baby only if you know...

shh...still dreaming

By the time Jongin’s heart was coated with a thin layer of fluffy winter snow that year, he has already felt like a third wheel in Oh Se Hun’s life.

 

“Holy unicorns! Jongin-hyung! Chanyeollie-hyung dedicated “Baby” to me! Aah~ I’m gonna dieeeee!” Sehun squealed from his spot on Jongin’s queen-sized bed, curled up inside Jongin’s fluffy comforter like a California roll, and the tanned boy cringed. Sehun had been replaying the radio show over and over for two hours, and although Jongin loved Sehun more than he loved chocopies, there comes a time when he would snap.

 

“No you’re not going to die, Sehun. You’re gonna get your diploma and go to college, make enough money to treat me to some samgyeopsal and then you can die however you want.”

 

The winter of Sehun and Jongin’s seventh year together, so many years of sleepless nights staying up to make sense of Hangul, so many days spent on first-grade poems until Sehun got it right, Jongin realized that he was in too deep. Sehun was like a pool of quick sand, slowly drowning him in with every tick of the grandfather clock.

 

“Heol. Jongin-hyung so boring~ Mehrong.” Sehun stuck his tongue out playfully, and all Jongin wanted to do was either cut off that sinful tongue or savour it in his own mouth. His conscience objected to either (and kicked Jongin in the groin).

 

“Stop nagging, Sehuna! Go do your math homework already!”

 

Jongin winced as Sehun’s pout sent another tingle dingle down his lower regions. He didn’t know how their relationship had come to this, this deadlock he couldn’t get himself out of, but Sehun was rolling on his bed and he was paralysed in his chair, reading off hate comments about the younger on this EXO fanpage with half a mind to kill. There was practically no time for ual frustrations over, let Jongin remind himself, a minor with the cute face and the cute eye smile..

 

chanyeol_babyy1127 posted: WTF. who is this bastard. and why is he touching Chanyeollie oppa! and why is Yeollie oppa dedicating a song to him???? Poor oppa!  [+1200, -1]

 

espritchanchan posted: STOP TOUCHING CHAN OPPA GODDAMNIT!!! [+200, -1]

 

chanyeolsdick: bwaaaaa STAY AWAY OR I WILL KILL YOU WITH MY BARE HANDS *SOBS* [+1130, -1]

 

baekyeolgwiyomi posted: Oh no...my baekyeol heart is breaking...Baekhyun’s heart is breaking....Chanyeol STOPPP [+7000, -1]

 

coverboy1127: I ship them. [+0, -1204]

 

(all thumbs down are courtesy of Kim Jongin)

 

Taking in a deep breath, Jongin tried not to smash his keyboards into pieces. Sehun was still giggling over deep voice and idol hair, oblivious to the world  that was basically out for his blood. And then there was Jongin the closet knight who fought the dark forces behind the curtains, waiting and waiting for his princess to recognize him. But the sun would set and the moon would rise, yet the princess was not one to ride with him into eternity.

 

Jongin sighed and let his fingers do the talking: STUF. “Oppa” doesn’t even know you exist. Go home and study if you want to go to college. .

 

Jongin knew the basic mannerisms that a teacher should have, but he was mad angry at those brainless fangirls and nothing could stop him from letting off steam now.

 

Jongin clicked the thumbs up button for this particular post, yet his heart ached even more.

 

coverboy1127: I ship them. [+1, -1204]

 

The more Jongin looked at Sehun, the more painful it was to look away. To make matters worse, his weird of an uncle Jongdae was now braiding Sehun hair, with the younger reading off good-for-nothing articles from an all-star magazine.

 

“Well-known Chinese businessman, owner of the famous Red Candle franchise, opened the 39th branch in the world just yesterday, gaining massive media attention. This time it’s Seoul, and people from all over the country are excited to be one of the first to taste what renowned food critic, Kim Ki Bum, had called “Angel food”.”

 

 

At the young age of 36, Wu Yi Fan-ssi has already been selected as one of the most influential people in the world, heir to a huge corporation and holds in his hand half of the economy in China, Naver reports. From shopping malls to the next big thing in the smartphone industry, Wu Corp has all. It is no doubt that Wu Yi Fan, this young man full of wisdom and charisma, will soon become the multibillionaire of the new generation...

