying goodbye, bring something delicious and I’ll forgive you. I love you too, Xx. SY

I don’t need a second glance to reply her message as I’m driving fast to our dorm. sooyeon’s face keeps appearing in my mind. Her gentle smile, her sweet low voice, her tender touch, her panting breath while we kissed. I’m going to see her, I need to see her soon.

As I open our dorm room, there is sunny who was playing with her Nintendo on living room. I’m still on state where I’m going to burn the company’s building down. I didn’t even reply sunny’s friendly greeting as I going in to sooyeon’s room. After taking a pair clothes and shoe, and for a second of my life I didn’t let my byun mind thinking of anything weird while I put her underwear on the bag. When I think I already gathered all her needs, I walk out from her room with a big bag and put it out living room. Sunny still immersed with her games.

“how is soojung doing?,” sunny asked without glancing from her games.

“she is great,” I said in a quick phrase and a little bit cold. I’m preparing a tuna sandwich for me and sooyeon. When I was about to open the refrigerator, a hand suddenly stopped what I was doing. Sunny has her hand on refrigerator’s door,

“what’s up with that attitude?,” she asked with her questioned looks,

 “nothing’s up,” I said as I try to remove her hand, but she is gripping my hand, harder than it seems, makes me hurt a little.

“taeyeon,” her voice turns sharp and cold. She tries to look at me in the eyes, but I looked away, then she finds her way to lock our eyes, this time, her looks turn softer, her voice become tender,

“taeyeon, please tell me what’s wrong? Did something happened?.”

We have a staring contest for a little until I blink first, it’s a sign if I have to surrender because lee soonkyu won the battle. A sigh escaped from my lips,

“I just come back from company,” I said as I walk to our living room and sit on longue. She follows me after take two glasses of cold water with her and she placed it on our living room desk.

“that’s something bad because…” she trailed, waiting for me to answer,

“that kim freaking youngmin offers me to do a solo album,”

“YAY,” sunny cuts in with her bright looks,

“if only I broke up with sooyeon,” I finished my sentence.

“WHAT? IT’S NOT FAIR but we’re talking about kim youngmin here, of course it doesn’t make any sense and it is not fair.”

And I’m nodding along with her words.

“so what did you say?,” there’s a hint of worried on her question, but I answered it right away,

“of course I said no, lee soonkyu, what did you expect?.”

And a satisfy sigh escaped from her lips,

“I know it’s a hard choice.”

“it wasn’t that hard, sunkyu-yah,” I cut in. “I actually don’t want to do a solo album or simply being a solo, not until we are, nine of us, together conquer the Korean music, I have so much faith in our group, we are going to make it together.”

A glass water is offered by sunny, she already gulped her water down while I was starting to talk. When I finally relaxed, sunny sounds her words,

“so you’re not going to take the chance.”

“he doesn’t give me the chance, he was practically telling me to leave sooyeon, he just wants us to break up.”

She nods. After a few second, I’m starting to glance at the clock, I’m already away for an hour, I bet sooyeon is hungry right now. I’m standing up from my seat and starting to continue to make sandwiches again.

“are you going to tell her?,” sunny asked, she was following me to the kitchen.

I pour the vinegar with tuna meats, and mixed it together,

“I guess she doesn’t need to know or she’ll flipped,” I said as I try to taste the meat. I take the bread and starting to make a sandwich after confirming if the taste is decent.

“but I still think you should tell her,” she said as she eats the sandwich that I just put on the plate. I glare at her, but she wasn’t going to back down.

“I just don’t want her to overthinking about this issue, soonkyu-yah.”

She doesn’t respond. She is happily chewing her sandwich

do I have to tell her? It isn’t like it’s her business. I can’t drag her into this. I’m doing the right thing. I am trying to do the right thing. This is the right thing, right?

after putting all the sandwiches in the box, I give sunny a short hug and bade a goodbye. I’m driving to hospital again, with fresh clothes, after taking a fast shower. Daft punk’s Lucky keeps replying inside my car, it’s sooyeon’s playlist on my disk. She left it that night when we were on our way to the beach. I never liked this kind of music, but the day I decide sooyeon stepped in to my life, I let the new music pour in me. when we were on the car, when I’m the driver, when this song is ON, she was like all hippie and dancing non-stop. She jams to the song. The thought of her dancing draws a small smile on my face, put me on ease. I hope I don’t have to deal anything with what just happened before again, it wasn’t even a choice. It’s always her, big time.

I walk to hall that leads to soojung’s room, when I take a look from a small glass on her door, it showed my girlfriend was talking with soojung’s doctor. I knock a little harder and turn the doorknob.

“thank you, doctor,” sooyeon said with bowing her body. And I copy her as the doctor passed me.

“where have you been, I’ve missed you,” sooyeon suddenly on my side, taking the bag and lunch box from my hands.

“you’ve been away for 90 minutes and my unnie is already driving me crazy with her talking about you,” soojung said. And I just giggle, so they were talking about me, no wonder I was coughing all the way without reasons.

“I hope nothing’s bad,” I said. And soojung is grinning,

“oh yeah, she was talking about the first…ouch! Unnie! That hurts! What’s that from?,” soojung makes me flinched while she yells in pain. I think my girlfriend is pinching her on her belly. I find this amusing. What were they talking about when I’m gone, give me a cheeky grin on my face.

“nothing’s bad,” sooyeon said while circling her hands on my neck, I put my hand on her hips,

“I hope so,” I said as I pecked her lips and moving to the desk, setting our lunch box out. While I’m setting the food, sooyeon is in the bathroom, and soojung is reading a magazine.

“so, when do you think you’ll be back at home?,” I asked while putting the sandwich on plate,

“doctor said this noon,” soojung answer shortly. And I nod.

