a/n: sorry for the long wait, college life gotten in the way :( off the record, today is seohyun's birthday. mine is exactly the next day, at june 29th kekeke so this is my presents for you guys. please leave your review, up-votes, subscribes, whatever you feel like. i'm trying to ignore whatever happened lately in our fandom, let's be happy together, shall we?

thank you, and enjoy

- M

Chapter 15

Taeyeon’s POV

I put my arms under my head, to support me,

to get a better look at her perfection.

This time, I’m waking up earlier than her.

And a few good minutes won’t do good to study her gorgeous face,

because I’ll never get enough of her.

Her flawless jawline that tempted to be caressed,

Her small lips that asking for kisses,

Her smooth skins that wanted to be traced,

Her sharp nose, Her cheekbones,

Her silky hair that makes me really wants to it all the time,

I just really love her locks.

I love all those little things about her.

I’ll never get enough of jung sooyeon in my life.

I’ll never get tired of her.

Maybe if someone found out, they would tell me if I was a creep,

but who cares, I’m staring at my girlfriend,

whom everyone finds very attractive,

and not to mention, have the nicest body,

so technically I’m not breaking up the rules.

Honestly, I always find her appealing since I landed my eyes on her,

She was taller than me already that time,

Her sweet small voice brings my sanity back,

If world isn’t always a bitter place.

A smile graced upon my lips as I remember our first met.

She was all shy, and I was like be creeping.

Then it becomes a habit, watching her from distance,

And finally, loving her at silence.

Hence, now, I pay back all those times,

Where I couldn’t even look at her, afraid if the feelings grow bigger,

even when I hear her voice, I feel stings in my heart,

Loving her is easy,

but accepting and let the love grow are another things.

and now, I can freely loving her in my own way.

I’m looking at the person who stole my heart at the very first glance,

She has her arms under her head too, and she is crouching herself,

Her head is facing down.

I tuck her loosen hair behind her ears,

And my smile just automatically went bigger.

I’m smiling like crazy, it’s like, it just finally hits me if she is not only friends or member,

She is my girlfriend,

It’s only me, who can her hair easily,

It’s only me, who can kissed her lips,

It’s only me, who can claimed her as my girlfriend,

Because she is only mine.

“omo look at them,”

That brings my attention to the voice’s source, and there are sooyoung and sunny who were watching us, sooyoung has her hand folded on her chest, and sunny was leaning her head on sooyoung’s shoulder, my smile suddenly make a hiatus,

“aish, seriously, yesterday it was Jessica who was watching you sleep, and now, you are the creep ones?.”

Sunny’s voice makes me take a glance at sooyeon’s face and back at them again,

sunny was looking at me with her incredulous looks,

“yah, how dare you to interrupt my precious time first thing in the morning,” I said with a frown,

“what are you thinking about until you were grinning like maniac?,” sooyoung asked, still folding her hand,

I’m a little startled, how much did they saw,

“as expected, byuntaeyeon,” sunny added,

“how long are you staring at us?,” I asked, still have frown on my face,

“when you were starting to smile all of sudden, like you have a mental illness,” sooyoung said.

And that smile make a comeback to my face, recalling the moment I tuck sooyeon’s hair, the smile is hanging from ear to ear,

“who are you? What are you doing to our taeyeon?,” sunny asked while frowning too, now she lifted her head up from sooyoung’s shoulder,

It’s actually not a big deal showing affection to my girlfriend in front of members,

But now, I feel like we are on showcase and we are the stars,

Or maybe it wasn’t a showcase, it’s a circus.

And we are the animals. We are being watched.

“what are you guys doing?,” and tiffany’s voice is echoed from living room, growing louder as she is now standing behind sunny, at my room door,

“taeyeon is watching sica sleeping,” sooyoung said,

And tiffany makes an “aw” ing voice,

“aren’t you guys cute?,” she has her eyes smile, and I feel a need to pay her smile back, since she takes side with me,

Sooyoung and sunny are giving her looks that they just gave me before, with their eyebrows scrunching,

“it’s creepy,” sunny said.

“don’t you think so?,” sooyoung added.

Tiffany shakes her head a little, smile still appearing in her face,

“nah, it’s love, it’s nice,” and she is out from the room,

“taeyeon, wake Jessica up,” tiffany’s voice being heard again as she walks to wake up another members, “and you guys, bath, shower, now.”