 

 

“Omona! He’s so good-looking! Not as handsome as Chanyeollie, though. Hyung, am I as handsome as him?” Sehun squealed, and Jongin was sure it was one of those flower boys that Sehun had on his wall. Jongin couldn’t put a finger on it. He just couldn’t. What made them so attractive that Sehun liked them so much? What did they have that he didn’t?

 

You’re not handsome, Sehuna. You’re beautiful, Jongin thought, but his throat dared not to voice his mind. Sometimes he even wondered if Park Chan Yeol could appreciate Sehun half as much as Jongin had. If Park Chan Yeol could give everything for the younger half as much as Jongin was willing to. But Jongin was pretty sure Sehun only loved him half as much as he would Park Chan Yeol. Not that Jongin was jealous. No. How could the prodigy slash ingenius Kim Jong In be jealous of a seventeen-something Hallyu star with nothing more than a wink and a bunch of idiotic fangirls behind his back. No. That couldn't be happening.

 

“Of course he’s more handsome! Wasn’t he a model in the past or something?” Jongin huffed before gluing his eyes on the computer screen again. He secretly opened another tab and typed in “Wu Yi Fan” on naver search engine, making sure that he wouldn’t venture into the Image section by mistake. That Chinese smirk was mocking him.

 

“Heol. Jongin so boring.” Sehun pouted. Of all the things he could have done to make Jongin squirm uncomfortably on the inside, he ing pouted.

 

...But but but! Ladies, hands off the Wu because he’s off limits! It seems that he now has two very good looking sons, aged 17 and 15, and boy are they handsome! It’s all in the genes, gals, it’s all in the genes. Not too fazed about his recent divorce, Wu Yi Fan-ssi is working day and night to provide Korean customers with a quality of service hard to refuse. Yes, he participates personally in the process of designing the restaurant, going through the ads and choosing staff. How awesome is that! Keep a look out for job positions at the Red Candle as it would be one hell of a great chance to earn good money and gaze at your favorite entrepreneur...

 

“Oh my god, Jongin-hyung! Look! Look! They’re hiring people!” Sehun beamed like a child having gotten a cotton candy, and Jongin immediately refuted.

 

“Sehun, don’t start the talk again. You know I won’t let you get a job. Ahjussi would kill me!”

 

“Oh come one, Jongin-hyung. Junma wouldn’t be able to kill you with his little hands!” Sehun whined and made those weird hand gestures that Jongin might have found irresistibly cute five years ago.

 

“That’s it. I’m telling Ahjussi that you insulted his hands.” Jongin huffed.

 

“I think you should do it, Sehun!” Uncle Jongdae was obviously not on Jongin’s side. “And can you ask that hottie’s number for me, your favorite uncle?”

 

“Uncle Jongdae! Please!” Jongin glared before throwing a teddy bear at his obnoxious uncle’s head. The latter dodged it easily.

 

“Jongin-hyung, you know Junma is in a lot of debt, right?” When Sehun’s eyes sparkled, Jongin immediately recoiled. “ You guys think you can keep it a secret from me? I know everything! I want to help, too! I can’t just sit around all day long doing nothing but burden others!”

 

“But...Sehun...”

 

“If you don’t let me, I will run away from this house!”

 

And Jongin lost like that. And that was everything he would ever end up, forever lost to the mesmerizing Sehun who got him in a headlock.


 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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“Tsk...tsk...Junmyunnie...Nervous as always, hmm? You haven’t changed. one. bit.”

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o3villem
#1
Chapter 33: This story is like, when you proposed to your crush, and they accepted, but in a dream 😂😂
The only difference is that dream was bitter and reality was sweet.
Ok, but I so wanted Sekai. Like ahhh, I was rooting for them. Or Chanhun also.
And Xiuhan at the end, at that para.
My brain is ed.
It was a nice, mind ing fic man.
Good work, Author nim.
I was remembered of Vanilla Sky movie by this fic.
_Carami_
#2
Chapter 33: Surprised with the ending
_Carami_
#3
Chapter 19: For god sake bro he is your child
_Carami_
#4
Chapter 18: That just freaking lied to both of them :‑X
AshleyChan
#5
Chapter 33: Mind ing blown..

Okay I finished it yesterday night and I'm commenting after finishing all my work of this day.

So idk if you'll read this comment or not but I've to say this fic was really something. This was a ing rollercoaster ride of emotions. And even after finishing this in one day I could not stop thinking about it. Every single that happened here was making my heart beat faster than it ever had. I regret never reading this fic b4 considering I'm a huge KrisHo shipper.

