It’s cold – Epik High

            Cold is the exact word to describe myself, everything I do, act and feel are only coldness. My harsh personality cuts through the skin like the bitter cold winter. The cold heart I own, never melts; no matter what season has come and go. My aura that emits coldness, makes me unapproachable, instead of an island I am an iceberg. I may be lonely, but at least I am safe, no approach means less danger I bring upon to myself. However, I had been such a hypocrite.

            I pretended not to see the crack on the wall of thick ice. I did nothing to mend the wall of ice when it started to crumble down. I looked forward to the world behind the melting ice. My heart was no longer numb from the coldness when the first ray of sunlight shone upon me. I had forgotten that my heart was raw and defenseless. The person that broke through my barrier brought me warmness, tenderness, but also sadness and heartbreak.

            So here I am now, with my tears flowing down while I am trying my might to pick up the shattered pieces of my heart. The moon that is always described as the benign one is now mocking me. It hangs highly safe and sound in the dark sky, casting down the pale light that makes the surroundings clearly visible, reminding me what really had happened.

            The sounds of jaw snapping, growling, high pitched howling, blood dripping and the rush of adrenaline throughout my trembling body were nothing. As long as that person is here, but why does he have to choose this moment to leave me on my own? If after all, in the end, I still have to be alone, then why bother to come and find me? Stirring up my emotions, broke down my cold barrier and letting me exposed to the emotional world. Why did I even let my guard down?

   Wiping the endless flow of salty liquid that traced down my dried blood-stained cheeks, I stand up. I walk back with my weak knees that are  knocking into each other in a tremble, to whatever that is still left in my so called home.

  I met a big bad wolf, big bad wolf. They all say it’was going to eat me up, but I told them it would not. I was right because the big bad wolf left me with my limbs still intact with my body. However, what happened in the end was out of my expectation. I am perfectly fine except the big ugly hole in my chest;  my heart is missing.

   I died today, but still living for tomorrow and the future.

-A/N-

Hey dear readers! I miss you all! T,T I'm sorry for those who have been waiting for my update on the next chapter because I did update but it's only the prologue, if I were you I might hit myself..haha it's just that I wanted to tell you guys that I'm not dead yet, and will continue this story although it has been 2 weeks(UGH) since I updated... ><

Thx to minrin98iw who prayed for the wifi in my college, because my college did have wifi for the students but sadly it BLOCKS asianfanfic! T,T UGH so now I'm actually using the wifi of a public library, it's a good thing that it's not that far from my college so I can walk to there, so...WAIT FOR ME! :D

Sorry, no gif today~ <3