And just like that, sooyoung and sunny break their brigade.

I bring my eyes back to sooyeon who is still sleeping soundly, it’s amaze me sometime how deep her sleep is until she doesn’t hear anything including us bickering just now,

“baby,” I poke her cheeks from side to side with my index finger, she didn’t even bulge,

And I’m starting to nudge her a little, “baby, wake up, time to rise and shine.”

And she is starting to wake up from her deep slumber sleep,

When her one eye slightly open, it’s like she just registered if she slept in my bed,

Which explains why she wakes up next to me.

Then she manages to give me smile as she greets,

“umm morning,” she said with her sweet hoarse voice,

“morning to you too, sleepyhead,” I said as I close our distance, and take her in my hug.

I want to feel her, as close as possible,

I feel these neediness become worse as I finally have her in my arms,

I’m trying so hard to not kiss her every time I lays my eyes on her lips,

But now, when her body pressed to mine, I feel heaven is on earth.

I feel a whole.

Caressing her jaw, her hair,

I want to shower her with my love, I want her to feel what I feel.

“why are you being like this?,” she said as she tracing her fingers in my waist,

Her voice doesn’t sound like she’s uncomfortable,

She sounds happy actually, her voice suddenly rise at the end sentences,

“because I love you?,” I said as I’m looking at her face, with smile hanging on my face,

“dork,” she said after let her little laugh out,

“don’t you want to say it back?,” I asked with a pout appears on my face,

And her small chuckles make me want to tightening the hug and kissing all over her face,

“say what?,” she asked. She definitely tries to play stupid.

“say,” I peck her lips.

“that,” another peck. My voice turn smaller.

“you,” another kisses. My voice getting smaller and smaller.

“love,” kiss. And it’s almost sounds like a whisper.

“me,” I stopped my lips a breath away from hers.

And I watch her lips move as she giggles,

And the next second I knew, that lips capturing mine, after saying the words I desperately want to hear,

“I love you too.”

And a smile make another appear on my face,

“you are so bold now,” she said after leave another peck on my lips,

Her smile never leave her face, neither do I,

“they said if people are in love, they become bold,” I said as I smirked.

“who said that?.”

“me, kim taeyeon,” and I steal another kiss before I got up and drag her to move on to our first schedule.

----

“guys can you please move your before I ends you all,”

Fany’s desperate voice can be heard until lobby,

I’m waiting for members to come down and move to our fan sign,

But then,

Fany is being fany, and members being their self,

We should be on our way 5 minutes ago but the girls decide to play prank on fany,

“we don’t want to,” soo said with her annoying child voice,

“give us food then we’ll go,” yoona added.

And the next thing I know, I was being dragged by fany to come inside the building again, the waiting room,

“you should help me,” so I did.

I bring most of the members, dragging them with promises to buy a good food later,

And when I was about to drag my girlfriend, she was being a cute ,

“give me food first,” she said as she laying on the couch, with a lot of people eyes around us,

And I shake my head, her pouts went bigger,

“give me a kiss then,”

when I was about to land my lips on her cheek, a hand grip my arm and pull me away from her,

“what are you doing? Are you losing your mind?,” cookie oppa looking at me then at sooyeon with his frown,

Fany who was still around the room suddenly come to sooyeon and acted fast, she kissed her cheekbones,

“there, you have your kiss, now move,” fany said as she pull sooyeon up from her laying position,

I was stoned.

I was too dumbfounded with my own action, I almost kiss her in front of public eyes,

I didn’t even feel a hand intertwining with mine inside my jacket pocket,

I didn’t even know if I’m walking to our van,

“I’m sorry, I almost cause another trouble,” sooyeon’s whisper registered in my dumbfounded state, her thumbs caressing the back of my hand,

Her voice sounds sorry, I try to smile and tightening the hold,

“it’s alright,” I said as I send a smile for her,

“I’m being stupid,” and I didn’t missed her lower self-talk,

“yes you are,” I said while grinning, and she gets what I mean, she playfully slaps my back,

“not stupid as me, though,” I said as I let her hand go and take mine out, to put it around her shoulder,

Fany is walking on sooyeon’s right side, whispering, loud enough for me to listen too,

“it’s fine, jessie, it’s love,” she said as she shows us her eyes smile,

“I’m sorry?,” sooyeon didn’t seem to catch the phrase,

So fany take a deep breath and repeat what she was saying again,

“it’s fine because it’s love.”