This fic really showed a harsh reality of this world. That not all stories are about rainbows and unicorns. That not all love stories have a happily ever after. Some do have a tragic end like KrisHo's. They decided to let each other go even tho they still had feelings for each other.

Jun's struggles, pain and downfall in this fic was too heart-wrenching. I felt like I was in his shoes, like I'm the one feeling and experiencing this. Sehun's innocence killed me, even after everything that happened to him he was still so innocent. He was still so oblivious to this harsh world. Sehun is just Jun's younger self; naive, stupid, believing in ppl easily, making a lot of mistakes which they have to pay the price terribly. Both Yifan and Luhan are victims of this harsh world just like Jun and Sehun, but the sad thing is that KrisHan blamed everything on HunHo and decided to make them suffer more than they already have. They decided to be monsters and break them beyond repair. Unfortunately they were successful in breaking HunHo leading to the older of them to living a meaningless life and younger to give up on life.

Yixing's comeback here was a bit suspicious to me tbh. As Kris said he had feelings for Jun since they were together. Is it possible that he was also involved in Yuri's plan? Like c'mon it's really weird to know that Yixing was coincidentally there when those guys were trying to execute Jun. And later faking his death and making Yifan as the first suspect. So that Jun will believe that Yifan really is a monster, that he'll do anything to get what he wants, even if it means killing his own cousin or lover in the future. I also feel like Yixing was the one who told Kris's mother that Jun gave birth to HunHan so that she'll take them away from Jun, making him believe more that he was just a playtoy for Yifan, or that he just used him to get an heir. So that Jun will hate Yifan and he will get a chance to win his heart. But these are just my thoughts.

The end tho.. I should've expected the end from the title of this fic, but I didn't and I went ing insane I wanted to scream but for the love of God it was 4 ing am when I reached the end and I couldn't afford to wake my parents. I don't want to die at this young age like Sehun here, thank you very much. Like those 20 yrs of struggles and pain was all just a ing dREaM?!?! Like Yifan was never married? Jun cannot get pregnant?? HunHan never existed in their lives until they met them coincidentally in church? The only funny thing about this is that Guru Chen-nim lmfao he said he gets dream about being a troll xD. And the last line tho... "Shh... stop . Quiet down, the kids are still dreaming.." it was kinda like a last straw for me. I didn't know if I should laugh or cry.

Lemme tell you I believe what Chen-nim said cos it is possible that whatever he saw might be his other self in alternate universe. That whatever happened in his dream might really happened in that universe. And it might also be possible to what Jun said either about it being a small clip of his past life.

And idk which interpretation to choose, cos both are so damn good. The first interpretation about Jun having a tumor and dreaming of living 20 yrs of his life with ups and downs more like downs then waking up and living his life happily with Yifan by his side and coincidentally adopting HunHan, the twins having his own blood in that dream. But being haunted by that dream from time to time. Or the 2nd one where he lost his son and that depression made him unconscious. In that unconscious state, the poor man's depressed mind making delusions about none of this ever happened. That he's living a happy life with his new formed family. I think I want to choose both and since I'm choosing both I don't want poor Jun to wake up. Cos waking up from a nightmare is good but waking up from a beautiful dream to a nightmare of a life is horrible. Idk if he ever wake up from this beautiful dream to this nightmare then how he'll react. I don't think he'll be able to live.

Anyway this long comment here is over. I'm still so affected by this fic I swear I'm not thinking properly. And this is one the best fics I've ever read.
infinitefan7 #6
Chapter 33: bish wtf i read this a long time ago and accidentally reread it today and woooo the rollarcoaster load of emotions and irrational plot twists like some kind of badly-written drama i can't believe you would leave us hanging like that come on
ephemeral24
2412 streak #7
bracing myself to read this again in 2019
Glojuncotton #8
Chapter 25: I think this fic needs a more tags...warnings
lilyurim
#9
Chapter 33: I must not suprised with this story cause the title itself already said 'shh..still dreaming'. BUT AT THE END I STILL SURPRISED ABOUT THIS WHOLE STORY LIKE WTF- ASDFGHJKL
and the part 'whether he wakes up from it later on, it's up to you to decide.' THIS SO FCKING BRILLIANT OMG YOUR REALLY IMPRESS ME;;;;; BEST. MINDBLOWN. FANFIC. I. EVER. READ.
Larrieblue #10
Chapter 33: wtf is all this, I have never been so frustrated over a fic.