I put my tablet on the desk, facing the couch. I play Frozen movie on the screen as I’m waiting sooyeon to finished her shower time.

“do you want us to drive you home?,” I asked again, throwing a glance at soojung, who was still immersed with her magazine.

“nope, you have schedule today, right?.” Oh right, sooyeon told her, of course.

 “it’s about time you quit to watch that movie,” my girlfriend’s voice suddenly echoed in the room, she walks to where I watch the movie.

“what? It’s a nice movie,” I defend. And she giggles.

“you are a kid.”

“I’m not!.”

“you are.”

“not.”

“are.”

And the next thing I know, sooyeon is watching the movie while eating the sandwich. Soojung was falling asleep the minutes we stopped argued.

“we have schedule in 2 hours,” I said as I checked my watch,

“that’ll do,” she said as she snuggles a little closer to me while she watches the movie. My hand naturally move to wraps her. Then the movie is playing Love Is An Open Door. Then without we realize, we were singing and dancing together all of sudden.

“I mean it’s crazy,” I started to sing

“what?” this time her replies,

“we finish each other’s,” I stand up from my seat and give her my hand,

“sandwiches,” she sang happily  while pointing to our empty box lunch,

“that’s what I’m going to say!,” I sing while looking at her excitingly,

“I never met someone.” She takes my hand,

 “who thinks so much like me.” we face each other,

”jinx! jinx again.” And stumping our foot together,

“our mental synchronization,” and we start to dancing around the room.

“Can have but one explanation, You and I were just meant to be.” We happily sang our part, our step are getting better as we sang through the song,

“Say goodbye,” she sang as she open her arms freely and closer her eyes, dancing and walking around the room,

“say goodbye,” I joined her.

“To the pain of the past.” She sang  as she take my one free hand,

“We don’t have to feel it anymore,” I sing as I intertwined our finger,

“Love is an open door.” We are spinning around, while locking our fingers, closing our eyes,

“Love is an open door.” She hits her high pitch perfectly well.

“Door.”

“Life can be so much more,” this time she opens her eyes.

“With you,” I sang while locking our eyes, grabbing her other hand,

“With you,” she takes a little step closer as she sang.

“With you,” I’m taking a step closer too.

“With you,” there isn’t any other step left,

“Love is an open door,” we finished with me capturing her lips while our eyes close and my palm touching and covering her neck, brought her head and lips to mine,

“DOOR…” the music still playing in the background as the movie is still playing,

And there’s a clearing throat voice, I don’t remember any part where there was a man who was clearing his throat in the movie. I look up and find, a man and woman that I knew well enough, an awkward atmosphere was surrounding us.

“sooyeon-ah,” the woman called while smiling at me, the my girlfriend is turning around and I can feel her feeling awkward because her face blushed harder and redder than ever,

“MOM! DAD! I MISS YOU!,” that’s right buddies, they are jung sooyeon and jung soojung’s parents. While sooyeon throws herself to her mom’s embrace, I’m awkwardly standing in the room, trying to ignore the fact that sooyeon’s dad looking at me deeply I can feel a hole burn on my head.

“so this is your girlfriend,” her father said after a moment.

Her mom finally broke off the hug and letting sooyeon rescues me,

“yes, dad, this is my girlfriend, kim taeyeon,” she said proudly while locking our fingers.

And I’m a statue. I can’t move my body. I can’t move my lips. I’m still alive but I’m barely breathing. All that I need is a pinch on my back, of course it’s from sooyeon, not her dad.

“he..hello Mr and Mrs jung, I’m kim taeyeon, nice to meet you,” I said while bowing,

“oh dear, why so formal, of course we remember you,” Mrs. Jung said as she embraces me into her hug. And I find this hug awkwardly normal,

“you are the famous kim taeyeon, sooyeon talks a lot about you lately, not to mention if she talks a lot about you before you guys are together,” she added.

“MOM!,” and that was my girlfriend whined.

And I’m still freeze on my spot, because I think sooyeon’s dad sends me her thousand watt death glare to me right now,

“honey, you remember her,” Mrs. Jung said as she nudge her husband,

“oh sure, is she our soon-to-be-daughter-in-law? The one that taking care of our daughters,” and there is the smile that I’ve been wanting to see, Mr Jung’s smile is charming as his daughter’s. I finally can feel my feet again now.

“mom, dad, stop mocking at us, we are happily together now! And yes she is taking care of us, and what’s up with that soon-to-be-daughter-in-law? You are the one who want me to not get married too soon, dad!.”

“be nice to us won’t ya little ones, we are here because you can’t take your sister home, you have schedule right? You should be nice with us then,” Mrs. Jung said.

“why would I since she is your daughter too,” sooyeon is pointing at soojung who rubbed her eyes, she just woke up because our high tones.

“ah right, hello baby girl, how are you,” Mrs. Jung said as she walks to her youngest daughter and sooyeon follows her. She left me alone with her dad. I repeat again, she left me alone with her dad,

Mr jung looks at me with his smile on his face, he looks at me from head to toe,

“well, the famous kim taeyeon, who succeeded to stole my little girl’s love.”

He said that like matter of fact, he nods while he was talking, and I awkwardly smile back, not wanting to seem cold and nervous at the same time,

“let’s have dinner, later, you and sooyeon set the time, we’ll be here on Korean until next week.”

Oh God, that would be fun.

 

a/n: Hi! I'm back, sorry for the long wait, I'm so busy preparing for my final project, i can barely breathing from this tight and depressing schedule. I already have something for next chapter, with the dinner and "a little something", long to short, I'd like to thank you guys who keeps reviewing and commenting this story, it gives me strength to continue this story. I hope you guys like this chapter. please reviews, up votes, subscribes if you like this story, whatever you want guys, that would be my great doping to finish the next chapter. thanks!

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