And fany grins like maniac, this time sooyeon seems get the meaning as she was nodding her head. I’m smiling too, even if I was aware if some managers are watching our closeness. But it’s fine, there is fany too.

“what is it with you and ‘it’s fine it’s love’, you’ve been saying it all day long,” I said, try to break the silence.

“she said that before?,” sooyeon is looking at me with her puzzle face, I just nod a little and contain myself before I do something about her puzzle looks,

“what’s wrong with that saying? It’s true and I like it, and it’s nice,” fany defends.

“keep it up,” I said as I’m trying to help sooyeon with holding her hand while she pulls herself up in the van,

“do you want to hear it? So…”

And that’s how fany tries to lighten up the mood, talking about the latest book that she’s been read, talking about how great actually love is. Even if hyo was attacking her by throwing anything that was nearby, fany didn’t stop. I’m sitting right next to sooyeon. She’s leaning her head on my shoulder while listening to fany. Eventually hyo stopped when fany talked about her plans to throw hyo out from the van while they were going in 90 km/hour, because she won’t let me and sooyeon have our little time. She was trying to break our clasped hand, sooyoung who was sitting next to me give hyo support to tickle me, but I’m strong enough to hold the ticklish feeling. But when soo tried to attack sooyeon with her tickling, the dolphin’s cried can be heard. The scream and the punch were being delivered to soo and hyo. Of course not by me, I was busy helping myself out from my half deaf ear.

When we arrive at venue, Members are walking up to their seat, but then sooyeon suddenly sits beside me without care about arrangement seat. She was originally sit next to yoona. I was a little shock when she sits beside me and one of the manager try to have a talk with her. He scolds her but then she is witty enough to give reason why she was sitting there. she was talking nonsense, she said if she didn’t remember about the arrangement seat and what is it for, it’s only the seat place, she won’t do anything stupid, again. The manager can’t win the argument since it’s the time to start the even, so he lets her go this time.

I shoot her my disbelievingly looks as she was winning the argument. She is trying to brush the wrinkle from her blazer, but she caught me looking at her. She sends me her warm smile that reach until her eyes, she grabs my hand fast and hide it below the table, I’m trying to take my hand off since we could get caught again, but she is stubbornly to not let me go. She gives a squeeze on my hand and throws her smile at me. And as like nothing happened, she grabs a pen with her free hand.

When it’s time to start, fans, one by one is walking to our seats while holding a paper. We are sitting at the end of table. She still doesn’t let go even if the fans are 2 seats away from us. I’m starting to tickle her hand but surprisingly she holds her squealing. I’m amused. When a fan finally stopped at her seat, she lets my hand go, and I let out a sigh relieved. But then I feel a little empty, I’m trying to busy my hand, that was being held by her before, with spinning the pen. I heard sooyeon’s small chuckle, but I thought it’s because the fans, but it’s actually about me being a loner even if it wasn’t that long since she wasn’t holding my hand. She looks at me as the fans walking in front of me and give the paper. She gives me her “I-see-what-you-did-there” look. I’m trying not to let my face blushed, as I sign the paper.

“Thank you, unnie.” “You’re welcome, jenn.” I learned her name as she spelled it.

After giving our signature, we are standing from our seat and walking in the front stage. As a leader, I’m giving words to show gratitude to our fans who was waiting for our album patiently. After other members give their word too, we are walking down from the stage. When I was about to walk faster in a spot to take group picture with our fans too, sooyeon comes right behind me and locking our fingers. This time I accept it naturally. Sunny and sooyoung are holding their hands too.  I know if we are being watched but friends can hold their hands, right?

But then sooyeon lets my hand go as she walking to fans that have disability, she was squatting herself down and writing her signature. She looks so angelic from my eyes. Maybe I said that because she is my girlfriend, but even if she’s not, she really looks like an angel.

“tae!, come here, he is your fan!,” suddenly she wakes me from my short daydream. So I move to her side and giving my signature for our fan with squatting down.

Even if it was only a daydream, she keeps make an appear. It’s like, daydreaming about her become a bad habit. Don’t let her know if I said bad habit, because my wanderer minds not only think about the good things when it comes to her. Her beautiful S line and frame make a great feature in my daydream.

When I’m finished with my sign, she already stands with another fans, giving her signature while laughing. I guess that girls are giving her compliment or even joking. I said my gratitude to our disability fans and telling them to take care while they’re going home.

After wrapping up the event, 8 members and me are on our way to our dorm. This time I didn’t sit with my girlfriend. She is busy talking with yoona and yuri.

“you seems happy today,” sunny startled me.

I thought she was sleeping while listening to ipod,

“why? I can’t be happy?,” I asked playfully.

“it’s not like you,” sunny said, turning her body, letting her right body leaning to chair. I decide to play along, so I’m turning my body to face her too.

“but I like this you,” she said as she smiles.

“me too,” I smile.

“stop being cheesy-creamy, won’t you,” and hyo decides to suit herself with our conversation, not to mention, she is sitting in the midst of our small gaps.

“yah, I know we are small but you don’t have to squeeze us to let your sit,” sunny cried.

Small?

“I’m not small,” I said fiercely.

Hyo and sunny are giving a glance at me then to each other.

Hyo tries to open again, “you are the second shortest members here.”

“and you are right next to me!,” sunny added.

“I’m not small!,” I said with a little desperate voice.

“who are you kidding, aish jinjja, kim taeyeon,” and soo decides to chipped in.

“I’m not kidding, I’m not small,” I said as I don’t have another pride left.

And those 3 heads try to convince me and bring my sanity back, like I’m going to accept if I’m small, because I’m not.

But then sooyeon’s voice is being heard from the front side,

“baby, you are small,” she said. I can’t get better look at her since sooyoung is blocked my view from the front side. Her seat.

“no I’m not!,” and now I sound like 5 years old.

“yes you are, that’s one of billions reason why I love you.”

And just like that, I zipped my lips.

Yoona and fany are “aw”ing in sync, like they were in choir.

Hyo was mouthing the word, “whipped.”,

And soo was practically whipped her hand,

And sunny was grinning,

“looks like someone got tamed by sica unnie,” seo said while joining our conversation.

She seats herself in fany’s laps.

“do you ever get mad at her?,” sunny asked out of the blue.

I shake my head, after I put her through, I didn’t have a right to be mad at her,

“she never did, i usually try to make her yell at me, but her voice always steady as ever.”

“actually, once I made her upset but it didn’t go long, she was quickly restrain herself.”

“well I’m impressed you can be upset with sica, what did she do?,” soo asked.

“I make her jealous,” she sounds so happy while answering it. did I hear her pride in her tones?

“not with me, right unnie?,” yoona asked.

“of course not, it’s because jessica’s past were brought up,” fany answered.

And the other 6 heads are “ooohhh” ing together.

When I was about to defend myself, sooyeon suddenly asked question,

“what is taeyeon gonna do when she was angry?.”

“you don’t want to wake up the beast, sica, believe me,” fany said.

“the first thing she did was clearing up her mind,” sunny said.

“what does she did when she was clearing her mind?,” this time, yoona asked.

“guys, stop talking about me like I wasn’t here,” I muttered under my greeted teeth.

“we are not,” hyo said like I didn’t hear what they just said. I puffed my cheeks.

“we are playing 20 questions game, right sica?,” fany asked some moral support.

“right! That was my first question,” and sooyeon opened again.

“why did you take their side?,”and I cried while fake sobbing.

“I’m not taking anyone’s side baby, so, calm down and let me hear the answer, sunny take my place for patting her back,” sooyeon said.

And sunny did as she commanded. I’m trying to dodge the pat but I have nowhere to go. I’m stuck in the corner.

“she was out all day if she was super-duper mad, do you remember when I was fighting with her? She was playing in the park at 2 am,” fany said with her raising tones.

“she did? What are you doing at 2 am in the morning?,” sooyeon asked.

“probably playing catching the ball by herself,” sunny said.

“alright move on to next questions,” I barked.

“so you want to have a little interview now? Alright, we’re in,” sooyoung said as she raised her hand. So what did she do before?

“what do you want for your birthday, taeyeon?,” fany asked.

Everyone is quiet. Waiting for my answer.

I’m carefully thinking about what I want. I want to marry jung sooyeon. But I can’t say that, I’ll probably scaring her or even worse, members would send me to mental hospital since I act like the mental ones.

“so?,” sooyoung said after a while.

I take a deep breath as I say, “I want to feel the greatest feeling with the right ones, actually, I want to feel every first thing together with that person.”

Well, it’s better than saying if I want to marry Jessica jung sooyeon.

I don’t know if I was saying the wrong thing, since sunny slaps my head,

“yah! What are you thinking, byuntaeyeon!, we didn’t need to know about that!.”

And other members too, except jung sooyeon, they fired back my answer.

Fany and seo has their red face, even hyo and yoona did a weird giggle.

Soo and yuri are wiggle her eyebrows, send their teasing looks.

What’s wrong with my answer?

----

“what are you doing?,” sooyeon asked as she close her door room.

I’m laying down at her bed, waiting for her while looking through my phone.

“waiting for my princess, of course,”

I said as I make a space for her to lay down next to me.

So she did.

She catches me liking some pictures from my instagram’s home.

“why are you liking another guy pictures?,” she said while raising an eyebrow.

I gulped down the dry air in my throat,

“well, it’s nice picture, why wouldn’t I?.”

I feel like I was giving the wrong answer since her expression was unreadable,

“so you were waiting for me while looking through another guy pictures?,” I feel like she was repeating the question to make sure I’m answering her question right.

“y..y..yes,” I stuttered.

“let me see,” suddenly she takes my phone away from my hand, and she’s going through my liked pictures.

She was quiet for a few moment, then she gives my phone back while smiling,

“don’t give them a false hope, they don’t know if you are mine.” Sooyeon warns.

There’s no upset tone in her voice.

The words mine being said makes my stomach flutter. I put my phones down.

“I know,” I said while nuzzling my nose to her neck.

“I wonder when I will be able to brag of about my girlfriend to the world,” she suddenly said.

The flutter feeling turns to ache.

We are trying to be fine with our little secret, but somehow, we want to be free.

We want to explore our relationship freely.

I thought it’s only me, who has been haunted by the thought,

The thought of living without the fame.

“one day, the day that we’ve been waiting for will finally be here, just wait a little longer,” I said as I traced my fingers along her body line.

“I know,” she said as she closing her eyes and hug me.

“knowing our company and how world will see us, I don’t think it will be anytime soon,” I said, my voice sounds smaller than I wanted.

“I know,” she said again, brushing our nose together.

After a few quiet minutes, I asked,

“what do you want for your birthday?.”

Then she opens her eyes, giggling,

“are we on 20 questions game again?,” she asked.

“well, I haven’t ask you any question yet,” I smirk.

“fair enough,” she said while smiling. She seems like she was thinking, but not for so long, she answered,

“i want 9 of us to have a small trip, vacation, or whatever we called it, anywhere we want, just members and us.”

I make a mental note to make her wish come true.

----

I didn’t know if I was fall asleep in her bed last night, the only thing I know is,

She was waking me up with giving kisses all over my face until I wake up,

Then she sang a little,

“I can’t explain the feeling’s plain to me,

She gave me more, she gave it all to me,

Say you can’t see?

How can I tell you about my loved one?

I…

Love…

You…

I love you….”

Then she takes a deep breath, she sends me her megawatt smile,

“happy birthday, my dearly kim taeyeon,”

I eagerly kiss her, long enough to let her know if I’m being grateful,

Grateful for being serenaded, who doesn’t dreamed that little dream before,

Grateful to saw her, first thing I want to see in my new age.

I pulled out from the kiss and caressing her cheeks,

Looking at her eyes, she does too,

With our goofy smiles,

we are desperately  in love.

But then, we feel a weight of body pressed separating us.

“HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDMA!,” then sunkyu decides to shout from the top of her lungs.

“GRANDMA MY , YOU ARE NOT MUCH YOUNGER THAN ME,” I made it to shout at her back.

Sooyeon was slipping out from sunkyu embraces, I was whining to get her make sunkyu get up from me,

But she mouthed the word sorry and leaves me alone with sunkyu,

After a long struggle, I finally made it out from the room,

“I thought I was sleeping on sooyeon’s room, why do you need to interrupt us again even if we weren’t at the same room with you,” I said while walking to kitchen and grab cereal.

“we are so going to have a party tonight,” hyo’s voice suddenly echoed from the back of the room,

“happy birthday unnie,” yoona and seohyun are giving me a kiss in the cheek as they are walking to the fridge, grab something to eat too.

“happy birthday unnie!,” this time sooyoung acts like she wants to die in my hand. Her cute-but-annoying voice make me want to choke her with my bare hands.

“thank you kids.”

“happy birthday, kid,” yuri said as she ruffled my hair.

“YAH!.”

“happy birthday, uri not-so-kid leader,” fany said as she pinched my cheeks.

When I turn my back, I saw sooyeon has her big smile on her face,

“why are you smiling like that?,” I asked while walking to our living room. With a bow of cereals and glass of water in my hands.

“because we’re going to have a party tonight!,” she said cheerfully. A small chuckle let out from my lips. My dork surely know how to party, that’s why she’s so excited.

“but I don’t have plan to celebrate my new age.”

“HELL TO THE NO, THERE IS NOW WAY WE DON’T HAVE A PARTY,” and hyo is shouting from her room.

“we already make an appointment, even jessica already make you a cake!,” fany said

“make?,” soo doesn’t sound so sure.

“I’m sorry did I say make? I mean make someone else to made it special for taeyeon,” fany added.

Just like that, I’m being drag from our dorm to our stage and back to our dorm at the night, to spend the night of with celebrating my birthday. When the members said about party, they meant, a comfortable dinner and we’ll have hyo dancing in the spot. While being drunk of course.

When I open sooyeon’s door, it revealed if she was combing her hair, letting it fall freely.

My favorite.

But something that makes me in awe, she has her light make up that showed her natural face. And things that makes me weaker on the knees is her short red dress that make her look, I don’t know how to say it, mature? I want to say smoking hot actually, but I’m trying hard to control my mind. The belt that circled on her waist makes her S line bold.

I can totally see my fantasy being real, her fabulous fashion sense combine with her perfect S line.

“happy with what you saw?,” she interrupted my daydreaming again,

I feel my cheeks getting hotter,

“very much,” I muttered as I sit on her bed. She giggles.

“I like what you’re wearing,” she said without giving a glance at me, she is focusing with her hair.

I walk to her back side and taking the comb, giving it a go, to her hair,

“i like yours much better,” I said. I didn’t missed her smile, smiles that show she’s been accomplished her mission.

After a few moments, I finished with her hair. We look each other from mirror in front of us.

“come on guys,” fany said as she walked in to the room, dragging us to a very nice dine.

We are being ourselves, which means loud and louder. The loud side is where they are eating, and the louder side is where they are finished and getting ready for the next food. But in the middle of it, sooyeon’s phone is ringing. She was hesitated to answer it, but I give her a sign to go on. She gives her sorry looks and getting up from her seat. She finds the quieter place to talk, but I have these odd feelings, so I followed her.

“hello.”

After a few moment, sooyeon’s voice suddenly raised.

“that kid, is she alright though? Which hospital?.”

Mentioned about hospital make my ears perked,

“alright, thank you.”

“what’s wrong?,” I asked automatically after she hang up,

“it’s soo jung,” there’s a worried tones in her voice.

“what’s wrong with her?,” I become more tense, did something bad happened?

“she was fainted and now hospitalized because that dumb kid forgot to take her vitamin, her sugar-blood is low.” she said.

“do you want to see her?,” of course she does.

“I can see her later, it’s your birthday silly, don’t worry about anything else.” How wouldn’t I?

But her voice doesn’t convince me, of course she’s worried sick.

“I’ll tell members if we’re leaving.”

Without giving her chance to response, I walk back to our room and talk about soojung’s condition.

“just go, we are fine, do you want us to come along with you?,” soo asked.

“no, it’s fine, you guys just have fun,” I said as I put a coat on sooyeon and put my arms around her shoulder,

“ah, this is my card, dinner is on me,” I added as I give my card to fany,

“I’m sorry guys,” sooyeon said, of course members would understand.

After we’re giving bid our goodbyes,

I’m driving to soojung’s hospital.

Sooyeon is so quiet on our way, she speaks when her phone’s rings. When the call ended, she quiets again. But not too long until I reach her fingers with my free hand,

“I’m sorry I ruined your night,” she said with her low voice.

“don’t say such things, don’t be sorry,” I said as I give my best smile.

When we entered the hospital, she’s rushed to soojung’s room. When she found krystal was laughing watching cartoon while laying down, she yells.

“JUNG SOO JUNG HOW DARE YOU TO LAUGH WHILE I WAS WORRIED SICK KNOWING YOU WERE FAINTED AND BEING HOSPITALIZED,” and soojung has to face hellsica.

And soojung flinched, she grabs me to shield her.

“unnie help me!.”

“WHY WOULD SHE HELP YOU SINCE YOU RUINED HER BIRTHDAY PARTY?,” sooyeon’s tone just went higher and higher.

“ah! Happy birthday unnie! Please save me!,” she said as she hugging my waist.

“baby please we are in hospital, calm your….”

“DON’T BABY ME WHILE YOU WERE DEFENDING HER,” I didn’t even finished my sentences, and I flinched too. I move from my side, even if soojung is grabbing her dear life onto me, I try to take her hand from me since her grasp wasn’t that strong.

“all yours, soojung-ah,” I whispered as I walking out from her reach.

“NOOO UNNIEEE, ANYONE SAVE ME.” she cried.

And sica has her hands to tweaked soojoung’s ear.

“NO ONE WILL SAVE YOU, IF YOU KNEW BETTER, YOU’LL SAVE YOUR OWN BEFORE YOU GET YOURSELF ON HOSPITAL, ARE YOU STILL A CHILD JUNG SOOJUNG, WHY DID YOU MISSED YOUR MEAL? DO I HAVE TO WATCHED YOU ALL THE TIME, WHAT IF ONE DAY…”

And I decide to leave them alone, I better do something as I killed the time. Knowing how upset sooyeon with soojung’s careless, it may take a while. I walk to a café in front of hospital and grab 2 cups of chocolate.

After 20 minutes gone, I’m back with 2 cups of chocolate and snacks. I’m welcomed with sight sooyeon’s hugging soojung in her bed, with their eyes closed. They seem so small at the moment. No matter how upset sooyeon is, I can’t imagine she will stay mad at her dongsaeng.

A smile graced on my face, I put the chocolates and snacks at night stand and take a picture of them. After a moments, sooyeon’s eyes is open. She gets up from the bed, carefully, not wanting to wake soojung up.

“did you bought something?,” she said as she walk passed me and grab my hand, walking me to the couch. She drinks the chocolate that I brought, and I suits myself for sitting next to her. After a gulped, she open her lips again,

“I’m really sorry, taeyeonnie, I don’t mean to ruined your birthday,” she said with her low voice, while cuddling closer to me. Her hands circled on my waist, her head lays on my shoulder, her nose so close with my neck until I can feel her warm breath.

“it’s no big deal, as long as krystal is fine,” I said while her back.

The long comfortable silence covering us up,

It’s 11:03 am,

“expect your gift in the morning, I don’t have it on me right now since something like this happened,” she said, breaking up the silence.

“we can talk about that later, baby,” I said as I kiss her temple.

And there’s the silence again. I guess she can hear my steady heart beat since she’s being so close to me.

“what do you think about our stage performance today?,” she asked.

She is playing her hand with my free hand, the other one is busy her hair and her back. I find the comfort whilst doing it.

“I think it gets better, but yours, when you did your part, I’m trying so hard to gulped my saliva, you are just wow,” I said honestly. She just giggles.

“do you remember the old times? When I was holding your hand for a support while I reach the high tones when we practiced?.”

I’m smiling along with nodding my head. Of course I remember, it was around our debut.

“why did you choose to hold me?.”

Without missing a beat, she answered,

“my confidence is on when you were with me.”

And I manage to give a small laugh,

“it’s not because of me, you are already a great singer, baby,” this time I choose to kiss the top of her head. I smell in her vanilla shampoo. Her favorite scent.

She lifts her head up, trying to lock our eyes,

“you are already a star since beginning,” I said while smiling,

She was looking at me so intensely, I feel all the love in the world are being send by her looks,

Her smile is growing,

and then she captures my lips, I slightly parted my lips, letting her tongue explores my mine.

 “Never let me go,” she said in the middle our heated kiss, without waiting my response, she captured my lips again and deepened the kiss.

Knowing she has the same feeling as me,

is the best presents that I could’ve asked for.

Having her in my arms is things that I won’t take for granted,

Because her love is the best gift I’ve ever had.